Sunday, May 28, 2006
this two days...weekends
I've LOST everything. and i hate superglue.
I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter tat's wad i wanna say.
reflected at 7:29:00 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
today-duno izzit happy or unhappy day...duno izzit sunny or rainy day
i have lost everything. juz like what changjin said...she took every steps seriously...
endurance n preservance led to nothing. what had i done for so far?
today went for el tech pract...met pri fren @ bustop. pract was fun. then slack ard cos ends so0n. den went for biopro lec...slp all d way...
den went for break...lots of ppl @ cant5...then cka n ben went do their project...we go study math...
math tut i 0so
BLANKLY BREATHING there...juz like a
DISCONNECTED com...but very happy for reng..cos finally i know how to press calcu liao. ends early cos oni 2qn...i luv tis tut best...
so went eat johnson duck...they kept staring at their customers...whole bunch of ppl...cos we r the oni table...imagine u r eating when ppl is watching n staring at u...so UNeasy...on d way back rain...then saw lot of ppl in club. Glad tat chess club had ppl. But still disappointed with some stuffs...
reflected at 12:20:00 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
today...blue yet wet day.
woke up at 3am. rush work...halfway fall aslp again until almost 7am. then decided not to go 4 reng...in d end i 0so miss my fav el tech cos i got stomachache...then my tutorial cant finish 0so...so in d end i set 0ff at 11pm...
met huiling at bustop, she say the bus had being late for half an hr...
then reached sch...everything fine when i heard today i got no lab...another grps had...math received back paper...surprising got good grade...tot i going to be fail cos i thruout the quiz do very smoothly...not like those hard-workin say tat diff...but as expected got two careless...
today got utterly destroy by the AWAKENed stan...played very long...spent 10bucks...tmr johnson duck liao...
took a happy 154 trip...cos thruout the ride very windy...wet day 0so very coolin until i fall aslp!
reflected at 8:29:00 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
today-fine day
firstly, sorry for not blogging over past few days due to buzy works
thu-i first time pon the reng lec n chemlab pract
cos reng lec in morning need to rush my math tutorial, den pract is 3 to 6, need to rush home to do reng project. In d end saw my primary frenz on bus.
fri-cos thu nite already not enough slp for the project, plus previous days of short slp nites...i overloads and whole body finally collapse le...cos morning i realise my body hot hot one... then lectures i was feelin very cold... stan went to cant5 to play my com while i eat. saw mdm lye, she was toking to her colleague then when she saw me she was shock...she say"wah, 2nd yrs like tat liao ar" then i was smiling all the way...then went for math tutorial...blk 50 toilet went there finally, look kinda of spooky...haiz...i always feel the classroom smelly like hospital...then reng tutorial stan pon...left me...then stupid fire alarm rang...then we had to go outside carpark stand...drizzy rain somemore...then so0n we ned to go back again....waste time...during lec i was freezing liao, kept on shivering from juz now math tutorial, my eyes feel like burning flame...but they say my eyes not red...then finally at reng tutorial, ann say my left eyes swollen liao...then i 0so like paper...cos i sit there dun know wat going on...ann kept askin me how am i or dun go chess club or go home now etc stuff...i juz there nodding...but in d end after reng i went chess club...then after finishing the booth, go clubhse take chess down...setup n printing etc...i went on play chess...so0n i realise i abit better liao...stunned...maybe becos too many ppl liao, very happy! in d end i drag my tired body back home. back home, eat bei tei mak...duno its name...it got fishball...fishcake plus white slippery things tat look like octopus legs to me...duno izzit i too tired liao tat i spill 2/3 out left oni 1/3 in my bowl...haiz
today after tuition went cck to find mini toons...then walk pass TS, n stopby becos it showing da changjin...then saw diyana...after tat then went bugis...blur me duno how to take mrt...i duno y i got n change mrt at raffles...then at bugis street shop ard...looking for necklace...juz the string actually...in d end went into a female shop...ask the auntie...she sold it at oni 1dollars...then i go buy blueberry...cka is right...the one in jp is fake one..haha...actually wan watermelon juice for my heaty body...but these few days my poor brain suffer too much for me...need to repay it...
