full day! went sch to know who the mysterious liaison office of mine. haha, THK GOD, not mint sweet sweet. if nt she confirmed failed me. luckily is hana~ rmb the mdm i took pic in the lab with? ya~
then went town with cka n ben. cant resist their temptation..kept on "movie"...there goes my rat in eXchange for hairspray. nt bad, first time watched tis kinda of musical movie. 耳朵。。。你辛苦了
shop shop shop...till bus home. halfway, stan n ahmad called to meet them at my sheng siong to buy dry stuffs 4 tmr BBQ. still got wet one tmr, to be settle at imm. now the stuffs @my hse, cant imagine how m i going to bring along to imm myself..later ppl see a pitiful boy as if starve for 1mths then come out as hungry gh0st.
tot reach hm can bathe eat then slp...who know mom wan me to help her to surf her fansite...try picture a mom asking his 19yrs old son to open another 19yrs old gal's bl0g...faint* ppl like eat wad she 0so wanna see...so who's going to look after a malnutrition kid?
hmm, 1 litre of tears oni got 11 epi, i done with 2. already like teary. now i know all the ppl lying in hospital r warriors. they r fighting against their illness.
imagine some1 suddenly tell u tat u had an incurable illness. will u start to regret abt the times when u wasted them? Do we actually cherish the time we had? learning to live life to fullest. of cos, not asking to spend till not even a cent la.
P.S: new life will come next wk. already started my personal training plus calling for a factory job. but will b slacking away for 2D chalet. i think fri i wanna go back maris. seek for dir.
reflected at 10:01:00 PM
Monday, August 27, 2007
was watching TV show with the kids the other day...being forgetful to inform my readers earlier...the sad breaking news...
u guys still rmb hi-5? Kathleen left them!!! but duno worry...it didnt changed to hi-4...got another korean gal joined. thou i still would miss Kathleen, esp if u guys dun rmb her name but she was the one being bullied by the "jup jup". ring a bell? yes! among the 5 ppl i oni like this part best. actually their song 0so nice, quite catchy. unbelievable tat they had been with the kids for so long, since we lower sec already down there dancing. they kinda sacrifice much, but gd for kathleen who had been pregnant after married with his husband from savage gdn. well, yet bad for the kids.
mom seems worried after telling her abt my chalet. 7th mth...ya la, i already push away a drink with an nyp fren behind 1 mth...sometime being filial is diff frm listening to orders. lol
ok, to add on to recent atmo.
u guys might not be suit to the 粤剧。but the last part b4 leslie sang 胭脂扣 the way he talked abt the movie v funny.
btw, in case u ppl is wondering how come lately i posting anime song from slam dunk n conan. if u manage to spot the name, ZARD. yup is sang by izumi-san. she left us 3mths ago, with alot of her ENCOURAGING songs she wrote. she's talented, unlike those singers who use their beauty, she was a behind the screen singer. she is BEAUTIFUL, even ageing had forgotten to leave marking on her face. R.I.P
P.S: had been watching 1 litre of tears. v touching. luv the sentence "If I were a flower, then now I'd be a bud. I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets"
reflected at 3:04:00 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
dun0 wad big day today...been "strongly advised" by mom to stay @home... which i dun think i even bother since i already g0t my "lucky charm"! anyway, really beat after post-war period...haha
talkin abt tat, juz now g0t ppl ring our hse... ppl from duno wad church which my parent know yet i duno... they calling every1 in the neighbourhood i supposed, max power cos they seem like regardless of religion since they saw outside we still got 拜拜。。
sumtin abt mooncake fest which i dun give a damn...i oni enjoy the mo0n + candles. cake? NO!
wad surprised me is mom actually going...she even said last yr she went b4...faint*
speaking abt cake...recent appetite as mention in previous entries..was BAD! then mom got me chinese medicine..see, chinese seiseh is still the best. u dun need to go see him personally he already know ur intestines got prob...
walau...been banned from cold drink.
luv detective thriller. juz like playing jigsaw puzzle in reality. when all the bits n pieces r linked tgt, u will find the truth! well, if u noticed, i had been post vids recently...see if u managed to spot something.
P.S: 月圆之夜,一较高下!
reflected at 12:23:00 PM
Saturday, August 25, 2007
v cute!
enjoying life b4 the storm comes. taste of freedom~
reflected at 11:04:00 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
morning is real bad. u can see my black face. my brain duno y like shutdown...cannot absorb anything from the bk!!! damn worried..until dun wanna step out of hse. thks for those who gave me last min help.
as usual, expected obc to mark pcon. he always wanna spice up our life. yest pcon today he already telling alot of ppl tat alot of ppl failed. kinda no mo0d sia!
oni got one word for uop. NEVERMIND.
anyway, like one fella said (quite loudly as if oni him), today is the last paper! no more exam.
yup, it MAY be the last paper/exam in my life. notice the word "may" is being used.
pulled ben, ivan was on the way too, to cinelei. bought my LUCKY CHARM! yaya, i checked my leftover in bank...
dun have the front i liked. dun even like the stroke above the "e"...nvm, i'm still contented.
engraved.
shopping. muz actually said being frightened. haha. btw, my electricity is back. static again!!! even escalator hand rest 0so kena...
fetish for some stuff which ben said too smooth cant breathe. ivan then shoot me, being with me confirm can breathe...
anyway, rmb yest i was mo0dy too becos the boy wanna be 没礼貌? today is juz opposite. i dun approached ppl with a smile, yet ppl approach me. even got bird flew in n sat at my window to watch me study while it shelther itself from rain. ya, n so took a bustop-dist 178 to change 154. after i alighted, i turned behind then suddenly shocked by a lady sitting by the window. she SMILED at me! did something funny happened on my face...
