sat early m0rning, being pulled out frm bed to visit doc by mom. quite a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGG time nv see...in BB. actually @ my area i used to visit a stern yet caring doc during childh0od. but he already went visit God. will miss this 0ld man. BB doc, i always rmb his moustache, thou he already cut off. well, he's still lol as usual. "吃药lo, 吃药就会好"(i know he dun wan so direct send us off since l0ng queue behind)
my condition kinda out of control. no wonder i l0ok less GAY..cos male hormones r outraging...becos of tat, i g0t myself 6mths of pink candies to eat!
had been 0so quite a while since i acc mom tour supermkt. well, juz a honey, we made several rds...my eyes had been target-locking on the words "NESTLE", "MILO", "NESPRAY"...postwork deficiency...
chinatown meetup. went to eat at this street. my first DRAGONFRUIT~
walk thru the 古色古香 old place. diff atmo.
Nso, we begun out BIGwalk t0 Clark Quake...at wr0ng dir. sweat sweat till we chiong cab down...well, like i mention sometimes ago. even if we to0k the l0ng way, we may perhaps gain something eXtra in d process...
And we landed ourselves in Eski. AGAIN...3rd time. walau, really "chill"out... sn0wball is milkysweet, thks 2 cka's recommendation.
journey home...haiz...hate it when dun have niterider to my hse! no worry, i got m0on following me as i slowly wander back home.
haiz, the old man under the mo0n, u removed my bandage juz b4 my wound almost heal completely. i had to forge death as if the bear had came. no, should be 2 bears.
as for sun today, guess where i've been 2.
these days, always found myself among the crowds tat dun speak the language i know. *%^O^&%%#...even g0t a china guy came asking me if my area there got any ENGLISH learning ctr..."language is an instrument of thoughts" agree?
P.S: oct has came. which means it is coming soon. i wonder if it will turn out to be glorious mth or something i will regret for the rest of my life.
reflected at 5:11:00 PM
Friday, September 28, 2007
Spring Cleaning Day.
found out how fussy angmoh boss can be. then the stupid acetone floor clean incident...
went for their big meeting. almost fall aslp. sat beside mother, her head went off t0o.
this is my FOURTH family. my 全家福
today came an repairman. all woman said he's 好好男人...then sample granny said "u muz learn from him.. but u 0so already gd la." followed then, another dept supervisor added on, "ya, but dun let ur wife bully can liao" dots...做人难,做好人更难。
rushed off to cka's BBq. if nt for some1 who asked if i got went meiji...i would have forgotten my choco..
i luv this bbq~ then cka's mum been moving up n down...changed my old impression of her. told him to be nicer, since i addicted to the sweEt potaTo soUp. think is becos always listening from mother abt how she bring up her children, i 0so try to appreciate my mom esp when recent morning she specially went to mkt to dapao duck/wanto noodle for me. sadly to say, i still shouted at her when i bad mo0d. WAD AN ASSHOLE I AM.
P.S: frenz said i've changed. more positive. even bought a white BOSSini shirt instead of black. but wardrobe still lack of smart causal (mayb i'm not smart) for mon's cocktail party.
reflected at 11:33:00 PM
Thursday, September 27, 2007
refreshed rain. yet kena spolit by the burst of powder. end up i wore a BUTTER perfume whole day.
"dun worry, everything will turn out fine."
btw, yest slped late all becos of 1 stubbornly stuck qn. switch to surf net until i found antique!
the s0ng i forgotten how to sing. lyrics is super meaningful. anyway, mojacko is 1 of the reasons i luv sat afternoon when being a kid.
reflected at 7:31:00 PM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
impressive day.
morning, temp0 is fast n sm0oth. since i already g0t my samples out yest, mother started weighing when she came early. i juz do other wu heg bo heg stuffs. rinsing my test-tube is kinda pathetic, cos morning peak...every1 wanna wash their this n tat, even another lab got 2 gals need to fill their containers...(one is like duno how many litres...)
