B Happy n Pursue ur Dream

2010-08-03T03:01:00.002+08:00

ppl r jealous of my current life for this july..

even my spec in camp also asked my parade buddy 'sir, how come i see you more than my officer?'

went back dental. so qiao met my another spec. i came early, he went in so i sat outside chatting with my parade buddy. after 10mins or so then realised sitting on my another side was my ocs air wing fren (he alrdy knew i beside him thou)... i took another 2 mins or so to recall his name.

instead of waiting, i went medical ctr for blood test. funny incident.
the medic took my master arm, tightened and give me a palm squeezer.
'oh, ur middle vein is nt visible but the side one is like v thick'
so, i changed to left arm, tightened and start squeezing while he prep the syringe...
perhaps i'm rushing for time that i squeezed so much that he actually exclaimed
'omg, i have nv seen such huge vein...horrible' (it sounds gay somehw)

back to dental. omg, dentist is sweet de lor.
last time after the cleansing, there will always be blood as i rinsed my mouth.
this time, sweet de lor.
best thing is to find out my wisdom tooths are fully grown, no need extract. =)

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on the day of preview i was down with heavy flu.
my parade buddy niteb4 chiong l4d till 3am...
so nvm, i asked my poc buy me medicine. ate 4 panadol flumax before marching.

oh ya, i hate the security checks. imagine having to go toilet outside, i return back need to be checked by 2 diff agency thou they are juz 2m apart...

after padang we marched to ntuc income where we finally have our water
before marching on to mbs.

nice place thr. reached ard 7.45, need to wait for pledge taking at 8.10.
i asked y muz wait till tat timing, they told me the lame reason. 2010yr, so 2010H...

kao, so we stood thr w/o water (bottles are juz somewhr ard)
until almost time when commando officer fall out...
sibei siasuay lor. reserves had returned back suntec after we left padang.
end up 1 lobang thr. subsequently, another officer down...
by then they realise its time for us to drink water, kinda late alrdy.

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when the moment came.. YES its the firework!
(my regular frenz r complaining abt their tax are burning in the sky)
haha, the non-stop spamming made me 'wow.. woW... wOW... WOWWWWWWWWW!!!'
until ppl ard me described me as in orgasm.
it's the nearest firework i have ever watched. luv the moon & stars combo.
well, even if foot aches are worthwhile.

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P.S: i'm reading How Starbuck Saved my Life. inspiring esp @ the part he starts to accept.

2010-07-06T21:20:00.003+08:00

today:
an off day.
yet thanks to mud that i have to wear my no.4...
nvm, at least had a chinese meal w/ my bro as well as a nice dessert.

yest:
found out my new boss is a nice guy. heavy smoker tho.
was informed this wk will be my last time of seeing him...
he gg off for a relatively risky mission =(
hence, i have to start clearing my leave n offs b4 i ord.

after the counting, realised my days are NUMBERED lor! wahaha~
this july i will oni nid to return camp for dental & conducting ippt!!!

aug once ndp ovr, yog is giving us headache..
but shld be my last standby anw!!!

oh ya... we finally received our wings. omg, after ard 1 yr???
whn i helped my men to pin up his wing,
he was so happy, 'sir, damn shiny leh the gold...'

ltr senior specs asked me to run 2.4 with him...
damn sad whn i realised my injury had yet to heal after so long.
i can see the 200 is far ahead of me now!

P.S: God, can u let me run again?

2010-06-30T00:52:00.002+08:00

'Life is not about what you've gained, but what you've done.' - Wong Ka Kui

生命不在乎得到什麼，在乎做過什麼 - 黄家驹

2010-06-20T21:18:00.006+08:00

haha! for this mth, i'm so HAPPY!
pretty much wordless.
completed my command COC parade.
then 1st day at padang.
they said i'm easily contended.
pizza hut. mr bean. flashlights. rainbow. fireworks!

btw, had my 22nd bday bbq too.

P.S: months of training had really nv gone into waste. hope Grandpa think so too and be able to watch me on that day itself from somewhr i wunden see.

2010-05-16T22:15:00.004+08:00

many good things happened.

If there is only one word left to describe myself,
i believe most ppl will use the word called:

LUCKY.

my enjoyment mainly comes from my company of buddies.
dota. mj. ktv. shopping. movie. pool.
even those attached frenz seem to envy the kind of freedom i have.
although sometimes i'm jealous of the boredom that they dun possessed.

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of cos unpleasant stuffs did happened.
e.g.

1) i sent a complaint letter wrt bad attitude experience by another junior officer.
feedback was, it did create certain amt of 'damage' and well, he apologised.

2) 1st combined parade was a total screwup. during the AAR, encik was asking how did we felt. some slackers actually shouted 'outstanding!' almost wanna punch that dude.

3) i finally received my both 2nd rejection letter. time to draft out another back up plan.

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P.S: Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. - Helen Keller

2010-03-28T14:05:00.005+08:00

4 more days to cdf coc.
pls dun wear short skirt to watch a parade...

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Past wks,
been in freq arguments.. diff ppl diff style of doing things.
some said i'm a straightforward guy, too much will cause damage done.
some implied my tone is not 'right' even when i use 'sry' to begin my statement.
i dun really feel a need to justify myself as long as i follow
my own principles, values and codes of conduct.

some pointed out that i should fight back instead at times.
esp during sqn anniver dine over a issue of beergirl.
apparently i was enjoying myself on the ktv and pool more than
the rest whom laid their eyes on the young cute beergals.
towards the end of the nite, i jioed a senior spec 'uncle' for a pool game.
then this xiaomeimei came over and asked me to teach her...
the pool table was right in the middle of the place, of cos every1 stared at me!

here come the twist, one half-drunk senior regular appeared and gave me a signal 'F off."
so i stepped down, and my buddy complaint 'eh, y u so boji?'
'ppl more senior. ppl is programmer (i dun wan my name to be 'perm' on the manning list)
ppl is regular while i'm an nsf? anw, u should know i prefer to be on low profile.'

ya, some did feel unfair for me.. but it dun really matters to me,
i'll be single till i ord, i'd kept the 2yrs-promise.

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guess ppl whom had not seen me for the past 1 yr most probably cant recognise me le.
even whn i bumped into my bmt mate, he exclaimed 'wah now officer gt the seh liao ar,
last time so gu-niang one.'
and whn i bumped into my sec sch mate, he 0so cant figure out who i was last time..
'i think last time you are the short short one izzit? now so tall liao'

one morning i took cab and the uncle jio me 'if u wanna smoke, feel free to help urself.' Seems like i gt the smoker face.

another day, i juz get to know some new ppl. they cant believe that i'm still
single...saying i got a playboy face.

some other nite, ppl actually tot i'm a gd drinker...

yah, every1 do change as time goes. most prob 1sep will return back to mt vernon.

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P.S: Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must also do.
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

2010-02-28T23:23:00.006+08:00

when i'm little, used to be addicted to wuxia (sword-fighting) novels.
everytime recess, my friends normally will find me in sch lib.
yes, i was once a nerd.
anw, thru these novels, the so-called brotherhood is instilled in me since then.

alot of my frenz said i'm a person who is 重情重义.
however, my NS life taught me what is so-called Reality.
it was so much office-like, that shown me the ugly sides of human nature
specifically, Backstabbing. seen enough of it.

when i'm little, used to hope i have the chance to do
flag rising/lowering. thought it muz be fun.
had my 1st time trying in ocs. shiok.
my name was submitted for another parade. mayb more 'Colors'ful affairs to come.

quite envy of my other NS frenz cos they gt to go for many ex, local/overseas.
well, i will be sweating on parade sq then till i ord!

P.S: 6yrs of male env w/ cemeteries nearby dun means that i like soccer/seen a ghost.
but 1 thing i know, survival of the fittest.

2010-01-26T14:51:00.005+08:00

many things wanna to share...

1) always thought it's much more easier to be a bad guy.
my grp of specs once ranked me as the most F up offr.
now apparently...2nd? haiz, guess i failed to be one.
btw, my bmt commanders are my role models. i feel that
a real commander do not always need to put on their rank
to be respected at all times.

2) one of the SK roles i was been 'willingly arrowed'
is, personally felt, easy job. until another F offr whom
juz gt promoted to 2bars give me 'colors'. usually i juz
have to submit my portion for his mthly report, now the
mth haben end and he was like a loanshark chasing me.
at first he told me yest (when i juz woke up early in my office)
he want it by this wk
then today (when i juz woke up again on my DO rest day)
i saw his sms saying by thu 3pm.
bo bian, now rank lower than him...

3) anw, last sun i was the DO. staying in camp peacefully,
helping my friend prep for the airshow standby presentation.
tot it will be a gd day...until those security alarms sounded off.
damn suay, as i was informed the alarm had been faulty since last wk.
however this wk, from mon to sat, had been a gd boy till SUN...

after settling everthing, slpt at 10pm+
suddenly 11+ received call from guardrm saying fire alarm sounded!
i was like...................................let me off can?
luckily i was a solid sleeper,
able to Zzz off aft setting my alarm to 6am
then again, at 5am, driver called me to sign authorising form...
so my slp aint that smooth after all, decided to slp for another 2hr
at 7am, sun shining my butt, i sat up on my slping bag when
the LOANSHARK chased me for the report...what a gd morning greeting

even worst was, supposed to handover my duty to another 2bars @ 8am
so as wad rest said, i kena jia(eaten) again. as he told me he's buzy.
end up i stayed in camp until 11am, juz my luck...

P.S: The art of being wise is the art of knowing what to overlook. - William James

2009-12-26T23:58:00.003+08:00

coming close to a brand new yr.
need to look back and do some reflections.
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anw, these are wad happened lately.
there was a vip visit
so out of 'passion' i cancel my 2days lves help my friend

1day b4 the visit
need to prep the stn, ensure cleanliness, kiwi tyres etc
as much as i predicted, they planned me FLY as well.
(tat's y b4hand i planned my lve so swee swee liao)
damn shit, they dun wan me to bust my 'flying expiry'

luckily, God was so touched. tat'y 15th whole sg seemed to be
flooded by his tears. well, give me more time to focus my job.

next day, the 3stars frm US came. woah, first time gave speech..
(my damn friend tried to siam so gave me the honor.)

"tat's is all i have. any qns, sir?"
"oh..so what is ur plans after when u left the service?"
"(diao...) study."
"oh yes, that will always be a correct ans!"
a close slave.

sigh...
seems like all the foreigners would like me to further my studies.

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been clearing my lves all these while
managed to read finish 1st set of wind cloud series.
decided not to continue on as it went endless...
btw, this mth was birthday for both hide and ritsuko okazaki

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dun really like this yr.
cried twice.
1st during simulator sortie
last was when grandpa departed.

i will grow stronger in future.

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P.S: my Xmas gift was a h1n1 jab plus doing DO in camp during eve..

2009-12-12T21:27:00.006+08:00

haven been feeling happy recently.

a tiring wk.

-grandpa 49th
i've lost somewho in this world who always give his support to me

-big boss-changing parade
'who would have thought that the no4 man,
will 1day be holding onto the color?'

-people whom we used to call 'friend'
well, whn half of the manpower had been at US for exercise,
higher up told us to 'suck-thumb' overwk for the country
but i dun understand y whn they r back, we are still kept planned for this and that.
even when i alrdy going to be on leave the next day, ppl planned me...

wad more frustrating is, the friend whom i knew came back from the 'xiong' US ex,
complaint abt a substandard work i put onto the display board.
yea, the idea is mine. but i instructed my man to come up with it.

if so, he say, i am an officer. hence, if i think my man din carry out the job properly,
it's my responsibility to F them.

too bad, i'm quite F-up myself to bring myself to really F my man.
well, seem like he enjoy irritate me, even though knowing i'm busy for the parade...
or izzit he had been been...rather free?

my man came to ask me this funny qn
'sir, i thought you and KXXXXX they all together a gang one. how come this morning
he came to scold u as if he's higher rank then u?'

lolz, silence is golden yeah...

then again, another of my coursemate SXXXX came back from his sweet oversea holiday
the period he took, was actually the most xiong period
now though he's back and we should be happy abt it..
but apparently, my buddy niam to us abt his slack work-attitude

haiz, a sense of the course bonding is going to break sooner or later.

-self-confession
btw, i'm aint saint too. i dun complete my work well enough
at least the standard and quality ppl wana
my encik was praising to the rest while i was on the parade marching
'tat young fellow gt drive.'
thou i did screw up at most of the times tat make the rest of the enciks worry...
hence, kena embarrassing replacement.

change of topic and come to my leadership
it's poor, i admit.
my buddy told me, 'i've the heart for them but i din make an effort
explain my rationale behind my instructions. thus,
it didnt turn out nice for those at the end receiving the instructions.
bottomline was, there is a need to change my tone.

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maybe there is a desire that leads to anticipation
but this may lead to disappointment during the course of participation.

the world is full of addictions and temptations.
i hold on to my heart and remind myself to stay content at all times.
but and however, to the worldly ppl, it seems like i have no ambition
or even been accused for using it as an excuse to stay among with the so-called losers

a simple encounter with those annoying insurance agents
esp as u walk by the mrt or bus interchange,
they will INTERCEPT u despite ur hand signal of rejection...
in addition, they will often send an opposite sex to target u
hence poor thing u will have to sympathize them by helping them with
their so-called survey and then proceed to their table and chairs
where their PREMIUM plan will be intro to u
all u need (or have) to do is to sign up for them

well, it did happened to me AGAIN. nah, i wun sign up so stupidly
this MY not-so-young lady approached me.
so i reply her qns in a not-so-gentlemanly manner
causing her to change her mask by saying very mean stuffs like
'u wana be some uncles pushing the cart in those kopitiam?'
a matter fact; i dislike those who aint tat rich yet trying to
act weathly by looking down on the poor!

P.S: only wanna lay down and forget everything, yet ppl kept
disturbing my short-lived dream.

2009-11-28T10:43:00.002+08:00

away for so long
too many things occur

firstly, Grandpa had left me
mother said his departure was peaceful
but still, they are difficult to hold back
if i can travel back to time, the person i wanna meet most is
grandma, letting her know how much i luv him

back to 'complain' abt ns life
in short, my passion has turned cold
esp after incidents that happened...

touched a bk recently
found this phase that caught my attention

Aude Aliquid Dignum

P.S: pls Rekindle my Desire with a Overwhelming Passion

2009-09-21T22:01:00.003+08:00

it's been a fulfilling long wkends i supposed

(still been lazy to upload any pics thou)

fri: a nice chat-dine with ex-colleague
then allnite-dota with coach (jumphop many lan shops juz to find e latest map)

sat: morning visit grandpa. glad to see him better as his appetite returns.
even managed to meet the doc for the 2nd time, mainly abt his condition.
2yrs.
evening watched thirst with ben

sun: kbox. pool. finally aft duno how many mths liao...kinda lost touch

today: fully reserved as body batt charging. since this wk should be quite demanding.
on stdby for the f1...sad to hear

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regarding work:

tue. once we return to camp, our cpt gave us 2 days course under the blazing sun.
since aft comms parade we r alrdy 'medium-rare'
in addition of these 2days, we ended up 'well-done' loh

anw, a team of 3 is to set up and tear down the stn.
every mistake made cost us down 5.
so end of the day we went back n count...seems like we did ard 80-90plus liao

fri was finally appointed as ops o. luckily no flying as it was cohesion day.
so we went to south ridges ltr in the afternn
kena soak in rain...(somemore it's the same spot i used to 'smell' the raindrop)

anw, fri learnt something, from a mistake i made that my peers deem me as using rank
(sometimes whn u did something improperly, even ur kind intention will end up being misunderstood)

well, guess i'm too soft-hearted. should be more selfish and save my own ass in future

btw, met a nsman lta, havin to take his signature for attendance.
he looked at me and asked 'did u undergo operation recently?'
i shaked my head and he continued 'u may hav surgery soon, if nt then might be hacked by some1. be careful.'

i blur blur stoned thr...come to think of it, if his fortune-teller is zun, i should have asked him 'something' at least...

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times flew fast
some still-like-yesterday stuffs dawned onto me
ok, i'm no longer that young liao
e.g wind-cloud is finally back aft 10 fucking yrs!! whoo

there goes the same for some songs.
changes r not unexpected too

P.S: 'we have to leave the past and strive for higher planes'

2009-09-13T09:22:00.002+08:00

12 sep 09
finally commissioned aft 9 tough mths

thanks God for giving us the fine weather
everything's beautiful
except tat the parade aint perfect
i will miss the SSM and 'luv him deep deep'
his 'bend ur knee' 'dig ur heel' 'lock ur elbow'
esp 'THERE U ARE!' haha

the moment when we threw our peaked cap was really
~ORGASM~

P.S: i have done my Grandpa proud.

2009-08-12T23:30:00.001+08:00

1mth left
for the day offically
'from a boy
to a Man'

2009-08-02T21:04:00.002+08:00

done alot of stuffs which i've missed for long while

gd news: end of cohorting. no more shift wk
the gang is back tgt. with more quarreling

collect our parade uniform. both no.1 & 2.
troublesome to wear thou. tmr uniform inspection

we left one more course to attend b4 commission
5 of us to attend e 2wks course
yet 3 of them fever, 7 days mc.
LLST, went for the first half day n were told of
OUT OF COURSE!
lolz

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yest intended to celebrate a fren 21st.
went to buy present then somehow was told he's buzy
(well, we know e reason...)

so another grp of singles KE LIAN me
and we have our nite in St james again
hadda finish off some bottles leftover aft my 21st

well, enjoyable nite. at least i still can walk hm

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2 days ago was 31st July
it's Honda Minako's birth anniversary

she taught me how to face Adversity
thru her fav song, Amazing Grace

delicate to my fav Soprano

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P.S:
In prosperity our friends know us, in Adversity we know our friends
- John Churton Collins

2009-07-07T22:16:00.007+08:00

never have a suay day like today
for a long period of time.

4am: tend to be bad mood due to lack of slp
mp3: kena speaker pwr surge. cui forever
rain: abrupted our wk. helmet beret had their bath in drain. attend debrief drenched.
lunch: dapao liao but dun even hav time eat. mac at lot1 instead.
key: left somewhr i duno in camp.

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been working in shifts since h1n1 plan commenced.
this wk am. ya, 4am shouldnt be amazing.
last wk left camp at 23++ to claim cab back hm.
gd or bad? depends on ur luck
body clock is in bad shape

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review on ns life. getting bored.
sumo this yr dun seem to be gd. so many deaths.
esp the young officer case. such a pity

in addition, witness how my regular frenz
tioed all the axes and knives
ya, lowest rank takes all blames and LLST

lesson: the more u try to defend urself, the more u bleed. accept it, tat's reality.

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too many pending stuffs to do
e.g lib bk heavily overdue
specs broke long ago nv go buy new one
mp3 gt to get a new one too
laptop oso yet to get it repaired...
VEXED

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recent changes:

uniform. much cooler as well as uglier

more dishearted. my best fren juz celebrated his 21.
those whom i dun regard as frenz...
repeating the same old story again.
put pigeons last min, or lagi best, dun come 0so nv inform.
sms back 0so bo reply. if in the case, wun it be easier to
juz say no when being invited?

anw, i see no sincerity in sharing gift
i go spent the effort buy the present and give to bdayboi alone is part 1 oni
part 2 is, i believe if they knew wad i gg to buy,
they 100% gg to regret in approach the idea of sharing. (i scare they heartbroke)
tat's y i say NO straight in their face.

oh ya, i cut my hair. finally saw the ladyboss ard.
she's still worried abt her son...chatting with auntie customer abt tuition teacher
anw, got back the same old hairstyle (say maybe 1yr?)

