Friday, November 30, 2007 went bowling juz now.. 3strikes...but alot of gutters...ARGHhhh the cleaners later dun need clean liao...cos i already flush till sparkling **************************************** typical day. but since it's fri...CHEERS~
plus today was mother Bday. 2nd sis suddenly asked me to go to her place duno do wad. scared i got another scolding. who know, she wanna me write Bday card. lol
and morning meeting today as hilarious. the way they present...like nobody's business.
no. of results validated: ZERO yeah!!(clapping..lol)
speed: 100%!!!(6/6) yay!!!!(clapping)
no. of wastes: ZERO! hooray(clapping)
"nso the meeting ends!!! yeah... yaya, before we end...let's sing a song~"
then we sang Bday song in the lab like nobody's business..think the rest of lab 0so heard. lol
end up today i 4pm liao rush finished my work liao wanna go jog. the whole dept like nobody running...walau. even 1st sis, the regular, didnt (sick) sigh...continued my work...
today came 2 repairmen. one is 2nd sis called for to repair her instrument. another is mother called for to repair the HPA.
they max childish... due to the strict regulation...they visitor 0so muz wear labcoat. so 2nd sis brought one while 1st sis took for the HPA man. then 2nd sis's one lol at the HPA man. so HPA man complaint to 2nd sis...how come hers she gave the better labcoat...
2nd sis replied "i save tree mah. so give him labcoat to wear. she(1st sis) give u the disposable one."
HPA said "okok i understand wad u mean. so i'm the disposable one"
laugh until stomachpain*
then weigh halfway, the HPA man need to wait for the machine to run, so nothing to do. came n look at me...
"wah...u weigh so many samples can turn mad one. i saw b4 ur list of samples. SO MANY"
"yalor..."(终于有人了解我的痛苦..)
"they shouldnt have asked u ppl do it mah. leave it to the BANGALA loh"
WTH! so racist sia
then i 顺便偷师, learn some stuffs from him.
totally agreed with 1 of his statement. 男人就像醇酒,越久越浓。 女人呢?就像红酒。
mother was wishing me to enjoy my wkends. "dun stay too late hor. and ya, rmb to have PROTECTION" KNN, i know wad she meant. previously she was telling me "那女的不错嘛,去追啦" wtf
scald my finger. 明明 knew the danger. 依然 i still play with fire.
P.S: "even though we knew their reply, we still muz ask them. it's basic courtesy." it became 1 of my principles. 重友轻色~
reflected at 7:24:00 PM
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Angry Day.
received reddish crystalline rocky pieces. nv nv ever tot it will be NACL.
asked father how deal with it... he narrate me his middle east story liao... then tell me go other lab take the kitchen tool tat ppl pound into powder...
so i go there. the mdm told me oni got the hand part. the "bowl" in another lab. so i go there. another mdm show me the bowl. kinda disappointed. cos not tat made of stone type...seem brittle to me. so i was like unbelieving it can be use...
"aiyo, see ur pattern confirm nv do housework rite?" helpful her, help me to pound.
suddenly rhere was this bitch supervisor2. (shall name 2, not to be confused with the 1st one) "pls wear ur goggles when u are doing benchwork"
KNS. see, we got such a caring n careful ppl ard..as if there was acid, as if the bits will fly into our eyes, as if she will wear one when she pounding at home.
so bloody moody tat i badly wana eat kfc. haha, 2 of us fast game chop chop finished. bought some cough candy n med for 1st sis after see her coughing badly.
came back home 0so bloody moody. scream loud liao went eat the ducky dine.
wad's wrong with me? angry liao kept on eating...
perhaps i badly need a jog. ya, tmr is the monthly company jogging day. nv ever got the "free time". KNN. dun care, i muz.
today's experience: 为何总是想着迁就别人。。。何苦那么辛苦。。。干脆的爽快
P.S: she was the only one at the bustop. and he was the only one walking home in the opposite direction.
reflected at 7:51:00 PM
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
smiling day~
mother: "listen! listen! pls LISTEN. ppl oni know abt hearing. not listening!" ya, tat how normally a misunderstanding can happen. well. i know her intention. but not the other party. n i became father's new nagging target. telling me all the automation next yr april tat will DECREASE our workload DRASTICALLY!!! (i mean...i already left then change auto...walau.)
i agree with mother. boss is that kind will follow up things himself. make sure all stuffs done, of cos u work under him 0so muz work hard tgt lo. (instead of u work hard, boss dun rite?) then nso, he saw how come the fumehood got instruments not in operation, waste space. so COMPLAIN to father. i like it. if not for him, i think the fumehood will be forever tat state.
father then asked me to settle it with him. at tat pt of time, 3rd sis asked me, plus whole team to see if the test-tubes whether izzit me blur who mixed up 2 of them....from their exp, the salt one cant be transparent...while the finished pdt cant be cloudy. so they suspect me...NO1 BELIEVE ME...
in conclusion, REWEIGH WHOLE SET. KNS father then joked "kairong, 你没有sample weigh也不要这样嘛" God really luv playing samll tricks on me. with the help of 3rd sis, we chop chop finished in 1hr. then after digestion, she checked le told me, the color still the same!!! 水落石出!!!return my 清白。。。我是无辜的。。。
okok,lunch time. saw diyana n another lecturemate. cool!
return back liao, settle with father. but the instrument too big. swop here n there liao cant fit in. father was thinking of cutting away the base of one, since not in use very occupy space. then i think (not out of the box) but above the lvl. haha, when 2nd sis kept asking him can fit meh, then father said "可以,有他这个高手!"lol
really luv 1st sis so much. after her course liao, saw almost every1 gone. so came n help me...she still coughing.
