Sunday, April 30, 2006
today...sunny day, wet afternoon n nite. A memorable day^^
today almost overslp...then student give me attitude cos i attitude her by asking her to write notes...muahahaha i so evil!!!
told my mom earlier i not returning home...back feel like slping. so went to the new library beside jurong point (near interchange)...no escalator...but quite nice overall...went yamaha seesee n looklook, then
give up hope on what i wanna buy...
no books for me...chinese chess oni saw one, weiqi one too... no seat...duno y there r so many inconsiderate ppl occupying it! (nvm, me too 0so read until halfway slp or slp until halfway read...)
then bear with my hunger until 3pm then took 154 to clementi eat chicken rice. cka is so correct, those driver really f*ck lor...one uncle walk pass n look at us, giving us hope lor...then he went in bus without closing...then sit on his driver seat...really many ppl stand up n started to walk until he come out of his seat...duno doing wat then sit back again n close the door...when he open it we tot he ok so we rising up again until he suddenly walk out n adjust his side mirror... then went in back...we still standing down there abt to walk liao then he close the door...WTF. cheat my feeling! in d end is another driver... clementi, chicken rice nice nice...saw a beggar playing hormonica so donate to him. took 52 to bishan n reach at 5.
bishan cc, uncle ask me to play with a guy...lose...then top8 challenge me again...starting i winning...duno y lose in d end...then 7pm start match...i draw leh...i draw!!! got $20 lor... they say
got dinner on tue... then tue i got tuition, need to change again...so i call her mom...but i call wrongly...
blur sotong called another mom...muahahahaha
receive my frenz msg to go out together tmr...got tuition tmr morning...tired...duno got where...but i no money...they still had tot of klunch...they already fever siao liao...muahahahaha
receive cka msg abt tutorial homewk...like i care...muahahahaha... but i will do la, on mon lor...
do i look like i freaking care? recognise these words my frenz? i juz cant bear to change bag to "new" one...
the old one had been with me for abt 10mths...cos sis bought it on 6june.
my JUNE coming, let me repeat...
NO ONE CAN SPOLIT MY JUNE!may 2nd coming...so sad...the lengendary guy die on this day...i will do something on tat day. same day for the dinner thing... i will be handsome on tat day! muahahahah, expect the unexpected...maybe dad will be angry...but who care! but i need to do logistic stuff on the day for chess club too...
she looks so sad abt her looks...
i look so happy abt my looks...cos i dun look at mirror...
summary my today. overall very fanta... watch comic on bus way home...then time fly quickly.
points i learn today-1) my chess nv cheat me, it wun lie to me 2) my teacher is correct, u muz take n share 3) i still searching for my self-confidence...but i dun wan to become a proud boaster...
tat all, so remember to bring umbrella. dun fall on slippery floor. last but no least, u muz
walkIN d RAIN
reflected at 2:22:00 AM
Friday, April 28, 2006
today, fine weather except a short sudden rain...
had EL Tech lab, seem to be first time take the lift there...remind me of someone.
the ah peh quite ok, fun lesson 0so...
juz the blur sotong duno how to connect or forgot on switch on-_-"had a short break b4 mr chong lesson
yay, his lesson is always interesting.
then break again...
i eat at cant3 cos they eaten earlier at cant2
met edmund on the way so we go cant5...
after he ate n went off...they started doing tutorial...
SURPRISE? yes, they even done most of it liao then checking ans oni...
me leh...ever since this sem begin, i always nv really tot of studying...cos my JUNE coming.
then we had been toking abt a long hair guy with his cauasian "bf"...
suddenly saw "marie's mom" with her colleagues...
then went for em3 tutorial...teacher quite ok.
then went for Reng tutorial...Dr Geng really tok until i dun understand something...i mean her beijing slang of english...but she quite nice 0so...
in the end i juz want to say...dun make any first impression too deep.maybe nowaday i good mood...tat y i can had good appetite like stan.But i had no news of her today...
Tmr, tuition in d morning...cant had enough slp recently...my head now damn heavy...
am i too stress? nervous? scared or frightened? Coach say he last time worst than me... he can finish a packet of sweet in one match or had to eat panadol b4 competition...He say i need to find a way myself...in order to crossover this gap...he even say proud ppl usually had no such kind of problem, meaning
i am "humble" or in worst is NO SELF-CONFIDENT... It will be my first time playing with high rank expert... hope i can withstand 40 blows or even a draw.