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2009-06-25T22:53:00.003+08:00

should i be happy/sad?

happy as in tmr seems to be the 1st time of my ns life
to 'start work' at 1pm!

sad part is...we finally started the h1n1 plan...
i foresee 1mth of confinement ahead...sianZzz

anw. attached to sqn for ojt.
abit boring cos it's 'honeymoon period'
oni aft getting the choco bar then they will throw u hell of SK

(btw...i din know diesel can be BLUE!
as well as staying inside the non-existence cold rm tat
train me to endure chillness until i on my air-con and
feel no kick!)

so wad hav i been doing? mainly tetris, chess as well as mini-gym
haha, kinda addicted to tetris but i juz cant pass stage 8...damn!

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recently bump onto alot of ppl i once knew.
almost 90% i din catch them...
either my eyesight becoming poorer
or i muz be overly focused whn i walk...

e.g we bkout and trying to catch the mrt. i tapped ezlink
and took up the escalator. turned behind and found them disappeared

next day they told me our warrant was angry w/ me cos he was in civilian
shirt and saw us. the rest of them greet him while i...hahah!

so guys..nt tat i purposely dao u or u're too tiny to be seen
juz try to get my attention (shout at me is useless, normally i walk w/ music)

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been reading emotional intelligent until i notice how hard
it's for me to control my anger nowaday...

on one of the days...saw my boss entertaining a vip...as in
(chill crab + black pepper crab) sucking ball for
(chill crab + black pepper crab + butter crab)

my fren showed me a hand sign and whisper 'por lan'
yup, life is a show...anw the audience happy with those endless durian
boss bought can liao. sumo gt rambutan and mangosteen

(my instructor A taught me how to open durian using screwdriver
while another instructor taught me how to guess the no. fruit inside mangosteen)

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P.S: tetris was created the same day i was created? omg

2009-06-07T22:30:00.003+08:00

COMPLETELY WASTED

st james
johnnie walker
on the rock
.
.
.
then on the table (gone liao)
.
.
on the road outside...(stranger even took pic of me damn malu)
.
.
.
woke up to find myself slping on the hard floor in my living room

thanks ben and the kind taxi driver for sending me back hm (rejected twice for cab)
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from now onward
my time will be reserved
for ppl who deserved

hence..i'm tired of calling ppl out
when they dun really feel like coming

esp with those insincere msgs like 'who is going?'
somemore u need to ask them wks beforehand
if not they will blame u for too last min
so what? they will utlimately reply u on the day itself
saying they cant make it...
likewise, they may come out with something like...
i gt another session with my another frenz...how?

or worst..alrdy agree liao then last min back out. wtf

i'm so sick of it...let me drunk

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i missed the nite where we celebrate 2nd anniv
our warrant officer will come to our table with a jar everytime
then we will YAM SENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ended going back hm with tipsy foot

appropriate highness

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P.S: i've reach Adulthood~whoo freedom!

2009-06-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

ippt day (was informed suddenly yest)

luckily since we had stayed out aft completing most of our courses,
i've been jogging at jurong lake once awhile during evening
(thr r hidden 'movtivation' behind it thou)

except of CU which really require a sustainable amt of time
to recover back to my prev max...the rest of stns r 5

oh ya, this rainy morning on the bus the bro was suggesting
opening a bottle for gold if nt 3 jars for silver

end up as i jogged 2.4, mind was full of heineken...
choya...
chivas...
martell...
johnnie walker...
and 'motivation" too

P.S: the ultimatum makes audience think tat gemini r all determined..
aiya they r juz stubborn oni...

2009-06-01T22:44:00.003+08:00

it's JUNe...hot summer
my previous entry was...somewhr in march
yeah, been MIA for quite awhile

alot of things happened in juz these few mths
inevitably, the changes tat fate had brought upon me

training period tasted Bitter
from simulator to actual is such a transverse
there are 2 instructors in charge of training us
say wo A and wo L

wo A say i'm not up to the job
"dey!!! some can. some cannot."
(based on his many yrs of instructing)

on the other hand, wo L say i'm ok...

this goes the same to the captains
T say i very jialat...L say i'm zai

at tat point of time, i felt my mind spin much
faster than the earth rotates liao...
esp gt one lesson where inside the simulator
wo A was on my left ask me whole hell of qns while shaking head
wo L was on my right nodding to my ans and kept prompting "next"
the scenario was like angel playing tug of war with devil
and i'm exactly the rope

most of my sim lesson was took by wo L
so when it comes to actual flying...wo A decides to "take care"
of me personally...

basically i was down thr praying..."PLEASE RAIN, GOD"

so my coursemates will sometimes comfort me...after seeing
being F until my soul is gone...

one point of time when i got myself very prepared...but still
end up my effort left unappreciated...i broke down finally

was damn touched one day when i flew the whole day until dinner was skipped
after we return to bunk...they actually ordered canadian pizza!

after we finally all passed, wo A gave us a course debrief
then he told me..."dey~ u know i wanna fail u tat time. but throughout
the period u shown me ur fighting spirit. u know wad is it?"

i was like, stunned. "i know, our saf core value" (the rest fall off their seat)

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been in and out of hospital when my Grandpa was critically illed
Doc says he was left the max, 2yrs
and i started hating NS for eating up my limited time

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P.S: sometimes i stared at ppl i knew some time ago until they finally can recognise me. tat's how much the change in me now.

2009-03-24T01:07:00.002+08:00

Surprised? back hm shagged.
juz came back frm NUH A&E.

Mon was their servicing day.
so our practical is pushed to tmr.

end up i study...ya, writing notes..
my gang some doing SK...reading storybk..zz..

finish the day promptly with GYM...
great workout...they diehard training core muscles.
i was trying to 'recall' my leg muscles memory...

aft gym supposedly returning back to inn slp.
0so duno hw the hell we walked past a basketcourt.
and hw the heaven we saw 2ppl playing dn thr
thus we were gladly invited and friendly match begin.

EVERYTHING WAS SO ENJOYABLE...till my buddy suddenly
stepped on another guy foot..wth SWALLOW...

panic panic...run all the way searching for medical ctr
only to find ourselves lost...luckily some1 called...

OMG...mo seems relundant..anw still end up send hospital.

wad our greatest fear is..will he be ooc?
i cant afford to lose this buddy.
F***
shouden hav played Bball, dota is safer afterall.

P.S: dun bless me only. help my frenz too..

2009-03-22T21:07:00.003+08:00

Found this meaningful quote:
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."

last thu went sentosa.
bad day. esp w/ CPTs.
damn sacastic..
luv those caring WOs.

he rmb last few days of BMT,
on the ferry he made a promise to
his sect comd:

to be a well-like comd next time.

ya. he will keep his promise.

P.S: y care so much on ppl backgrd? dun they know even PEARL grown up among the dirts too?

2009-03-10T20:10:00.011+08:00

Quote of mth:
To succeed.. you need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you - Tony Dorsett
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recent news update:

1) instructor MIA during lesson, so out of boredom they went creating FB for me...
do add me. i'm still trying to learn and added alot of strangers thou...

2) DKr's Stomach has been v satisfied lately. last wk almost every morning tea break it will be treated w/ cantee's wanton mee. bkout 0so eat Baked Rice and bak chor mee w/ bundang somemore. it's easy to be contended. but do check ur receipt whn making payment...the waitress may get it mixed up w/ another table, lol.

3) his physical fitness is more n more buay gan liao. been lazy. more than half mth no jog and now cu is oni a pathetic 5... it's been ages since bmt ever to step into a gym again!

4) his dwelling place is currently any sticky lan shop. last wed niteout jio our senior/instructor out for gaming. he brought us to srjc nearby lan shop, havin fun with L4D. bought punggol's nasi lemak b4 bking in.

5) he took the bus 154 at the SAME BUSTOP AGAIN after 5 FREAKING YEARS. same route. diff feeling. thou it was a damn long jam, able to re-look at familiar stuffs is such an undescribable scenery. 后港大路, used to change their wedding gown wkly..KAP...Lamborghini Showrm as well as the teardown of Tang Dynasty...emo.

6) yest left afs. i will miss my funny+lame warrant officer. before exam i asked him "how long is the paper?" he look at the paper and said "A4 size." LMAO.
bid farewell to the rest who still staying thr... it's always mixed feeling, wun forget the times of being tgt.

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New Plans:

1) Buy a Bose speaker.
2) Buy a Pro Cam.
3) Buy a ticket to Vienna.

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Thoughts:

1) Take a pen and paper.
2) Draw a long line on the paper.

Probably most ppl will draw a straight line in the middle cutting the paper into half. Wad if the word "long" is changed to "longest"?

Do u think the same line will still be drawn or maybe...
someone will draw from top left corner to bottom right DIAGONALLY?

Our minds has been preset to the fact "length is longer than breath".
However, do we remember a blindspot called "diagonal" is actually longest?

P.S: Dun always say "i've done my best" too early as it may has yet to come."

2009-02-23T05:31:00.002+08:00

quick updates b4 going payalebar

V day 1st time been to clubbing at st james
kena approached by a lady, gt a feeling she's thai
so run away fast!
with another guy senior than me and diff voc,
we searched for toilet and ended up in some ahgogo place
damn fun, w/ live band!
witness how my fren fishing..caught a cheena fish.woah

juz finished my service term. SOCIAL NITE
late again...esp my date is waiting
my bad, even worse whn i tried intro her to 10+ frenz liao
yet end up still forgt her name...

one of the flightmates intro his gf...
i tot the christian name is rare...
and i SHOULD HAVE FORGOTTEN the name..
somehow she shared the same name...
and under the arrangement of fate...
his gf juz sat beside me...emo.

last sat watched let the right one in w/ ben
nice child vampire romance show
as in how each saved one another life...
then 3rd time dota in my life a damn 6hrs
b4 stepping into guanyin temple
the guard kept staring at me...
i tot reason was quite rare for youngster so early come
then i came out realizing i was wearing a cross!
will i be punished by God?

yest been to alexander v. eat stingray
life's gd.

P.S: give me another defining moment!

2009-02-08T05:10:00.002+08:00

Been lazy to type l0ng b0ring entries...

so breakdown to point form:

1. Grandpa
during cny's eve aft steambt
2 of us sat infront of TV watching mika's concert
outta random, he turned and asked "u gt gf?"
lol... esp whnever no1 ard, he scared i army no money
gd grandson hatta decline his offer
cos he didnt know his grandson now alrdy taking
one of the few highest pay inside...

2. Social nite
his qn 0so leads to a not-big/small concern...
cos every1 has to bring their date for tat nite
luckily...a matchmaker pops out...
i 0so "green veggie liao"

3. Sign On
guess the tables overturned eventually
once again, nothing to lose.
but still muz wait, sounds like fishing

4. Cars
haha, most of those who alrdy signed,
this is certainly one inside their mind
gradually under their peer influence...
starting to know more abt cars...
last time oni like lambo,
now eyeing on merc. but whr the license?

5. Housing
heard frm senior, the feeling of
writing address w/o block no. seemed...
shiok?

6. University
application is open. yet i still cant
find my diploma. abit remorseful for cmi gpa
well, dun cry over spilled milk!
life is like navigation, there's no wrong turn
juz tat it mayb a longer/tougher route (OBS)
try my luck bah

7. Navigation
went to sg reserve somewhr out thr topo-ing
we HOLLANDed yet gd thing was,
no1 blame one another. walking halfway,
suddenly i found my ans to the famous qn of
friends or lover, who is more impt?
hmm, my reply will be both.
cos friends are like maps while
lover is my compass.
thus i will be LOST w/o any1 of them!

8. Movies
managed to catch bride wars and defiance
i muz say coming up are many movies abt
Hilter/Nazi..e.g Valkyrie and The Boy In The Striped Pyjamas
of cos, vampire movies 0so are really 'vampire cant die'...
anw, anne hathaway had been 'productive', like her since
the devil wears prada, not forgeting to mention
the highly anticipated: He's Just Not That into You

9. IRON man
yup, i started learning ironing my no.3
damn...i'm going to miss no.4
do u get pissed off whn u hatta wait in a queue
while the guy tells u he's juz nt yet done simply,
IRONING IS A ART.
F***

10. TEST
this coming wk will be the last test,
project presentation and another-final IPPT
come to think of it, this period mayb
my FITNESS PEAK form in lifetime...
anw previously the part1 of test which
oni studied for a day managed to score 72
top3 are 86, 84 and 82. 70+ are decent!

11. TEACHER
felt glad to know my tutor student whom
i taught her frm pri 3 to 5 is now in RV.
wola, stupid teacher (233) can actually
produce smart students (both 250+)

debate qn:
a person who study well, can he teach well too?
a person who cant study well, does it means
he dun hav the rights to teach?
if so, mayb i'm dumb, for unable to SEE
the need in future, for all teachers to have degree?

12. Four Chinese Characters
have u ever noticed most of the famous ppl,
throughout their life carried 4 words?　e.g
岳飞　（精忠报国）
郑板桥（难得糊涂）
包青天（大公无私）
阮玲玉（人言可畏）
so..how bout mine?

P.S: perhaps 顺其自然

2009-02-01T19:22:00.003+08:00

I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it.
- Audrey Hepburn

came across this adorable quote wks ago on a back of a bk.
if u ask me who is the most beautiful woman(beside my mom)
my ans is her.

this quote really drew out my current situation
at this very moment
at this very period
at this very present

P.S: bliss

2009-01-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

春季（一年之计在于春，一日之计在于晨。）
凉风（可悲的是它再强也吹不乱我的头发。。。）

花了好久还是参不透捭阖之道
不到那一日，我依然还是默者。
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tmr hadda bkin early at 7am
cos sign extra...y? kena lockout 2wks ago
nv, time to settle down and finish off pending stuffs

today actually wanna go update 11b address
who know when i reached tiong bahru, open my wallet
infront of atm then realise it's still slping at home!

wth, have a then happy mac breakfast b4 gg back hm..

finally settle last stuff w/ m1
next, enquired info for my 3yrs ago com loan
it's time to plan a money saver again...

lunch w/ ben at botak jones opp. whr cmpb had closed liao
aft tat we took the ULTIMATE CHUASAI BUS TOUR in 195
sickening, in a single day, wulong boy made 2 stupid big rounds
to found himself back to the same spot again!

rewards of the day:
mika's 07 concert DVD
(yes, i bought it immediately as it's last piece in citylink HMV)
new reversible belt
(eyeing on it in RI for mths liao)

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P.S:
there are things i must do
there are things i should do
there are things i ought to do

2009-01-11T19:56:00.003+08:00

Steambt

i missed it all these while.
Prawns?
Pawned!

Full Moon, reported to be again the another-biggest

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hav u ever imagine urself watching movie all alone?
then did u even further hope tat there will be another
loner watching beside u i.e opposite sex?
i nv tot these novel/friction/drama will come to life yest nite

watching chi bi 2
with a gal all by herself
i was with....say 3 another guys all way older than me
she wore pink T-shirt, a CAP, skinny jean with cute schoolgal bag
v cool, i mean who will watch mid nite movie all alone?

yet i didnt ask for her no.
haha, let "loyalty to country" be the same old excuse again

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1st time learn how to fold 金银纸
1st time learn how to wash a car, lancer.

P.S: everything hav it's 1st time. 1st time...such a nice phrase...

2009-01-09T22:03:00.004+08:00

end of 3wk-confinement~

"LUCKY BUSDIRT"
as everyone said

cos Mr Lucky.B cross over to Air!
either "remote plane"/ the "still-muz-chiong" units

guess wad..he's really Mr Lucky.B
rather secretive nature, so wunden reveal much
so secretive tat it was rumored ppl like me
cant touch alot of stuffs
= cant do alot of stuffs
= dun need to do alot of stuffs
= ...dun need to further elaborate

% probability counted for me to land there
= 0.25%

hence, this period had been hell and heaven.
most imptly,
more time to eat + bkout on fri - chiong sua
= wad can 1 ask for to be even luckier?

erm..abit of pro and con...
well, heaven is fair.

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been to the lib inside and found a bk by Daniel Goleman

been to superbowl and wad is the probability of playing in
a lane beside a japanese family w/ 2 very sisterly gals

OMG...dad scored 160+ mom scored 90+
the sisters both scored 100+ and 90+

Luckily my scored was 110+, seemed to be one of my highest
(the younger sis is called Kero..)

been to the v famous "Staircase To Heaven" for our 5km
which we r to pass by it 3 times...CUI-ed totally

been to visit mr dentist finally
even hav a X-ray
woW, on a tooth oni...
the auntie v funny lo, ask me hold onto
a small anti-penetrating card thingy behind
the 'hanging' tooth, then she gotta go out of the rm
to press the sort of 'scan' button, left with
"dun be scared boy, juz a while."

lol, end up mr dentist said the decay went deep
but haben to the nerve extend, so dun need root canal
then had a re-filling

half-way thru he was commenting abt the Mr old dentist
i visited wks ago tat his filling skill was remarkable
(cos he cant differentiate which part is real or fake)

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lately manage to be quite hardworking
slowly killing off the Zzz Monster
had i done it yrs ago, i might alrdy hav a place in local U

rmb last entry my aim was to stay low?
nv study much for 1st 2 mcq+t/f tests...
my ex-roommate asked me if wanna acc him burn midnite oil tgt
i declined becos i know i will end up signing extra if next day
i slpt again in lect...

so the next day he complainted i had a "nice" slp
cos i SNORED+MUMBLING duno wad shit la...

anw, main pt is even more SHOCKING,
1st test openbk:
my current roommate highest, my ex-rmmate failed...
while i gt a decent 92.

2nd test closebk:
i finished reading juz during the revision period b4 it started
heckcaring scored 80. highest of my platoon.. lol

nvm... now gotta do a bk review on stress management liao

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quote of the wk:

Intelligence can come to nothing when
Emotions hold sway.

P.S: staring at the ceiling fan occasionally, asking myself
"Will i be back to the same point after rounds and rotations or
even revolutions?"

2009-01-01T03:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YR! 09'

woW. been quite a wk
frm jumping pool early in morning
to coughing smokey in 'winter time' clothing
(most LOL was one of them, instead of
rushing to cough out "I, XXXX XXX XXXX, S88XXXXX X",
went on to say "My name is XXXX XXX XXXX....)

anw,gave up the thoughts of signing on aft few 'improper/indirect'
consultations.

muz point out, i'm gettin mentally stress out.
time is full of pressure.
tempo is filled of heartDrum.
temper is fcuking of suppressed.

adopt the underrated approach - keep a low profile.
well, this will be my NYR.

btw, mayb branch out or stay. pray hard i can play 'remote plane'
if not will b same as others, hoping to return back to d faraway island
thus becoming the God-like...

2 days ago tue, gt free movie + pop + pepsi @ lido
well, gd life ar... manage to steal some time go to shit fully,
walk some walk, talk some talk and even went to border.

saw this special bk "how starbucks saved my life"
haha, a wk even ago i found it in je lib.
the cover was green - thus caught my attention
then again in BT plaza's popular saw it again
(ya, i was reading it while a gal beside me farted...)

but at the border i was reading John C Maxwell's bk on leadership
(yaya, this word gotta b too familiar for me in this yr)
until suddenly buddies called "hey whr r u arh? 2130 muz fall in leh...now 2125 liao!"

faint...amazing i duno how i did it, reached the rear lane of shaw house at 2128

juz nw booked late as usual and found myself depressed in HMV...
COS MIKA'S DVD CONCERT HAD ALL SOLD OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wth...

okok, slpy liao...
(it was not the training inside xiong. it's the lectures actually! cos i hatta
keep the Z monster away everytime if nt will sign extra..)

conclusion: understand Murphy's Law. u wunden wan it to happen on u and since u're
u urself, y apply other ppl law on u urself? like me, i applied DKr's Law on myself. my law myself. i choose to think positive and feel lucky, tat's y i will end up luckiler than ppl who still prefer Murphy the grumpy fellow.

ur thinking affects
ur attitude which will affect
ur emotion which in turn affect
ur behavior which inevitably affect
ur habits which shall affect
ur discipline which ultimately affects
ur leadership...