P.S: God u really like to tease me ar? i dun wan always led tat kind of 无心插柳 life...the things i aiming for i work hard for u dun give me...yet u give me only when i no longer hoped for. have to practise 临场 reaction juz for ur unexpected tricks if not will eventually develop heart attack..
reflected at 10:52:00 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
today is such a black/white 黑白分明 day. no intermediate. rainy in the early morning, luck is still gd to manage hop onto bus. then afternoon is real HOT, blazing sun tat almost blind my eyes by the reflective cars. now nite, rain is like back flo0ding.
duno y morning kinda mo0dy. g0t alot of fo0d yet no appetite. recently 0so mo0dy at nite. all due to the helplessly weak connection tat duno wad sis done.
pcon paper, should say dr hu is nice bah. at least this time i recognise the qns. but able to do is another thing. the classrm got ahmad n yk, the rest was at next rm. i was the last person in the class list. do the 1st qn. finished then look up the clock...is 9.30am...i spent half an hr. to be exact..qn 1.(a)(i)! notice the seriousness...almost could finish the paper...left a part undone which i KNOW HOW TO DO...do halfway i eyescan for ahmad...gone. then yk infront of me suddenly stood up n walked off..left me alone OWNED!
lunch wasnt gd. used to like the stall. then after eating...the texture is really diff...cant even recognise the meat..
actually the whole day oni got one thing tat made me damn 不爽! i smiled/addressed at ppl (got one is auntie) out of politeness. yet they treat me like water. not bad rite, next time i can be a 没有礼貌 person. seem like u can either really be some1 who r gd frenz of them, or juz stranger. no grey.
P.S: sometime, the gd can turn bad. thus the bad can 0so turn gd. so wad if u dun have the talent. tat doesnt mean u're destined to be a failure for whole of ur life. 勤能补拙。
reflected at 8:46:00 PM
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
out to study again. feel more like tuition. of cos, study period = junk food fest!
called harry for his help yet his hp off. then when we left, he called. "i'm going to shanghai tonite...for holiday~" ! faint*
still pondering wad Dr Hu had left for us in his exam. seem like both of them went for holiday... they carefree we careful!!! wth
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during a sci lesson, teacher asked "how is dew formed?" ah boy raised his hand n replied "Dews are formed on the leaves cos when sun shines on them, they perpire!"
then eng lesson, teacher asked "Class, do u know y r there misunderstanding among ppl?" ah boy raised his hand n replied again "i know! there are many words in dictionary tat have more than 1 meaning. tat's y got misunderstanding!"
一笑而过吧
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gettin to understand more abt one of the slide in Dr Hu's pcon lect notes. "Do not lose the perspective that control is an immense field, but we have to start somewhere, and onward we crawl." really love the use of "crawl" think i will be assassin instead of terrorist this time. meaning, will oni focus hard on the easy targets, wun be mass killing. since i aiming fewer qns, i muz be sure i wun miss.
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this song i listen liao v familiar. let stan listen le he 0so familiar. cos this is the one we played drum on!
P.S: i dun like dark clouds. i like rain. cos rain means there will be fewer dark clouds. rain will 0so means there will be higher chances of seeing the rainbow. thou i didnt see any today. Even if God wan u to experience the golden of silence. He hasnt forgotten to lift up the curtain infront of ur eyes. U can still see the rainbow, i do hope my little donation(plus yk) can create one for U. i luv the simple gesture of expressing "thank you" without saying. haha, ahmad was joking "woah tmr u confirm pass pcon" i 0so hope... with the cute n useful pen, i can pass with a rainbow!
reflected at 11:02:00 PM
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
2 appetizers eaten. left 2 MAIN COURSEs this thu n fri. of cos, desserts will be WHOLE of next wk~
here to specially say sorry. for all the wrongs i did. if i caused any1 misery...
esp to stan. juz recent my str. mouth, haha. sry, me on PUrPOse hehe. juz wanna have some fun shooting! love it when i say u cucumber, they say i use the WRONG side of mask...
kinda miss the shooting days with my sec4 form/chem teacher. see this GOLDEN DIALOGUE which occurred when we r queuing up one time after prelim period.
"Miss Aida, i wanna go poly leh! but duno wad to study...business course gd?" "U wanna be SMRT clerk ar? go take sci courses la" "walau, say until like tat. but u know ar, they say business got alot of GALS leh" (joking back...since we boys sch) "aiyah, u stupid ar. Go to their canteen n know them la!" faint*
hmm, teacher day coming. feel like visiting, since i skipped last yr. but duno they will recognise me anot...(since i became uglier/prettier)
talking to God again.. i know since young u gave me a gift. i know i learn stuffs tat i interested in faster than other kids. but learn n master is diff thing. u didnt give me the talent to master. so end up the boy learnt quite alot of thing, yet mastered none. 杂而不精。i should be called "jack"...of all trades, master of none
thing to add on. haha, talking abt english name...had been telling ahmad i wanna a name called "SeeK". to seek the truth, to find my way. to prove tat "Strong lives, weak dies" should be "Strong protect n help the weak" instead. haha, together with my idol, we r "HiDe n SeeK"!
learning to listen to my heart when doing things. being chem engineer, we always talk abt saving time. multitask is one solution, yet we tend to forgot the time to enjoy the thing while we r doing. now, trying to give myself more time to do perfect my skill. muz rmb ending is not impt, wad impt is the PROCESS.
P.S: Green, for some1 who turn a new leaf.
reflected at 2:32:00 PM
Monday, August 20, 2007
oh my bl0g! so unbearable for refrain myself from bl0ggin... oh my God, thk for giving such a GREAT DAY! didnt slp yest n i will be awake for a full day after few hrs so0n~
actually i had already gone thru reading finished icp. but juz duno y everything juz cant get into my brain... cant link them well so dun even mentioned abt retrieving them during exam...
since mom said she was t0o tired to wake me up (dun think she would have enough power) after being a 风雨无阻 fan...so might as well dun slp...
wasnt lonely for the l0ng nite...since msn was kinda active esp when cka told me abt sun ho going into billboard! wahseh, cant believe a counsellor changed into a geisha for her "china wine" mv...then asked cka to help me find Dht's "someone"...
luckily i had found a trance to keep my brain cell active thru the b0ring nite!
dad bought me an early breakfast. mee hoon @5am, with oni an egg, sumo tat kind i hate...nvm, juz was shocked when he suddenly asked me if i need to drink 鸡精? uber touched sia...
end up i left hse b4 6am...God, SUPER LOVE U! gave me a double-deck WINDY journey...the effect is better than drinking coffee, mind is so clear!
ever after sec life, l0ng time nv see the dawn breaking, nv hear the cicada song, taste the crisp of new day, nv breathe in the fresh air n nv been caressed by the co0ling breeze~ okok, i stop being so poetic...
alight at sim to take stationery escalator~ found out LSCT whole building is DARK! wth...wad the use of motion detector since power is already shut off!!! so eerie~, end up studying with aHmad at underpass until we intend to be exact time for the exam...