today was my 1st spending of salary! pool status: 30% recovered. trying hard to find back the old feeling.
kids are funny. was listening to sammi's song. thn baby boy came said"我要听跳舞的".. thn baby gal came said "spiderman" huh? nso she pull me n show me her raincoat... heard the boy mumbling duno wad "嫁给我" then realise he's singing the song david tao with jolin...so asked him wad song u singing? "老师的歌" KNN, nowaday teacher 0so so hip liao. later another neighbour grandson came. then observe them quietly...playing toys, once A taken, B want, they got a law said "我先拿的。。。" haha, human selfish side. dun say children, some adults 0so haven seem mature. but tats not all, B will try to find another more "exciting" toy, to make A jealous. wahaha. this one more power, human evil side... remind me of this movie of sammi with andy.
P.S: 一刹那间的擦身而过,有种舌头被柠檬刺到的感觉。
reflected at 10:58:00 PM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
gd slpt. enjoy the exceptionally slow morning even walk to the bank to check if my pay came yet. (ya, i'm kinda urgently despo) so delighted to see 5hundred bucks tat i rmb abt my tapcard. shit. dun wanna trap behind again. uturn back home.
then i spent 5min+ wanting to cross the buzy road. God teased me by making the bus appear at other end again. in a spite, i ran bloody to the next bustop ahead. 要死,也要死在bus里。。。
inside the bus. very blurish liao. i swear i didnt close my eyes, I MISS MY STOP. KNN, siasuay.
in d end, i STILL REACH early. muahahaha. 1st sis lost her voice...haiz, work really 辛苦,she didnt apply even half-day leave.
surprisingly, no sample to weigh. whole body kinda 不习惯。 KNN, 2nd sis like see me too free, kept on making me "USEFUL"
saw 2 boxes of equipment on the table. felt very dingteh, so asked her wad izzit. while i stared at the box figuring...heard water behind. tot she was washing stuffs. "oh, it's a printer leh!!!" i exclaimed like suaku then turned behind. oPps, it was another gal from the lab beside. she 0so stunned. i think i blush... KNN, that bitch walk off didnt tell me!
ya, plus i hate bitch who always 咄咄逼人。 dun put ur unhappiness rite on top of my happinese...KNN, teach 1 more time will die meh...i oni done it once, u wanna me to rmb for my life...of cos, i use my 招牌 action,傻笑 combo with sotong face. whoever 0so 拿我没辄!
kids nowadays quite not innocent liao. already knew how to play 心机 games with u. they will call u monster when they dislike u. then they will call u "korkor, 买玩具" while pointing to the toys on OG pamphlet. "买barbie" said baby gal. "korkor, 有房子的neh" added on by baby boy. i saw the price..."$126" faint.
come to think of it. spent quite amt last mth on cousins' babies' 满月。。。somemore another cousin marrying next mth. fast game.
My body's cold, it's as cold as ice Running through the city But if I try, maybe I can find Everlasting love
What do we have? Are they only just empty words? Each on pulls us closer to what we are looking for
I hear a voice inside me awake again It's telling me to the surrender to the fight A shadow land far beyond the light A life that no one but I should ever have to know I'm falling back into the web of night
I wear a mask, if you tear it back What you'll see is sadness I stand alone somewhere in the dark All the love has gone
It's time to put everything on the line for you Nothing ever ventured, then there'll be no gain at all Just like the summer you never hesitate I'm drawn to you like a moth is to a flame A new horizon before our eyes Whatever may cross our path, I'll keep this love alive I'm falling back into the dream again
I hear a voice inside me awake again It's telling me to surrender to the fight A shadow land far beyond the light A life that no one but I should ever have to know
Just like the summer you never hesitate I'm drawn to you like the moth is to the flameA new horizon before our eyes Whatever may cross our path, I'll keep this love alive I'm falling back into the web of night
P.S: dad n mom are discussing abt which flat which storey to select.
reflected at 8:44:00 PM
Monday, November 26, 2007
chiong my pathetic report till 6am. had my pathetic slp for 1hr. n if u bet, u will win. i overslpt.
yet it was my most happiest moment of today. came out of lift. the feeling "it's coming, hurry" was damn strong. bus instinct was rite, b4 i can cross the road, it already came to the bustop. time was 8.27am.
ya, u will think tat 3min how i can make it. well i didnt. best part was, i still daredevil-ly cross the road. of cos, ppl honk. almost got hit. but it juz lies there waiting for me. the bus uncle gave me a smile when i hopped up.
u know, lil' stuff is enough to brighten ur day even w/o the sun.
half-way weighing, another lab supervisor bring a pretty gal walk walk ard. intro here n there. when it's my turn, guess wad the mdm said?
"ya, here is another student. KAI WEN."
... ... ... (so familiar hor.)
"erm, im kairong."