2008-12-22T00:10:00.009+08:00

sudden urge to create this entry - last entry of 2008
so sudden tat this will be messy.
anyhow write so readers dun anyhow think.
anyway, Meri Kuri in advance.

i'll b confined for 3wks, luckily Xmas'eve still can bkout 1 day.
cant go for a lunch w/ my USA aunt.
amazing i oni seen her once in lifetime.
surprizing i knew her existence oni few yrs ago...

btw, i'm been posted to OCS.
ya, Miracle happens again...
duno y miracle always happen on me...
(this is y ppl always say heaven is unfair)
well, u have to feel lucky to be lucky.
i nv expected it too, tot SISPEC liao
cos failed SOC and aint the top 5
God knows...even my buddy make it
(mths ago he suddenly told me, "kr, let's go OCS tgt!"
"cant leh, i cant even climb the stupid wall..*emo* "
aft FC, he told me, "haiz FC sux...i dun wana go OCS liao..")
some of my frenz dropped their jaws whn they knew it
some mentioned "as expected"

in conclusion, the silly boy in future will hav more cash to kill.
置之死地而后生。
路要怎么走是自己选的。
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recently no more money so have been a filial son at home...
sumo more need to babysit 2 naughty small fellow...
kept pestering me for my PSP..
"korkor, 可以借我你的game吗?"
wapiangeh...

sumo grandpa moved into our new house then few days ago hospitalised

it was then i realised..u know wad is modern definition of
Filial piety?

it's shifting the whole responsibility to the eldest son
while the rest of the children can have their earth rotate as normal.

luckily my grandpa is ok liao aft operation.

yest then i heard frm mom, old neighbour her grandpa left...
i rmb him always wander ard the block, cos 老人痴呆
then always disturb by malay kids...sometime he will fight back
most wun near him...v pitiful...

then i go out nowaday 0so sometime paiseh, cos nobody at hm beside grandpa.
TV u may ask? but duno how, the TV dad bought sibei complicated sia
open the main switch, the side switch, then remote button, then switch frm
AV back to TV again...dun even hav mood liao.

juz well ppl, always rmb, 树欲静而风不息子欲养而亲不在。

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speaking of staying at home...my new room!

haha, tat's my sentimental CD player with my fav Two-Mix CD!
u see a TV rite...every rm has a TV...tat's wad my uncle said.
"ur dad so rich ar?" it's puzzled me too. but so far i oni used it for
watching X japan concert. will be buying mika's DVD so0n.

a word to describe my rm, GREEN.

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mixed thoughts:

sign-on?
if there's a single reason, it could on b further study.
i found the reason to study again
yet i still cant find wad to study for now..
global financial crisis...will it last even aft i ORD?
hide for 6yrs or brave thru the storm with juz a diploma at hand?
i dun hav the ans now...

trust?
who to trust and who not to?
even a weird name like madoff can earn billion of trust...
thy muz b mad too.
luckily my trust is oni few hundreds.
well, it will certainly b harder for me to trust again.

love?
no time. no exposure.
can oni say
men r frm mars women r frm venus.
a fren asked me "how do u deal with 空虚"
haha, this qn is like a sudden reminder
i somehow hav fewer encounter of such
all i did was the Chinese Medication: find other stuffs do.
keeping myself buzy, or DIY etc...
well, i recommend the Western Medication: find a new gf.
haha, it may hav side effects thou. but it's fast cure.
but sometimes images of her and her' and her" would appear.
miss miss awhile then juz quickly move on lor.

(u may due to many reasons cant find a partner,
then try make new frenz. in the process know of new gal,
go back to western medi.
still fail, try new hobbies. in the procees again if possible,
go back to western medi.
still still fail, try new jobs. in the...okok western medi.
still still....fail, try agency. if nt, change urself damnit.)

年华虚度...Xmas is always and has been a lonely Xmas...
"a gal like u is impossible to find..impossible to find..."
"lonely...i'm so lonely..."
"keep bleeding kee..(ch0i, touch wood!)

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seem like this blog is offically going to be 3yrs liao

3yrs change of face... any1 say i undergo plastic surg?
yest meet my sec classmate in mrt. i went up to him, stand infront of him...
he nv recognise me! "u changed so much!" haha...

sometimes i feel..is thr really any reader?...but nvm.
this blog was created under "peer pressure"
well, it's intention is simply, in any case i lost memory,
i open my website, i see this blog, i can try to know who is DKr.
(btw, i'm nt havin stuffs like frenzter,facebk etc.
dun feel safe to hav too much info exposed online)
so whoever it is reading this, thks for ur support.

the actual blog title is "B Happy n Pursue ur Dream"
well, it's for all of u. take care.

2008-12-13T23:45:00.011+08:00

heyo folks!
.back home for a wk of "vacation"
.finish my 24km directly b4 ending BMT with POP!
(original portion hav been del due to blablabla...)
throw jockey cap!

haha, ah chew desserts is my fav.
my craving hav been unrest..
baked rice
mui fan
oyster egg
teh tarik ice-cream
carrot cake
satay
chicken rice
bbq pork rice
wanton mee
century egg porridge
frog leg porridge
bandung
yuanyang
.
.
.
much more

but pocket tight liao,
aft making foolish gamble mths ago
是我看错了人，我服输。

LLST for this wk liao
tmr i wanna go out for a run or walk
but it'll b special one...

P.S: btw, i gotta blog today cos it's 13dec

H for happyBday
I for insanity
D for drunk
E for3ver in remembrance

let's hit the electric guitar!

2008-09-14T17:24:00.003+08:00

17hrs left.

msny things to say
need ur patience with me

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wola, the agony of mine was temporary resolved
whn mr agent decide to fork out his 200
but, the worry left wad abt next mth 7th?
will it be forgotten again?

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end my last day work
will miss them
for all the nonsenses, fun, jokes and swearings

esp the riding of pallet jack^^

MY leader: kr, u so polite de
me: how come?
MY leader: cos u will say 'excuse me' to those
ppl at the lobby
me:???
MY leader: we oni shout 'siam la'

another colleague: whn u turn, alway 'eat' more angle
uncle: ya lor, next time u driving 0so d same
me: ...(duno gt chance to drive anot)

me: how come u dun hav gf?
mr 何必: sigh..i not as handsome enough as them.
0so not as bad enough as them.
talk 0so lose to them... so like dat lor..
they r assassin, i'm gd guy de..

i told MY leader, he's the 2nd most handsome guy
i seen in tat building. so he asked who the most handsome
i ansed another office guy. he look v 斯文
fair complexion, thick eyebrows.
it's kinda pity he's not an artist
haha, if i'm gay, he will surely be the 1st i approach.

but as usual, 99% ppl thr r smoker
so he came by to take stock of Ipod pdt
(btw, launch new nano on thu.)
smoking break, he talking on phone
then all the CCB, KNN & NB shoot outta his mouth

shocked awhile. but maybe it's his eyes tat
kept me staring at him.
他的眼神好熟悉
仿佛跟她的一样

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life lesson..

another colleague: whn u're in NS next time,
dun ppl ask u to do, u go and do it...
马善被人骑人善被人欺

this aint the first time i heard this
gd fren ard me 0so warn me
对人太好始终是我的弱点

another colleague, while taking lift,
ask me how i found e job
"such job is tiring and sian. u can study,
continue study. u see us, who gt cert de?"
听出少许的无奈与后悔
我也没差记忆力慢慢地远离我了

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thu nite met merv eat kway chap
den sing @ yishun safara partyworld
finally K, 4hrs with oni 2ppl singing
slpt at his hse b4 raining down to work

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fri nite met ivan eat bak kut teh
nice catching up

bid dessert farewell with ben ltr

then nite movie with coach & js
babylon AD
front part damn slow tempo
js slpt completely
coach n me give up halfway
storyline too complex...

inside e pickup heard nice songs

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sat morning went army mkt w/ js
afternn return home slp
afterall 2 days nv slp on my smelly bed
haha, will miss it for 2 wks

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today noon meet a polyfren
2yrs nv seen him liao
used to alway meetup for pool every sem break

ltr gotta celebrate mid autumn with pri frenz
burn again

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P.S:
maggie mee takes 2min to cook
a boy too takes 2yrs to mature

once a caterpilla
soon undergoing for pupa stage
praying one day, a graceful butterfly will emerge!
till then, this bl0g will be suspended.

so take care ppl, cya 2yrs ltr!

2008-09-09T22:45:00.003+08:00

urge for active bl0gging
might as well
while still gt chance to type...

today more of decently 'cleaner' working
e.g i misplace the scotchtape n couldnt find it
mr 何必: 这是你种的因果
sumo got the statement 我为人人人人为我。。。
in addition,
they gave me NS advices
sumo they alrdy predicted (looking at me)
which unit i will go liao

nasty colleague, as usual picky soury words
but heard of 'no1 will kick a dead dog?'
haha, at least i'm not dead dog
thou i work like a dog..
end of work, i juz down thr change away my sweaty shirt,
he joked "rushing in time again?"

however, juz duno y work finished liao abit emo...
mayb thinking of haven gt my pay again...
stress abt how to meet another grps of ppl...

thinking back, yest went popular open up a bk.
it gave a psychology qn
the option i chose, implies my source of stress
coming mainly from human relationship
i double confirmed it with another online qn

http://eladies.sina.com.cn/ts/2005/0428/1101156870.html

haiz...人在江湖身不由己..

so...thou going back home frm work,
色peipei commented me being so low-spirit

seem like 神爱世人 again
so astonished tat both 51 & 178 appeared instantly
w/o havin to wait like 20mins regularly?
mayb He wanna cheer me up

P.S: risk. gamble. livin' at the cliff edge again...

2008-09-08T23:53:00.008+08:00

i love MAMA!
she bought me a BRAND NEW SHOE!
("new" abit awkward)
this is my old shoes i threw away mths ago..

this is my new shoes!

(dun fall off ur chair, pls)
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warning: mature content (under 18 is prohibited)

perhaps this is my last wk with em.
everyone trying to impart me
their dirty stuffs 'unknowingly'

they got the practice of separating gds
bet sim lim & funan apart.
so i moving funan gds in sim lim pallet to funan pallet
mr 何必: 你要搬这个去那里？
me: 后面。
mr 何必: 原来你喜欢后面的。。可是很紧的woah

next, trying to paste A4 paper onto the cardboard by the side
but the big fan blowing too strong..
so mr 色beibei advised me to tear a lil scotchtape on it, b4
taping all the sides.
"看，这样是不是比较好？就好像你要弄湿它才比较容易进去。"

follow den, i trying to help MY leader tie up the big box
he: (绳子) 有直ma?
me: 有
suddenly another colleague joked: 什么东西直？
others down thr anchio...
he: ok 拿 shrinkwrap 包起来
another colleague: wa 还要包的worh
he: (loling) 比较有情调mah

ROFL

but i cant catch anything when another uncle told MY leader
eat black chicken as tonic...uncle look at me,
"听就好，以后你(当兵)出来就会明白的"

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coincidence day
meet up with old weqi pals all of sudden
new couple
thn suddenly on the way in mrt,
bump onto polymate
wahaha, got kangtou leh
risky, but worth trying.

P.S: r/s shouden b treated like consignment.

2008-09-07T23:40:00.032+08:00

such an extravagant wkends

sat down vivo 下午茶 with joey in swensen
like to call her out becos
she always steady and available de
we go out tgt, guess ppl will think we're 姐弟
(cos yk said she v tall. juz tat those
三姑六婆 told him we're last xmas's husband & wife..)

haha, wad i like abt her...
she's straightforward.
she had a blueprint in mind
& nv give up in pursuing her dream

remind of the happy days in sec sch dealing with art
i luv art, esp drawing, shading & painting.
too bad, teacher giv up in opening elective class
seem like my artistic cells had creased in production
anw, designers nowadays really make a hard living..

took 145 to queensway
opps, wrong bus. LOST at holland instead!
KNN max siasuay. the only last passenger...
i looked at the bus uncle,
he looked at me...
"dun need to tap, u can alight now"
diao. sibei lanlan, rush cab liao.

oh gosh, poor ben waited for me almost 1hr!!!
i'm such a bastard...

dine at alexander village for scrumptious meal
order BBQ stingray w/ oily veg + oyster egg
knock em down with gulp of sugarcane
(tat usual big glass mug, sweety green & most imptly $1!!!)
OHhh, heavenly 'smokey' paradise.

so "stroll" to aid digestion...
went to South Ridges~
(last fri during break, read newspaper & found out
this cool place, esp it's CANOPY WALK!)

luv the dimy tranquilness
enjoying cool nite breeze
tat jiggled the gangling trees
listening to the unseen symphony of leaves rustling
lol @ "on-the-spot" stuff

the nite was way too cloudy
shortly, the nite became windy
suddenly ben pointed away "hey that side raining big leh"
so violently, the nite morphed to stormy!!!
KNS, big tree branch falled down sumo...

they always say 1 emo guy walking in the rain
wad abt 2 guys RUNNING in the storm?
hid under a shelter (bustop nowhr 2b spotted...)
wait awhile for a more gentle rain b4 we RAN again

found ourselves trapped in mt faber's safara
pissed off whn dad refused to save us..
bo bian, cab back home...

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msg to those ppl who PANGSEH ME:
i'm sry if i give others de impression of gentleman
but i do have temper and get angry.
i believe my limit of patience is higher than normal
however trust me, u wunden wanna test me.

afterall,
how serious u treat me, will be how 我跟你讲“多少”的义气。
i wunden waste animo of my v precious time on 没诚意 de ppl
cos it's v unfair for my loved buddies

bottomline is, i wunb available next time (mark my words)

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today is the last dine with poly frenz~
last wk is with chess frenz
next wk will spent autumn moon (last day) with pri frenz

perhaps i will call my nestle family too for a meal
(see 1st, i scared cos i'm ill-fated with pay day..)

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hearty meal @ MS's hotpot culture.
quite ex...b4 tat finally had my long-miss pool!
gotta admit the magic touch is gone for ~60%
cant even do slicing riao
with full stomach, went to esplanade niteviewing
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2 Promises i muz achieve:

1) have my wedding dinner in fullerton

2) in this lifetime, visit vienna (haha, or best migrate)

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P.S: gd to dream again.

2008-09-04T21:42:00.003+08:00

rainy season
喜欢大雨来临前那清爽的凉风
更爱上雨后春笋那白茫茫的感觉
too bad i STILL haben buy an umbrella

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(days b4...)
sad-ed whn agency's finance called me
for the time-sheet of previous workplace...
my agent clearing leave...
bad one. cos i nv had it coming nor
wana the past to repeat.

(yest)
gone for a dine with colleagues aft wk
tio-ed pangseh sia!
nvm, end up colleague bought new hp
all of them g0t their pay le lor...
then one colleague treat all of us

hoho, my turn will b coming so0n.
cos luckily boss extend my contract
till 12th, since 14th go 'resort' liao

"how long did u guys take to master the pallet jack?"
.
"2wks"
.
.
"1mth"
.
.
.
they taking dishes...
.
.
"ic..."
.
they put the food into their mouth
.
.
.
.
"do i need to have licsense to use it?"
PU! (some keat teo)
HAHAHAHAHHAHA
"go BBDC ask!"
all burst into laughters

(today)
whole day restless
cant get enough slp
not insomnia thou
juz 7hrs of slp aint enough
or mayb too much 'nite activity'..

luckily lunchtime bought yuanyang
if nt definite fall into slp later

KNN, got 1300 serial no. barcodes to scan
sumo 150 of them need to be manually key in
e.g F3RJ1841000966
wth, but kinda got the kick of it

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definition of yuanyang (鸳鸯）

1. loving couple such as
romeo & juliet/liang shan bo yu zhu ying tai

2. mixture drink such as
kopi+teh and soybean+grassjelly

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toward end of work, i work till
purple shirt turned dark purple shirt
sauna-ing inside the warehse
opposite ppl open the office door
frm far 0so can feel the heavenly air-con
then the nasty colleague came to help me
"你是不是赶时间？慢一点不用这么ganchiong"
(cos i rmb 1yr ago kena tiaoed by him
for working slow nearing end of wk)

lesson: the only way to get rid of enemy,
is to make friend with the person.
(not me say de, a former-ex US president said b4)

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(warning: mature content. under 18 prohibited)

colleague， Mr 何必(his 口头禅) asked me to pull the pallet away
so i push in the pallet jack...
Mr 何必: "你有插进到完吗？"
me: "有啊"
Mr 何必: "then为什么它不痛的？"
me: BLANK
Mr 何必: "eh!别想歪歪"
we: LOL
Mr 何必(twitch eye): "以后别插太快，会松的。"
we: ROFL!!!!!

shortbreak, Mr 何必 smoking.
we chitchatchitchat, then a nice-looking lady walk past.
.
..
...
Mr 何必: "原来你也是杀手！人家对你笑O~"

haha, unlike last time, got charbo walk past i look elsewhr
now then i 醒目(taught by colleague),
this is to them = Disrespect
nv give them face
so chio bu walk by, muz at least give them an INNOCUOUS look
like tat maybe some of them deep down their heart will
暗爽~到~~~

but then of cos, dun get too Oo-ver la. if not will b
WOLFul look..haha!

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tat time go supermkt listened to this song,
lyric v meaningful, esp this sentence
因为你以是过客因为路有些曲折是美的。
but memory v poor, oni rmb the 过客
go back home search to no avail

lucily during work, colleague played this song again
luv it

P.S: calculated the 1 OT-chionging wk amt to 400+
so actually to earn 1.6K supposedly w/o qualifications
is damn xinku de. there are things i do Regret. had i
did this job on yr1, i wunden be so 任性 liao..esp to
get emo+slp during lecture (as frenz all say)
bottomline: no more time to wipe tears liao, cos i got
too much sweats to wipe instead.

2008-09-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

misty day

sotong...last nite slp late cos already slpt too full

morning alrdy seen OLs smoking
morning alrdy seen their worn out faces
morning alrdy made mistake liao

pickslip requires 1.
i go scan 1.
den MY team leader called for me
"hey, they oni wan 1 laptop leh
u give em 1 box, inside got 5 lor
u wanna pay for 4 laptop ar?"
cui

aft COMEX SHOW no more free lunch dinner & OT...sad
lunchtime got 2 uncles very funny
1 uncle is part of our team, another is transport de
duno wad they quarrelling,
"你有的我都有ma"
"谁说的至少我有老婆你没有！！"
"..."
then my colleague joked
"uncle wah, 你那里知道可能他在别边有leh?"
ROFL~

work halfway, they 1st time assign me to try pick goods alone
"how long u need?"
"erm...5pm (it was 4.15)
"sure bo?"
nod nod
"okok, let's gamble
i give u till 5.15pm
by 5.15pm u finished it i bangjah u breakfast tmr
if not u bangjah me back"

kinda fun. cos i came back 4.45pm

cos got the damn heavy server.
another colleague A asked "not heavy meh?"
"no, i juz pull de, didnt carry up"
"so corpse heavier or server?"
"corpse"
"wa, u got carry b4?"
colleague B shout
"no la, ppl carry drunken ppl de. HO~~"

btw duno whether they really opening bottle this wkend..
if got then v shiok, long time nv gone pub le!

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buzy halfway yk called
"hey, the Attachment Student comes le"
i was frozen still.
her image appears...
"the cbe top student, very chio one"
haiz, relieved, nv bothered continue listening
so long it wasnt her.
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dine at ABC mkt with Ben
v funny with the toilet fantasy stuff
btw, i go order the damn sugarcane
stall still open, cane still inside fridge
he told me "卖完了"

du lan, go another stall wanna order 鸳鸯
(grass jelly mix soybean)
but got like...
grass jelly
barley
lime juice
bandung
water chestnut

then wana spite the sugarcane uncle
cos we drink
barley
grass jelly
bandung
almost complete the "collection"
lol

btw we sat abit infront of toilet 10cent uncle
for hrs (waiting for yk)
guess he muz be thinking
"when r these 2 siao kia coming????"

order rojak 0so funny
"uncle, rojak. youtiao and daogua. $5. dun wan 辣"
he go served other table liao walked past us
"xiao di, $5 2ppl eat?"
nod
there comes a BIG plate. aloha!
then attracted 2 indian women asking
"excuse for ur time, can u tell me whr u guys bought this?"
i juz pointed behind. wolala

P.S: sometimes whn in rush, i 0so tend to find stuffs without
using head. sumo the thing i searching for is juz rite
infront of me. ganchiong spider...