on the way saw this cute little fellow^^
uber touched again...when ivan n stan called me..i already off my hp since we r going to exam venue liao...so they tot i still SLPING...end up they called my hse n worried my parent...mom tot i fell aslp somewhere sia!
exam should be fine. cos the hr b4 i used my potential, think 70% in mind shouldnt be a problem. cant let my loves one down mah...
but haha, one qn i do with the formula (a-2b)/a...yet the value for b is DAMN small compare to a...wth, i think i really dun trust myself...went to alter into (a-b)/a...correct ans BECAME WRONG ans...
lesson learnt: if i dun even trust myself, how can i trust others... perhaps i dun share my secrets with others...such tat seldom got ppl confide with me though i'm a loyal listener...
went shopping with them @orchard...
my idol...
finally g0t 收获! after so many places, finally found a necklace i like. it's simple, yet is 30+...but the shop de auntie v gd, kept on showing us the interesting stuff the shop had. they g0t lava lamp...yet kinda costly. haha
who know later walk walk sumo, found a stall with the same necklace! found out it's made of stainless n even provide engraving (realise today the diff with encraving)..most imptly CHEAPER~ but still out of my budget...at least i got a image liao...
already tot of the first word to engrave....2nd word quite hard...cos i wan a word with "L" in middle...best is symmetrical..eg XX"L"XX...still thinking in progress
was kinda vexed when got sabo! cos i tot some1 174 was at the bustop...but we still at traffic light. i kept telling them, "can de can de" then rite after the cars r gone, i estimated that even when all the ppl had boarded the bus, 174 still wun leave the bustop since there r alot of cars stopping infront of it since traffic light red.
so i ran. the ppl waiting at bustop saw me. the bus driver saw me n stopped, with door opened. the ppl in bus saw me. i turned behind...dots they r still walking far behind! wtf
haha, ahmad was slping soundly in bus with me listening to mp3....then g0t this irritating boy came up the double-deck. we were sitting at the front. he was 2 seat beind. ahmad was woke by his banging of umbrella against the ground. think even the busdriver below was shouting up! ahmad wanna whack him, i wanna bash him. we turned behind diao him...saw his face (wtf, seems like the whole world ppl owned him money sia!) he sumo came sit even neaer to us, think is directly above the driver head, then continued his performance specially for ahmad...but ahmad didnt appreciated (he dozed off anyway) lol
day ended.
today wanna discuss something which i happened to read in Donald J. Trump's bk. he mentioned PERFECTIONISM is one of the keys to success.
rmb during lower sec, g0t one pt of time, in the middle of nite being faced by a sea of homework...then started staring into the window. gradually feeling i cant meet my own standards...cant finished all the homewks! suddenly wanna let go of all these shits! window is infront. n i almost JUMPED.
luckily, duno y suddenly came a thought...parent gave me a healthy body. if i jump, all my useful organs like my heart, liver kidney will be squashed...such a waste, i can donate to needy ppl.
so, i switched off the light tat nite, think of no more n slp! since then, after certain time, no matter can finish my work anot, i will slp then settle the rest next day (supposedly borrow from frenz n "use as references")
but luckily sec4 buck up abit n i became one of the class suppliers. haha sec4 earned the name of 冷王 becos of the lame jokes, it did cure myself t0o.
come to think of it, perfectionism can be such a horrible thing if not handle well...esp it can lead to depression. sometimes, ppl often oni see the problem as "a tip of iceberg"
we have to understand, not everyone is perfect. every1 do have their own flaws. it oni depend if u can turn ur flaws into ur trademark or how u hid them.
nonetheless, i'm going to challenge perfectionism again.
P.S: Leslie taught me how to be a Gentleman
reflected at 6:34:00 PM
Friday, August 17, 2007
no nitemare^^(of cos, 1hr+ slp dun even g0t time for movie la)
yest did phone talk with stan on a past yr paper...we discussing ans orally then phone talk with jingsheng...mainly for the upcoming training plans
cant help worrying while studying tat 4am i went dig out my old dusty treasure...MY TAROT SET!
used the Hexagram method. this was the result: 1)thinking, current plan: fool 2)development: inverted lover 3)future hint: world 4)action to take: inverted magician 5)key: inverted sun 6)target: empress 7)end result: inverted justice
my interpretation:
it will be a new beginning! i may change my direction, but will still follow my own feeling even if it is a dangerous path full of fires. i'm still afterall 开朗活泼! i muz protect my own faith
haiz...tarot, y u need to be so honest to me. a pt of time to make decision
平常心。PATIENTLY await for the shining star to be discovered.
keep on trying! increase ur security. 以退为进。
nv give up hope and target! OPTIMISM~ 只要还有一息的希望, 就不能放弃目标!
haha, everything is gd. the fire of desires is burning! if only my target is to celebrate...
last card. most impt. yet duno wad is the exact meaning...quite negative. the presence show tat every1 is not perfect n make mistake. time to apologise. wad i scare is wad uncle lee said which may come true...
none-the-less, not all the things are fixed. they are juz advices, fate is still in our hands!
notice tat i duno have minor arcana cards? haha, ya i using a special deck tat only had 22 major arcana cards. since minor has little effect, so lazy abit...78 cards r troublesome!
lately...all the aunties n my mom r worrying abt my FACE! wad i can describe is volcanoes eruption~ natural Phenomenon, esp when worrying for exam n coming competition...
after exam, some1 call for drink...then suddenly cancel...so we went coffeeshop see my "leaning CAKE of pisa"
P.S: wanna buy 881 to watch with mom. haha, buzy + happening mth for her~ same as mine
reflected at 11:48:00 PM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
...had a tiring vampire dream...
kinda still worrying of chess while studying
在别人身上找到信仰 不过还缺点。。。
i know i'm a selfish boy who only find u when i need u. but God, pls give me ur strength for 1mth.
reflected at 5:04:00 PM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
was happy to know 2 korean hostages had been released
没有收获的一天。cant find any necklace tat fancy...
BUT! saw andy lau concert today~ was frozen still down there...
he is my idol! not juz acting nor singing... it's his spirit. 永远不倒的铁人!!! he's my HARDWORKING icon
reflected at 6:40:00 PM
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
hang @ beauty w0rld mac. usual rule: nv be on time, much less even early! 178 came when i reached the bustop, saw NON-aircon 154 behind... realised i still prefer 178 than windy 154...
engine started today finally. gotta d drive in studying pcon... imagine today u got urself a greek book n u're expected to be tested next thu...
but studying outside do have distractions...on the other hand, at home, the oni thing is my laptop~
talking abt luck...juz like playing mahjong 自摸 虽然是靠运气, 但也要打掉废牌 努力听牌。 直到某天,我的“好兄弟”一定会回来!
i know the future is awaiting. but i'm unsure wad keys to success i'm beholding. meanwhile, i need to break the habits! get rid of all the bad ones*
All I can do now is, WAIT!
