Thursday, February 28, 2008
Home sweet sweet again
Mood: uber happy
tue nite went to stan's fren hse play MJ. gd boy dun gamble hor. got much better. afterall, wad starts with "ST" end with "Y" r bad ppl.
wed nite went to suntec shop shop. dun think i'm rich enuff to afford gym membership. haha, all it matters to me, is discipline.
then bump onto our very old fren. so the 3 fellow went carrefour bought liqor back to his hse chiong! b4 tat, had our supper/dine @ lau pa sat. satay with BBQ stingray. all is being treat by our very old fren. hmm, feel v bad, sometimes. once i earned back my money, i will treat u guys back!
3 emo guys chat. a lesson taught by our "already-know-his-mistakes" mentor, "breakup, should always be initiated by the ladies. not the guys. so for guys, think twice b4 seriously starting BGR." haha, the tiger beer i swallowed was bitter. perhaps aint it's fault actually.
speaking of women, there's two types i know. (a) dumb ones who always wanna act smart. (b) those intellient ladies who pretend to be stupid, so as to not hurt her man's pride.
neither of them i liked. i rather the woman to be honest. stay as wad she was for i wouldnt mind. i'm tired of guessing/hinting games.
being too freq to others' hses. finally had my long-miss weiqi sessions. thou i lost almost completely. nt to 4get abt playing com game. hitman. haha, i was being the "mass murderer" rather.
ends up staying for whole nite. oni had couples of mins to rest eyes b4 rushing to suntec again. managed to photocopy my bankbk. plus went to visit carreer exhibition.
finally went down to expo. ok, it was an awfully wrongful trip.
our travelling finally reached its stop at bukit timah plaza. HAHA, bought air-tix liao!!! will fly this coming mon~ hoO..
realize my long-time of slacking, result in drop of 4 back to 3. sianz...
FAQ abt kaizi: unlike most guys, he nv play dota or CS. he 0so was least interested abt soccer. he 0so kept his stuffs neat(mainly thks to mom). but like most guys, he often pheo charbo or watch porn. he 0so utilise the vulgarity as n when he liked. of cos, he luv his frenz!
P.S: fine! i will do my deepest self-reflection on the way i ill-treat my dearest money notes. but anyway, "diff ppl each have their own style of living". to me, wad best is to stay happy n nv regret.
reflected at 11:11:00 PM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
yesterday. A.M.
i sat on the sofa. the living room was dark.
i laid on the sofa. the sky was flashing with lighting.
i rolled on the sofa. the ground was playing raindrops symphony.
the smell of rain, carried the scent of bad omen.
today. P.M.
the bastard was late. but the unforgiving thing was, he slpt infront of me. right during my presentation.
i admit my content was boring. but if u're given my situation of everyday weigh samples, wad more can u say? so the rest who went oversea n have wonderful projects, all countless of results n graph, of cos he would say "interesting"
ha. ha. ha.
the fool is stupid for not wanting to study. but tat's dun mean he dun take his presentation seriously. FUCKING DU LAN.
wad is imperial? ha. ha. ha. study so much, yet still dun have basic manner of listening to others? ha. ha. ha. luckily i didnt study so much. if not i really have to visit beijing 101.
who know, rite aft i came out of the rm. my hp rang. it's 1st sis call. she asked me to go back work. i declined...
人生 真是 喜怒无常。
btw, com really cannot make it liao. cant even msn. the least it can do, is blog. youtube 0so hav prob. dun even think can watch porn...
P.S: the songs tat i picked. mostly r emo. my fav genre however, ballad.
reflected at 7:29:00 PM
Monday, February 25, 2008
miss me again?
haha, okok, i'm been tuning my life to the new tempo.
thu was special. morning found job. then nite we steamboat @ cka's hse. well, his mum is overly hospitable...but we really enjoyed the 'not-so-freq' indoor steamboat. haha, i juz dun like fuzhou fishball!
then MJ session~ wola, cka's "ping hu" made me bankrupt...but then later on managed to "pong pong hu" + "qing yi se" to win back hor...well, we r gd boys who dun gamble! haha, the F4 gang..
fri. the day when alot of ppl called me n ask me out. kao, i was rushing report. with an hr of slp oni, aft the whole nite of MJ session...well, i was quite high-spirit. ya, cancel another 2 mj session requests. so hop on bus n rushed back to sch.