2008-08-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

hmm, frenz ard me all bet i couldnt make it in NS
被看衰。。。
i'm juz CBB (cant be bothered)

anw, ppl wanna meetup de can msn/sms me

so currently, while got time
best make use of by listening to my fav s0ngs~

P.S: waiting for the moment of
merely you
barely me
simply us

2008-08-30T16:36:00.003+08:00

so much so for the chionging wkdays
nv tot of working 14hrs+ for 3 continuous days

made sort of pessimistic calculation
my debt+phone bill+upcoming expenses amt to 450
so my target is to chiong to 1K (quite hard cos needa deduct cpf)
cos wanna save 400+ b4 i go in NS (scare bookout cant enjoy much)

thks the suntec IT show
if not i wun hav OT to pian
no free lunch & dinner to eat
much less cabbing home~(now i know frm redhill to my hse cost <20)

lesson of the nite:
he who cant control the pallet jack
will be controlled by the pallet jack

duno how will it be like if i learn driving
now my turning angle always cant "eat" correctly
tabunsi confirm bump onto the side
if BBDC teach the parking skill in this video
i immediately go learn!

gtg, later steambt with chess frenz. "last supper"

P.S: 要吃的苦还多着呢。

2008-08-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

haha i'm back home!
frm cabbie sumo
quite a while since i enjoy the luxury of midnite taxi
(1st time claiming cab fee frm company)

i think i began to like this new job
cos again, mainly due to the ppl

they're juz...KNN fun-filled ppl
haha, but havin to inhale their smoke is kinda bo bian.

finally rmb the cheappo brand, texas 5.
of cos thr r the 家喻户晓 de Marlboro lo...

today the biggest lol i had was during their smoking break,
(me v pitifully scanning the serial no.)
a lady walked past. then a colleague suddenly HEY!!!
think she really turned back or sumtin
then he immediately waved at me "MY FRIEND!"
the rest lol until pian...

lunch today finally nv go out eat along
too buzy le, so boss send my colleague dapao for rest of us
wee, free lunch. but the rice..erm curry?
"男子汉大丈夫要会吃辣mah"
luckily dinner they dapao fried rice.

work time they kpkb
break time they will say nonsense to chill
"y u see all the security guards r.."
"becos they can keep watch in the dark w/o ppl realised"
max racist

no money chiong OTOT
got money chiong TOTO

P.S: i found a new anesthetic technique called work

2008-08-25T23:13:00.003+08:00

MIA quite long here. paiseh
tat day found out my blogskin was removed by owner
so spend a day searching for hide's pics
i found nice ones but unfortunately size nt big enough
end up stumbled onto mika's wallpaper
u gotta luv her!

tips:
anw, if u readers think the bgd music sucks
(which i dun think so)
u may press "F5" to change song.
alternatively if u wan silence
(also, i disagree absolutely)
u "may" press "Esc" button.
(but dun let me catch u)

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recounts:

1. my pay finally comes...lol the zoo initially
suggested by mail. but wanna me sign back and mail back.
damn troublesome, since i nt working, might as well
go down and get the cheque directly. aft i hung up,
i looked at joyce and xinying...
abit lanlan, go so far to zoo to collect cheque.
心又不甘。。。
so lalala, gt ourselves 3 complimentary tix~

2. zoo day. gt so bored
cos previously went thr with ex-colleague
we actually toured it whole day...no more "freshness"
so we lol exit nt long later

found ourselves sitting rite infront of MJ table.
b4 tat. the gongkia forgot to write something impt
behind his precious cheque and dumb him dump it inside the box

humble winning, who know at the last moment
the joyce taitai diedie dun wanna finish the last round
diaozheng nvm
kept zimo 0so np
worst was zimo with big tai...
so chor for xinying tai tai...
the gongkia zhahu too... ...

3. went old changi makan with ben
then rochor beancurd b4 spending the wholenite in mustafa
i hate the sugarcane at old changi...
nt sweet de, sumo sourish...color 0so nt green, more like black
if u blindfold me n ask me guess the drink,
i will say is sourplum..sumo the cost was..no comment.

4. movies again.
money nt enough II. din realised it was 10yrs ago
my kneeclapping part was whn the ah ma asked "eat alrdy?"
tat nite in mustafa was reading a health bk.
learnt tat Ginkgo biloba might be the cure for alzheimer's disease
meet dave. laugh laugh show. i dun think i can paint out the
unbalanced feeling...

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today new work day
took a crowded train
right was an auntie reading bagua magazine
left was a malay lady with a face like li bing bing
but way too gloomy. perhaps mon blue.
maybe oni me the high one.

meet the boss. given a stern warning
"working here there's always a temptation...
we got apple ipod...u know wad i mean rite?
dun ruin ur future blahblahblah"
lol, he dun know i din like to eat apple.
neither he knows i'm listening to Within Temptation!

1yr ago i did work thr b4.
even the scanner changed to touchscreen!
(u can go to "past" n slowly find if u're boring)
UNexpectedly, i tot i can hid it...
nv did i know thr actually ppl who
can rmb me aft 1yr even whn i oni work for 1day
几够力一下哦。。。(cos another colleague was MYsian haha)
he was like "u seems familiar, work here b4 rite?"
luckily he nv rmb my name, if nt i would be embarrassed
for forgetting his name~
muz be like wad ppl say "脸长的那个loh"

all male working env again. sumo warehse again.
feel abit no kick compared to car parts de
cos now is computer parts. frm printer to router to laptop
they 0so jihons one. haha
got OLs walked by with the high heels sounds
they will accompanied with the funny noises
work halfway suddenly got this "uncle" ask
"u got jiejie mah?"
"wah, he wan ur jiejie's no. say no!"
so i shook my head...
guess wad, "got jiejie can go sit one side. no jiejie?
carry on ur work" lol

as usual, sometimes will be breaktime.
which is their smoking time.
seems like i was the oddball who dun smoke..
even those sexy OLs smoke...wahpianeh

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definition of OL:
short for Office Ladies.
commonly spotted with sexy attire eg.
a) light-colored clothing (preferably white
and made of thin material to give the translucent effect)
b) dark-colored lingerie (mostly black)
c) tight skirt (to bring out their curves)
d) black stockings (so pork chop will turn lamb chop)
e) high heels (to inform the wolves they're ard somewhr)
f) flattened hairstyle (Bun for long hair)
so much so for my OL fetish.

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morning i walked past a church with 4 big chinese words
神爱世人
ya He luv me too.
for aft i waited for the damn 51 so long to return hm
suddenly got this sexy woman sitting beside me!
as she sat down, she lifted her right hand adjusting the air-con
i was thr..ahem* ahem*
juz wanna scream I LOVE GOD!!!

not soon b4 she slpt. ppl slp is head down de.
she slp is head facing me...aiseh
i watched her slp until so sweet sia
her barbar dry lips...
seem like the bus quite warm hor
suddenly. occasionally she will open her eyes
definitely. immediately i will look elsewhr
end up the cycle repeats..
as minimal eye contacts were crossed path,
but my head is tilted to the left
and her stare was maintained to her right

thou i wished all the traffic lights to turn red
there's always an end, esp for a 30mins happy moment
so tempted to ask for her no.
all i could do, was to 眼睁睁 send her off
while my PSP was playing the song 无能为力。

emo.
fine, u guys can rofl...

vent off everything aft an aged basketball game
end up with a bad stomach cos reached back hm
eat heavily and play heavily straway...

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nv tot i would wake up in frm a dream in cold sweats
the 2nd time she appeared in my dream.
for all i tot i've tried my best to forget.
esp with the help of my pre-alzheimer's disease...
i would sometimes forget the names of ppl i know of
forget how to recite out the Heart Sutra i used to memorise in pri days
forget my bank acc no.
forget my directions.
but y 偏偏 cant forget her totally.

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i'm happy for ppl ard me who're happy.
when it comes to r/s concerns
some fren still maintain well their love
some fren found their new love
some fren patched back their old love
some fren ended their love

suddenly miss mr tan.
see him so carefree.
wanna meet old frenz, go limjiu
wanna find happiness, go geylang
no 烦恼
so 潇洒

if some1 ask an eagle,
which 1 more impt, wings or companion?
if oni eagle can speak...

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recently duno y got the helpful face or wad
out of nowhr will pop out ppl asking me
"hw to go this place"
sometimes is like i was still listening to mp3.
but the gongkia 0so mud buddha de la.
tat's y he made a promise
HIS NEW HP MUZ HAVE THE GPS FUNCTION!

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P.S: dun think i can have chance to take bus with her again
sumo these coming days will be xiong cos PC show...
haiz, OT until 8pm...

2008-08-16T18:58:00.009+08:00

wad a wonderful world~

wed went haiji lane then steambt in bugis's jins deli with ben, yk & joyce
haha a pleasant one.
(when i met yk, he was telling me,
"the work v fun. they all like know u de, kept telling me
'kairong is a v hardwking boy'. i was like...gt meh"
lolz, split personality lorh)
luckily nv eat the lala
cos there's 2 victims lala-ing in toilet
lol, i gt myself fishballs meal..toilet come out definitely "bally"!

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the following chpt is an unpleasant nagging. u can skip this.

thu nite went admendment. dun bother to further touchup liao
"let it be~ let it be"
den ard 12+ went down to atm check my saving.
dots..haben update
so sms the niaopk boss a reminder
sumtin like
"tmr latest by 5.30pm pls transfer my overdue pay to my acc,
no more extension"
his reply "sry, we're havin prob with the finance. give me one wk more.
sry for the delay"

let me first give u a detailed st0ry abt the niaopk's niao management.
their usual practice is 25th is the pay cutoff date, ard 28,29th salary comes
so i quit on 30th. alrdy got my june pay. so the sub-boss, Miss V, who
under the niaoboss (KLK again) told me my 25th-30th pay along with deposit
will oni be receive next mth. so nvm, wait one mth.

aft 1mth, 28-29th still haven gt the pay. abit panic, cos Miss V alrdy quit.
seek help frm this gdfren of mine whom become my ex-colleague,
ask if can help me find out. he told me the Ms finance juz quit, abit corkup
but since is the "Birdpk", how will they forget my pay?

i cant help to worry. get the niaoboss no. called him. he wan me wait till 1st aug
if still haven received, call him again. so end up i really call him again.
he said his finance got some prob, next day will go office help me settle it.
so 4th aug, received a call frm my ex-colleague, she inform me my pay amt, say
give them 1 wk to process. i should receive it by 11th.

so 11th i check again. wth call him again. his explanation was, my acc got prob.
so he suggest me tmr go birdpk, with my updated bankbk, he give me cash.
damn happy la, i dun mind gg down, since can walk frm my workplace thr
BUT, the very late nite 12am+ he smsed me he gt meeting, v paiseh.

me v understanding de. so give him a v nice grace period of
"it would be better if u can transfer the money to my acc asap b4 the wkends come"
his reply "thks"
i put trust in him, so i told the ppl i owned money tat wkend i can return them.

tat's y thu nite i give him tat "gentle" reminder.
his reply? delay again.
if u're me, do u think if u're wrong to sms him "Cannot, tmr is deadline."

so end up he CALLED me.
over the other line, i heard one BASTARD yelling into my right ear.
first time i ever came across the one owning money still dare to so LOUD.
his attitude was like "none of my business, not my fault, it's the zoo's finance."
if u're me, do u think u have the right to be pissed off?
but since i returned home with my family members slping, i decided to be calm.
i didnt yell back.

as the conversation continue, he saids stuffs like
"Kairong, do u understand? can u understand anot wad i'm saying?
cant u understand now the one keeping ur pay is the zoo, not me.
if u really wanna force me, i cant do anything abt it!
or u wan me give u my own money izzit? (i reject, thou i FUCKing will wan it)
i can advise u the last resort, y dun tmr, wad time u free, i can send u
down to the zoo, i help u lodge a complaint to them and u can receive
ur money right away. (i reply him he dun need to work? i needa work.)
u dun worry abt me. i can drive u thr so u can chase them like loanshark.
(FUCK! y would i wanna waste 1day pay for this? sumo if i really loanshark,
will i still talk to u in a tone softer than u?)
this is it. no more pestering me. do u know now is 2am in the morning,
and u're calling me in the middle of the nite disturbing my slp?
do u know i can make a police report?
(KNN CB to max. i had to correct him tat i smsed him, not call me.
last time u 0so smsed me so late. y cant i cant do tat in return.)

"ok, so u can wait till next wk rite? sms me ur full name. i wan ur bankname"
"as in?" (i wanna double confirm if he wan the name of my bank, posb or the
name stated in the bk"
"hey kairong, how old exactly r u? how come such a simple thing u cant even
understand"
"can u be more polite?" (i know if u're me, u will use FUCK U. i'm sure i
would if the old me. now cant, i at home.)
that shut him off completely.

the conversation ended soon aft this.
he still sms me those "offical closing" sms. i nv bother.
so fri, received the call frm zoo. her attitude was v apologising,
unlike the KLK boss's not-my-prob attitude.

she explain next mon will prepare the cheque, tue have to wait for CEO signature.
take maybe 2days to mail. so by d time i bank in, the money definitely ard
25th then got it. KNN, 2 fucking long mths.

come to think of it now, i cant wait so long animo.
juz now decided seek KLK boss to see if he can transfer me his own money
while he can have the cheque.
God knows, i sms him he reply "who is this?"
damn it. simply "i cant help u if u really wan to have it earlier.
u have to settle it with the zoo. (asked him if he gt the finance no.)
u can check it up frm zoo website (i cant believe he dun hav it)
u have to understand tat now is already after work, thks.
(so if i call him during office hr, will he say he's buzy or sumtin?)

fine, u win. i juz dun understand y working in birdpk
should chase zoo instead for money. well i smsed him back tat
i will find my ans from Ministry of Manpower then.

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fri was my last day work!
the last 2 days work is very xiong. climbing up and down on ladder
stockcheck the stuffs on the shelves cos audit coming next mth
aft checking, gotta wipe clean the dusty spare parts
kena some small cuts by the metal edges
so gt to know the jungle survival knowledge of "plaster=masking tape"

i asked tan to take pic. he rejected leh,
took off immediately on his bike with a cigarette on his mouth.
Az!z say if i get to take photo with him, confirm strike toto de.
cos seem like tan dun like take pic, scare affect his gamble "fengshui"
lol

my colleague Az!z. take photo always v angry one.

mechanic uncle george. he said ssa everyknow know him de. haha
haha, i nv know of SSA. but some stuffs uncle george said quite true:

"The darker the night, the nearer the dawn" - the lesson of waiting and endure.
(but i cant wait any longer for the damn pay)

"life is like a mirror. juz like u smile to ppl, ppl smile back to u."

"if a person is honest and upright, his shadow will 0so be straight."

"when u come to work, dun still think of ur family issue.
same, u return home, dun bring back ur work.
time to suffer, suffer. time to play u play."

end work quickly took some pics of the car. lol kena caught, quickly zao!
b4 i left the place uncle george still kept reminding me
"be a gd man, dun do wrong thing hor (he refer to young ones who cut their wrist)"
haha.

i believe i will grow stronger again. sumo i reached 7 liao. tat's silver le.
but aint gg retest, cos wanna go in soon come out late.
i believe bitter suffering will bring out the appreciation of sweet success.
esp with my pair of dirty detergent-harden hands,
i believe i can create a Pearl-y future of mine.
thou now i haven got myself a spiritual pillar of religion,
i know someone is up thr abv to assist me.

P.S: do u know how to keep a stone on the water w/o it sinking?

2008-08-10T23:11:00.005+08:00

too buzy to blog le...

let's talk abt some babies stuffs
my boy recently quite mischief
cause disturbance in class kena teacher complaint
he beg my mom nt to tell his daddy, so fine
next day, schbus auntie told my mom he split at ppl
so ask him, he kept denying
me angry liao took out my weapon, oni then confessed

"who u split at?"
"..angela" (KNN, bully charbo sumo)
"y u split?"
"she kept pinching me.."
"like tat u split her back? let the teacher know mah"
(WTH, he haven know got charbo pinch is fortunate liao)

some time later, mom ask him how's spelling today?
heard him smile giggle already know something wrong
after mom seen his spelling bk, "how come ur star so small?"
"老师说我看别人的。。"
WTF, copycat. faint!
end up mom told everything to his daddy
overheard the conversation, oni then know abt the coldwar

lesson: adult's prob, will inevitably hav ill effects on kids

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fri work, as usual
KLK boss clever sia, tat time came late at 4pm
this time came early at 10am
seems like he alrdy gt the feeling
ppl r coming late n leaving early
morning dizziness caused me almost doze off
lucky "almost", cos he suddenly pop out

got a funny mechanic uncle
he asked tan later nite going whr
tan replied "gin ni kio kuy"
the uncle quickly rush to me
"boy, dun listen! i holy one, 0so cant listen too"
omfg, he scared i will tag along sia

lunch, as usual alone
it's like a monk leaving temple(warehse)
cos finally get to see women ard

aft lunch 2pm, tan asked me to hurry up
"i not joking with u, finish this can go hm liao"
cos i sometimes do things w/o logic
damn silly
at least he oni say the faults i did
w/o further personal add-on
respect

anw, close to 3pm we already chopchop
finished the case which
KLK and they all tot will take 1day
so tan left. az!z has to stay behind "look water"
he asked me to start settle some parts for mon's share

then ard 4pm we already sat down chit-chat liao
(thou i wanna go off)

he always say this to me, repeat again n again
"if u can still study, go study. now u come to work
u know the reality. dun be like me last time,
parent ask me study i go play soccer.
now soccer can feed me?"

we chat frm career, to start a family
received advices frm a father of 3
haiz, all the qns really pop up
"dating is diff with marriage. u may have this hot one,
but next day u woke up, u may be shock.
who the fellow beside u?"
"before marriage u wanna go out meet ur frenz she okok
but after marriage, u think u still can go out?
wad if she wan u back home straightaway once work finish?"
i shake head..

gotta think of divorce b4 thinking of marriage.
if one can only have one as the true love
if world population is 6,677,563,921
probability of meeting ur Mr/Miss Right will be
1/3338781960.5 = 0.000000000299510423810437980231413945342
(in case u're a G or L, 1/6,677,563,921 is even lower)

no wonder ppl always say marriage is like a gamble.
i'm a non-smoker and 0so a non-gambler.

btw, found out the reason y ppl leave early (or wun stay late)
cos the warehse is dirty.
ya, warehse is really "dirty" (hungry ghost mth sumo)
no wonder i once heard some funny noises frm the corner
no wonder i need to stay behind with him, safer to have 2ppl tgt

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aft work walk back hm. then frm old hm walk to new hm
think due to this, plus during work climb up jump down
kneecaps occasionally hurt, or duno izzit pre-NS systoms

paint whole 2 nite.
first nite: rm cleaning, newspaper wrapping, cracks covering
packed up and left to find out the time was 5am...
went to the mac for my dinner-cum-breakfast
haiz, no macflurry no happiness
and i actually got my fav hotcakes
(thou order the new big breakfast meal w/ milo)
thn heard this old song. got emo again

2nd day sat morning: the bangadesh workers came to paint the hse
thn one of them offered to help me (aft seeing my pathetic state)
the wall was nicely done. color is brillant.
(but whn i try it, always got spots here and thr...not even de...)
sibei du lan. but really grateful for him showing me.

frm painting i learnt the lesson of generosity from a bangadesh sensei
offering help (he did it really to the extend of wad i din expect of)
as he could juz left aft finish his part, but stay behind instead.
sometime i kept brushing, thou the paint on the brush was running out
found out, thr will be unpainted stripes. so aft he showed me,
i realised my stingy painting mistake.

the whole day buzy painting. alone facing the wall reflect as i paint:

1) next time i shouldnt be racist again.
thou i really hate it whn
stucked in a fast withdrawal atm queue line in jp.
(the normal queue line got abt 5 atm but is longer, i see no diff)
theoretically 2 atm. practically 1 atm
cos frm the start i queue till i got my money,
an indian worker was still thr kept inserting card and taking it
pissed.