* dun think slp-drool is a risk bah...the most i got dehydrated when i woke up!
reflected at 7:02:00 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
muz admit, luck is rather d0wn. heard gh0st gate seem to 0pen... wonder if any good brother will read my bl0g, haha
my fav classi music. P.S: sometime, somethings dun mix, but they do CAN give a great combination!
reflected at 6:53:00 PM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
off to airport... when will we meet again? a tint of sadness. 不舍。
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back! today was dramatic, esp the scene when we hugged sx, then see him leave via the glass...kinda sad whenever i think i will miss my best pri buddy for 2 more yrs.
duno wad will it be like when we see one another in future rmb 11yrs ago, 1996, same as the yr of this vid. when a naughty boy befriended a good boy. n the relationship started. FOREVER FRENZ
P.S: thk mom, for buying me dinner. thou i already had a heavy one at 天天火锅, left me a SLIM wallet...esp without a single note! haha
reflected at 9:31:00 PM
off to airport... when will we meet again? a tint of sadness. 不舍。
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back! today was dramatic, esp the scene when we hugged sx, then see him leave via the glass...kinda sad whenever i think i will miss my best pri buddy for 2 more yrs.
duno wad will it be like when we see one another in future rmb 11yrs ago, 1996, same as the yr of this vid. when a naughty boy befriended a good boy. n the relationship started. FOREVER FRENZ
P.S: thk mom, for buying me dinner. thou i already had a heavy one at 天天火锅, left me a SLIM wallet...esp without a single note! haha
reflected at 8:29:00 AM
Friday, August 10, 2007
hard-working b0y PACKed his notes yest nite. he to0k out his pcon lecture notes (the book has been left untouched since not a single handwritting is on it...actually still can sell 2nd hand!) and lay nicely on the desk. after many many hrs, the notes were juz basking itself in the lamplight... the b0y is Slacking(recollecting his mo0d...drink abit eat abit...listen to music abit) until 2am when he drop dead on bed...LOL!
while walking towards bustop, saw a bus stopping due to traffic light...many lorries etc bl0ck the b0y's view...he tried his best n could only saw "A" (only possible for 98A/154A)
suddenly the wind blow beside his ears, as if God was whispering to the b0y for hurrying him fast. so he ran n ran...end up the bus is REALLY 154A! BlessED
studying alone early...then told stan tat i finally managed to master the first qn...almost time for the retest n ivan called us to inform us harry had decided to CANCEL the retest!!! wad the...
SO, felt like we finished our last paper liao...haha, cos we went to watch Rush Hr 3 at vivo. first time watch cinema there...seat is still ok la...since we had our seat row quite high. rare occasion tat we had total of 8 ppl! love their NG parts, damn funny...esp when chris said "so we are not brother? after all we been thru...Rush hour 1...Rush hour 2"
there was a LG hp national day promotion...i think i FALL IN LOVE with the new PRADA!!! wth...deep struggle in my mind...esp when they all give negative ans..."$1188 leh, u sure u wan to buy...might as well go buy clothing" haiz...do hope next time i'm not an unfaithful husband...since i already g0t a wife...she can wash she can cook etc...juz tat she dun have the REALLY V V BEAUTIFUL FACE...dots...since i can work like horse for 2mths to get it...but made a conclusion: i will refrain myself but confirm will get the touch-screen hp for my new hp next time...perhaps when i lost or damaged my current hp..
while waiting for the show at 2pm...we went sh0pping!
found the juicer i liked...it was the most EX among...
toilet is well-decorated t0o...luvin the music being played while...erm erm...
yeah..i had my Ch0ya!
reflected at 6:30:00 PM
Thursday, August 09, 2007
My season has come! windy season! how i wish to go to the beach again...海风
been slping all these times, kinda replenish/repay my b0dy. but all were dreamy slp.
Team tournament let us progress juz like rukawa finally learn to pass ball instead of solo playing hanamichi can jump shot instead of always slam dunk for me, i come to realise tat chess is not juz individual play but actually, it is a teamplay!
P.S: God, pls revive my sport cells!
reflected at 8:34:00 PM
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
a typical day. yet is so not taken for granted... since it is like our LAST tutorial and lecture!
if not for the pcon retest this fri, it will mean no more sch days until our exam comes which is next fri.
then everything will end at next next fri. so fast so furious~
seems like in a blink of eyes, 3 yrs of poly life is juz so short. but 1 problem now for me. after exam we will be hav'n fun le. but no money no honey..i 0so dun wan to borrow anymore money from mom...
thinking of doing dangerous stunt...how abt finding a job next wk?
love the decoration
love this singing style n lo0k
she can 0so lo0k co0l, even her tone changed
P.S: so sunny...give me some snow to chill~
reflected at 5:31:00 PM
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
UOP retest~ think i got 55% to pass... stoll was encouraging thou, cos during tutorial b4 the retest, he was telling me "hey u know, later the test dun need to finish all. once u know u had wrote enogh to pass u can stop already"
"but sir...i dun even think i can score more than that lor"
"aiyah, u muz have confidence in urself..." then he 0so helped solve some of my doubts
end up i was the third last to finish the paper. at least still got some flows in my brainjuices when solving the qns...
today chat with "another some1"...haha i know i used alot of some1...juz to protect their identity.
this fren of mine used to like a gal. but gal dun. so he started like another gal. then the another gal 0so like him. but after some while..."feeling lost" he still find himself liking the old gal. so now he duno how to tell the another gal. of cos there's other reasons like "buzy with exams, cca n attachment" "dun wan to make empty promises" but well, all is under "etc"
啊!多么痛的领悟。。。now wad i can help is to advise him how to speak out...short pain is better than long pain.
come to think of it, it's not gd to waste gal's time. cos being boys, our prime time is longer compare to gal, we can last till 30s, sumo i think i will start to lo0k suave when i'm in 30s, then still charming at 40s!!! haha
but gals normally after 30 is like withered flower...so their precious period is like 15yrs? while us is 25yr? (starting from age 15)
see, muz learn to put oneself in other's shoes...but sometimes, i dun...cos wad if the other wear high-heel shoes? toes pain!