nite went out with joyce shopping. hmm, everytime i go far east, confirm will order 小桃。 haha, last time rmb aft drinking, got 桃花运 sia... n so suddenly she said wanna go for drink. then we went to acid bar.
haha, i finally had "rusty nail". the taste sux. but tat's made cocktail. with a small narrow straw. luv the unplugged. the singer got a POWER voice. she oni got a guitarist. sang quite alot of male songs, w/o any sip. from "chasing car" to "here w/o u" to "if aint got u" to "this love" really luv it. shall revisit again.
sat went amk. then city plaza. end in JEC. well, the JEC shop already closed by the time. sad-ed. finally satify my obession of long-miss pool. as usual, skill lost again aft such a long period.
but none-the-less. was quite happy. esp when during one match, i was 4-balls behind. zy's black ball was juz stationed outside the corner pocket. manage to clear 3 balls, which last ball i anticipated, will be v diff to pocket in since it will require the ball to rebound. hehe, thks to my utmost concentration, i did it! such a pretty angle! but haha, still i lost the game thou.
today went Kbox session. first time so many ppl...frm 7 to 3am. lol, oni 16bucks...so cheap sia. ($2/hr) KNN, well u need to top up with taxi fee thou. but overall, such a shiok moment!
lesson of the day: one of the impt parts of socialising, is to rmb the person's name. this is wad written in a bk i juz grab inside big bookshop. juz now returned back home, downstairs met a malay pri guy(ppl deem as bad boy, which i dun) he suddenly said "ur name's kairong rite?" then sparked a short-while conversation. haha, i was been the gulity one, for i dun rmb his name n worst, i nv asked for his name...slap me. i'm always forgetting ppl's name, or nv make the effort to rmb others names. but well, still got many ppl like talking with me. take the cab driver for instant. we chatted the whole journey. i dun mind speaking to stranger thou.
so, pls tell me ur name next time. or mayb i should go n ask the gal's name. b4 the shop closed.
P.S: once, being mentioned of me havin a limited small social circle. unlike ppl who have hundreds over of contacts in their friendster, i do maintain active connections within my small, but adorable circle of frenz.
ok, this is wad i called E.M.O. perhaps i still unable to adapt the days w/o working in nestle. or mayb i still missing some1. n pls ppl, no need to guess so much. u wun know her de. cos i duno her either.
thks joel. who helped me with a vid. finally done it, even upload to my PSP. feel so happy after replay again n again. "u're my sunshine~~~"
thks benben. who save me at least, by pulling me out of hse for a job interview. so went to NUH.
thks yk. who "threaten" to help me "match-make" with the jec gal. wonder how come 月佬 hired so many partimers ard me...i really wish rather he could come down personally n helped me.
wad happened in NUH was tat the "auntie sally" told us there's probably wun be any vacancy left...not to forget to mention she lived a block opposite me (161 executive apartment)...waseh, sg really small.
so she dialed up her fren...shoe retailer...(i cant wait to bite twisty)
then we went shopping ard the road of factories behind my hse. well, time dun permit. since every1 had left.
they blamed me on the leader...who made them trapped in boon lay park. well, i muz see tat in future, it will be a hotspot for couples. tat is, if u are not tat racist...
so went suntec circling...no much happened. shall see again tmr.
been quite lo0king forwad tmr. the steamboat n mj session. but first tonite, gonna chiong finished my report once n for all!!!
i'm grateful to my frenz who will help me in stuffs i'm unsure of. i'm grateful to my frenz who will msn me automatically when i online. i'm grateful to my frenz who will find me out for movies. i'm grateful to my frenz who will arrange mj, kbox sessions or even steamboat. i'm grateful to my frenz who will accompany me to find jobs. i'm grateful to my frenz who will play pool, bowling with me. i'm grateful to my frenz who will go on holiday oversea trips with me.
for all these, i promised tat even if next time i got a gf, i wun 抛弃 u ppl!!!
some self-reflections:
wad is the diff of me 5yrs ago n now? i think i've became more bold, in term of asking. e.g asking for directions. in fact, 5yrs ago, i dun even dare to buy fried rice in hawker ctr. well, to further add on, I'VE GROWN MORE PIMPLES TOO!