2) suddenly recall tat day was national day. so fast august sia.
then suddenly realised i actually FORGOTTEN MY BUDDY'S BDAY!!!!

3) got emo after still thinking of 7th August. cos 七夕。 esp the rainy nite

4) so desperate to open my head and pull out the image in my mind and
paste it directly on the walls!!!

the ceiling is awfully painted...
chu too much patterns liao..
got the idea, lack the skill
end up too over le
disappointed in myself
still need to do amendment..

anw, first time use the very squeezy toilet. the sit style one..
the feeling...?
like bombarding enemy's navy force
but due to the bombs too strong,
the seawater splash up and wet the planes...lol

P.S: Here to say the very Belated HappY BirthDay to Sixiang. enjoy ur time in NY.

2008-08-06T23:45:00.003+08:00

in 4 days,
i will become a world-class Painter
and
i bet with u on my room, tat it will be a Masterpiece.
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today morning was juz a bad one.
if it's few mth back, u can be sure
tat i will have enter another fiery mood.
luckily aft reading the bk, i iron it out with reasons.

well, with logical reasons, u can be sure to stand on both feets.
finally convince my parents my determination to paint my own rm myself.

i thks the frenz who help me or (nv even bother). esp ben for the
tool to paint d ceiling.

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during work, very tired and slpy. (morning too overwk a lil)
lunch alone. cos 1 no appetite, another cut down weight.

anw, here to describe our workforce

tan - have a curly hair like 道明寺。
impression: ji-hon. (drawn out by his 咪咪眼 whnever women appear)
despite if this, he was very serious at work. (respect)
thou skinny, but very fit. rifleman + guardman of JI leh (MSS, miaosiaosiao)
health: always coughing. sometimes bad stomach.
habit: nite always "lim jiu" at geylang. (stayed near thr, to him is heaven)
break time always have an adult candy sticking out of his month

az!z - definitely better than niaopk de az!z.
impression: get along well. caring
health: he complaint he getting fatter. to me, still under the usual sytom
of middled age. 0so warned me the toxicity of the birdshits in warehse.
wakao, birdpk's niao is more hygiene and "socially responisble"
warehse's niao will have a "public toilet" cos u can see one area on the
floor full of shits.
habit: always F-ker here and thr.

kaizi - the guNiang b0y who wanna be gaRang mAn
impression(for others): not suit for env like warehse. damn weak. muz train more
health: guess oni the face part loh. stood on the pallet jack
(with weighing function) tat measure 55kg. underwt
habit: bite finger, but seem like cutting down of frequency.
(u see ur hand so black u wanna bite ar?) 0so, craving for saltwater

work pattern:
always we chiong doing "short-term" goals liao, then rest.
go smoke de smoke
go phonecall de go phonecall
go wash hand with detergent de go wash hand until now rough rough liao

tan always will tell me can go hm liao at "end" of the day
today ard 3pm they hungry liao go makan
so i sit down and...dozed off
when i work up, see them packing so hurry to contribute
guess wad, they said tmr then pian, today early go back hm early rest
so chopchop keep everything and closed case, take bag say byebye liao

suddenly heard the KLK boss driving in some ulu road (got lost)
they were like "KNN" "CCB" "FXXX"
cos it meant he's nearby, and will come by to ask for dir as well as
SPOTCHECK...

SIBEI HENG. if i gone liao he come, GG!

tan will remind me always to show him how buzy i am but doing "something"
while i did silly stuffs like throwing parts here and thr or even sit on
the boxes IN FRONT OF HIM. haha

last time alrdy heard myths abt KLK bosses. now it proves to me right.

aft he asked dir liao (which az!z say "told him turn right turn left,
aft tat the FXXXer will still call back ask again. use GPS la, alamak")
he went off. so tan will hurry "let's close shop!"

v hardwkingly we kept the stuffs and covered the case, even pulled down
the backgate.

suddenly from the next end "wao, i go off u all zhao alrdy ar?"

my face was GG...then they actact "no la, toilet break"
stomach laughing like pain.

spied on us another while more. so they actact discuss tmr
how to shift the stuffs, planning here and thr.

i still one corner moving thing frm here to thr AIMLESSLY.

he walkoff again. quite a while later, tan told me, can go off liao
he's should be gone liao. then i say, "no leh, i see his no-trust face.
i go out testwater first" "check his car still thr anot, license plate XXXX"

i go out, CHUASAI. 买TOTO也没有那么不~~~准

end up really left the place at the end of the day.
even the bastard security
cos he knew i 1mth contract still wanna my IC for visitor pass, so LBL
reluntantly Law By Law
"how come today ah boy u so late come out?"
"boss came loh.."

du lan, i was like wanna go off early to buy paints..
anw went to jp buy paint
got a malay auntie v funny and pleasant.
ask my opinion of her sample paint brown color
"u see gt the diff with the bk color?"
"gt, bk one darker"
"see! (she told the nippon guy) tat's y i trust anyone
esp the youngster. u dun see me like tat, i'm already forties
mother of 2 children"
(seeing my disbelief)
"i show u my ic! see!"
(wakao. really forty)
she left with her paint happily with a golden advice.

"u wanna look young, v easy. juz stay happy. even whn others
say wadever to u, dun care la"

i was thr, sending her off with my Respect.
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i really thkful and grateful there r always benefactor ard me.
i wun adopt any christian name due to the
respect for the fortune-teller 20yrs ago
who "characterize" out my chinese name
living with 贵人命

天上有星星
地上有猩猩
你是我的幸运星。

P.S: cresent moon nw. yearn for a full moon to make tmr nite brighter, for me to paint in the silence darkness. tonite, let me have a Painter Dream.

2008-08-04T19:34:00.003+08:00

if u wanna know my current mood,
look at the pics below.

perhap it's hungry's ghost month.
some of them had been "eaten"
yet some haben ripe one may means
muz wait for them to enjoy the meal first..

anw, it's nt the pt.
to me, it is usually eat yellow de.
but always eat yellow again n again will sianz one.
y not chose green? sumo more nutritional.
bad thing may be, too much can diarrhea..
dilema. sigh.

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long time nv had my glands early morning releasing adrenline le
reached 8. supposed to report 8.30am
so called AZ!Z. lol he say in on MC. duno how he will look like..

then another chinese male supervisor came to give me induction.
see him as those slackslack one. but he said job was fierce.
ya, he meant it.

i tot will need to carry stuffs frm 1 place to another.
wrong. didnt move much. almost stagnant on a area.
then u muz be asking "then y fierce?"

job scope. to do stockcheck for the imported car parts

so 1 container may come one day, inside give u alot of big boxs
which we refer as Case measuring e.g 140 X 120 X 130 (mm)

job description. to do stockcheck,
say there's A - Z items available,
u muz count each item to check their quantities correct anot.

v challenging.
imagine got a very big puzzle cube made up of many different
shapes and sizes wooden block. u have to "demolish" it and rebuild again.

still no kick? imagine not oni u need to use ur brain,
ur muscles have to tahan the heavy metallic car parts.
not oni tat, supervisor as
slackful as he seems,
will try to achieve "mircale" by demanding both of us to
try squeezing everything into the limited space.

as such, inside the case, got 6 compartments.
after we SCed, oni used up
5 compartments. Ho0ray!
but it was already lunchtime, means 1 case took the
whole morning.

hands will end up dirtyblack.
esp when dealing the underneath big metal sheets,
tio small cuts.. sibei ke lian the guNiang b0y..
but time passes fast, shockingly elated
aft able to carry wheel rim with 1 arm!

work till 2pm already shagged like gone to gym...
it was pair work. cos oni 2 of us working..
he say 5pm let me off liao.
very gandong...cos supposedly 5.30pm.

walked happily back hm. halfway, suddenly received a call.

still rmb ben previously ask me, wad if aft i start work,
the lab company i sent resume de decided to hire me?

but the call was instead, frm nestle. admin job offered.

how? tat's y my mood now like the bananas, so dilemma..
alot of factors to consider.

P.S: 老天。。。为什么你不是什么都不给我，就是一下子给得我太多？

希望只是工作而不是爱情。

2008-08-03T23:54:00.004+08:00

very sad..
the niao pk, still haven transfer money to my bank.

if u guys tried to call me aft 1wk time
but to no avail,
i seek ur understanding tat
my bill had been overdued as such.

very disappointing..
went to my new hse tour.
helpless aft seeing the size of my rm.
imagine frm birdview, vertical rectangle
topleft corner is door.
right is my grandpa's bed.
the bottom is fully windowed with a centred glass table

problems now are, mom already placed order for a wardrobe.
i duno how to squeeze out a space for my mattress.

pissed off again, by the walls.
dad dun quite like my idea of drilling holes on them!
lol, cos i wanna hang planks thus saving space.
stupid thing was, the uncle said not fully cemented
in addition, the walls hav hidden wires (3 power sockets)

i felt breathless living in a Preset Box...

very excited..
cos tmr start new job liao!
found out the location was juz a reptile pk-"ED"
away frm niao pk

instructed to call the supervisor when i reached
the name was.. AZ!Z
was it such a coincidence? the same supervisor name
whom i hated and quit frm the niao pk!

P.S: this world is so small (like my new rm) for coincidences to replay repetitively.

2008-08-01T15:08:00.004+08:00

sry for my laziness, my reader(s)...

hahaz. few updates.
rmb the luckiness in me?

tat's rite! last thu was woken up by
a female M1 operator.

"mr deng, have u lost a hp recently?"
"erm..ya, 2mths ago(to emphasize her "recently" was a wrong choice of word)"
"may i ask the brand of ur hp?"
"LG"
"a police report had being made. u can collect ur hp at paragon"

well, i tot it was a dream. still wondering if it was really at paragon.

so as i happily wore my shoes getting ready to set off,
dad asked "rmb to ask them if they got sell the charger"

a thunderstorm striked my sunny day...
i forgot i cut off my charger liao
yes, one of the stupid thing i done.

nvm, went str thr. perhaps my words of expression v weak.
duno y they cant catch me...
i tot oni go down, show ic, chopchop collect it and walkoff.
diao, was made to get a queue no. aft the person "finally"
know i'm here to collect my lost-and-found hp.

then as my turn came, i told the guy same "story" again.
u bet gemini really like patience to repeat stuffs
then he, same as the person juz now, caught the word "lost"
and auto go in and get me a new sim card. and it really took
v longgggggggggggg

so during this waiting time, was turning my head and look ard.
a man at the right of me, was asking abt new plan. so the service
guy gave him a brochure to read.
a gal behind me, sitting with her mom at the rows of chairs
waiting for her no. to appear too.

u muz be damn sure i'm lucky again. cos the gal was reading brochure
with her legs open at shoulder width. the pt was, she's wearing skirt.

i look back to the right at the eyes of the service guy. he explaining
to his customer, while his customer looked back to the brochure, his
line of sight was at where mine juz laid.

conclusion : a man's instinct to zao geng is very sharp de.

finally my service guy came out with the sim card. then aft he finally
realised i'm juz here to get back my hp...he came 'sry' and to my shock

"can i have ur ic again?" (omg, tat's v redundant!!! pissed)

aft getting my LG back, straway went lucky plaza find charger.
but this time, not very lucky...

nite went to eat a kfc-like fast-food resturant with ben.
did a very SIASUAY thing.
so as i ordered, the guy was consoling me
"dun worry. many of the customers 0so like u,
cant find our door..."

cos when we were outside the shop, i was wondering how to get in.
cos it's glassslide doors. cant find the door handle.
then the lady inside point to my right.
OPPS, there's an inner door compartment...lol
imagine there's customers inside stunned by a door idiot

damn full.

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sat went watch X-files with js and coach.
well, not a X-files fan. so-so for me.
dine at geylang's 牛肉河粉
shopping in mustafa. lay my eyes on a 27$$ watch...
supper at some dim sum resturant

sun morning, went durian breakfast.
then uncle lee brought us to massage.
clean or dirty?
so i chose the "health spa"

1st time spa. wow. shiok. sumo gt the steam sauna~
now i know y women like spa so much liao.

then was relaxing watching TV. broadcasting the 9-ball at velocity.
the champion was really funny. haiz, hand itchy liao...

then went for massage. waseh. now i know y mother like massage so much.
the bone cracking sounds.
the pleasure of touch.
the pressuring feeling of being stepped to death.
and some other shocking stuffs...

aft the massage, chit-chat with js.
me: "wah. it's gd to be rich, so as to live this kind of extravagant life!"
js: "kao. duno which asshole last time say money nt impt..."

lol. in heavily debt le. haha

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wed. went down to support the junior for their ivp.
didnt know i will actually throw my "once a blue moon" temper.
but in the end, felt glad they make it to 2nd.
and 0so happy to see old faces again

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today found a job finally. thks ben. cos everytime switch on comp,
always see new emails send by him for job opportunties. haha!

P.S: forget the past. dun care the future. live juz for today.

2008-07-23T23:54:00.003+08:00

A Different Me

woke up early, 9plus
instead of regular 4pm
or even 8pm (15hrs slp)

gosh, is there any slping competition?

and so! i took my old toothbrush n
clean my dirty shoes
thou not sparkling,
did feel nice wearing them out

anw, i finally shaved too
btw, i went to have a haircut 0so

curious y the sudden urge?
cos, i went to find job liao!

too bad. didnt succeed.
rejected twice by "no vancancy"

so end up went to settle my troubling issues

M1 shop. the guy told me
"sir, u can call the hotline to clarify with them.
i think they didnt followup. but our system already has it."

sometimes later...

"actually there is this negative sign on ur bill."

i'm too blur liao to understand the negative sign...
but he gave me the reassurance nod, tat my prob is settled.

Game shop. the lady asked me
"have u drop ur PSP before"

i nodded.

sometimes later...

"真的没有掉？"

guess i cant really copied well the M1 guy's nod.

she loaded some data. then returned to me
"na! all fixed. juz ur some of ur files corrupted."

i was like WOW. how come my troubles seem so 小-case de!

but i was wrong.

she found out my "home" "vol" to "select" "start" tat buttons panal
NON RESPONSIVE!

"ARH!! muz be water seep in rite?

i nodded (sHh, i didnt told her i bathe with it)

"i'm afraid ur motherboard got damaged by water..u sure can cry liao"

the feeling was like a balloon tat bring u up to heaven then suddenly burst!

thks God, turn out to be juz the metal strip wet oni.

so grateful to her. well, if u start to picture her as some ah lians in
those gameshop, my apology. but seem like i guessed correctly the reason for
a mkting degree-holder to stay thr.

gosh!!! cost me 20 bucks to learn my funny lesson.
u muz be disappointed by the 20. but it's huge when one turning bankrupt liao!

who was the one i'm dreaming all these while?

P.S: i'm getting the old feeling back again. the feeling of being lucky.
maybe this time, DKr is really returning back.

2008-07-20T23:18:00.003+08:00

Devastated

oh my Darling,
do u know u're already part of my life?
i'm at loss now...y did u die on me?

tat's was wad happened whn
i bathed with my precious psp tgt.

water somehw seep in. the software ended kisiao
no response to any button.
in the reboot system, msg out some games cant load

omg. how do i live~ w/o u...
no music life.

diedie muz find job to have it repaired!

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yest nite 6+ enter SP's hall.
as expected, me being the few chinese...
but wad i din expect was, i came out at 11.30
wow i tell u, nv had i left my seat.
stuck down with a heavy bladder yet
an empty stomach...

well, it did pay off.
her team took 3rd outta 17 teams. amazing
somehow, the cheers of her team aint louder
than those teams behind.

conclusion: the softness of cheers aint
proportional to the actual strength!

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today woke up by senior's call.
walau, the team (in my opinion) cmi...
cos i ask n ask n ask, way very early
for the time n venue of meeting
on the actual day morning, then he smsed

pissed off. i mean, yest i dun even know
wad time muz i wake today...du lan

sumo it's at pasir ris.
as js commented "arh? u go so far oni 1 match?"

lol.

opponent was in his forties, those 中年人士。
he see me like those 小混混, not v bothered.

opening was standard, frm de bk.
he nv really spend much time thinking.
guess i haben gave him the mature-serious impression
guess he haben really estimate me correctly

one thing for sure, he pays his price.

but it's too late for him le.
things were already gd for me, esp i got 2 extra soldiers

but the most fatal part is still being careless.
he gave up after losing his cannon

during our review game, he said:
"走到这里的时候，才知道你有料的。"

ok, let me be a proud ass once a blue moon.
this time, i really dun have much stress or
nervous like last time during sch days

this is wad i read frm a bk, quite useful
"to be confident, u have to be confident"

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joey smsed "how come ur weekends so weird de"
frm an indian dance comp, to pasir ris chess comp
most imptly, i enjoyed myself!

P.S: weekend - the All Time Favourite, be it schooling or working life

2008-07-19T04:30:00.003+08:00

i asked my mom to reconfirm the date for the new hse
cos previously she said august(八月)

guess wad. turn out to be OCT.
"i tot u said 八月?"
"ya i did. lunar mah"
...
nvm, which means i still can use
my precious toilet for 3 more mths.

some time later...

sis asked my mom abt new hse again
then updated abt the furnishing and painting

mom: "i going to hire painter"
sis: "show me the colors.
OMGGG this (paintbook) already outdated!!!
dun touch my room ok. i'll paint myself.
then ur son de leh?"
mom: ...(looking at me)
sis: "he not painting GREEN ar?"
mom: ...(continue looking at me)

i nodded. (seem like whole world knows my fav color)

sis: "SEE? so his bed how?"
mom: "dark-color. close to brown."

sis: "OMG!!! (森林) FOREST LIAO"

mom: "hahaha. but the bed i chosen with papa
can suit the deskcom de"
me(DULAN face): "decades ago i already said i dun wan a bed"

sis: "he using laptop de mah. deskcom not ur one meh?"

moral of story:
within this period,
i muz read up interior design bk. hook up some painting skill.
along with tat, more shopping (furniture shop for glass)
cos i already hav some concepts in mind le.

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juz back home from movie.
dying to watch batman, bo bian some1 heard review -ve
so we catch hancock instead.

领悟：很难被看穿的人也是很容易被误会的。

conclusion: the feeling of unable to be with some1 u love is
Miserable.

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luckily with a pickup, gone mustafa to buy soap.

hmm thru Time, some changes of mine r:
1) able to open can drink with single hand
2) using soapbar instead of liq type
3) forgetting some1
4) meeting the passing citeria of napfa *soon*
5) more "experienced" (资深)

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hanging out with ppl older than me,
notice they already somehw have a plan for future
i'm still struggling to sort out my direction...

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these few days while the kids havin dinner
i will play X-japan DVD.
so mom will ask them "男的还是女的？"
well, they aint stupid.

starting to like this song, sharing their band name.

aft comparing all their live concert versions
toshi always hav a part to intro themselves
then he will repeatively shout "we are.."
fans will jump up with a X
followed by hide saying crazy stuffs (but this version yoshiki did)
well, i luv the guitar part towards the ending part.

they are, how i understand the meaning of the word,
legend.

P.S: gg to hav a short nap b4 gg play chess with senior. nite still
gonna watch dance concert to support my ex-colleague.

2008-07-17T23:17:00.003+08:00

你做了决定了吗？

如果你选的是一个快死的人，

那么占卜师就会在一旁叹息道：

“为什么你会去救命中注定活不久的人
而放弃了万万不能死的皇帝？”

如果你选的是不可以死的人，

那么小孩子就会愁眉不展地问：

“奇怪了。
不可以死的人不就是神仙吗？
快死的人你却见死不救。。”

终结：我们是永远无法满足每个人或得到大家的认同。
重要的是，我们要做回我们自己。

You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you.
but most imptly, we juz have to BE OURSELVES.