oh, went jp eat ljs with stan n ivan...i had been telling them...how much electricity i releasing recently...didnt know my eyes can high-voltage放电 de. one time we were taking mrt, while they were paired up using the escalator n talk among themselves...i was loner behind listening to mp3, then stared at the ppl opposite going down.
auntie...uncle...mother n kids...businessman...then a GAL. she saw me then suddenly tilted left abit smiled. phew! she saw her frenz or something behind me. then i turned behind see see...no1 smiled. who was she smiling to juz now...EERIE
then at ljs, was ordering at counter. 2 gals were queuing behind me. normal rite? but then i saw cashier auntie over at another counter waiting blankly for them......
anyway...tat's not the most impt stuff i wanna mention in this entry. i juz ANGRY and max vexed tat i wanna form a band. muz drink more milk-powder...then collect alot of milk tins, can use chopstick as drumstick. like wad stan said, we can form "Gu Ni Gong" (牛奶罐) band.
all becos of stan who suddenly jio me to play the drummania...then we both noobs played the beginner stage. first time played still not bad...82combos...scored B. so for a single play, got 3 turns...stan, me then stan again. later he told me try the normal stage one, can have 4 turns...end up he played first round, didnt pass so got KICKed out! so i 0so cant contine to play...then we tried again...this time i start first. WORST, within 15secs kena KICKed out!!! WALAU 对我这个天才来说,真是一种耻辱!!!
then went tp to collect my pay which is overdue for a mth...today was suddenly shocked by the receptionist...cos she got dark skin...so i used to talk to her in english...thinking tat she's malay...suddenly she tell me "你等一下" i almost tripped!
i tot $30 so little one, boss confirm will give me cash de...who know i went there, then there's this finance-in charge lady whom i saw b4 told me she called me many times to ask my bank no..she actually wan to help me bank in de...Woah...boss got my acc no. mah...
when she passed me the cheque i almost wanna praise her "you lo0k prettier without specs"(last time i rmb she wore specs, today she didnt) but end up didnt. i scared later she happy until her hands tore the cheque. haha!
one thing i noticed today. perhaps due to tat day i wore my shades out...then influenced the whole world. cos today i saw at least 10ppl wearing sunglasses!
think the sun is back together with the wind! juz like Spring~
hmm...come to think of it. i muz learn to be expressive. successful ppl always get wad they wan becos they know how to express themselves. To express, doesnt always mean need to use mouth. sometimes, our eyes can do the job too. even better. 我有一双 会说话的眼睛!
P.S: this song is abt a cat who always wanna to get to the outside world but yet in d end, it tasted the harsh reality. but i'm still unhaunted. remain optimistic since gemini has gd adaptability. 温室里的花没有野花开的美丽!
reflected at 9:00:00 PM
Monday, August 06, 2007
steal a day off to go swim. luckily didnt woke up early, cos juz found out the pool opened only at 2.30(i reached at 2.25, last time used to be 11am)
"suntanning is juz another excuse for slping"
gosh...late slp really harm my skin n brain! 迟睡,不是因为失眠, 而是不想睡。
only like to swim at JE, cos it's the place i can see RAINBOW!!!
realise领悟:
Lying is juz an act to be Only honesty to himself/herself. 撒谎也是一种 只 对自己诚实的行为。
Extravagancy is a form of knowing how to enjoy life. 奢侈是懂得享受人生的天分。
btw, was chatting with "some1" today. he told me abt his target. Use his own money to buy a car.
i was like..woah NOT BAD sia! long ago i had tot of it, which is most man's topic. mind is made up already. car licsense i wun be rushing. will wait n see. cos dun see the need since there is NO car in my house. some ppl might said, "u can go get it, then put aside, someday may be useful" nah, my job dun require me to drive. btw, if i'm late, i will still be rich enough to afford a cab, since my house to my "predicted" workplace is so NEAR...(learnt it from my trainer)
Further supported by calculation done by coach. COE high + future oil price= bomb! depends on ur user(s) 0so. e.g family...(my family dun need a car...cos we already got a BUS) take taxi ends up still cheaper than owning a car. env-frnly 0so
btw, i saw so many cars on the road...few only attract me...the only car that attracted me is not when driving on the road but was on the display exhibition showroom which 154/178 will always pass by...GREEN lamborghini!!! but that will takes about duno how many decades...was further more stubborn when i came to know a car can only keep for 10yrs! imagine ur wife after 10yrs have to change a new one. lol, might as well dun wan!
anyway, u guys muz take note. cos i was talking abt not buying a "car", not "vehicle" so...actually if i wan i may buy a scooter 小绵羊 or Green kawasaki, since it will be cheaper and most imptly WINDY~ or i will choose a small cute van, then paint it green, inside decorate with wirebulbs, colored fluoroscent and most imptly, behind can put amplifiers to rock my ears when i drive!
okok, dun so much talk. juz like dr hu said. "No money, No honey." work. woRK. WORK!
but dun forget, no alcohol when driving! so...since i not driving now, can i have some alcohol pls! i already a mth nv touch a single drop...i miss the fragrance of 梅酒...throat-warming volka and the bitterness of hops in beer....
reflected at 9:29:00 PM
Sunday, August 05, 2007
SPECIAL EDITION (haha, not for ndp!)
yay, finally g0t time to rest especially to write this entry. after this november, it will mark my chess age of 8 years 0ld!
Remember it was during primary 5 when we finished our exam. So, everyone brought their own stuffs to play during lesson. Sixiang brought his xiangqi chess set. Haha, asked him to teach me. Ended up both of us were often seen early in morning before assembly, during recess period and even after school addicted to chess. There was one time after remedial class, form teacher was going home and saw us playing at the stone table near the gate. She comment that we were so hard-working, yet Sixiang must remember to tutor me too in my studies. HAHA, i think we had played more than a thousand games in the school.
