Saturday, December 12, 2009
haven been feeling happy recently.
a tiring wk.
-grandpa 49th i've lost somewho in this world who always give his support to me
-big boss-changing parade 'who would have thought that the no4 man, will 1day be holding onto the color?'
-people whom we used to call 'friend' well, whn half of the manpower had been at US for exercise, higher up told us to 'suck-thumb' overwk for the country but i dun understand y whn they r back, we are still kept planned for this and that. even when i alrdy going to be on leave the next day, ppl planned me...
wad more frustrating is, the friend whom i knew came back from the 'xiong' US ex, complaint abt a substandard work i put onto the display board. yea, the idea is mine. but i instructed my man to come up with it.
if so, he say, i am an officer. hence, if i think my man din carry out the job properly, it's my responsibility to F them.
too bad, i'm quite F-up myself to bring myself to really F my man. well, seem like he enjoy irritate me, even though knowing i'm busy for the parade... or izzit he had been been...rather free?
my man came to ask me this funny qn 'sir, i thought you and KXXXXX they all together a gang one. how come this morning he came to scold u as if he's higher rank then u?'
lolz, silence is golden yeah...
then again, another of my coursemate SXXXX came back from his sweet oversea holiday the period he took, was actually the most xiong period now though he's back and we should be happy abt it.. but apparently, my buddy niam to us abt his slack work-attitude
haiz, a sense of the course bonding is going to break sooner or later.
-self-confession btw, i'm aint saint too. i dun complete my work well enough at least the standard and quality ppl wana my encik was praising to the rest while i was on the parade marching 'tat young fellow gt drive.' thou i did screw up at most of the times tat make the rest of the enciks worry... hence, kena embarrassing replacement.
change of topic and come to my leadership it's poor, i admit. my buddy told me, 'i've the heart for them but i din make an effort explain my rationale behind my instructions. thus, it didnt turn out nice for those at the end receiving the instructions. bottomline was, there is a need to change my tone.
maybe there is a desire that leads to anticipation but this may lead to disappointment during the course of participation.
the world is full of addictions and temptations. i hold on to my heart and remind myself to stay content at all times. but and however, to the worldly ppl, it seems like i have no ambition or even been accused for using it as an excuse to stay among with the so-called losers
a simple encounter with those annoying insurance agents esp as u walk by the mrt or bus interchange, they will INTERCEPT u despite ur hand signal of rejection... in addition, they will often send an opposite sex to target u hence poor thing u will have to sympathize them by helping them with their so-called survey and then proceed to their table and chairs where their PREMIUM plan will be intro to u all u need (or have) to do is to sign up for them
well, it did happened to me AGAIN. nah, i wun sign up so stupidly this MY not-so-young lady approached me. so i reply her qns in a not-so-gentlemanly manner causing her to change her mask by saying very mean stuffs like 'u wana be some uncles pushing the cart in those kopitiam?' a matter fact; i dislike those who aint tat rich yet trying to act weathly by looking down on the poor!
P.S: only wanna lay down and forget everything, yet ppl kept disturbing my short-lived dream.
reflected at 9:27:00 PM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
away for so long too many things occur
firstly, Grandpa had left me mother said his departure was peaceful but still, they are difficult to hold back if i can travel back to time, the person i wanna meet most is grandma, letting her know how much i luv him
back to 'complain' abt ns life in short, my passion has turned cold esp after incidents that happened...
touched a bk recently found this phase that caught my attention
Aude Aliquid Dignum
P.S: pls Rekindle my Desire with a Overwhelming Passion
reflected at 10:43:00 AM
Monday, September 21, 2009
it's been a fulfilling long wkends i supposed
(still been lazy to upload any pics thou)
fri: a nice chat-dine with ex-colleague then allnite-dota with coach (jumphop many lan shops juz to find e latest map)
sat: morning visit grandpa. glad to see him better as his appetite returns. even managed to meet the doc for the 2nd time, mainly abt his condition. 2yrs. evening watched thirst with ben
sun: kbox. pool. finally aft duno how many mths liao...kinda lost touch
today: fully reserved as body batt charging. since this wk should be quite demanding. on stdby for the f1...sad to hear
tue. once we return to camp, our cpt gave us 2 days course under the blazing sun. since aft comms parade we r alrdy 'medium-rare' in addition of these 2days, we ended up 'well-done' loh
anw, a team of 3 is to set up and tear down the stn. every mistake made cost us down 5. so end of the day we went back n count...seems like we did ard 80-90plus liao
fri was finally appointed as ops o. luckily no flying as it was cohesion day. so we went to south ridges ltr in the afternn kena soak in rain...(somemore it's the same spot i used to 'smell' the raindrop)
anw, fri learnt something, from a mistake i made that my peers deem me as using rank (sometimes whn u did something improperly, even ur kind intention will end up being misunderstood)
well, guess i'm too soft-hearted. should be more selfish and save my own ass in future
btw, met a nsman lta, havin to take his signature for attendance. he looked at me and asked 'did u undergo operation recently?' i shaked my head and he continued 'u may hav surgery soon, if nt then might be hacked by some1. be careful.'
i blur blur stoned thr...come to think of it, if his fortune-teller is zun, i should have asked him 'something' at least...
times flew fast some still-like-yesterday stuffs dawned onto me ok, i'm no longer that young liao e.g wind-cloud is finally back aft 10 fucking yrs!! whoo
there goes the same for some songs. changes r not unexpected too
P.S: 'we have to leave the past and strive for higher planes'
reflected at 10:01:00 PM
Sunday, September 13, 2009
12 sep 09 finally commissioned aft 9 tough mths
thanks God for giving us the fine weather everything's beautiful except tat the parade aint perfect i will miss the SSM and 'luv him deep deep' his 'bend ur knee' 'dig ur heel' 'lock ur elbow' esp 'THERE U ARE!' haha
the moment when we threw our peaked cap was really ~ORGASM~
P.S: i have done my Grandpa proud.