P.S: shopping did regenerate my drive to work again. today another lesson
i learnt - too much specifications will oni make life diff.

2008-07-14T22:34:00.002+08:00

Who will U save?

你会救谁？

一个快死的人？

或是。。。

不可以死的人？

2008-07-12T23:26:00.004+08:00

as the shaking legs days continued...

staying at home.
lo0king aft kids.
practising endgames.
tired liao, play psp.
bored already, read book.
if not, watch X-japan's concert.

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watch superhero tat lame show.
one part when the song
"all by myself" comes in,
EMO. (esp u played it whn nobody ard)
but overall, it did cheer me up!

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found out sadly tat
more couples ended breaking up.
it's a pity. being outsider,
there's nt much i can say.
juz dun regret the decision.

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well, i finished ard 1/8 of the bk.
actually cant say learnt much,
cos much to surprise,
most of them i already understand.
perhaps 当局者迷, they're either
thrown aside or left forgotten.

1)
Irrespectful (大男人),
More Demanding (compared to stranger)
Nagging(women kpkb)
main reasons of unsuccessful r/s

2)
Money is often the troubling factor
one advice given was to keep a
spending recordbk & budget planning

i know for my case, mainly movies ba.
0so, i muz go & find a job soon!

3)
Friendship.
(here admitting quite a failure i'm)
today as we chat abt old days
a fren told me how stuck up emo
i was due to some women's issues..

another bad habits i havin
walking either too fast or "cut-lane"

earlier on, i developed a "hating"
towards a gd fren i had for yrs.
i know the person wasnt bad.
but sensing the person didnt feel
proud to have me as fren

havin own circle of frenz
i can nv enter or the person ownself
not wanting to come out

slowly i begin to distinguish
the dist of our frenzship bet
buddies, close frenz or juz frenz.
esp tat kind of juz
saying hello, followed by byebye.

well, i 0so hav my own circle.
diff part was how to "split-body"
always in dilemma whn
A and B called u out separately.
often very paiseh to reject them

here to say sry to a buddy
nose-bleeding commando, do tc.
u make me scared of going NS liao.

Criticism, an lethal weapon to
sink a Frenzship.

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early morning went collect new keys
yest gotta slp sooner than usual time
ended insomnia...

lately very healthy digestive system
poo-poo daily. (y?)
cos i think i will miss most my
SQUAT-STYLE TOILET
aft shifting hse.
(i didnt use "moving hse"
cos oni shift 2 streets sia...)

abit crazy. always worry this and tat
e.g. wad if next time

1. wife oni use SIT-STYLE　toilet?

2. wife's 娘家 use ricebowl chopsticks
but i use plate with fork & spoon?

3. wife muz slp in air-con yet i cant

haha, aft brainstorming solutions

1. have a hse with 2 kinds of toilets

2. buy all utensils, kids use hand lo

3. summer slp tgt, winter slp sofa lo

lol

afternoon watch hellboy2.
funniest part - "i cant smile w/o u"

P.S: whn buying balloon for kids,
rmb to tie tightly to their hands!

2008-07-09T23:51:00.004+08:00

quick blog.

finally went back np collect my cert. with ann.

7yrs classmating. didnt really wunder we actually passed.

holy godly.

finally had my 鸡扒面。say 10mths?

finally played pool. say 2mths?

finally re-visit the clubhouse and play chess inside. say 8mths?

finally had my fishball noodle. say 9mths?
(thou the old uncle took quite awhile. didnt saw the old auntie..)

as i eat, behind was playing Beyond's 光辉岁月。
power.

P.S: it's nv been better to have all the old feelings back in 1 day.
i hope today will nv left so soon and autumn wun come so early.

2008-07-08T23:47:00.005+08:00

funny pic i took in zoo.
well, yest i was reading a bk on
how to be happy.
guess if it was 5yrs ago, i think i wun even give it a damn.

it's hard to be ppl's papa.

P.S: the author is Dale Carnegie.

2008-07-06T22:41:00.005+08:00

the easily-get-l0st boy on the ram...

tat time few days back,
didnt know while waiting for bus,
will have a lesson on the weather..the sunlight...the trees..
anw, due to buzy working tempo, we hardly slow down
to observe our surroundings.

fall sick badly on the last day work.
experience another Firm-handshake. pain...

someday later, visited zoo. then gt a ALL-PUT-PLANES steambt.

anw, bought a watch. didnt know it makes me luffing esp in timberland.
(alot of ppl said it's nice. 难得眼光没贴STAMP!)
finally found the shirt i've been lo0king for mths...
in the shop i once visited 2yrs ago. the auntie no more thr.
then the ppl's service is SO CMI...

btw, received a comp invitation. wow, long time nv touch them le.

P.S: a period. to rest. to relax. to rejuvenate. hopefully dun hibernate.

2008-07-01T23:32:00.002+08:00

flu days.
released days.
more to come...

2008-06-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

oh God, how to get rid of the feeling "remorseful"?

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oni thing glad was, the heart knot of frenship
kinda loosen abit liao

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aft wk went nite safa. but aft the show,
din really enjoy myself due to
corkup of some of my disappointing actions.

well, i still have more to learn..
to remind myself constantly
think of other's thoughts
b4 doing any thing.

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the time when
Miss A had a bf
Miss B had a gf
and i had 2yrs in NS
with in addition of many yrs of working
hence, it's not strange tat i'm staying single.

P.S: 人生最难做到的就是难得糊涂。

2008-06-26T23:46:00.003+08:00

haha, turned out to be bad news
[wearing ring dun = got bf]
yet
[wearing ring may = got gf]

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anw. today colleague was saying tat
korean gals praising my hairdo nice sia.
wahaha. i was so "X Japan" liao!

P.S: i haben really distinguish the diff bet
optimism and cheerfulness. now i realised
me being only the latter. no wonder i felt
i gonna die soon one day. no wonder i will
anyhow cut some wires and tot i can get things
done properly with the connection. fat hope

2008-06-25T23:43:00.003+08:00

today every1 was occupied by the
BLACK CAT AT LORY???
over the walkie
tat they heard, sounds exactly like me.

yet i was being stationed at waterfall...
i didnt even reply whn boss kept calling me abt
the DAMN BLACK CAT!

they were LOLing~aLL~dAY.

of cos, along with the sudden qn of me over walkie
"boss, do u know where is the humming birds?"
(a couple flew all the way frm England to see them)
well, "under renovation" (i supposed they r dead..)

btw, i made a simple promise to a pal yet i forgotten it.
heart filled with grief.

anw found out tat i got this old-fashioned thinking of
[wearing ring = attached/married]
well, izzit a gd news or sumtin?

P.S: i'm a asshole who always make ppl wait for me...

2008-06-24T23:43:00.003+08:00

Misunderstanding.

it often occurs
cos we always miss out the minor details

as they accumulate, juz like growing interest in bank
they forms snowball
or even a vicious cycle

i found myself too, helpless in it

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anw. seems like i livin' in sweet surrender
as i received fewer or none hardship

last sat thks God for the thunderful 2hrs-long rain
plus i was TEKKENing with my malay colleague

imagine a queue of visitors,
watching 2 staffs doing some unknown stuffs behind the booth
den suddenly jerk out jumping stepping and slamming
as if a ball misses the goalpost.

cos we got a double KO. lol

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mon offday.
overslpt
initial plan was gg zoo
then nite watch zohan

who know the 927 was damn slow...
change to 190 and board it, still 927 haven come.

nvm, this sat another off. hope to combine nite safa too

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today during work, i realise my colleague's bf already dead.
i found myself stunned in the same manner
when i asked a tourist abt her old partner

life's short. hence we shouldnt waste it.

then she even showed me her tattoo
the symbol of undying love of her for him

overwhelmed.

previously another malay guy showed me his gangfight scar across his stomach.

usually frm ppl i know, after their dark adolescent,
once they change over a new leaf, they r really the Better Man.

remind me The Outsiders

these few morning always bump onto this indian security guard.
astonished by him speaking hokkien to me...

P.S: to whom God places me to meet all kinds of ppl.
i know He wanna me to know how to see ppl.

2008-06-22T00:47:00.003+08:00

wad a surprise day.
well, SHOCKING is a more appropriate.

cos He and i were the earliest.
so as he ate his breakfast,
he asked "i heard u're quitting. (i agree) how come?"
so i replyed "cos i find it boring."
(i cant possibly str in his face say i hate u)

so later on he talked alot. giving alot of his advice.
first time seemed like we had such a long conversation.

"it's like u're in classrm. if u think it's boring, u will
always be finding urself bored. y dun u ask urself how come the rest wun?"

"give it a try today. communicate with the tourist more. i can
see tat u've been picking things up, tat u can do puzzle secretly already.
u know the prob with u was, u aint confident. tat's y i always tell u,
BE A MAN.(smile smile)

my mind was still abit haven wake up, thinking which fellow backstabbed me.
but muz thks the person.

yet immediately later, the big boss came, infront of the whole colleagues
who had juz reported, ask me out to have a talk.

"i heard from kee ann u're quitting. izzit true? if u're havin prob here,
i can transfer u to info or lory."

well, my mind had been set. so thankfully reject,
explaining tat i wanna go back to my old field.

for the rest of the day, He nv gave me any daji. juz randomly came
and repetitively asked me "so how? still boring?" lol
i do admit my mistake whn i nv make the float money into smaller notes.

the lunch, was edible. (definitely not eat-able)

in order to simmer my stomach's anger, went lau pa sat dine.

P.S: as more pictures of reality r revealed. the weather changed so fast.
but after watching news, the bizzard was being understood. juz like a
very complicated knot, it's actually can be untie by simply pulling open.

2008-06-20T23:37:00.003+08:00

a rare happy day
woke up happily by the thunderous roars
ended seriously disappointed with immediate rainstop..

but still very happy. cos i saw the duty roaster dun hav
the "devil" name!!! which means peaceful working day for me!

funny stuff was whn a visitor asked me if the panorail got go bl..
FAINT* i 0so wish it could. i can go home faster.

other happy stuffs was like visitor wanna take pic with me.

anw. here's the main, the core and the essences of this entry.

got this old indian man juz sat down at the platform waiting for
his family to hav walk in the lory. so we started conversation.

such an impact of his qn tat awaken me.
"y did u work here? this was not even related to ur course of study.
U will soon forgot ur stuffs in chem eng field and next time,
who will wanna hire u?"

true. i've been wasting my time. since 3yrs ago the same old kairong,
who made his decision on this path, the 3yrs later same now kairong,
should continue to finish that path.

found out he studied MBA, mainly HR related. so he asked me again,
"do u have gf?"
i shaked.
"ah? how come? i saw alot of youngsters like
u, r holding hands outside."
"dun worry, i see tat u're a gd boy. juz quit this job now, find a related job, finish ur degree and find a gd wife marry off."

everything sounds so easy. but the fog infront of me is really
fading off. if not for the lost vga phone, i would have taken pic with him.

P.S: i nv tot "the devil wears prada" will happen on me. i nv imagine being the boy in the story of "the old man and the sea. the oni thing i can explain was, the devil wears "feathers" and the old man and the "park".

2008-06-19T21:41:00.003+08:00

yest was a totally gave up day.
i always tot no1 can put me down.
yet i muz admit he succeeded.

for he purposely siasuay me infront of ppl.
for he made me to apologise for thing i nv done.
for he juz dun like me. trying his best to chase me away.

even today, he already gave me such a "pleasant" morning greeting.
when 1 colleague took away the key of the station i in-charge of.
the walkie still locked inside. he laughed at me and ask "so HOW?"
wtf how. wtf he showed me a smile as lovely as a rose. so THORNY.

since yest. i made up my mind. QUIT.

for today, luckily he half-day.
left the gd supervisor. smooth work.
he came down and help me settle the ticketing sales and closing.

then he ask me how, is the job ok?
assure me tat once another new colleague pass his driving,
with big boss's approval, i can learn driving too.
(i was actually wanna tell him not to bother, cos i dun wanna waste his effort)
i smiled back and juz shake my head.
den he said "u ok wad, can communicate with walkie. wad problem u have?"
so i reply, "he always say i do stuffs wrongly."
"ya i understand. sometimes i 0so dun like the way he did... like during open area(refering me being scolded in the walkie)"

deeply touched*

anw. watched get smart with new colleague.

突然发现我像是又长大了。
因为今日的我有一样东西昨日的我所没有的。
它叫做领悟。

原来，不常对你微笑的人不代表他不在乎你。
他只是个不做作的人。在你看不见的一旁默默的照顾你。

反之，时常对你微笑的人不见得是在关心你。
他也许是在笑里藏刀。在你看不见的背后狠狠地刺死你。

btw. should u know from my current temper-ous mood
pls dun overly "excite" me
i may not turn into hulk
but it's not gonna be nice too.

cos juz thr will always be 1 or 2 idiots
still dun wanna let me go by saying "wind-cool" words.
even whn i wanna long 4 a moment of peace.

P.S: the weird-mixed feeling of being angry and touched at the same time.

2008-06-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

sry my readers
for not being "pro-active" in blogging.

due to this new work, too tired to type entry
esp require all the negative flashbacks in recap-of-the-day.

one of the most reminiscing thing ever happen,
was when i had to control a queue of 60pax
in addition of a Pressure-giving KRN guide beside me nagging.

so i walkie back to my another supervisor (gd one)
"can u send 2 empty trains over?"

think he was damn PISSed liao too by replying
"I ONLY GOT 4 TRAINS, WAD MORE U WAN!!!"

then others who heard over the walkie all bursted into laughters.

Reflection: God give me a Gift. a person who always make mistakes.
and these mistakes are often very laughable.

yest the big boss wanna us to stay back for "meeting" or "discussion"
wadsoever nice names la. actual fact was juz a reprimanding session.
wanna us give suggestion. so i mention abt complaint from tourguide+tourist
abt mozzie.

u guess wad he ans? "when u getting enlisted? how can u survive there?"

actually i wanna shot back, "ya, i admit i'm sissy boi. but i will be damn
happy one day to see the headline of newspaper - tourist died of dengue aft
visiting bpk."

the meeting ended late 1 hr!!! wad for asking us for suggestion when he dun even
wanna solved them. wad for inviting the GROs along, juz wanna praise them
infront of us, saying our service attitude is poor?

piece of shit. sudden urge to quit.

Forgiving...is giving ur hate juz a little room in ur heart.
still, i dun wanna a eraser in my head

P.S: the worst death i fear of, is to die of Alzheimer's disease. anw, "A moment to remember" is such a nice show worth re-watching again n again.

2008-06-12T20:23:00.003+08:00

l.l.l.l.l.l.
l=alone
.=bore

yawn* whole day.
been a blood donor is really tiring,
at least i managed to slam a mozzie to death.

when a tour guide complaint this issue to me,
he told me to inform management for fogging.

i was like...wad if the birdy die along?

anw. today morning went abit off expectedly with boss
he was asking me,
"do u wan me to chaup siao u,
or to push u harder to learn more?"

meaning i'm not "positive" enough to digest his 用心良苦。
perhaps true, i've turn quite negatively liao

anw. got quite alot of contacts with korean ppl.

well. now crazy whole wk for tat song le.

surprised to hear frm big big boss,
actually there's mystery shoppers.
disappointingly, there's no complain on me..
sack me or not?

realised suddenly is fri tmr.
the feeling was like...
u finally got out of desert after 3days.

P.S: maybe only a negative mind circuit board can turn positive
after alot of negative charge attacks. meanwhile, more rains in june pls.

2008-06-11T07:06:00.002+08:00

rmb the barging tourguide i mentioned in previous post?
during our 3rd encounter, he acually address me "afternoon, sir."
wow.

so as he was waiting for his tourgrp to finish their birdshow,
me standing down thr 0so nothing to do, so chat with him.

"how many language can u speak?"
"offically 3. unoffical, 7."

we continue to listen to his problem.
he explained abt him under time pressure cos those tourists,
esp KLK everytime delay time here and there.
so i explain some of my probs, e.g since z** and bpk having
the hopper admission, yet the tram tix they bought in z**
dun include the same for the panorail ride.

so coincidentally, came a beautiful mother with 3 kids.
guess wad, they wana take the ride, showing me the zoo tix.
bo bian, explain again to her, then her one pretty little gal
complaint "mommy, so ex..."
"ya sweetheart, y not we take a walk ard?"
"but i want mommy."

faint* so young already exhibit the deadly feminie characteristic.
口是心非。

this cute gal caught the tourguide's attention. so he gave them 3 free tix,
where his previous grp didnt took the ride due to time constraint.

so everyday i stand alone, staring at the lotus pond, listening to bird chirpings.

天天对望莲花塘，
何时我心生莲花？

P.S: if some1 i dislike can turn out likeable, how abt vice versa?

2008-06-08T21:42:00.003+08:00

morning cab down to bedok reservior
for SPCA fun run.

cab uncle is so chattable.
weather is so runable with shady-wind.

finish the 4km, thinking
money may not necessarily bring joy,
but it's effective in removing displeasure.

felt recent de me easily lose control of temper.
pls bear with me, esp the unstable me.
perhaps i may turn into the hulk one day.

P.S: it is not tat will not happen. juz so tat the time haven comes. true, for it, i'm willing to wait, like others who spend their lifetime for the moment to appear.

2008-06-07T03:19:00.003+08:00

finally tried billybomber
thks a great pal for tahan~ing all my complaints.
so watched kungfu panda and
lost my phone happily.

thks for it's companion of almost 2yrs.

P.S: the secret lies in no secret.

2008-06-03T23:56:00.003+08:00

vacation over.

there's alot of stuffs filled up in my mind now.
becos of this, i really duno how to start with
and how to convert my feelings 100% into words.

last wkends most prob is happy mood.
been to places like seoul gdn & han's to eat

topics ppl discussed with me were abt stuffs like
finding influential backup
money management

but i know to me, if i can have full control of my time
i will be everything i can be.

mon went for induction
quite unhappy abt the boss's earlier on de arrangements
i should admit partially my fault for not receiving phonecalls

yet i DO get seriously angry if ppl anyhow
accuse ppl
based on his/her assumptions w/o evidence

我喜欢一种白色。它的名字叫清白。

so the boss actually give another 3 new ppl induction on fri le.
(supposedly tgt, plus i did told her to give me asap so i can work asap too)

nvm, mon. timing change here n there.
even if i reach on time, wait here n there, walk here n there.
her time is impt. mine juz seems insignificant arh?

so after her "detailed" explaination
(by kept repeating "do u understand?" and "ok?",
making me feel i'm retarded thou i 0so kept returning her nods and "um"s)

since she had told me start work can oni be after induction,
i really dun have the damn clue it will be tmr.
sure, i can make it, but being considerate and cooperative worker
i have to tell her tat in the mth of june, i hav 2 days tat muz be off.
8th for i have a run, 14th in case of some treats dines.

guess wad. she asked me for reason in a strict manner
tat in the 1st place, i shouldnt have the rights.