"OH, haha i always mix up u with another gal in other lab"
and surprising, in our tiny discussion, tat gal suddenly made her intro. name...very unqiue. her confidence, somehow resemble some1. i fade away.
break time. i chose an empty table. i sit. mother still stirring her drink. the gal suddenly came in again. she chose an empty table beside. she sit. mother still stirring her drink, i stared at the windows wondering since when the flowers outside bloom. before i found my ans, she left her seat. and came to my table. mother finally stirred finish. and i know the match-making session she was going to do. so play along b4 finding excuse to leave.
father was like "wah, 你那里可以这样。。。今天要交才给我。。。last min的" haha, thks for his grammar editing. b4 i send the report...
damn, i had interesting words but they had to be 委屈 inside the boring report format. e.g "i do the washing daily" but the report dun allow passive voice. as u see, the phrase w/o "I" will be meaningless le rite. TIO BO? tiO~
and for a moment i tot some places having wars...if not how come today received so many crisis rice samples. KNN, need to grind 27 packet of them...
but duno y i kinda luv today. felt so lucky back again. no more suayness. even when i walk home, the wind will caress my back. time for the wound to recover liao.
reflected at 7:21:00 PM
Sunday, November 25, 2007
If we're birds, will u still fly with me... even though there's thunder ahead?
P.S.(Batman): why do we fall? + wad i do define ME.
reflected at 10:28:00 PM
Saturday, November 24, 2007
自然day.
job, work as usual. juz 2 pts to highlight.
the director whom i always toking abt, mother corrected tat should juz be boss. since he oni in-charge of our whole dept of diff labs instead of the whole R&D ctr.
while my main task is weighing, my next pending duty is to complete off my "report"(not to be confused with my intern report tat is due next mon) for father to sign so can acknowledge my transfering skill...but i prioritize weighing first since i dun wan it to accumulate to next mon, with the upcoming samples during the wkends. so suddenly, 1st sis came ENLIGHTENED me.
有些东西我们做的,别人看不到。 但只要是一些我们没follow up的,人家就会magnify it. 你自己看着办。
the impt take-home lesson: it was juz not enough to be hard-working, always pia here n there. the key thing is, WORK SMART(if u can slack more, the better)
dun understand? well, i make it simple for u. if u had 2 choices of printer. one guarantee tat it can last for ten yrs. yet another printer gives u FASTER printing plus CLEARER image. i think the ans is obvious.
yea, the reality has always been harsh.
as the day was coming towards the end, was thinking of going back sch visit the juniors. but i REALLY HATE ppl disturbing my halfway rushing of work...later knew they going watch movie...plus ben asked for steamboat dinner, so haha stomach first!
as i bid gdbye, tat was already past 5.30...then knew tat the gang already left. even counter staffs left. since i FORGOTTEN my tapcard...I WAS basically TRAPPED...omg, red hot ant duno how to escape out...went back then luckily bumped onto a gal who had the same name(D***) as a sec fren i used to hate.
thks for her...if nt i can bang wall le. anyway, 0so thks to this sec enemy. right now, i've been immune to all sort of scolding, insults, humiliation. at tat time, he was among the top ranks of the class. me, always stay happily at the bottomline. seen too much of their 打打杀杀。。。u know, if u are at the top, ppl will try their best to overtake u. alot of backstabbing stuffs. me, the peaceful kia, always the class 开心果。 the diff between us was, he had classmates while i had frenz.
ok past is past. present to me is the most impt moment to tackle.
rushed down to marina bay. then i knew the diff of havin buspass n nt havin. the one havin, can anyhow go up wadever 贼车。。。end up duno where we were dropped off. juz to say, steamboat i think we lack of skill...always cant hav full stomach. but learn a new method of cracking the crab..
being bo liao. went mustafa tour. haha, got the old childhood feeling, since the entrance required to leave ur bags to the guards. inside was CROWDED...the 24hr LIGHT...gd thing there was, if u wan to buy watch, u have WHOLE LOT of to choose. as same as luggage. u wun miss out. kinda like to shop for appliances. cant find my juicer...latest design nt there. but i fond of the electrical heater. can steamboat too. duno y 0so tot of buying a hi-fi set and a Ag washing machine! seeing the impt of saving money......
it was so big. even gt a lvl tat was so GLITTERING. too bad, didnt tempt me. already tired out, so we walked back really long to find nite-rider. KNS, walk so long liao to find tat it wasnt there. end up took cab.
amt left in wallet: $0 cheers', duno when payday comes
P.S: the distance doesnt matters to me. wad impt to me, is the direction.
reflected at 7:03:00 PM
Thursday, November 22, 2007
i dun like the thermostat tat God adjusted today. cultivating my longlost mood in rushing report.
work kinda slacken, 呼吸. nothing much to update. juz tat a temp will be on "her" way to help me. ya, another female... nvm, the male-sch boy gradually understanding more abt women. yea, they r the most complicated creatures on earth.
when i saw 歌姬, i think of MIKA nakashima when i saw Diva, i think of SAMMI cheung
yest msn-chat with best buddy. didnt expect us to have the same fate after so long. to me, LO VE should be regardless of nationality age (10yrs? i duno if really make a diff, so long not my mama or daughter. well, he said does. nv experience b4) race but not sex. (i dun despise gay or les, neither do i support)
P.S: 聪明人往往在自己觉得最聪明的时候,做出最不聪明的事。i wanna be stupid. be dumb. be silly. be foolish. juz give me some mud to cover my face. humiliate me.
reflected at 9:56:00 PM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
luv the air God give today. lil'bit early. mother still the winner. ever since previous days of CHIONGing... we manage to close the gap. yeah, u bet we did. all the bloods. all the popup pimples tat they lol @ me...
meeting time. father used a SENSITIVE phrase of us being not WORKING SMART. mother 0so hit the roof. SO U MEAN WE NOT SMART LA...until even LKY 0so being dragged into the picture.
kinda addicted to the 2 words tat director will always tell me upon knowing backlog cleared. GOOD JOB!
once a point of time. i tot i left a team. who know God give me another~
if Laughter is the Best Medicine. well then, Time is the Best Physician.