Went to Maris Stella High. Naturally chose chess club as my cca. My classmates n I were informed by our form teacher, Mrs Wee that we had successfully joined the club. We were even surprised to know that she was the teacher-in-charge! Haha, we were being taken care of, as well as being made used of! Cause she was our sec 1 math teacher, so whenever after cca, they will go and ask her about homework questions. She will first ask us to help her move chess sets before she helped us solve our problems...Anyway, among our gang, i was often the winner since i had played so much during primary school days. So, they started to change to international chess...That was also a point of time I learnt international chess. Within short period, I also started to win them in international chess. Haha, they were so frustrated till they no longer want to play with me...咳。。。无敌是寂寞的。Since it was during secondary 2 period, they were also studying for their streaming exam instead of playing chess during cca. Aiyah, Mrs Wee just closed one eye. Hence I have to search for new friends to play with, i came to know this Proud guy, Jing Sheng. Kept being owned until I started serious studying of chess. I realized how much time I had wasted during lower secondary. From then onward, almost every weekend I will go library or popular to read chess books. Didnt know that there is actually alot of theories behind the small board. Was so engrossed that I read the whole day and forgotten about my lunch...Beside, Dad was certainly happy, cos if mom brought us to shopping, I had switched my "waiting room" from arcade to library. However, it did also had downside. They started to worry for my studies since i will be reading chessbooks instead of textbooks during exam period. It was so serious that we had a meet-the-parent session! Sec 3 form teacher scolded me..."you want to do proud for your school during competition. But you will also bring disgrace to school if you fail your o-level!" Haha, made a pact with them that I will stop chess for a moment to study but if I never end up in ITE they will not further hinder my interest. Haha, actually my mind is already set to enter Ngee Ann long ago. Still remember it was the first polytechnic i entered due to a secondary one chess competition. Our team got 4th position. The competition venue was at octagon (present convention center). Hence, chess growth is still insignificant. Only rewarding thing was, i did manage to score well and enter Np! Plus, secondary four that time, we gone for Raffles Cup. Although not in the main team (since not very good at chess yet), but the main team WON the CHAMPION! Felt so proud of it.
At Ngee Ann Poly, matriculation day i was asking the lecturer where was chess club. He was suddenly stunned, then replied "I'm not too sure...Is there chess club here?" My heart was like broken...He surfed the net then relieved my heart abit since the data did mention the presence of chess club...好景不长。。。i think the club is like the state of closing down. Main thing was, I still dun know the LOCATION! Then during cca fiesta, I saw chess club booth. So I wrote down my name n my CONTACT no. to sign up. But awaiting for their response is No-No. I think they dun even call the freshies down. Luckily when i walked past the engineering block, saw their poster, so quickly called the contact. I think i called the vice-chairman, a weiqi senior. After knowing their day n venue, straightaway pulled jingsheng to join with me. The proud guy still said, "aiyah the club muz be not strong one, since no1 know abt it. Later go in dun waste time, call the strongest to fight with us"
That friday, I found my 2nd family. The president, Ng Xun, introduce chinese chess captain, hui yan to us. Then Hui Yan vs both of us at the same time. He was SO strong, both of us being killed...but i was still too weak to join their main team. Hence, Hui Yan started to train me. There was another graduated senior who also wanted to train me, but he had no time to spare at that time. He watched me playing with hui yan, commented "if u fight with strong player, u cant always passive defend. Must at least have a dagger behind ur shield." This was an unforgettable advice. Haha, got good senior of cos got bad senior. There's was an irritating senior who always look down at me and said sour words. Since then, I trained myself up to win him just to shut his mouth up. Hui Yan saw my play was always sticky, so eventually wanted me to play as defensive black. Every time I got slashed by his attacks, i will remember them so that i wun taste them again. That was a period when i seemed to be the only junior present in chinese chess since jingsheng went off to singing...Thanks to Hui Yan, I start to be able to recall game after finish playing. However when Hui Yan became 3rd year while i was 2nd year, he was too buzy with his academic so much so that I heard from other seniors that he failed his class test yet in the end he still managed to score A for his module. That was really incredible! I do hope now I can pass retest next week. Haha!
The happiest dinner I had, was during one Chess Club outing at 镇发 steamboat. One senior even taught me how to cook the living prawns. "You must knock out the prawn to make them unconscious so that they wun splash water when you boil them" After the steamboat, Ng Xun brought a china jiejie (secretary) and me to Kbox. Haha, we sang till 3am. Mom didnt say anything since I am 懂事。 First time Kbox, very enjoyable!
2nd year. Not to forget my other seniors: Ben, Jetson and Chin Kiong. Hehe, to me they are always my 福禄寿! Thanks to Chin Kiong who always accompanied me. Also, because of coach n his friend uncle lee, they recommended me to go practise at Bishan Community Centre. There are alot of old uncles to practice with. I think this was the quiet period when my chess improved alot, although Hui Yan still expected much more from me. I was very not used to the chess clock, so terrified of the ticking sound especially during competition. Later came up of a solution- listen to mp3. I was often spotted to have earpieces on my ear while playing chess. Since then, I had gained alot of competition experiences. Remember once i joined 茶阳杯,skill was still not enough. Yet on one saturaday, went bishan and uncle lee want me to fight with the competition champion. I think it was the time when i became so serious and concentrated. I unbelievably won him...I think that was my greatest match. Our 2nd match became 无车棋, due to my 中局 skill is still poorer than him, lost is inevitable. We played for about 4 hours that afternoon, end up the night i almost cant sleep!
I also missed the days Hui Yan, Jingsheng and I, 3 of us going for team competition. It was so memorable, since the competition is really considered open as there were many old uncles taking part. U know, some of them do see youngster like us as small bird. However, there were also other very encouraging uncle. During one of the match, my play was considered bad that they already considered my table lost...yet I endured, shield here block there...until i managed to snatch a draw! My uncle opponent's teamates were saying how come he cant kill me...he laughed at me, up his thumb and replied in hokkien "jin dang" 真硬!
Of course, sometimes I do feel lonely...One night, dad n mom told me to settle dinner myself. However, nobody to eat with, some got exam, got gf, got work etc blah blah...So i went to S11 eat. Luckily there was a corner where alot of ah pei were playing chess. I stood beside and watched quietly. Their opening style, to me, is considered old-fashion...was quite confident that I can win them. Then i approached an uncle (he got a lover auntie beside) for a game. It was only through real play then I realised though beginning of game I was taking the lead, their accumulated experiences over the years did make their 中残 skill solid...thus I will always ended up drawing with them. One part I'm very 佩服 about them was that they themselves were very strict about not regretful of the moves they made. Other places the uncles, will always undo their moves...The kind uncle chatted with me and treat like his grandson, even kept on recommending me to other uncles to play with. Unknownly, the lonely me managed to kill time till 10pm...How I wish to continue playing with him, but they smoked alot that made me real uncomfortable...so returned home happily! Ever since that night, whenever my bus past by S11, my eyes will sweep through the place hoping to see the kind face again. Yet time after time, disappointment increases. Now, i choose to believe that he had moved house and lived happily with his lover auntie!