"if u wan ur offdays to be in wkends, it's unfair to the rest"
i understand. then off she blah blah came this sentence:

"since u're a newcomer, it's most advisable not to be so calculative."

how will u feel if u're me? i was thinking, hmm my math aint tat super.
izzit really too much to ask for 2days out of 30days to be special for me?

another punching statement was added on:

"smiling is part of ur uniform. this is the expectation of us on u"

certainly i know tat. i wish to do tat and be proud of it.
yet, how could i force out a smile tat aint genuine if the working env dun permit.
it sounds like i shouldnt be asking for credits if i make the visitors happy.

overall, i felt tat words she used dun sounds "harmonical" and "comfortable".
personal comment, perhaps others who read this beg to diff.

later on the induction, watch the birdshow alone, walk ard ard then see ppl frowning bored.
kinda imagine tat they aint wearing their "uniforms"

thou this was wad happen. it didnt hinder me to generate
a hyperactive drive in the morning of 1st day work.
woke up early, even have time to eat mac hotcakes.
found out colleagues mostly not chinese.
abit of diffculty handling walkie-talkie.
handling crowd was still ok, (they always say those indias r most problematic)

then try on to checking for tickets.
here comes the SICKENing part.
a TourGuide (speaks fluent Arabic-Angmoh)
BARGE in with a big grp of indias
i tried slow him down n stop him by asking him
"How many ppl do u have?" (wanna proceed on by asking him to show out their tix)

KNN him, by replying "Do u have the correct attitude?
U cannot ask me "how many ppl do u have?" without using the word "PLS",
while he continue entering and further on KPKB to my supervisor upstairs.

then supervisor send a colleague down telling me "Mr XXX wan me to tell u tat u cant ask the tour guide how many ppl they have. juz let them in."

still i dun find any faults i made tat turn me into a poor-mannered guy.
or rather, ppl who barged in w/o showing proper authorisation is a polite guy.

if oni i can be "calculative" enough to be able to count the visitors juz by my eyes within secs.
how irony.

anyway, things do cork up. esp like the black sportshoes i bought were being rejected to work.
so i put on the not-so comfortable leather shoes whole day (standing+walking)
ended up with feet abrasion tat the pain can be describe as being bitten by thousands ants.
plus i even bought a black jeans (partially due to the excellence service received) for the unsatisfatory job...

furthermore, the bicycle was strongly BANNED by parents..

since the boss she wan me to come early in the morning of 0815, which i couldnt enjoy the privilege of taking the first 0800 air-con bus. Instead, a non air-con bus with a big crowd of passengers at 0745... tat lame thing was, i reached liao oni a few ppl came...

i dun wanna call it a quit.

P.S: it's romantic to see two slping heads in MRT swinging here and there, waiting for the right moment to knock tgt. luckily he woke up and gave up his seat to others somehow or rather. Guess he wun see her again. For he finally understands wad is being called "Service Line" tat is,
accept wadever Blames ppl Donated to u and claim Good Ownership of them.

2008-05-30T23:50:00.003+08:00

Unusual
Stomach Tanker Indictor showing "FULL"

oh well, tat was in pizzahut.
lol, the choco content was damn HIGH!
kinda think of it, these 2 wks i've been treating
my stomach bro damn gd!

recently seem like going on 1wk vacation
my daily slp was capped at ~11hrs
but all was nocturnality
at the costly expense of my bodily functions...

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slacking on sofa, i was day-dreaming.
actually encouragement and criticism r both d same.
juz like there r two types of force, push or pull.

encouraging a person is like pulling him while criticise is pushing.
so end up, the person move nearer to the targeted destination.

hence, thks the ppl who encouraged and praised u, as well as those who once put u down.

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P.S: 出门在外，有时会因为幸运的降临，让你遇到了贵人。他/她可能会把机会像羽毛球一样，从网的对面远远的打过来。遗憾的是，你总是双腿站直直的，那么你会来的及接住它吗？opportunities r like shuttlecocks, thus always keep ur knees bent and stay prepared.

2008-05-29T01:34:00.003+08:00

life
life life
life life life

unexpected rain called me to continue my morning slp
forbidding my swim

went on to POSB grab a new card.
but i'm not naughty enough to ask them wad the diff of it and DBS!

so late afternoon went to my 2nd badminton session
newbie siasuaying...

was playing double with the packaging dept angmoh big boss
he told me "u gotta move behind more to have more power. if not he will always be attacking"

ya true, no wonder 退一步海阔天空。

current interest - badminton
any1 wanna play/coach me, gimme a call.

thou it's late now, cant slp (partially becos too late woke up)
rite now as i typing, i can smell something damn sweet, kinda like cookies
heard ppl say, midnite de sweet smell usually comes from ghost
tat's gd, at least i'm not the oni one awake

P.S: tmr, seem like some big day for the rest, i juz hope rain rain goes away
a gd swim i pray for.

2008-05-27T23:11:00.008+08:00

wola.

think there's 7yrs or more ever since i stepped onto

places like bukit timah hill and birdpk

yest went GSS yet ended w/o any hunting prize

anw, first time been to rochor beancurd

tried to pay phonebill using S.A.M.
blur king insert his ATM wrongly

there goes my card. CUied!

cant "pay by ATM" liao

so today routed to my nearest bank
then ll, the lady said tat i have to apply in POSB, not DBS

now i know tat there is ACTUALLY a DIFF bet them...

ended up late for interview...as usual.

the manager seem to doubt me.

"are u talkative?"(she felt i'm quite quiet)

"i think so."(i cant prove it by telling her i'm a gemini)

"THINK? still muz think?"

"so wad is ur hobby?"

"erm, i've written it down (chess)"

"hmm, can u tell me more abt u? like wad u like to do in ur leisure time?"

"work lo (there's millions of stuffs i did. wad can i say? peeping gals?)"

haha, back to customer service line. w0o

so self-tour the pk. of cos i need to introduce myself to the birds mah.

as i was bathing juz now, thinking of my budgeting list

hmm, i need a pair of sport shoes

cos mainly for playing badminton as current shoes r slippery on the court.

then today the manager muz wore black pants n shoes.

so KNN-smart me tot of buying a black sport shoes.

tot of the stupid journey to birdpk.

require to 2 bus trips.

1 to boon lay.

1 to birdpk.

kinda lame tat realised my hse is stuck in the middle.

might as well juz buy a bike cycle str to birdpk.

faster and cheaper. even more env-frzly and can train somemore.

furthermore, my new hse 0so will be nearer to MRT (in term of lesser by 2 or 3 "roads")

next time no need take bus.

SO REASONABLE to get one.

yet mother said no space to store it.

then she said another auntie got "extra" bike

walau

other ppl got 3 kids then bikes even more than 3.

she got 2 kids yet no bike...

now she wanna her "inspiring" son to ride other ppl de OLD bike

SO UNREASONABLE (KNN, not as if like she's buying. my money hor."

haiz. this is the kind of dine she always prepare.

big rite? but y her son still thin like bamboo?

actually there is 1 more veggie dish.

but i did mention i will be out late today, so any cai dun keep for me.

so i dump it.

WAH! (u guys muz be shouting)

KNN, i cut apple then ask u eat after 1hr u wan? so TIAM!

and pls notice the BIG waterbottle at the right.

it's a new one, old one been used for 3 yrs. even plastic can degenerate.

since it's new, i put in bag with my testimonial tgt for interview.

KNN, it leaked all the way. my testimonial? CUied.

do u know wad is innocent?

they always say i'm innocent.

so maybe i'm the most suitable candidate to explain it's true meaning

Innocent is a pure character which allow ppl to cheat u again and again

until u aint no long tat innocent

afterall now, i still miss the place. actually more on the ppl.

rarely do we see green flower.

rarely we can see green flowers

seem like one of the most rewarding things i got back,

was 3 chinese hanyu pinyin tat made up her beautiful name.

P.S: i guess it means elegant poem. damn, i dun wanna learn piano. badminton instead.

2008-05-25T23:58:00.007+08:00

time flew fast
moment flow rapidly

7wks.
7, the fav no. of mother nature.

but my digit is 6.

last fri was "another" last day in Nestle.
happily i come. happily i go.

let all the talks be untold within the sealed memories.

nite dine at suntec.
1st time eat teppanyaki.
a simple meal for celebrating the "last dine b4 NS" among poly buddies
yet, so simple it seemed, could even ended up cheated.

the taiwanese lady intro their sets of course meal.
the prices were heavenly. 35,45,55,65. w0o.
haha, a hungry man is angry.
so went ahead order.
was being "accused" of anti-social again
cos i was so smitten by the cooking stances.
picture me infront of the chief asking qns out of curiosity.
anw, she kinda looks like evonne hsu.
later on changed to a guy.
so as after he cooked codfish lambchop and chicken chop(js order porkchop)
found out the manager made a mistake.
js was fine with it, but the chief refused.
he cut the chicken into 4 for us and
cook a new porkchop with the boss KNNing behind.
帅!

hmm, if some1 was to sponsor me to learn new stuff.
culinary will be my choice.

after we left suntec, went str to lau pa sat.
satays prawns stingray and fried stuffs all we ordered.
with a jug of tiger beer.
(seemed like we were eating appetitizer all along in suntec)

glad i hopped onto the last bus 30 at habourfront.

sat nite went "hiking" in mustafa.
bought my soapbars with vit C recommended by yk.
we were fascinated at the tie corner.
they really have some HAPPENING ties.
rofl. with the micowaved cheesefries.
cab home.

today nite at the joo chiat chinese restaurant
whr i ate once.
as usual, service was damn cmi. for no service charge mah.

tmr. another shake leg.

P.S: easily get pissed off when there r some insensitive idiots
who will mention stuffs tat u tried to avoid. esp some names u wish to forget.

it's not tat i still haven let it go. but at least i'm trying my best.

juz imagine some1 kept rubbing salt on ur already RECOVERED wound.
thou it's not pain. but wad if the person did it for the sake of IRRITATION purely?

2008-05-22T23:44:00.004+08:00

The Lucky Man's Day (con't)

red.

anw father started his "new strategy"
(in order to cushion the departure of 3rd sis & me)
tat's juz sounds like
'a poem of theory yet joke of practical'

"u guys can say out ur suggestion de. we wun put u down one."
(i was like, haha. true. but u didnt raise us up too.
always "we monitor. we shall see etc." sianZed)

was "scolded awakened" by the new MY colleague.
she said "how come u so bad de. nv invite (2nd sis) to come along kbox"
i knew 2nd sis wun go de. dun wanna waste effort.
she con't "aiyo, still muz ask mah. if not u imagine urself being deserted by us la"

haha. dumbfound. thou this 做人的道理 has already being taught by uncle lee.
perhaps becos of this 1 asshole who kept betraying my trust on his attendance.
so much so tat i forsaken this polite act.

guilt filled my heart. even furthermore in mrt
i actually realised i lost my bold in standing up and giving up my seat.
i really dun feel gd.
luckily another new colleague she stood up, thus i followed her and stood up.
but i'm no longer the caring person i known myself.

the only guy in the kbox rm.
1st sis was astonished "how old exactly r u?"

P.S: tmr. last. final. the end. i will hold back my tears tightly to the back of my eyelids.

2008-05-21T21:47:00.003+08:00

A Lucky Man's Day!

haha, like wad 1st sis said, 'hear no evil'
mine was another evil.
due to the reason tat this blog was rated 'PG',
certain context cant be further revealed.

anw, today woke up auto at the timely of 7.15am!
but the body batt 0so went flat abruptly.
b4 lunch seem to have done alot of things,
they even mention seeing me running here & thr.
yet was another repetition of working hard but not smart.
aint efficient.

count the amt of crisis samples = 123
more to come. haha

make me lost appetite during lunch.
pinning all my hopes aft wk.

corkup happens again. realise another lab colleague booked the timeslot wrongly.
end up left 1/2hr play.

fortunate thing was, got a court oni got 3 players. so invite us to mix mix play tgt.
thou 老人家s will always say "年轻人，要大力一点。"
but haha, really enjoy playing with them.

then colleagues realised i'm badminton newbie for i play like no gahmen de.
but to be able to exert more force, i should eat more.
tat's y even colleague he said "heard frm the rest tat u hav a big appetite."
lol.

tmr, Kbox. life is simply wonderful everyday.

(buden, aft informing mom...she started the issue of money. did spark off my temper. i mean, come on! my last session was duno since when le)

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A cross-country coach came to a village saw a potential in a boy and so, give him his contact no. and tell him to call tmr at this same time.

next day, the phone rang. within a few rings, it stops. the cycle repeated for 5 times and after which, it ends.

all the while, the coach was beside the phone.
hence, after tat day, the boy nv see the coach again.

Moral of Story: how determine are u? do u have the Perseverance to reach ur goal or are u like that boy who cant even make a long durable ring?

my habit as i dial to some1 usually last long, after which, i wun call again. cos i trust the receiver is mature enough to call back after seeing A miss call. (dun need to be childish to let ppl see umpteen times of missed calls)

this is my gd habit.

so here is my worst habit (contributed by JS)

if u notice, ever. me walking in a gang usually walked infront, with a walking pace tat those behind cant catch up. (like i'm going to 投胎)

when ppl r engaged in a grp conversation esp, i will be the one most up front alone.
wad does this make ppl think? i'm DAO.

haha, using my logic to explain myself, i'm a gemini who once gotten lost of interest, instead will spur on to get himself exposed to new stuffs ahead.

tat's y i luv sitting in the front of upperdeck bus.

like me, accept me. incurable as it seems. haha!

P.S: 3yrs of lifestyle living along the boundary line. this can be my gd pt while at the same time, my weakness. it's tiring and i wanna change - badly.

2008-05-20T22:05:00.003+08:00

=)

thou humidity is high, morning was still ok.
lest aint late.

1st sis told of 30+ crisis samples.
so i went down to sample reception collect.
then malay auntie said got 80.
i was like HUH? "18 or 80???"

went back n complain ^&$#^$#&)()_*&
then 2nd sis suddenly said
"cher, wad the big deal? 400+ samples we 0so like tat cleared off."

at tat moment, weird as it seems, a light seem be shone over my head.
ENLIGHTENMENT***

"when we use a pair of tiny eyes n see an object, it is big. However, wad if instead, we use another pair of bigger eyes?"

心胸要宽，肚量要大。那么，遇到再大的问题，一切都已无所谓了。

anyway, yest nite didnt slp early. too obsessed to finish the book "The Four Attitudes That Successful People Have"

one of the chpts did mention, whenever u faced any difficulties, juz say the 3 magical words, "不要紧。"

haha, back to 2nd sis. she was having prob of punching holes of a v thick stack of paper. so i offered my help. then she declined, "u go buzy with ur stuffs la." but stubborn me got it done. "i cant always depend on u."

"but i scared i no longer have the chance to help u again."

another chpt 0so mention, helping ppl is 0so an art. u need to do it in such a way tat the ppl u helped wun feel tat u're sympathising them.

after work, caught myself in a situation of inside gym alone.
yet in other words, i'm able to go thr independently le!
great thing was, tmr got ppl jio me go play badminton liao! haha
(thou heard tat they quite pro, i still trust my reflex.)

a song tat 1st sis sang during work. seem like her current fav.

P.S: guess Tumeric is my solution now. perhap in future will have yoghurt as mate too.

2008-05-19T23:24:00.007+08:00

anyway, forgot some of these pics.

1) went to jurong lake. next time my new hse will be ard thr. so most prob will spend some time to freq thr in more routine manner. but nonetheless, a nice place for couple. tranquil, esp with the wavy reflection of city lights. final touchup with a bright full moon hanging on the cloudless nite.

2) went to flyer. another great place to bring a gal along. (but provided i got the tickets...)
well, the popeye was smelling sweet.

3) went to adam mkt to eat the "long Q" nasi lemak. aft which been to serene ctr (again) for the ice-cream. then nothing better to do, went to bukit timah the lan+pool shop for pool.

KNN, i hate the damn china guy. poor service. i said "9ft" then he no response. so he asked me "会员？" i shook head. give me some kinda of form telling me to fill. i ask wad tat. he said membership. but i dun wanna to join, rather spend more since i dun freq there. guess wad? "不是会员不能玩。" we was like WTF. walk off.

then went to my fav usual past-training place, mambo.

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nice to meet up with old frenz.

nice to enjoy dealing with cork up.

nice to bump into fren finally who haben watch iron. luv the sentence "dun waste ur life."

nice to have frenz scolding me cos they 为了我好。

nice to have my gd stomach back aft visiting 7times of toilet within 2 days.

nice to have my confidence back whenever i play pool. esp the feel was there.

nice to have a semi-pro gal playing at the opp table, cos gals r really seductive when they really know how to play pool.

P.S: nice to have Tomorrow coming, always.

2008-05-18T16:36:00.010+08:00

thks God for uplifting my swimming-rain curse!
well, yest the weather is so perfect as i wished.
Sunny + Windy = kaizi's healthy day~

self-explored the entrance to bukit timah hill.
see monkey. how cute! (esp the pink nipples, haha)

notice ppl coming down the steep slope backward.
(rmb teacher last time said got purpose behind it, forgotten it)

anyway, rather disappointed after reaching the peak..
cos NO KICK DE. within 1hr+ oni..
but i like to read the signs along the route.

then tried the rocky path. nv imagine really need to use hands...

tat was like wad ben said, "so nim's island..."

then later went swimming alone.
tat was so my day!
returned home, lift up the sky to thks God for the gd weather.

saw this kinda strange cloud, as if there was a scar on heaven.

well, i've tried watermelon+grapes juice. nice.

P.S: some1 juz kept irritate me by saying abt wad if suddenly bump into agent J. well, i believe in fate. since it's short-lived, i guess the chances of meeting is slim. i will try my best to avoid, evade, disappear so unnoticablely.

2008-05-17T02:47:00.002+08:00

yest found myself alone reading in the lib after wk.
today caught Nim's island finally. have been longing to watch it all becos of Jodie Foster.

well, i juz like to see her acting, esp staring at her determined eyes.

during work, realised tat a new sample rm gal was actually a chinese (she look too malay to me)

luckily crisis samples came in on time, for 1st sis may even have to come tmr...(father had to come back on mon to work..)

after work, was chatting with the NUS gal. found out alot of ladies there were older than they actually look! (i confirmed be chopped to 18 pieces if ever one of them see this. SHh...)

she suddenly said "i've heard quite alot abt u. super weigher"
i was Sianz-halfed. didnt know i gonna become a legend after i left soon.
despite this, i really dun like the stupid nickname...

hope tmr grandpa Sun is out and grandma Rain do take some rest.

P.S: 爱是不是不开口才珍贵?

2008-05-14T21:14:00.003+08:00

perhaps God spray a special perfume on me.
if not, y am i laughing all days?

a new NUS gal came. as usual. another cute one.

anw, samples r all clear.
i know i did a great job(of cos with the help of mother & sisters)
but well, indeed i will lose my job. (last day 23rd)

today i DIDNT weigh samples. such abnormal day.
paperwork instead. whole body juz felt weird.
quite not used to it.

some funny stuffs to share.

1) i was at the sample rm taking samples from the movable cabinets.

so i turn the wheel...turn turn turn then %^$#^%#@.
it came out!

sample auntie: "oh GOSH. u better dun drive!!"

2) when u're in a female-dominating env, better dun say anything tat will cause ear injury.

i asked 1st sis how she celebrate her mommy day. so she mention abt with her 4 sisters, bought her mom out. then i said "wah, all daughters!"
.
.
.
.
alot of faces turned and stared at me.. the rest will be "silence is golden"
.
.
.
2nd sis: "we women although speak loud, but with reason de."
sobs (i better find one quiet de)

3rd sis: tat time i went over to my bf hse...
me: oh, u lived with ur bf?
she blushed: NO, i oni 过夜...

3) what is ur religion and belief?
i ask 1st sis "so ur family all are catholic?"
"No, i'm the only one. i follow my husband."
"haha, thou 老天爷每次对我很好 but i rather slp late on sunday."
"aiyo, going church is nice. who know, u may meet ur true love there!"
"...am i so superifical?"
lol

P.S: ppl always complain tat they are lonely.

a child is troubled. so he sought a priest.

"there is this creepy dark boy always following me whenever i go.."

"my child, it's ur own shadow."

"what is a shadow?"

"it is some1 whom God create to keep u accompanied."

"But y am i still so bored and lonely?"

"wait awhile my child, let me ask ur shadow."
"oh, he said becos u dun accept him as ur fren."

"But father, he dun speak to me!"

"Haha, this was y u felt alone.
when u dun even accept urself, how will others accept u?
if u dun make the first move to ask, u will always be the last to get ur ans.