P.S: 彻底地伤 再彻底地醒过来。 hope every 6th grader did well~
reflected at 7:34:00 PM
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
back to calmness. meeting today finally solved. see, the temp came today (which they said had to wait till next mth 0r so) lol. lesson learnt: u have to be 凶 to have ur demands met.
halfway doing the "sewing", mother n son started a conversation abt cinema. n so, talk abt "saw IV"...
X japan.
finally received some updates. and they covered the main theme for "SAW IV". name of song is called I.V. more to expect next yr spring.
not much attached to this song. much less the show. mayb HIDE is loling at a corner. seeing the crowd so many.
P.S: after ten yrs. ppl r very happy abt the reunion. perhaps juz me the outcast.
reflected at 7:57:00 PM
Monday, November 19, 2007
Fiery Me. if u dun wish to be bored. ignore this ranty+bitchy post.
hipee morning. yes, i'm the first person to enter the building block. morning meeting, discovered we achieved zero sample within target time.
haha, end up mother kept on being NAGGED by father. lol, first time i saw man nagging. so jialat. mother very buzy with her stuffs, then father kept on talking abt optimizing our work(ya, he already optimize his tongue...)...then i c father quietly walk off...tot sea wave over sia...who know he turned back nagging again...wahseh, whole process repeated several times, even more than i weigh my samples. his 口头禅 is "tio bo?"(correct or not in hokkien) max funny...i kept on loling while i weigh my samples until 3rd sis asked me how come i down there 傻笑。。。mother 0so quite clever, came to me "小弟,来,我来帮你"(actually is to escape) end up 3rd sis was the next victim.
peace didnt last long. father suddenly call up for a tiny meeting. ask for our view on whether do plan A or B. actually we all know is plan A. so i dun wanna waste time, opt A. then mother say "i 0so chose A becos..." end up being stopped...nagging started. ending statement "this is the team decision ar. not i force one hor..tio bo?" (KNS...so democratic sia. even if we chose wad the gahmen wan, we know the reason...but truth dun sounds proper. lie is still, the sweetest~)
being buzy, means i go for lunch late. yup, inside the toilet...i always been seeing a yellow umbrella lying at a corner and i'm always scolding in my heart "WHICH ASSHOLE AR? UMBRELLA DUN KEEP ONE...KNS" then it was today i realised it was MINE. wahahahaha. ok, let me explain. this beautiful yellow umbrella i put inside the toilet once after a rainy day. so i left it OPEN to dry. then the nice indian cleaning auntie closed it for me...okok, i'm SOTONG. i took it out liao, the indian lady saw me "aiyah..urs!" (btw, kinda sad, cos she's leaving. i will have 1 lesser ppl to smile at in d morning. haha, she always call me SON, esp i blocking her mopping way...)
guess wad. lunchtime they all none brought umbrella. gg. returned back at the pantry those aunties saw me, "aiyo! got umbrella still wet." luckily got 1 smart one. "No la, he shared umbrella izzit. tat's y half wet." (ya, moral of the story, dun share umbrella with gal. furthermore mine got xiao qian inside liao)
n supposedly my lunchtime nt yet over n i started work. oh no, TO BE CLEARER, i started doing OTHER PPL WORK. cos, at my table i had cleared my samples. but since samples had already came n hail inside the sample rm, so i very kind-hearted...not wanting to (u know) rush other ppl to quickly segregate the master sample. cos it had to be split into portions for each lab. but the problem is, they say manpower not enough, alot of workload...i mean, ok, i know ur problem. but i 0so got my problem. ppl r rushing me, i didnt rush u guys but the samples basically dun move unless i came to help. i cant be everytime helping, esp now we 0so lack for manpower...
NVM. i sacrifice my lunch. my breaktime. all the bullshit time i had. juz to quickly do the mountain-piling job. no complaint. quietly. thks for the malay cleaning auntie to help me do the sealing part. but i noticed her flu once i saw her. the rest of the dept ppl, sit their butt doing their paper work. ok, fine with me. 老人家,i respect. cannot stand so long de, i understand. i juz begged a little help from the sample temp staff to help me touch up abit cos i'm really hot ant. then she went back to their desk talk talk. the environment is like those hospital nursery. i do my segegration, while the big glass window, i can see them. not even sound-proof n i can hear every single words. "BLA BLA. AI... we here work very hard liao. cant even save ourself how we go n help others...they always faster than us. they should do it themselves mah..." wadever. u dun wan help juz say directly la. i can 忍受 one. dun 隔山打牛 can liao. i know u are talking to me. i'm not tat dumb pls.
the truth is. they set up this lab service. purpose was to help us by covering the inital stages. we appreciate very much. but truth was...they cant handle since it was an add-on workload to them w/o adding new hands. i can understand. tat'y last few days, i didnt even go n hurried them. but as mother mentioned, they took advantages n it did PILED UP. only when we get affected as time goes, they started to say abt how buzy they were. suan le. i kept all the 老人家 cold words to my heart n left.
after finished weighing again. i need to replenish liao. so i go back to the damn place. then i saw the malay auntie coughing too much n cant take it, esp we were handling the vitamins powder. i myself 0so cant stand. so i told her i go asked their boss to help. she tot i kidding. n yeah, i called the old man. he was not only the lab service head. but the whole dept v-director. guess wad i say to him? "auntie is sicked. the rest of the ppl were too buzy. could u come n help me segregate the samples?" i think he 0so cant believe tat a duno-how-old lad will come n ask him do the "lowly" task.