3rd year. Club matters sometime worried me. Used to have train some of the juniors when I was year 2 so that when Jingsheng n I became buzy with our final year project, they as year 2 seniors can help to train juniors. Yet was rather disappointed when almost all disappeared. Now, left jingsheng n i having to take care of the juniors despite being so buzy. We do argue alot in the phone because of the issue. Left a month, starting after the exam ended, to train till ivp comes at end of september.
Institute-Varsity-Polytechnic (IVP): The most important competition for the club. Vs with ITE and Polys. Used to have Universities to compete. But now the name had been changed to POL-ITE games. When I was year 1, managed to get through the election competition to represent the school. I was so NATIVE, the most important match when we fight with NYP, which both were fighting for champion. My opponent was from China, I was so intimidated that I played too passive. I though if I can draw, I wun pull down the whole team. But a draw simply also means YOU HAVE DID NOTHING GREAT FOR THE TEAM...felt i didnt tried my best which i cant forgive myself. I saw the red ears of Hui Yan, the pressure that was put on him as the last man...how i wish i can lighten his burden by winning...Coach always said that he was very aggressive attacker, yet when competition he will play very 稳。 Now i understand why. It was just like a swordman having to fight with enemies while one arm is carrying a baby. If only I am stable...that match we lost, end up 2nd. Went back home, while on bed, Ng Xun called to comfort me...went weeping...When I was year 2, we managed to win NYP, yet SP had people to spy on my play. Jingsheng told me that he heard SP saw my opening and had their people to come up of counter. During the competition, uncle lee and coach walk past my table and went laughing "model answer!" since the opening moves were all from chessbook. Actually i didnt really put my heart into memorising...happen to be bored in clubhouse that i flipped open a book and saw the opening variation. Yet, the end result for the variation is considered good for the attacker, so being a defender i didnt really care about it. WHO KNOW it come out so fatal...at certain moves, i crack my brain recalling, but failed. No choice, came up with my own move that prove to be fatal again...end up I lost...the whole team lost. 2nd position again.
Depressed there onwards, gave up xiangqi for long period. That period I started to learn weiqi initially from Sin Kian, then alot from Eric and Ivan. Later alot of people said I was the only person in the club to be able play all the 3 chess well. Yet one day, my graduated senior came back to have a talk with us. I was not well informed, end up i was the only person turn up. I dun even who was coming and the meeting time is already past. Seem quite alone, I saw got people playing weiqi so I also started playing. When my senior came, I received a big scolding. "So you think your xiangqi is good enough?" Then he wanted me to gain courage by asking me to ask for others' contacts. Quite useful, not too shy like the past. Even before competition, can chat with the stranger infront of me. Really calm me down alot. But then again, once I played weiqi with a NYP friend, she asked me how come i play weiqi so well i didnt join the team. Sometimes in life, responsibility does require one to give up on certain thing. Weiqi still does interest me.
I promise Hui Yan before I will make sure Np can get it's first CHAMPION for chinese chess. One month period, I am still optimistic. 不到最后一刻, 绝不轻言放弃! especially since this may be my last team competition. Still wondering if i will continue to play chess when I graduate.
just like 湘北's "全国制霸" our goal.
reflected at 6:59:00 PM
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Indulgencing Day~ went JE kb0x, but since we're early, visit the skating place
dream makes ppl big ar?
happy singing, luv'n the part i sang high pitch for 新不了情! but the most throat-tiring was the english song tat i used to place reservation deep in heart. sixiang n me!
read Slam Dunk last episode. 鸡皮疙瘩。 uber motivated! "Caught by the glittering moment, I want to be enthralled"
if u ask me when is my glorious moment, i will reply "Now" 我的光荣时刻 就是 现在!
as the dark clouds disappear, the sunray will shine on our sweats when ivp comes, it will be our glamorous day!
oh ya, was camping in eugene'hse for mahjong/psp really l0ng time nv touch the real mahjong tiles haha, we quite lame...came up with our rule to have minimum 3台 to win. my set dun have any animal...quite tough...luckily i 未雨绸缪, didnt natively wait for my flowers to come. in d end i hu with 5台! muahaha
even called for canadian pizza for dinner...then we wolf-swallow-tiger-digest them auntie wong dun even recognise me le.. psp was fun, but i rather write 1000words compo then play the vs game...thumb hurts! nowaday kids r more fortunate liao, so many stuffs to play...cant even see the game properly when there's so many elements
supper desert in mac, macflurry is always my self-reward.
fever is gone, but stomach still pain...muz study tmr le, since next wk RE-TESTS!
reflected at 11:42:00 PM
Friday, August 03, 2007
God...izzit possible to have lightnings in Afghanistan? how i hope to strike those wicked men
yesterday is terrible n horrible day for me... after the heavy afternoon nap...i woke up for 5mins b4 i fell back to deep slp of 5hrs...i juz felt dizzy even after every slp...
then when i tried to eat a piece of meat during my late dinner at 11+pm, it juz stay intact in my tongue...really dun have the appetite. so i stood b4 the rubbish bin...spill out the meat...then i started VOMITING!
feverish, with bad headache...i was lying on bed trying hard to even finish my 1st chpt of Ptech..end up my brain was forced to shut down..was thinking wad am i going to do tmr...
luckily this morning felt abit better, esp when i took 154. l0ng time nv see the loving couple with their cute son. he grew alot, even can say "妈咪去看医生". sometime, a young laughing boy can cheer ur day up! (remind me of my student, 2wks nv see her, she suddenly have long hair! sumo her assignment even got 94...u guys muz be wondering how come a slacker can produce such a hardworking student bah!)
of cos i cant lose out. was cherishing my precious time in bus to study the notes. luckily they stay in my memories fresh till the test, no prob with the paper. was quite happy!
pon pcon lect juz to finish ped presentation using 4hrs...but the presentation duration is quite short, harry was rushing us. ivan has too much to talk...but in d end, we g0t 85, quite satisfied, thou yk even got 90. haha
went jp subway to eat. the malay lady was asking me "wad toppings u wan?" then i smiled at her...hmm, she changed her qn then. "wad toppings u dun wan?" See, moral of story: sometimes, u can get ur ans when u change ur angle of asking qn!