2008-05-11T21:07:00.004+08:00

To All Mommies: HAPPY MOMMIES DAY!

yest went meet ben at aljunied pk
such a nice weather tat one can ever ask for.
the mood was perfect esp for a long journey bus.
since 顺路, called out ann to eat tgt b4 heading vivo.

finally bought my juicer(which had been on my mind several mths ago)
well, the price was steady solid too, nv up or down.
wad lucky was, actually wanna buy it a day ago after seeing it somewhere else.
but HENG, yest there was a free toaster along.

THE FUNNIEST THING HAPPENED.(of cos which made ben lol non-stop)
i was asking the promoter "can i pay by ATM?"
(in case u dun catch it, shou be NETS)
KNN, my english was ultimate liao.

anw, tat day forgot to mention here, yk was so fortunate to have such a gd gf
who taken so well care of him.

carried the bulky stuff back hm. realised mom already bought something.
CHUASAI NOT JUICER but a sewing machine...
then she was happily sewing all kinds of Z-zag pattern.
i was like "...mom, i already done it in my sch"
(thou i enjoy it during home econ, but i cant say aloud cos we were in a boys sch..)

today went to buy cake for daddy from a shop tat once gave me happy memory.
(guess u guys r curious y not for my mom)
cos we always celebrate dad Bday on mommy day while mom Bday on daddy day.

wad was my daddy Bday wish?
not to get into jail...
(for he got a dumb son who duno how to do IRAS tax income online, KNN)

P.S: the title of my fav humor bk is called "MISTAKES"

2008-05-10T03:42:00.005+08:00

dusty lazy.

date back to last thu labour day.
wad expected wasnt being expected.
a growling stomach is enough to anger me.
luckily b4 the nice PH ends, caught the movie doomsday.
then cabbed hm. 1st time after the fare increment.
20bucks is CUIed~

fri went eat chicken rice with ben.

juz reach hm, then rushed down to coach's hse slp.
cos we're going KL early the next morning!

KL trip was fun. hotel cheap cheap oni.

bought new shoes n watch. so gdbye to my 2yrs shoes(over hundred bucks)
movie was cheap too. watched Run Papa Run.
thou abit draggy tat most ppl cant take it,
but there's always stuffs being slowly digest by Sylvia Chang's film.
then again, thou she enforce her religion as well.

well, Guan Gong taught us to 讲义气。 God taught us to love.

we took quite a late bus back sg. it was slow too...tot could catch my last bus at 11.30...who know it reached oni at 12.30.

but along the highway, w/o much lamplight and high building,
the sky was full of endless stars.
Beautiful.
痴痴地 star grazing

Enlightenment: Oni at the darkest place will u see the brightest star.

so slp at coach's hse again b4 going str to work.
end work went to gym with joey again.
"Aint u're tired?" din appear in my mind.

tue nite went NEL tour to Hougang with ben. omg, the mall was so "no comment"

wed nite went to BB toastmaster(intro by joey)
quite fun. thou i really notice my english sux as usual.
growLing vs growing...

an incident @ KFC.
i said "ice mountain" when i wanna order mountain dew.
the guy look at me "."
i said "tomato sauce" when after which he add on "Ketchup?"
his face was ".."
then i wanna change the coleslaw, i mentioned "Mashed potato"
he corrected me again "Whipped Potato?"
our expressions were both "..."

thu nite was used on recharging. auto woke up today at an early time of 7am.

morning meeting was funny. father already plan to give treat since i was leaving.
then next wk he going holiday so change new strategy by switching them all back to heavy metal analysis. wanna us to concentrate full force.
so they asked him back "so if by the time u come back, samples drop to less than 100. Treat us hor! cannot 2 in 1 de."
lol! "FORESEE" "I SEE"

middle of the day, 1st sis came quietly to me and whispered "mr XXX juz now told me tat u really have a gd character, 不记仇。"

already contented at today was a smooth work day liao.

dine at Nihon Mura @ cathay hse with quite a big grp gang.
except for 1 bloody fellow who dun even made the effort to tell me he's not coming.
KNN to max.

watched wad happens at vegas.

highly recommended for those who wanna a gd laugh.
cabbed hm again. nice chat with taxi uncle.
i still cant believe y ppl always took one look @ me
and think i got a gf somehow or rather..

too bad he dun wanna intro his daughters...
most worst was to have a gf who live at places like tampiness!

P.S: I'm not rich yet i'm wealthy. My heart aint as cold as metal but it's made of gold. for I grab chances. for I seek opportunities. for I pursue possibilities.

2008-05-01T17:53:00.004+08:00

I posed this qn to them.
"wad if one day u're making milo,
suddenly u realised ur condensed milk has ran out?"

3rd sis: put more milo powder lo. they said it will taste even sweeter.
1st sis: i dun put condensed milk de. hehe
2nd sis: ya lor, i dun put 0so. put sugar can liao.

i almost drop off my seat.

Golden lesson: sometimes not treating a problem as a problem is actually
0so a way to solve a problem.

cleared of my backlogs. yest was a COLORFUL day.

yet a jiejie frm another lab is leaving. haiz. i will miss aother person to smile with.

recently not much places to blow~blow~wind.
so much so try taking NEL to faraway places like kovan with ben.
been yrs ever since i stepped into heartland mall.

nowadays rich liao, again pool days. trying to restrict myself to once/wk.
most lol with xinying's TKB.

P.S: i was so happy like siao outside when my mum suddenly called me for my LOVE letter came finally! this blog might be dusty from 15 sept onwards. meanwhile TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN!

2008-04-28T23:09:00.003+08:00

MonBlue.

bulk of d day was finding a batch of "lost" samples.
Ex. 34, 35, 36 & 37 was taken out once by lab A.
i weigh 37 early b4. then lab B took 35 & 37(frm me)
so today i need to do 34, 35 and 36.
spent quite a time looking, but 35 was finally found frm B(thou he previously assume being returned)
then search for the oddballs 34 or 36. later found out got lab C haven done their analysis. so check it out with them.
upon asking, even discover how come lab B got results for 34 & 36(no1 else beside A logout for them)
KNN. so it's with A all the while...du lan. somemore almost lost 36 when they didnt seal it properly(maggie sauce)

anw, looking back at this bitter exp, kinda fun for the "detective" part.

last wk father already inform me today will have a lunch treat frm all the labheads.
i was like "wad4?"
then the reason was damn dumb - "for the ppl who r leaving & those coming in"
i mean, is it worth celebrate happily? esp the quitting ones.

then labheads worh. tot their salaries combine surely muz be big feast.
KNN, they ask the malay auntie to cook nasi lemak. WTF. (thou auntie really cook nice) lol, so lack of sincerity.

went bought a BIG book frm BIG bookshop. think will need alot of time to digest it.

P.S: the all-time males prob r always circling ard "money", "career" and "woman". it's juz how u priorities them. saying yet is always easy.

2008-04-27T21:41:00.003+08:00

max shagged after 3D camp.

fri first time wore short pants to work.
(supposedly lower part of body be completely covered in lab)
juz heckcare.

1st sis: WAH, ur leg hair so Q!
mother: SO sexy arh ur leg!
lol.

camp was erm erm. already say too much, not willing to repeat again here.

nitewalk part was sauna for me. boring at first. after his idea of lurking in dark, then much better.

long time nv went bukit timah mkt eat liao. the fishball stall didnt open. miss the food not becos it's taste duno how gd, but the filling~stomach~full days(cost 2 bucks nia)

not much slp. turn in soon.

P.S: when it was neither his fault nor her fault. luv is abt give & take. with in addition of endurance, patience and of cos maturity.

2008-04-24T23:39:00.001+08:00

superman day.

weigh 6 sets (with the help frm them of cos)

shuang si le!

2008-04-22T23:45:00.004+08:00

been a long time to have such a happy working day.

morning meeting, father say
"kairong, can you weigh 4 sets today?"
i gave a face "0.o"
"Nono, i'm not forcing u. try ur best****"

actual translation:
"u muz weigh 4 sets today but dun go ard say i force u de"

thks to help frm a new colleague n 2nd sis.
mother went to learn frm 2nd sis(she will replace her after 2nd quit)
mother helped her wash the caps then 2nd sis was like "aiyo, so gd to me, oni wait till i going to leave. haiz, u like tat how i bear to leave"
then 2nd sis went returning favor back.
so i saw both of them working in harmony.

then when i was in sample rm with new colleague,
mayb i'm always siao gina.
or mayb see too much digits until she turned siao too.
funny to see from a serious-looking person.

lunchtime they all mention i was like eating like a chore.
i 0so feel like i'm bathing instead of eating.

back to work. after printing out my weighs, went to another lab collect my paper.
the bitch labhead say "wow. u walk very fast"

actual translation:
"u better watch out since u're in my lab. u run here run there later accident i will make sure u die horribly."

dun give a damn. anw the lab today u will see A+B, C+D, E+F+G, H(father alone)
teamwork was great. then joke joke here & there was fun too.
i was weighing a drinking pdt with a name behind attached "industrial"
so act sotong "woah! got a special kopi for ppl who work at industry ar?"

if not for them, i wun be able to complete 4 sets b4 5.35pm.
haha, first time to leave so early.

lingered at the park again. sour arms.

P.S: read tat bk which covers a topic on how to heal a r/s wound. the recommended solution was the method tat i despised most - "find a new one and move on"
i think most ppl tend to make comparison and impose on their new of wad their old used to have. hence, i rather myself forget completely first. it takes time i know, but i can do it and i will make it.

2008-04-21T23:17:00.009+08:00

HOT humid day..
(easy to rage off temper)

last nite cant get into slp
(cos afternoon was heavy doze)
play PSP late late till morning almost late badly.

thks God, making the bus stopped b4 i cross the road.
kinda surprise to see bus auntie.

finally see 1st sis. v miss her after she chicken pox.
she was shocked to hear tat i have temper.

miserably weigh 4 sets. thks to help from a new colleague.

joey was my gym instructor of the nite. i was like, so laughable?

chrysanthemum or sunflower?

P.S: my fav hotspot on bus is the front seat of upperdeck. seldom do gal like to sit thr. perhaps 1%.

2008-04-20T03:56:00.004+08:00

Bright Full Moon

fri morning meeting was funny one.
苦中作乐, is most "digestive funny"

perhaps i seldom wear so nice.
maybe i rarely make my hair.
when they saw me, "wow! got date tonite ar?"
even 2nd sis asked. me smile smile.
so she exclaimed "hee, give me so shy de laugh."
y every1 r so concern abt me going to date?
hmm...

weigh 1 set again.
a NTU jiejie came past n said "the way u weigh looks v fun"
so i asked "tat time u weigh not fun meh?"
(she was kind enough to help out weighing in my lab aft i end attachment)
she shaked her head...

workend meet ben to compass pt.
quite seldom went so far.
recently took alot of NEL train.
tot it started since like 5yrs liao.
still got ppl like "nv took b4"
esp the 没骨气 part. damn lol.

slpt at 4am+ woke at 4pm+
going for a senior's "last dinner"
b4 he go NS.

had some long-time hearty laughing.
btw, he gave me a bk on how to date a gal...

watch forbidden kingdom.
like the part "empty ur cup"

P.S: my life philosophy is 3/4.

2008-04-17T22:45:00.004+08:00

slpy day.

last nite didnt really slp well.
so today wet morning is even harder to climb up.
almost "late deliberately"

2 sets today. didnt wanna stress the juice outa me.
morning was solving the HPA prob.
leakage of N2. then i heard the sizzling sound.
close my eyes n listen hard.
slowly put my hand over the source of sound,
it's been discovered.

lesson: sometimes, we have to calm down and close our eyes. perhaps the heart see clearly than the deceiving pair of eyes.

surprise tat mother bought me soapbars from mustafa.
"i treat u like my sons." haha, lovely.
even mom said aunt bought me duno wad facial wash frm thai.
co0l, even others already so concern abt my face.
how could i abandon it.

nan de today walk home still got sunset to watch.
but the damn park duno under wad construction.
so muz walk further up to have a pull or so.

P.S: for ppl who care for me. i wun forget them.

2008-04-16T23:44:00.001+08:00

Chomp Chomp nite.

not really in working mood.
was helping mother, weighed 1 set oni.
then 2nd sis was kping abt how come i not weighing..
pissed.

happy thing was, i do all i can to clear my name.

2008-04-15T19:39:00.002+08:00

4 sets today.
punkchey liao.
stomachache-d.
(almost lost my wallet)
think throat is giving me signal of fever...
bed is summoning me.
pillow is singing "here w/o u" to me...

P.S: let's see wad shall we have in the menu of dream tonite..

2008-04-14T22:48:00.003+08:00

mild day. stuck wholeself in IQ qns.

enjoying now. watching X Japan concert~
happy to see them again.
yet sad to see the slot in of hide vid.

i always yearn for the change in 2yrs.
but who know, maybe after 10yrs, my nature still remains.

juz like the Kawai piano.

P.S: another weakness of mine, over-promise.

2008-04-13T23:22:00.003+08:00

been listening to rock too often.
easily agitated...

the fact tat how random ppl can affect my mood.
KNN
in MRT, there r ppl with huge bag who slam u as they turned
in Bus interchange, there r ginas who dun queue up yet first to board.
luckily the bus uncle didnt stop bus when they press bell.
of cos, they shouting vulgarity. but this juz make me happy.
in PS lift, got a taitai standing rite beside the panal, blankly looking.
so got ghost coming in ar? wth she duno how to use lift izzit?
if she felt the buttons r too dirty to touch with her "clean" finger,
can she go take escalator??? fine, my fingers r dirty.
in bowling alley, got "foreign talents" came and juz row our balls!!!
of cos, i hugged my green ball everytime i made my throw.
in KFC, got kids juz open up the straw container lid.
duno digging for gold or wad...later "hand foot and mouth" DIE SIA.

anw, talking abt KFC, walk to shengsiong to buy another LAY'S.
for the promotion thingy tat end today...too bad, out of stock.
WTH, walk another dist to go NTUC. been many yrs since i entered it.
cos always go to 399 de NTUC, so the nearest one was being forgotten..
childhood flashbacks (accompanying mom)
anw, so v pitifully walk back to KFC again...quite despo.
was surprised to see so crowded.
but yet, lucky me. cos i queue in the middle, infront suddenly went to right.
then i shortened of 1 queue. then infront again went to left.
so i HAPPY LIAO. but nowaday even queue got tactics liao. muz find 2ppl queue diffly.

but today was really a wonderful day. i woke up at a wonderful timing of 4pm.
had a dream. dreamt of ppl tat long time nv seen liao.
but den in dream ar, i will still rmb the amt of money left in my wallet. KNN.
this time, in the dream, aft some1 made an impressive debate, i was thinking hard.

think think think until suddenly got enlightened tat realize i was dreaming.
so i told myself it's a dream n woke up automatically.
been ages since i done this cool act. if oni i can do it in reality.

anw, life of mine is always so funny. for instant, i wore unmatching socks out.
mom came blaming me tat took her hard time looking for another pair.
during bowling, i did an amazing stunt.
ball flew backward. damn siasuay...
of cos, my nail broke...MANICURE PLS!

P.S: attitude/attribute. belief/behavior. communication/charisma. determine/discipline. EQ/emotion. foundation/faith. grace/glamour. humour/habit. IQ/imagination. joy/joke. knowledge/keen. logic/luck. management/money. nature/nimble. organised/objectives. perseverance/positive. quick/quality. relax/reflex. special/socializing. trust/teamwork. understanding/useful. vision/vogue. weather/wit. X-ray eyes. youth. zeal.

2008-04-12T18:36:00.003+08:00

The time fiannly came when i lost complete control of my temper.

so yest. damn fret up. father came back in midst of his meeting suddenly to tell me kept the ice-cream samples tat i had weighed n digested aside, not to be transfer.

i already can guess the topic of their morning meeting liao. PISSED Off.

so aft lunch when he return back ask us for discussion, i KAOPEI back.

with 2nd sis commenting "哇，平时看你静静的。生气起来这么怕人。。。"

the lesson being taught painfully on me: "helping ppl yet get bitten in return of gratitude."

nite watch a lame bedtime show with joyce.

i need some ice to simmer down.

P.S: when u bump into some1 u know. tendency is, u will bump again onto many more. an observation of increased in "polite" ppl nowadays.

2008-04-11T01:26:00.003+08:00

Juz dun wanna close my eyes yet.
warning: this entry is gonna be boring dry. not compulsory for u readers to read. for my own reference purpose.

Today is quite a day.

天气：忽阴忽晴
颜色：带点灰暗的红

at one time, dishearted. yet later, motivated.

morning meeting, first time heard 3rd sis talk out loud.
think if i'm in her shoes, i would do so too.
father's new tactic is basically pushing most tasks to her.
claiming "i know it's mental stress. i understand de."
with extra oil into fire, boss said "no, i dun understand y there should be stress"

KNN, my upper jaw is creating friction with lower ones.

14 more ice-creams samples came in. i'm on the momentum thus not big issue.
but was being called down to sample rm to help segregate for my lab with another 2(A&B)

situation was, previously i done it b4 with lab A. lab B didnt send any1 down. i didnt complaint or anything. today lab B came but not A. (A said they too buzy to come do help) i 0so fine with it. (which means i done it twice) i can help them to segregate. doing halfway self-happily, came lab A's head.

here's d FUCKING DULAN part. she down there ###blablablacksheep###: "this kind of ice-cream got 2 flavors with the white choco chip. so muz melt first completely b4 taking it so tat it is homogenous"

prob 1: hello mdm, i dun have much time. i was being taught to do the way i did which dun have any influence on my lab analysis. if u got any fucking special requirement, do it urself.

prob 2: wake up mdm, u didnt send ur ppl down to do. i already nv ask u to say "thank you", wad the fucking prob u hav solve it urself. dun make ur bloody prob my bloody prob pls.

prob 3: excuse me mdm, previously one of ur ppl do it the way i did. so? uhuh?

i shot back "so can u show us the proper way to handle this?" to shut her trap up.
even v.manager commented "wah, u sure know how to talk recently."

sry, i really cant control my temper much. u wan complain, ask the boss to sack me.
do u understand how hard izzit for me to scoop up the "haven melted" ice-cream..

but i really still haven master the talking skill. if not i could have change father's stubborn mindset. if oni he can fight for his ppl to ask for more manpower, 3rd sis wun cry today..

so purposely do this n tat to stay late behind, if nt she will be left alone validate results..but mother said we should go n leave her some private space to talk to father.

end up mother & i went to my area there. she was recommending this soup stall, so after tat have hrs of chat. enlightened abit. 有些东西开始看得开。 haha, even she noticed my achilles' heel - lack of confidence.

P.S: even the mix-veg stall auntie today say "哦，小弟，你很久没来了。" wad izzit tat makes my impression on others? anw, the most impt thing now is gonna layout my foundation blueprint.

2008-04-09T23:52:00.006+08:00

Health: Badly wounded
Luck: Proportional to health...

i rotated my head too fast. ended neck sprain.
lactic acid still accumulated in my leg muscle.
plus my blackgreen knee cap, i walk like shit.
stand too long, kena toe pain..

nv weigh samples today. whole day preparing ice-cream samples..
then got idiot testing the fire detector until it went off..

whole company ppl had to come out suntan 4 nothing!
sianz. max. vexed. losing control of my temper recently..

so decided to walk walk aft work.

anw, cut my finger while making honey lemon...

P.S: Twisty + Ice-creams = hatefully sinful

2008-04-08T22:36:00.004+08:00

Casualty Day.

knock onto my knee cap while weighing-rush...
i was like.."argh~~~" silently hugging my leg.
ren..ren...ren....

anw, yest do some counting b4 leaving.
14 sets. if assume samples stop coming in
and i'm in my 3 sets/day speed
then i still have 1 wk to finish sia...

happily thinking of my "fast" speed,
till i saw behind queuing was 36 ice-cream samples
nv handle so many b4. i was abt to traumatise!

who know today heard v.manger said "got 60 more coming in..."

F.A..I...N....T.....

"First Aid. Second Consultation. Third Medication. Fourth Operation. Fifth, Pray to God..."

P.S: Communication is like searching the Key to open the chatterbox.