Tmr, i will walk back home
either happily or sadly.
reflected at 10:11:00 PM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
today...sunny then rainy day...
woke up early to call her...failed...
then solving chess finally enter another stage.
11.30 stan called me saying he at lakeside liao...
hate my lift...cos it is those old type whereby if one person below press two lift...the one at top had to wait for TWO lifts to come up again...
then after i reached 1st floor...i pressed close.
y? cos i forgot my wallet...0so in d rush i forgot to put money...
then as expected missed stan's bus...
in d end i really had my MORNING JOG...-_-"
then reached there liao 0so need to carry books from clubhse...
whole body SOUR...
Mr Kyle asked us to bring laptop...in d end we use it to plot ONE line... i "LOVE" him so much.
then TWO hr lec mark the end...
i "luv" my wed. even "luv" it tmr... 8am to 6pm... so "wonderful" of 10hrs schooling...
after lesson i called her. so happy. but as expected she is mapling... hope she study hard...
then stan, cka n joyce went to the bus with cka suddenly LOST... pigeon flyer...
we went bukit timah eat Beancurd with "FISHBALL"...muahahahaha
stan damn hungry sia...we eat chicken rice liao n beancurd...but he still can finish carrot cake...
both of us went back n saw diyana. she looks so cool man with short hair...haha, dun scold me sis.
then went for training. played with a newcomer...lose...then come a Ichess guy... hui yan ask me to play with him...versue two at the same time...win!
then training halfway got to know i can participate in the invitational blah* blah* thing^^
so excited...cos there will be a china expert, 万春林 and hong kong best player, 赵汝权^^
hope to play with 万春林...
tat 0so mean i cant go to fri meeting...haiz i know perhap he is still upset abt it.
training ended n on d way, coach say i am too nervous n scared liao... fear of losing makesw me perform badly. he say no one can help me...i need to solve it alone. then he say some things abt national player... i wanna be one too...
reflected at 12:16:00 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
today-cloudy grey day
woke up relunctantly...still haven switch back my body clock...
came np n met frenz from 04. very friendly n they had strong bonding.
Look peaceful to me. Hope nothing happens.
-EL tech tutorial-
lecturer ok..no gap la.
early release n we whole class go Al AMEEN eat.
quite filling... dino rocks!
then shop ard the street. actually wanna pool but not yet open. went Courts n saw camera at 699, wana buy to take pics of chess club...
return for EL tech lec... they totally dun give face... those FU**ER behind kept toking...
it's amazing tat she could bear with it...
then em3... totally like day n nite... like u shot in the middle of a crow jungle n they flew away
then after sch actually wanna eat riceball with beancurd...but they closed. i was wanting to go westmall with edmund n cka... ...
i am a poor listener... i am a poor speaker... i am so inconsiderate... i am so wicked... guys so sorry!cka went jp with me to buy belt.^^ i hated tat old one, hurt me alot...
so tired liao...how to train...left one mth oni...
reflected at 9:00:00 PM
Monday, April 24, 2006
today...rainy nite, gd food, overall had a pleasant n peaceful day.
wake up b4 6am... sobs, still not used to...
untangling my earpiece wire made me miss bus...
but think is fate...cos saw my neighbour in the bus...he chose np^^
then bring him to his LT liao i went find mine...
today seem to be lift's day...always got problem...
i rushed into the lift with a male n female...
Stand in bet. n i press 4. In d end the lift open at 5...
SO SIA SUAY...they went out n i went out 0so...
then another lift open...saw my lecturer!!!
then stand out with no one...in d end found out eddie n clif 0so same as me...
i sit with another guy...acc one...in d end two of his frenz came n sit together...
i seem like sandwiched in bet when they chatting...btw one of his frenz is a female sitting beside me...eddie n clif seemed to be arguing abt it... they asked me whether i find her noisey...
i oni know her as a sis...cos she lend me pencil...muahahhaaha
i am so clever to bring nothing on first day except a pen...
i am so clever that i chose a module which everyone chose cos LAST BUS...
the four hrs is basically shake leg...listen to his daugther's story, CATS experience, Engin stuff n some boring ice breaking...n the air-con is already cold enough...
but the lecturer quite good la... he brought us choco n banana.
RIGHT! is banana... grew in Sg sumore...
then went met up...
cka never fail to let me down...
i mean my BLOOD PRESSURE!!!
hope can change the time...if not i will need to woke up early for 6 days per week...
4days tuition + 3days chess = 1 buzy wk = NO STUDY!!!
reflected at 8:33:00 PM
Saturday, April 22, 2006
M i tat kinda ppl who
BELIEVE any1 easily?