wad am i lacking now? talent. ppl always comment me of havin gd attitude. but to me, havin gd attitude got wad big deal? it's juz like a white elephant to me. i had been asking, "wad is ur talent, kr?" but i juz cant find the ans.
i duno how to lock picking. i duno how to tell lies tat woman luv to listen. i duno how gamble "professionally". i duno how to cook. (i juz learnt how to open tin, during attachment) i duno how to write calligraphy. i duno how to do ikebana. i duno how to perform magic. i duno how to do origami.
a hell of stuffs i duno...so wad talent i have actually? slp?
health status: lactose intolerance seemed to reoccur within my body. too bad, cant drink milk again. plus my right hand still undergoing "acidic moulting" so cant do much training. all i hope, is to have a swim asap.
last fri was my last day of attachment. the day b4, valentine day, didnt slp. all juz becos to study all the stuffs tat i haven been taught. cos i know there will be a "shooting" presentation awaiting me. praying to God, to become 算死草. indeed, i was 刀枪不入.
their politics had surfaced onto my presentation... first is the supervisor frm another lab. once she heard any thing not right coming from my mouth, she BANG!!! luckily, (my mother, 1st,2nd&3rd sis seemed to relieve) after i surprisingly ans her doubts. 2nd, father was like giving opinion of me. he said "during the interview, i told all of them tat this job is v stress. he was the oni1 not shock. actually, the rest have all have gd results. but i didnt chose them." KNN, i max du lan n fired back "ya, my results aint gd" lol, all the management laugh.. 3rd, as father was praising me. Boss suddenly chopped him, look at me said "kairong, it's gd tat u work hard...BLA* BLA*...but need not sweettalk to ur boss(he refering to father)" it was really a gd fuck to me, they luv using 隔山打牛 style to shoot at one another. seem like i was being the mountain... 4th, the same supervisor asked y did u had to do the project of method validation? (actually i wanna say, "how would i know, ask my boss la") but since she wana shot at me, plus i carry the reputation of my lab n the expectation of my colleagues, i ansed her with the "model ans". i see the nodding face of another bigshot behind her n i know i did it! ya, father 0so stepped in, not wanna me to say "extra" words tat may cost my life. 5th, another bigshot, being too lame. ask me y did i put pics of the company as background. aiyah, anyhow say 0so can shot him back. 6th, secretary, being the most fair. she commented me saying 250 times of "YA" then after tat she straway say "ya" (it's contagious they say..")
then after tat boss wanna all my colleagues to give opinion of me. all the words they said, it's moving me n touch me. i feel my cheek abit red. cos even 1st sis said until cry... u know, woman's tears r v heavy de. always make me duno wad to do.
GOLDEN LESSON: sometimes, every little things tat u did for others. they really rmb it. being rmb is really a fortunate thing. nonetheless, being forgotten, is 0so another lucky one.
end of the day. went ard took memories into timeless period. guess oni abt 4 ppl in the whole dept i didnt take. 1 of them is her. well, since thu i saw her with heavy makeup, i know wad 3rd sis mentioned aint lying.
nite was absolutely young. catch jumper with ben n cka. if oni i can jump, i wanna jump to vienna now. but the show really like no plot...jump here jump there... muz admit it's advertising skill is gd.
sat went KBOX!!! kaichuan is the best male singer i ever met... me high
today went shop shop. oh God, i ate beef...not tat i cant eat...but i dun like the smell. nite went support xinying's CO concert. heard a mama behind telling her kids "看,一个人弹不响。 要很多人才会大声。"
lesson: some statements sound easy. but the meaning behind it, is deep.
esp the first op, sounds so familiar. Matsuri. memories of sec flow out. always feel tat time my CO frenz they played the pieces, no matter how skilful, wun touch me. cos they always 勾心斗角, how could them play in harmony to make the meaning of the pieces sound out?
a wedding couple. ppl always tell me "true love takes patience" haiz.
a nite juz being to gd to have a dream
黄昏再美 终要黑夜。
i like their fusion of CO n choir.
after tat, went to my S11 there to eat pancake. badly miss it. well, it did make my day complete.
SPENDING: ~60bucks over the wkends. well, it worth!
P.S: but it's time to face the truth. i will nv be with u. "ALL THE BEST" as they say, well move on.
reflected at 11:36:00 PM
From a Boy to Man
Once a Marist, always an Officer