reflected at 9:22:00 AM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
1mth left for the day offically 'from a boy to a Man'
reflected at 11:30:00 PM
Sunday, August 02, 2009
done alot of stuffs which i've missed for long while
gd news: end of cohorting. no more shift wk the gang is back tgt. with more quarreling
collect our parade uniform. both no.1 & 2. troublesome to wear thou. tmr uniform inspection
we left one more course to attend b4 commission 5 of us to attend e 2wks course yet 3 of them fever, 7 days mc. LLST, went for the first half day n were told of OUT OF COURSE! lolz
P.S: In prosperity our friends know us, in Adversity we know our friends - John Churton Collins
reflected at 9:04:00 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
never have a suay day like today for a long period of time.
4am: tend to be bad mood due to lack of slp mp3: kena speaker pwr surge. cui forever rain: abrupted our wk. helmet beret had their bath in drain. attend debrief drenched. lunch: dapao liao but dun even hav time eat. mac at lot1 instead. key: left somewhr i duno in camp.
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been working in shifts since h1n1 plan commenced. this wk am. ya, 4am shouldnt be amazing. last wk left camp at 23++ to claim cab back hm. gd or bad? depends on ur luck body clock is in bad shape
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review on ns life. getting bored. sumo this yr dun seem to be gd. so many deaths. esp the young officer case. such a pity
in addition, witness how my regular frenz tioed all the axes and knives ya, lowest rank takes all blames and LLST
lesson: the more u try to defend urself, the more u bleed. accept it, tat's reality.
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too many pending stuffs to do e.g lib bk heavily overdue specs broke long ago nv go buy new one mp3 gt to get a new one too laptop oso yet to get it repaired... VEXED
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recent changes:
uniform. much cooler as well as uglier
more dishearted. my best fren juz celebrated his 21. those whom i dun regard as frenz... repeating the same old story again. put pigeons last min, or lagi best, dun come 0so nv inform. sms back 0so bo reply. if in the case, wun it be easier to juz say no when being invited?
anw, i see no sincerity in sharing gift i go spent the effort buy the present and give to bdayboi alone is part 1 oni part 2 is, i believe if they knew wad i gg to buy, they 100% gg to regret in approach the idea of sharing. (i scare they heartbroke) tat's y i say NO straight in their face.
oh ya, i cut my hair. finally saw the ladyboss ard. she's still worried abt her son...chatting with auntie customer abt tuition teacher anw, got back the same old hairstyle (say maybe 1yr?)
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reflected at 10:16:00 PM
Thursday, June 25, 2009
should i be happy/sad?
happy as in tmr seems to be the 1st time of my ns life to 'start work' at 1pm!
sad part is...we finally started the h1n1 plan... i foresee 1mth of confinement ahead...sianZzz
anw. attached to sqn for ojt. abit boring cos it's 'honeymoon period' oni aft getting the choco bar then they will throw u hell of SK
(btw...i din know diesel can be BLUE! as well as staying inside the non-existence cold rm tat train me to endure chillness until i on my air-con and feel no kick!)
so wad hav i been doing? mainly tetris, chess as well as mini-gym haha, kinda addicted to tetris but i juz cant pass stage 8...damn!
been reading emotional intelligent until i notice how hard it's for me to control my anger nowaday...
on one of the days...saw my boss entertaining a vip...as in (chill crab + black pepper crab) sucking ball for (chill crab + black pepper crab + butter crab)
my fren showed me a hand sign and whisper 'por lan' yup, life is a show...anw the audience happy with those endless durian boss bought can liao. sumo gt rambutan and mangosteen
(my instructor A taught me how to open durian using screwdriver while another instructor taught me how to guess the no. fruit inside mangosteen)
P.S: tetris was created the same day i was created? omg
reflected at 10:53:00 PM
Sunday, June 07, 2009
COMPLETELY WASTED
st james johnnie walker on the rock . . . then on the table (gone liao) . . on the road outside...(stranger even took pic of me damn malu) . . . woke up to find myself slping on the hard floor in my living room
thanks ben and the kind taxi driver for sending me back hm (rejected twice for cab) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
from now onward my time will be reserved for ppl who deserved
hence..i'm tired of calling ppl out when they dun really feel like coming
esp with those insincere msgs like 'who is going?' somemore u need to ask them wks beforehand if not they will blame u for too last min so what? they will utlimately reply u on the day itself saying they cant make it... likewise, they may come out with something like... i gt another session with my another frenz...how?
or worst..alrdy agree liao then last min back out. wtf
i missed the nite where we celebrate 2nd anniv our warrant officer will come to our table with a jar everytime then we will YAM SENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ended going back hm with tipsy foot
luckily since we had stayed out aft completing most of our courses, i've been jogging at jurong lake once awhile during evening (thr r hidden 'movtivation' behind it thou)
except of CU which really require a sustainable amt of time to recover back to my prev max...the rest of stns r 5
oh ya, this rainy morning on the bus the bro was suggesting opening a bottle for gold if nt 3 jars for silver
end up as i jogged 2.4, mind was full of heineken... choya... chivas... martell... johnnie walker... and 'motivation" too
P.S: the ultimatum makes audience think tat gemini r all determined.. aiya they r juz stubborn oni...
reflected at 10:46:00 PM
From a Boy to Man
Once a Marist, always an Officer