M i tat kinda ppl who
TRUST any1 easily?
M i tat kinda ppl who
GET CHEATED by any1 easily?
yesterday...rainy abit...
saw a midnite show...actually wanna write in chinese...
but duno y my blog started havin problem...
a korean ghost show...toking abt mirror...
after watching...i was thinking to myself...is there anytin
FAKE ard me...izzit juz a
visual image...
back to my own qn...i was wondering...had i fallen in love?
0r fallen out of love? I dun had the ans...
back to another qn...what is my personal faith, believe?
Do i had any god in my heart? Who do i believe in?
Tear...maybe be crocodile's oneSmile...maybe has a dagger behindIs my world white or black? 0r iZzit GREY?
Is my world balanced or slanted? 0r iZzit BROKEN?
My ANS:
Ppl had been asking for peace, fairness, equality...or justice...
I dun wan them! Cos they r all fake.
If u wan peace, go to sit in jail. No one will bother u.
If u wan fairness, dun count 123, cos odd no. cant divide into two.
If u wan equality, donate away all ur money. U will be the same as the poors.
If u wan justice, throw ur filthy money to lawyer n he will get for u in court.
I need to be happy. I had no choice...cos that is my last stand.
I will hold my faith firmly from now on...
No one can spolit my JUNE.Today...Cool day but abit wet.
Went bishan at 3pm meet my senior.
Went played with a person.
Not the proud aSs...he didnt come today..
The person i played with is chen yi long.the champ of tis yr char yang bei.
asia cup rep of sg i heard.
not first met, but is first match in lifetime.
i won...
second match...first turn is me.
i lose...
then some polite words ended our first crossfire.
the uncle said some sarcastic words that is way too humble.
i hate it...
then my senior n i went eat kfc.
he very happy abt today...played 6matches n tested his opening.
while i oni 2 matches..but quite significant cos now i know how far am i from them.
then on bus journey home...became sad...done something tat made her angry.
Izzit becos i chose 88? i dun know wat it means. Nvm, my fault.
tMr a sIan daY...nvm cos it can cheer me up.
i tot to myself b4. IF i had nothing but a chess board n pieces, i will still be happy n contented.but then i realise i am wrong. Chess need to be play by two ppl. Tat day in clubhse alone...flip thru those old dusty stuff n saw 97 club photo...then i realise this truth.today learnt suntin from those Ah peh. a chinese saying: Invincible is lonely. I am not invincible,
so i wun be lonely.
reflected at 10:39:00 PM
Friday, April 21, 2006
i am so sO SO DISAPPOINTED!!!
today went np, n i SAW alot of FANTASIC booth...sobs n where is chess club...
nvm...bought some notes...then went sport hall...saw alot of ppl havin fun...yet i was
in the office photocopying chess book...spent half an hr...the office lady very nice n helpful,
give me password for the machine...den helped me remove jam paper...
then a kapo auntie come ask me what am i doing...i use the name of chess club...she cant stop me but to leave a comment "u know there is a copyright statement...u cant copy the whole book"
i nodded...didnt bother to explain...cos it is China bk...not copyright statement page...even the two aunties in two diff photocopy shop copy b4...
in d end rush for tuition...sianZzz...student attitude problem again...
but luckily i had two in one day...the later one very nice to teach
later midnite got ghost show. Yipee...dunno y nowaday my body clock is set to 3am...time not up yet cant slp...
yay, waiting for da changjin...mad liao...she so beautiful...
reflected at 8:57:00 PM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Yay, home SWEET home!!!i eating dinner now...
first time felt my
mum's cooking is good...hmm
maybe becos i hungry
maybe becos i had been eating alot outside
maybe becos today is not those i dislike
0r maybe...
da changjin's EFFECT...
okok, i know u wanna kick me...
but CHANGJIN is s0o beautiful!
yesterday nv return home, cos tue free day,
wanna go out play stuffs like pool...but actually
wanna bowling one....in d end nv...
then i wanna Klunch...in d end became Knite...
the pool i found myself able to hit balls at the side
then long time nv eat
xiao wan mian le...but
auntie forgot to put egg...
rainy day...waiting for 52 to rush back for meeting... then at 7pm...i told them i go home first change then meet at 8pm...in d end
my dearest 154 came at 7.30pm then i decided to change bus to faster reach home than walking... waiting for six diff no. of buses... in d end two buses came... both r !%$...then i realise they got jam...