his face was like "haha, dun kid boy." my face was like "uh uh, not-kidding sir." so he asked "did the auntie ask u to find me?" i replied "no. we really had a problem here"
pull him to the sample to settle. think he look at the mountain 0so cant laugh liao.
so the dialogue continued. "haha, my boss will be upset to see me doing these" i look at him using a "innocent" stare tat hint "so u wanna help anot?" "u cant be possibly wan to use my salary to help u rite? i'm part of the management team, very buzy with the planning de. okok, tmr i will meet with mr (my boss) to discuss. meanwhile, i really cant find some1 to help u..."
i'm fiery ok. almost i wanna shot back "ok, thks for ur SUPERIOR MANAGEMENT tat lead to this wonderful PEAK-REACHING situation" (mother did, later commented i 没大没小)
ok, i 放过 him. shall await tmr meeting. their 打太极 session.
gd things juz nv ending. do half-way got this another-lab gal came n asked me for a sample no. 6XXXX. so i say "should be among these (mountain) trolley bah" guess wad she said next? "when will it be ready?"
WTH. enough is enough. as u know or duno, the master samples is to be split into 2, one keep in the sample rm, another for the lab tat one. sometimes, mayb 2 lab, so segregate into 3. to think tat i was very kind-hearted...if i know other lab was doing, i will divide out my share, PLUS for them. of cos, if juz the samples are for their own lab only, i wun itchyhand n waste my time mah....then i realised they uh uh...not so frenly de...do their part liao seal back. and i have to open again to take out my share.
think of this, my accumulated fire, ignited. i simply replied "oh? is this my job?" (paiseh, today i no more gentleman liao)
she totally nv expected it. stunned for 2s. "我。。不是这个意思。。" ok..i knew i went overboard. but later i really got did for her part...not completely since upstair ppl called me say i down there too long le...
weigh half-way. i smelled perfume. needless to look up. i know is who. the bitch supervisor who once stopped me from using the printer. ya, she got the cheek to come to our lab to take ultra-pure water. KNS...later mother scold me. "u not enough kanghu then dun use the pouring method(while weighing i pour the samples instead of using spatula cos faster.) esp when ppl r watching u. those ppl who taking water, need to wait down there, nothing better to do will look at how u do de mah. later she will go back report de, who know. juz be careful lor"
wtfwtf...haha, if some1 really wanna play the backstabbing lame shity. I'M GAMED FOR IT. GAMBLE with me if u wan. i lose, the most i failed my attachment, i get another job. since i'm a cockroach tat live anywhere 0so doesnt matter. u lose, haha, kiss gdbye to ur fat K salary. gladly to accept ur invitation. mayb u r jealous tat our dept is such a wonderful team. or mayb u r jealous tat director rmb my name so well. esp when an angmoh can rmb a chinese name.
see, u dun have to be peter or john so tat other rmb u. it juz depends on whether the person has the heart to rmb u.
"What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet." -Juliet
end of day. i still wanna "save" one sample. mother tot by the late time is impossible liao. so i said "didnt some1 juz now say 有他在 mah?" father gave this lol sentence "你走啦。 一个而已无所谓。 反正我们还有很长的路要走......"
haha, i took his 无奈 n leave~
--- report yet to do. lately ppl ard me their relatives not doing gd. learn to cherish the time tgt is impt.
oh, i 0so quit my tuition liao. ya, she was an obedient student, taught by a failure teacher. ya, i can forget abt being GTO le. she will be P6 next yr, i will be NS. dun like tat 半途而废 style. this makes me poorer, but my wkend longer. plan for the next plan.
P.S: 我不是好胜的人。人比人,气死人。我只是不愿意让Loser赢罢了。
reflected at 8:56:00 PM
Sunday, November 18, 2007
sort of reflective p0st...
recently recevied al0t of tips frm seniors regarding NS. well, tat wad i should focus next. deciding wad i wanna be. kinda l0oking forward to the 2yrs chalet. hopefully it's another turning pt.
work stress seemed to be very visible to others. no wonder i even dreamed of opening my own fidge to seeing whole lots of samples! KNS... even now my mind was abit dizzy. mayb i had go back to the bl0odful torture next mth. ---
if God give me a chance to change my horoscope. i would still like to remain being Gemini. even thou right now i'm beginning to have the common problem of a gemini. but i luv the strengths of typical gemini. havin' the slim figure. born with a sharp tongue. very adaptable to diff env. plus I CAN LIVE OFF WITH FLAWS.
ever wonder y izzit i'm grown up this way. happy is all matters to me. since young, i dun have any learning model. thus where did my characters came abt? perhaps from the sword-fighting novels tat i had been reading during my sec days. haha, my fav writer is not Louis Cha. but another writer whom even when being warned of health danger, he juz continue to drink until his last breath.
he was the one who taught me frenship above woman. haha.