then tmr going for cousin's wedding. Cya
reflected at 11:10:00 PM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
today...duno how to describe.
today went popular buy book liao then ganna scold for being late...
then 0so receive my monthly pay... u duno how stressful...mom kept pressing me to ask her lo...cos it's already due date liao...but do i look like i freaking care?
nvm...recently or upgoing got alot of events...like dad n mom birthday...n my cousin wedding 0so...plus my freaking bag already made me now freaking care abt it...last but no least is a selfish present for myself to mark some significance of my life. So my this month pay + last mth my $200 saving all used up liao... plus n minus equal to -ve 10 lor... now scared of tis mth phone bill...duno can make it anot...i 0so had been looking forward for
Da Vinci Code...sobs...
after tuition...went to for hunting liao...took mrt to cityhall...then walk walk n...walk... in my mind...i had been remembering beach road + concourse in order to go there. So my final deduction is the esplanade. Look at it urself.
http://www.esplanadesing.com/Esplanade/concourse.htmbefore this...i had been crossing roads...followed by streets...hrs passed...then i stopped by esplanade to buy
cotton candy n sat down eat while looking at the sea...someone ask me to take photo...after my cotton finish i decided to go back raffleslink for mph...a bookstore u r wondering rite...y is there a blurly stupid boy go into a bookstore? cos i want to look at a book...title is
STREET DIRECTORY...then i finally reached esplanade...cos i not sure izzit in esplanade...so went to look for concourse...following the signboard there i still cannot find the shop...so i tot i went wrong way...so i turned left...turned right, go up...go down...i went outside and ask a indian sercurity...he stood there alone...then saw me suddenly appear...so very helpful to me...tell me go in then take escalator up go 2nd floor... in d end i kept going up...still dun hav...in d end saw the library...inside got ppl dancing...stood there n stare watch...cos i now panting...need the air-con badly...then i no choice had to ask sercurity again...(another one) where is concourse...den finally he said here is it...u r now on the higher platform...infront is lower platform...then i ask him abt the store...he nv heard of...then i panicked le...cos it's 6+ liao...the shop 8 close...asked him abt any same name hotel etc...then tell me to go information counter... luckily the
two nice angel jiejies finally show me the way with their com...Dell somemore...muahahahahahah, she told me to go out duno where to take bus...but i heckcare...i now confirm it is along beach road so i continue to walk up...alone the way i saw hotels....then fishing rod n steamboat...so hungry...then finally i reached "THE CONCOURSE" ("_")
last time long long ago...if u ask me what is the diff bet "concourse" n "the concourse", i will say one is 1 word but the other is 2 words...now i will say...it is a HUGE diff...in term of kilometers...it is a small shop...but very crowded...i cant even squeeze in to the cashier...u know my size rite... then ask the uncle for help...he prefer to talk in english...cos i saw his things got old old one so i tot...nvm. then he intro me liao ask me to go cashier to ask the lady for them. He need to attend to others... So i went ask the
jiejie there...cos she still called me
xiaodidi...(little boy)...she took a long time to select a good one for me...cos i told her it's for my mom...so she very serious abt...until she could'nt find an acceptable one...she took out another n told me softly
"tis one is ours, i give it to u first" How great... in d end tis boyboy become happy le.
on d way home my fren called so went for dinner...i bought a bag on d way...no becos i like it very much...juz tat it is among those i saw tat is the least i dislike...tis is how my brain function... think my phone bill cannot make it liao...cos whenever ppl call me...
i need to specially reply back...cos i can't detect my call even though i put in my pocket...the vibration is juz too weak...how i wish i can change phone...
in d end my fri n sat now gone le...without doing any thing...
but thankful...everything's turn out fine...receive alot of help today...bless boyboy go slp le...