then reach there apply for member... cka finally came...
okok,
i am the bad MASTERMIND k... s0o sorry if i TORTURE u...the room got holes on the wall...hole on sofa...n mike spolit as usual...
but surprising thing is there is alcoholic drink... n the lady very sweet, very gd service, unlike last time...
bad things is nothing except the smoke tat drifted into the rooms.
tell u one thing...there is a lady smoking outside the GENTs...
wat the hell dun she release her "xiang" smell into the LADIEs...
i am very piss off cos i need to PISS u know...went stan hse slp...not on d sofa...i miss it...
then discuss abt my stupid timetable...
juz one serious day to solve!then went FAR EAST eat chicken rice...
nice, remind me of jurong west the hawker ctr i used to eat... but they closed down during bird flu...
went Bugis eat carrot cake...
nice...they arrange like pan cake...then u can see like pan fried fish...
the carrot look more like fishcake to me...they even add cai po (the
black black salty stuff put on top of rice cake)
felt kinda weird...cos breakfast chicken rice, lunch carrot cake...then realise dun had hikaru no go poster...rush to tiong bahru...
alight at tanjong pagar instead...
blur sotong...
then tiong bahru 0so dun had...
rush down to westmall...finally had...
BUT, the best thing is they said the booth cancel liao...
i am so
depressed...
sobs...training 0so no mood...like fell aslp...then senior ask coach lot of qn... end up 9.45pm...
MY DA CHANGJIN!!!
took my dearest 154...meet my fren at clementi
discuss abt next outing...yeah cant wait liao...
but one thing is...my money running out...
i 0so wanna save money to buy e******* g*****,
they told me will cost abt $600~800...
actually wanna go bugis to window shop for it...but no time..
i like
HIDE
reflected at 12:20:00 AM
Friday, April 14, 2006
i let my blog
RuSt for a mth...
saw alot of blogs now with pics... but nah...i dun care abt putting pics...
maybe wait till i become photographer...
yesterday...went to sch with oni jingsheng n me for training...
all my seniors didnt come...
when i went up to bring down chess set... i saw a girl...
she 0so kinda shocked...then i turned away immediately...shouldnt
had cut hair...so wun be recognised... feeling abit of my sense of betrayer...
nvm, she 0so act blur...their day is coming on sat... n
i hope i spent tat daywith my frenz...sobs i am bad...
went back down...not forgeting there is
GREEN n
PURPLE buns!!!
then played a game... didnt lose to jing sheng... didnt lose...instead i got
a tiny advantage of a small soldier...but
my end game skill juz suck like the uncle
said...ganna exchanged pieces n DRAW in d end...
went thru a game of mine played last sat in bishan with this CHA YANG BEI
top 8 proud ass...win him beginning...then uncle said can kill hundreds yrs ago...
poor end game skill...led me to stupid mistakes tat turn the winning game to losing game!
juz all of a sudden he made a grave mistake...then i finish him...
he ask for a rematch tmr...dunno i going anot...two days ago, wed...
i manage to call alot of ppl down to played chess...so happy...able to play a alot of game with my senior...he yr3 liao...going to be buzy...so
i treasured every opportunties to play with him...
i
dun wan tragdey during sec days to replay again... even it cost my studies DOWNFALL...
i 0so be lucky enough to met weiqi seniors...asking them to teach me more...hope i will be able to go JAP play GO!!! Hikaru NO GO!!!
today...fri...rainy days...
woke up early at 7am...haven done tat liao since mth ago...
pay a visit to my ancestor... then i saw the clouds at Mount Venon...miss my sec sch...
they r GREY...everything looks down...then the clouds started to move...soon i realised i am
wrong! There r Bright clouds behind...so wonderful...the blues sky...then went bishan...
my grandpa so funny...say next time juz throw his ashes into
the sea...i 0so wan...he said
like tis got freedom, can move abt...dun need us next time troublesome to come down...haha
he even dun wan those chicken n duck...saying who come to eat...OMG...
then afternoon started to rain...she said "Rainy Day= Nap" haha...but i got tuition till 3...then my whole shirt got this smell of smoke...not tat kind of cigarette...but the insense thing...
mapling going to holiday liao, haha... met a wife, hope she do well tis yr...
holiday ending...hope for some more outings b4 sch start...(pool+kbox+bowling)
i hate my timetable tis sem...esp thu...even though i dun mind 8am lesson...but i
MIND the late release...5,6pm u know...wun be blogging frequently liao...
reflected at 9:10:00 PM