P.S: 我们是永远的好朋友!
reflected at 7:10:00 PM
Saturday, November 17, 2007
###Endless Suayness###
Moodless to even go out these wkends.
yest morning, v g0t feeling. woke up early n i was the first person to on the lab lights! but later on the day...sux
firstly being told i got 100+ outstanding samples. then during meeting, father continued his harshness. 2nd sis, being the team leader, stood up...luckily director stopped father while i calmed 2nd sis. here comes the eXcitment.
after father kept on wanting us to come up with a Strategy, director made his talk. "dun talk abt strategy. to me, it is usually for the long term, from mths to mths. i think we should concentrate on next wk. u know, i 0so went for the management meeting. they always talk abt strategy. it's BLOODY HELL!"
we clapped! his "damn-it" speech earned my admiration. respect'
lesson learnt: to be a gd boss, u have to be compassionate n understanding to ur ppl"
lunch-time. @meiji duno somehow got a box of choco for free. lol. plus the incident of P-L-A-I-N meiji cracker really made 2 guys laughed till stomachache by a gal.
towards end of the day came the climax. being told to repeat whole set. really chuaiBIGGERsai. 整个人崩溃。。。 of cos mother not like those mothers. son naughty immediately hand OUT! tat type. she explained to me sweety first. haiz...wonder how come luck so down.
mayb guardian angel knew i did wrong things so punishing me for the whole wk.
took 178 from woodlands. last bus. 2hrs trip. luv taking long-journey bus alone, quietly enjoying the music. pass by some places, some familiar bustops tat provoke some memories. self-reflecting period. not emo pls. esp met 1 senior n 1 junior ever since mths ago. they said i changed from 吊儿郎当 to 沧桑 person 了。
ya, father finally came back from his trip(alone?) frm HK. full force today, yet director didnt attend morning meeting. he came back abit yaya...imposed more works on us. the mama ladies of cos, fought back. gunpowery...
he bought back 老婆饼。。。didnt eat. cos i dun have wife! hehe, who know, mayb hinting to us he had caught one~
lunch. a kind uncle offered to daopao 25+ duck/roast/bbq rice from my NEAREST mkt. as delicious as wad mother n other ppl said. shame, i lived so near yet nv tasted b4
blur sotong was being told of 2 mixed-up sets A&B. duno which is which. almost hada repeat 2set. 48tubes! chuaBIGsai.
mother suddenly asked me wad is the legal age for sex. "18?" then kena shoot for being suaku...yup, i'm "still" innocent. she was juz very worried abt her 12yo boy who often xian charbo outside. i tot 12yo the most is hook hook finger, lol!
2nd sis duno frm where digged out 2bks for me to pk away. great, if nt i duno how to kill this wkends.
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now sweating. juz now crazy dancing with the kids. nowadays kids r so clever. already know how to lie or sabotage... i had this borned nature to mix ard with kids.
some ppl told me i have charisma. yet i dun notice it. but i can live with ppl at the bottom n 0so ppl at the top. Versatile is my Analogy
learning to live my 3/4 lustrous life. LUST for my happiness. RUST away my sadness.
P.S: mom finally cook white rice...brown rice sucks. simply becos they're red. y no green?
reflected at 7:21:00 PM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
no doubt there's stress. but i juz luv my j0b.
today certainly suay day. mang mang mang. 0so duno wad hell i've been mistaking past few days. test-tubes colors l0oked weird, kena suspected of misplacing them. file been overwrite. luckily there's hard-copy printed. if nt, i can go jump suan le. realised 1 sample had been done b4. which means, i repeated 4 nothing. released pressure too fast. 2 test-tubes pop burst. repeat. sumo, some1 frm another dept came n caught me not wearing safety googles. tuie si!
freakin heckcare abt safety. the one who dun even wanna use the safety belt inside cab. hate their "rules/regulations/glp/by law)
frenz. i got diff frenz with diff vision. some wanna be doc. some wanna study till phD. some wanna be lawyer. some wanna be investor. well, they know me. i oni wana to be happy. nt wanna live drunkful life of walking aimlessly forever.
i wished upon the star. i wanna be a specialist. some1 who is special.
P.S: i always believe that there is juz this special one above me who always look after me. rewarding me when i did the right thing. punishing me when i did the wrong thing.
reflected at 7:20:00 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007
D,R'U;N"K.
first time i drank so much. in a complicated pub. with alot of thai women, 2 poles, pool table, live band, soccer show and noisey remix. absolute vodka. martell. tequila shots. hennessy.(i dun rmb seeing it, mayb i already cmi le)
first time see pole-dance live. awfully disappointed. the dancers seemed not friendly to the pole. repel like same polarity magnets.
got several phrases thru the nite.
1) didnt bother chatting much. 1 cup followed the next. being early doesnt mean got worm to eat. 2) the place became crowded. i tot it wasnt wulu afterall. yet, later found out i was wrong since they're all the ladies for the nite. 3) first visit to toilet. the very honest guy already told his frenz he's gettin drunk. LOVE THE FEELING. stared into the mirror at the redden cheek. KAWAII~ even walking 0so hav the floating feeling. uber happy, like no more burden to carry. 4) over-estimate. the small glass of tequila is really powerful. clever boy went to the toilet 2nd time into hiding. the rxn time became slower. played 3 songs as i rest on the 马桶。。tot i had suppressed it, stood up n giddy. turned back n VOMIT... 5) return back to table. kinda scolding myself for wasting those gd stuffs. nvm, i sat still n blankly watched the 3 thai gals singing weird stuffs on stage. a china waitress came. i duno wad she said. rmb sumtin like, "你喜欢哪一个?" i laughed,"全部!" she duno y looked at me shocked. then continues "bahbah哪一个?" so i laughed, "随便啦!" then she turned back...look at the stage, pick a gal n gave her 花圈。 then realised i blurrly gave her 10bucks for tat. luckily she really didnt 全部,if nt i died! 6)since the table got 2 old bird n 2 newbies. we finished the bottles fast, attracted more women to came. then i saw them all turned into werewolves. up down hands. big bear hug. no style kissing. i down there kena being scolded 木头人, waste their money...pushed a woman to me to bua. luckily i preserved my kiss. 7)end up in motel. uber siasuay. cos first nite there with a guy. how gay.