reflected at 11:10:00 PM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
today-sunny yet wet evening day
i hate today...cos tonite DUN HAVE DA CHANGJIN!!!
forgotten tat they had a variety show...should had eaten after i returned home then await for tmr in my beloved bed...cos was planning to eat while watching changjin...
the day is boring for me...i was damn slpy and had been slping thruout almost all lecs...then luckily my grp presentation went on smoothly except for me stumbling...like tat jap man who tried to speak english. Visit Utube and search for japanese no laughing...its a video which the ppl will be punish if they laugh...so alot of funny ways are used to force them...choose the ones which show a man in a TV...i was in the presentation saying "a..aa....acom...%&^*#@", intending to pronoune accomodation...so tat all for the day.
You're holding me up right nowJust like I'm holding you upSo let us clumsily live towards the future, togetherEven when I'm together with my friendsI feel an emptiness deep insideYou stare at me with those cold eyes,as the wind of a dry age blows against me.If it was something I could give up onI wouldn't have taken notice of it to begin withIf I could forget about itI wouldn't have thought it necessary to begin withI always feel doubt with courage,but I feel that I can make my dream come true now.Though there are days when I get hurt and am about to breakand days where I worry you by cryingWe're going to get over itheading higher than anyone elseIf I live life only for pleasureI won't be able to see anything in my futureSo I won't run away from reality.No matter what happens, I'll face it.I promise I'll protect everythingthat's important to me.I'll put everything I have intoprotecting things I don't want to lose.We're not good with words, so I may hurt you,and you may hurt me.But I think I can walk with confidence now.There are days when I feel lonely,and days when I feel miserablebut I know I'm never alone,you're here.Why do people sometimes make mistakes,I can't regret those mistakes enough...Why do people always try to get over it?You're holding me up right nowJust like I'm holding you up.So let us clumsily live towards the future, togetherSometimes there will be days when I'm hurt and about to break,and days when I cry and worry you.But we're going to get over thatheading higher than anyone else
reflected at 10:41:00 PM
Monday, May 08, 2006
today-normal weather but the world is GREY to me.
yest...till now still feelin down...
yest went to bishan happily...but i went there...played with an uncle for several rounds...
draw at first...then lose, lose lose lose lose lose lose lose lose...and lose...
duno how many rounds over the uncle seemed to be disappointed with me n call it a day with me. WAD HAPPEN TO ME!!! i made alot of noobs mistakes...thousand n thousands of blind moves...izzit that much i had been "improving" abt...i am so useless!
chess club- feeling kinda giving up...things r not the same anymore...no newcomer...limited manpower...n all of my seniors r disappearing...workload seem to be endless...
i am tired...really tired. i wanna runaway...hide myself...i dun wan to smile again...let me cry quietly. I dun know wad to do...i duno wad can i do...
everyone now r studying...everyone r aiming for good results...all the As n etc...
wad abt me? chess? with this kind of standard n still hoping for june to come? SHAME.
No one had spolit my june. But i did.
reflected at 12:48:00 AM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
today-hot day. BUT, it is 5 MAY!!!
such a special day... cos the no. 5 in jap has a meaning...beside,
本因坊绣策 Hon'inbō Shūsaku's birthday 0so.
nothing much today, expecting for the 5.30pm chess meeting... no new faces...sianZzz...but ivan teach me weiqi (Go) ^^ going to learn it after my june n ivp on july.
then went eat diner @ kap...ivan went off first after toking abt gangsters in his sec sch...then eric tok abt NS...so happy until i forgot time liao...it's 11.45!!! i walk out n saw 154 went away...then walk slowly to bustop when another double-decker flew past...almost empty one sumore...in d end took 52 to clementi then mrt to lakeside...actually already was thinking of walking back home from lakeside...but luckily 98 came n
SAVE ME...then saw my weiqi senior 0so who finished working...
today met alot of ppl...haha wad abt tmr?
reflected at 2:02:00 AM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
02/05/20062 - 5 - 06 2nd May 200602.05.05 remember today, cos i dye my hair!