then played po0l with stan. it was since a long time i had a great day. revived the lost skill of mine, thou the feeling is still not fully back.
predicting the path ur ball will go first. focus, aim n hit...then watch the ball goes smoothly the way u wanted. it was really joyful! all the previous stress is gone. was playing seriously while didnt know some1 got distracted by nice scenery faraway where my eyes cant reach. (haha, didnt know still got others who think tat i wear contact lense. so ppl, i have to say here...if on the street u saw me yet i didnt see u...pls dun think i "dao" u)
won stan too many times...he was complainting abt being cursed by me, cos even easy ball to hit, the ball will knock the two sides n come out of the hole...haha, i think my guardian angel is somewhere down there...
love the coin part. almost wanna quit pool after his last statement...
this wk is juz a hell for me. 3day continous tests...with a presentation n assignment...finally no more le, can now focus purely on studies liao. next wk i will be relaxing since i got some days no sch. but next wk i call it retest wk, since i got uop n pcon failed...
tmr is Kb0x day! cherishing the remaining time we have
P.S: actually u dun need to feel sad if u lose something. cos at the same time, u have gain something. that is the "vaccancy" that ur something used to occupy. u are lighter now!
great fight.
reflected at 10:54:00 PM
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Damn it. wad wrong did a man done by doing volunteering work, tat cost him his life. if u guys deem urself as fighters, y dun u all use ur own hands break the prison to save ur frenz instead of cowardly hold the innocents as hostage! fuck
was so pissed off again when during pcon quiz, there's a clown sitting infront of me who badly need attention. u dun bel0ng to our lecture, since u failed ur module n stay back. so y dun u take ur test seriously instead of making noises down there, thinking that they enjoyed ur entertainment? they were juz 可怜 of u. i almost wan to take a knife, pull ur pigtail and chop off ur head when u accused my fren of taking other ppl shoe. in the first place, she picked it up when some1 forgotten her shoes. so noob, shut up if u dun know anything. i'm 0so freaked up when u challenge my lecturemate for 2.4 race. actually, since u like to use words to put ppl down, i almost wan to take up ur challenge. u certainly make my blood boil for being such pitiful clown.
tot taking an unfamiliar bus, 99 back home will cure me...in d end i really discover how big JW/boon lay can be..even saw city harvest..dun quite like their cross design, cos i wonder if God can see it from above...
xinying n ahmad both said i lo0king YOUNGER...esp the "gin na" lo0k
tat's was my moody yesterday. life has gone so worst.
but then again, u ppl muz be surprise when i was blogging tis time. today i oni had a half hr sch, since i was havin practical test. it was abit funny, esp when mdm kept loling with me as she asked my oral qn. hinting n guessing... kyle was scolding me "i oni ask u start the pump u need to wear gloves for wad" then till his 3rd qn, which left me stuck...then he quickly said, "ok, tat's all. u may go" GG!
so we went to mkt for a gd breakfast. was really full. haha, l0ng time nv taste chee cheong fan le, much less than beancurd with "fishballs" (auntie gave me 4, i tot last time used to be 3 oni meh?)
come to realise this wk was so packed...test n quiz, luckily stoll shifted his retest today to next tue. tmr still got ptech test n PED presentation!!! but ptech was still enjoyable to study. hope PED goes well!
lo0ing forward for this sat, n of cos next wk which seem to be relaxing le. may sneak out quietly for a swim or so to destress
P.S: ann was rite when he said my pain will come back when i going to have upcoming free time to finally think abt it...
reflected at 10:55:00 AM
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
no news yet. everybody, pls pray for their safety.
morning, suddenly like robot woke up. instinct is telling me i overslp. lo0k at the clock(9.45am), look at mama. she gave me the "not my fault ar" face..."i shake u, u shake me back, then u take blanket as shelter. who ask u dun wan slp early"
win liao lor, rush to bathe. then half-way eat, stan sms. was really laughing at the sms, "Haha. We all didnt go. I woke at 835 too. Haha." how's great, really teamspirit sia, me stan yk n ivan the whole fyp grp none turn up! but ivan collected our UOP paper. me n stan failed, even got the same mks. he was certainly sad, not becos he fail, but he was sad becos he had the same mks with some1 who dun study de...
how to know i dun study? let the story continues first. upon knowing all of us miss the first hr tutorial, i was still rushing to eat my "small" breakfast so i can attend the 10~12 UOP lecture. here comes stan's sms again. "No lecture anymore dude. WAKE UP!!!" fainted, i didnt even know stoll taught us finish le~
but lack of slp is really making me bonkers. trying hard to cut open a plastic sealed box of dou sha bing (bean sand biscuit). it was really one of my fav. suddenly mama came past, asked "wad r u doing?" "open n eat la" "got chilli de leh" me giving the "u trying to entertain me rite" face then she point to me a picture on the box. it drew alot of dou sha bing, with 2 red chilli!!!
WTH~ y are there 没良心的人 put chilli inside dou sha bing one!!! almost puked when trying hard to imagine the taste...yuck
不知不觉 is 31/7. luckily had to hand in assignment den award appreciation nite. if not i will b really 5days nv go np.
huiyan long time nv saw me. then said "wah! how come u have my face last time" ya, too much stress...no matter how relax i try to lo0k..there's alway an indicator
my mentor, my great senior, huiyan
my best chess fren, sec fren, jingsheng
even took a pic with principal! (he's really gd. cos previously i see him in carpark. i tot he's those big shot who wun bother small fry. then suddenly he smiled at me! luckily i'm not those who think he juz oni another old man...of cos i return him a brilliant smile!) after taken photo, he even initiate a handshake with me! no wonder jingsheng say he's going promoted. I'M WUN FAIL MY EXAM DE. THK FOR UR GAMBATTE
took bus back with huiyan. really a nice chat which had been really long ago. learnt alot of things. he was still in guilt of being the leader...but i still cant forgive myself too...was really happy when he said he know i am reliable when he saw me first time. wun let u down this yr. 1 mth to go. really is 1 mth to go. a promise is still a promise. i will use a 平常心, without act of revenge le, if i encounter the ah pei again.
P.S: guess tat u readers muz hav knew wad my special edition abt le bah. ya, i will write abt my 8yrs of chess. still not free yet, tmr got pcon mock exam. tonite will be long nite again.
reflected at 12:05:00 AM
From a Boy to Man
Once a Marist, always an Officer