那里没有我要的幸福。touching a woman is not happy at all. touching a woman i love then i considered happy.
first time seen geylang during daytime. v peaceful. juz abit restless.
been a long time seen i visited the guanyin temple. last time quite occasionally, when i sec3/4 got Amath tutoring there. even went up to the centre, juz trying to say hello to the teacher who taught me how to hang a smile on the face no matter wad time. too bad. time flies, things changes, place changes. who ever wonder lasalle will be opposite?
today work, no more emo. even director would wink at me after i asked him to sign on my timesheet. 1st sis was saying me abt when i wrote '8.30-5.30pm', "你那里有每天五点半的。。" plus mother 心痛 me for doing all the maid stuffs tat my 1st sis gave me...
even the malay cleaning auntie 0so...during break gave us something to bite. she gave mother some. gave me 1. then laughed "you can oni eat one. see ur pimples?" wth///
went to nyp support them. then first time visited AMK hub. nothing much.
mrt home. after i tapped out, realised there's a gal who had the same fast walking pace as me. @bustop, i stared at the cloudless reddish sky. duno y i suddenly turned n caught her staring at me. who is copying who? on bus, same bus, she alighted very soon. i let my eyes send her off.
the most horrible thing was, i did another i-cant-explain act. luckily, time didnt allow me. for she juz had that thing common in me. we shared the same walking pace.
P.S: the tint feeling of regretful. i've completely matured.
reflected at 11:27:00 PM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
wah, raining hard. wind is slamming. thk for it, the boy who dun hav direct nite-rider decided to cab home instead of walk. thk for God, the cab didnt meet any red traffic lights. abt juz 3(bus)+5(cab) bucks home from somerset.
seriously no mo0d for work today. weigh NONE samples. mon is surely my harsh day.
*hated to being compared @. i believe every1 is unique, each have their own strength n weakness. somebody helped it, doesnt me i need to follow n do so. tat depends on my mood. if it had to be so, dun use the word "help" pls.
*on d surface they said provided help for me, which they supposedly cover some hassles of mine. yet, truth was, i'm still doing them. the more cruel thing, i had to do MORE than my part. ya, accept it.
*i dun have the habit of nodding to show i understand. if u dun have d patience to teach me, dun bother. i can do my stuffs.
breaktime, buy chocolates again. 4.75 total. i gave him 10. then felt i got enough coins. so i REALLY DIGGED OUT 7 ten cents n 1 five cents. got back 6bucks changes. damn happy as i walk out. "Oi! ur stuffs u dun wan to take ar?"
ya, dun like today since the ppl i luv working with all on leave.任性的小孩decided not go home then. end up went town eat.
lol, durian fried rice+鸳鸯...shi0k!
we watched Game Plan. ya, who was d one saying abt their poor rating? makes me so "unrest"... this time is 0so touching, juz the diff of "happily touched" instead of muay thai.
lesson learnt: trust ur taste instead of others.
anyway, luv cathay the best. but shaw is still my childhood taste. thou the seat is abit stiff, the screen is abt small, but the atmo is certainly there!
recently bump onto quite a no. of familiar faces. eg. saw 1 female fren of mine, the bf was so 没大没小, stared at me as if i was tat "threatening" to him.
P.S: to each his own. i know nitelife is harmful to my body. i talk abt not quantity of life but quality of life. 活得精彩~
reflected at 4:12:00 AM
Thursday, November 08, 2007
SPlENDid days~ (of cos, since i spent al0t until going broke so0n...)
wed. i think my stomach was my boss tat day. "gd food gd life" 大鱼大肉。。lunch we finally ate our CURRY FISHEAD. sumo setmeal type. worth d money, nt forgetting their rice is FOC. dinner, we had BBQ stingray+cereal prawns+other sides! omg, juz 1 day, i eaten until like tengkor already...
n been l0ng ever catch a nice show. "muay thai chaiya". fallen in luv with one of the dialogue "defense is not abt retreating" ya, 0so the character "piak". he's the man, one word, 赞! the plot is quite gd, not like normal fight here n there...win liao "THE END". the harmonica tune juz kept lingering in my tune...
but juz a single turnoff tat ruined my mo0d totally. as the show ended, got 1 siao clown infront turned behind n down there kpkb abt among our row got ppl shake legs thruout the show. wtf, we oni five ppl, still got 3 fellows. he juz accused it's one of us. (not as if he didnt used his phone with the glazing light) nvm, let him clowning while his frenz hurried him to leave. so we went out take lift, he brought his whole gang ard 8~10ppl bah in. inside the lift, again he tot he kings liao. i think i can use the word "threaten" was wad he doing. sumo he slam the lift to frighten us. FUCKED! i almost wanna punch his 欠扁 face. he made me realised how coward i am. asshole me 静静地 let him down there 大吵大闹! if only i call the police(even can sue him for damaging public property). came out of lift, think he already song. ppl waiting outside 0so their ppl. not to mention the whole bunch of ah bengs n lians outside cineleisure. KNS, i was so 唯唯诺诺。。。。if only i know muay thai, 拳头可以解决问题
today, out there to causeway pt. juz forget it.
reflected at 11:02:00 PM
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
if i can turn back time. i wanna go back to 6yo.
there's alot of stuffs i wanna learn.