today is my handsome day!!!
went np to bk booth with a weiqi fren...he walk past me...without being able to successfully identify me...he said i too obsessed with hikaru le.... when chen ann saw me laughed like hell-"know u for yrs ..."
then stan went in classrm shocked, cai say he tot he is in wrong class when he walked in...
tutorial ends early, i like Mrs Yeoh so much!
then we went sim cant eat then play pool with stan...they renovating, like my skill 0so, all gone liao!
then EL tech, as usual they fuckers infront of me kept making noises. Poor Mrs Yeoh had to endure...if not for my hair tat had cause commotion in the lec b4 it started, i would had move down...
followed by is em3, not bad la, juz tat last part i too tired liao went slp...then lec ends liao we go do project...i was like a lost sheep duno wat to plunge in...measure wat 0so...the problem is i tot we had bk the lab...so y r there ppl from other class wearing labcoat giving me the face "hey, dun waste our time here, noobs"
today cka n joyce didnt come...joyce lazy n cka sick...
in d end stan went for french while i took bus to mrt with cai. he took 74 so i dun mind since i going farrer park. on the bus when alighting saw my old senior from chess club. so happy, cos he still could recognise me...
i ask them alot on my colors...some say orange, one say like rooster backside...most say like blonde or gold...yet no one say
YELLOW!!! sobs... One even say my hair weird cos infront dry one but behind wet wet one... other even say "y oni a potion, later ppl think u not enough money.."
then went to dinner at qian xi restaurant...no one there yet...so i walked abt with loneliness... called her...but failed... so sms her... then i wait n wait...
realise my camera no batt...digital cam really eat batt fast...rushed to look for batt...juz in time to enter with an uncle...i duno anyone of them...NONE...uncle oni ask me go in... i followed uncle yet he go sat on the last seat of the table with his frenz...i think tat better than i sit with him...later his humble remark will really turn my day down...so i sat on a table with uncles n auntie...they talk to each other, knew ones..luckily i get to know tis kind uncles who talks to me...if not i am like an ALIEN... in d end coach lucily got come...intro me some names n tell me some inside story...enjoy my day much,,,except i tot i listen to old songs...yet the song they sang is i nv heard of one...canto somemore... i took pics with the china gm 万春林 (right) and hong kong chess king 赵汝权 (left). sat i oni manage to play n draw with hong kong one... not one to one but one to 13! Draw got $20... Win $50...
I even ask for 万春林's signature^^.
after the food served finish they started karaoke...coach n i decided to sneak away...haha it's late btw...then reach home my loving mom say she had left dishes for me...faint...
all i wan to say to her... i dun care abt how nice or poor face u had...
look at mine...then look at my "new" bag
cos it's my
reflected at 12:33:00 AM
Monday, May 01, 2006
today-raining
finally had a rest...talk abt yest first.
woke up early cos tutoring morning...then told my parent abt spending money on two things. they r s0 cute to nag at me until i gave up on one. Long story...
but i was determine abt another, so went out quickly...reached there n it was so crowded...then sat down there do nothing...the 1st nothing i done.
then i realised i late liao cos frenz calling me out at 3. so i tell them to go ahead first. sudden receive their msg... "we go changi k?" i was like fainting...
so after my thing is done, took 30 to boon lay. from one end of sg to another end. on the train, i done nothing... 2nd liao.
reached there saw burger king, no mac... ask my frenz, he duno how to describe so pass to another guy... he straightaway say "aiyah, u juz come mac" i going fainting again...
met them then go cc airplane n took a bus to bedok eat udon...
finally took 30 from bedok to jurong...wonderful ride n i was on there doing...nothing. 3rd nothing.
we went mkt eat supper then went back home...
my life is so EXCITING, full of nthintoday, woke at 12. peacefully endure the whole day... the bro selling kway tiao look at me shocked... sugarcane auntie better...say i look nice. muahahahhahahahahahahaha
so cya on 2 May 06!
reflected at 6:54:00 PM