drawing (luv putting color on a plain paper, do juz sketch out a face i luv) singing (luv duet with ppl instead of solo singing esp 配音, unless emo) dancing (luv tap dancing. d sounds when 1 joining after another. where's loneliness?) cycling cooking sewing magic martial arts communication skills diff languages (at least 10, dialects, malay, tamil, cn, jap, kor, frn, grn, thai, latin) telling lies (the most beautiful human nature communication tool) hair cutting & styling driving (bike or car, but wait till i passed my daytona) flying (plane or chopper) publishing (my novel or comics) computering (able to handle applications like flash & html) interior design (for my dream room) farming (grow crop so i can eat my own veggie) repairing self hypnotism chinese medicine bowling gambling bartending calligraphy wood carving stealing (at least earn better cops, more PH 0so) lock picking gardening bagpacking iceskating snowboarding surfing sailing yachting diving shooting archery tennis badminton astrology astronomy feng shui (actually most is very logical. dun need to think superblahblah...) mountain climbing playing muscial instruments (guitar, drum, guzheng, erhu or flute) massaging dating drinking thanking sorrying forgiving
there's whole lot to learn. but first, i need to learn how to be myself.
very moody today. kinda got the feeling of losing grip of time...end up i sinking into the bottomless dark pit..
thkfully for 2nd sis funny remark today. "glassware is meant to be broken de mah." mother added on "ya lor, better is use plastic kind." actually i wanna add on "if can change i 0so wan for my heart..."
P.S: if i walk too fast. if ppl u cant catch up with my pace. then i'm deeply sry.
reflected at 8:55:00 PM
Monday, November 05, 2007
went 4 cousin's hsewarming.
then off for a sudden Kbox session. been a long time since i ever Ked till it closed. (u guys muz be shocked to see me bl0g @ this so early time. juz hope tmr i can still tahan the meeting...)
felt more comfortable after singing off my heart those E.M.O songs.
realise frm alot of frenz ard me facing relationship probs. some juz too complicated.
these r few pics from previous outings. 1 was from joo chiat to geylang, another is from somerset to Lau Pa Sat.
P.S: for me now, i prefer to maintain the 暧昧 status currently.
reflected at 3:33:00 AM
Saturday, November 03, 2007
shall blog abt yest tmr.
worktime, secretary during breaktime joked abt me havin a motherly colleagues as well as a stepmother one. lol, 3 of us know who she refering too. of cos, i gradually understand more n more abt their politics as well, thou they used their own codenames...but haha, i know who r the gianben one.
tis was a period when a easily-contended intern(eg. v happy to receive a candy to chew on) met hungry director(e.g always setting a higher target for us)
luv the 6.30 to 7.15 am/pm daylength when the sun changes shift with the moon. of cos, 黄昏再美终要黑夜。
haiz, biggest joke on me today: POSB. i'm a big bimbo.
P.S: alot of ppl dun understand me. they dun get wad i mean. i always duno y. so i search for the whole dictionary to find the word "kairong". end up with no avail. hence, i realise, kairong got no meaning. *cold*
reflected at 6:53:00 PM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
'“"’ Nov rain is coming `“'.‘
morning kinda feel tat i slp on a magnetic bed. well, we have iron in our blood. expected, alil' while late. but since we can bill all the faults under rain's acc, y not~ bad bad son again, esp when mom bought carrot cake, i say byebye.
think i kinda pass my initial test of transfering samples. 2nd sis said so much abt the calcu n the values faster than bullet train, i caught no ball. but the catch was, i have to pass it 3 times consecutive. lest restart. bless me.
lunchtime, asked a nyp gal how come today she didnt wore her specs. got back a lame reason...cos initially she wanna give ppl 乖乖 impression... walau, does it mean i dun wear specs i bad boy? nvm, i already bad son. juz kinda tot of ben's kuku specs with "chopstick". max NERD, in addition with the combo of cka's bag. s0o misSed my sec sch image..
ya, today was nestle monthly exercise day. every1 went for brisk walk ard 4. i was left behind to continue "clean the hse like cinderella"...MAX KE LIAN!!! even other dept de jiejie 0so asked how come they so "evil" lol~ mother didnt go as well since she wanna quickly finish off her work to leave early for her family dinner.(in d end she's 0so left at the same time...)
i skipped my break(see how despo i being) juz to earn extra time to clear my 2nd set...after weighing, time for acid "shower"...i had a vanillin flavor soln for ice-cream. had to add acid half of the usual vol, if not it will had vigorous rxn. so i added half liao, isolate it for time being letting it react...quickly chop chop add the other test-tubes since 5.30pm is arriving...then 1st sis walked past, "kairong, how come this test-tube is having rxn?" then i happily turn to see...omg, i tot oni 1 vanillin...acid already being added fully...die
so i quickly removed it...not wanting it to splash out n contaminate the rest...went back check wad stuff it was...realised it was juz another flavouring. not vanillin thou. again, lst sis started panicked..."kairong...来来,here 0so another 1..." i was like shit...both of us stood freeze down there. as if watching music fountain...luckily i oni add 5 tubes...try to imagine them as if volcanoes erupting...0so abit like factories chimney giving out orange fumes... one by one, like domino effect they exploded...
i gotta bid them farewell. 1st sis then hurried me quickly reweigh those dead tubes while she helped me continue the rest by adding the acid at smaller quantity. juz as i reweigh...she suddenly scream. then i heard a "POP" sound. can even see the atomic smoke rising up afar. my heart CHUIed, being stabbed one by one as the fireworks continues...gave up completely.
P.S: one weak point abt optimistic ppl is tat, they still can laugh when they know they shouldnt be.
reflected at 8:49:00 PM
From a Boy to Man
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