bo bian, gentleman had to switch then came back ard at 10+ finished them off, then 1st sis loling at me "aiyo, u still rinsing ar?" and mother joking "haha, i know u desperate to rinse, so wun dare to tell u go do other things"
rinsed halfway doZed off...then 1 test-tube fall! (now i know the pricing. the most eX one can buy a topman shirt...cheapest can i think treat 4ppl dinner bah...) better dun break~
my slpyness was being shocked away when mother suddenly screamed "死了!"... (i was still natively telling mother tat our fast speed today sure can do 4 set, 2 b4 lunch n 2 after lunch) after our samples weighed, add acid...prepare this n there b4 put into machine run...then once settled i already put back the samples back to the sample room. NOW, mother said the weights result files had been overwrite...
is as if u ran 2.4, last lap. then got ppl said u haven registered. so rerun. i tell u i sure 崩溃。。。but mother really IMPRESSIVE...she struggled oni awhile, then back to optimistic mode. saying "a test from God. wana us to practise more!"
i learning how to recover fast after a fall.
if u ask me wad i wanna be.
踩不死的蟑螂 推不倒的长城 烧不尽的野草 胆不小的飞蛾 笑不停的傻瓜
P.S: now i understand their mon(c)wed(c)fri theory. well, me being simple-minded oni luv fri. esp this coming special fri~
reflected at 7:16:00 PM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
~haPpy lANtern dAy~
today is the most times of "惨了!" (mother) and "sei zhoi" (father) when "threading" the test-tubes, got 2 still undergoing violent rxn...then got orange fume...i was down there "wah! wahseh!" (i miss the sec sch chem pract...) wad a day, got to know that we still behind 79 samples...is tat a gd thing or a bad thing?
news headline: lib became an official 大耳隆, sending letters 追债。。。even 50cents 0so 不放过!
was bringing my babysat darlings out to let them 提灯笼。stroll round then brought them home, behind came new neighbours whom i nv see b4...then he was asking my mom if they are her grandchildren...so tat makes me their...wtf!
P.S: juz like some1 said, it was a lost tradition. i appreciate but of cos, i do kick my ass when the candle wax fall on my fingers.
Once a glowing bright lantern. Now a irritating music lamp. i'm still the candling lame.
http://bbs.musicool.cn/viewthread.php?tid=122345
reflected at 7:48:00 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
noticed tat recently, i started to make new dreams. tis morning is even funny, i dream of going out with frenz...then while planning go eat lunch...i bumped onto mother coincidentally...then gosh, i woke up automatic n found out almost late for work...guess her appearance in my dream is to save me...
big rain, defer me into first time taking 246 to work. fast n sweet, no sweat.
during work being asked to collect samples which required 4 condensed milk..oni collected 1. found out pesticide dept using, so went to ask ask. ask an india guy...he refer me to a lady. "u can go find the whowhowho...u know whowhowho?" wad d hell i know ppl name...then the whowhowho 0so duno where, she asked back the usual gal who i often asked. then she told me another dept got ppl borrow. "whowhowho has taken it..u can ask from her." she continued further upon seeing my blurred lo0k. the one with duno wad ponytail...duno wad de wad...then i try my luck ard.
finally found it. realised it was with the malaysian gal...took the milks back to mother. then she said something vomit blo0d. "see, i ask u go take is to give u chance. now u get to know the gal rite?" wth, do i lo0k like i freaking care...
while retrieving samples from hpa, suddenly the angmoh bigboss of our whole dept nothing better to do, so came "spot-check"(stroll). saw me n asked me if i'm doing well. of cos la, if not i already been laying in hospital...but when i open the hpa, the poisonous gas emit out, he was helping to use his hand to help me close the fumehood. now i understand y he was the bigboss liao lor(thou i heard he's v fuzzy, esp with our samples result) respect.
yup, today i was the person late to end work...all becos of father lor. finally got to know the mysterious project of mine. hplc. chim, i skim thru research juz now, headache.
对于无能为力的事,我只剩下愤怒。 For things beyond my control, i can oni express my anger.
P.S: i scream and yell. i yearn to return to the old self. the boy who can think juz of chess n nothing else really bother him. nothing else can matter, n he can dun give a damn by freaking dun care. 太过在乎输赢而忘了原来的快乐。。。是我没胆再挑战他们。
P.S: now i know 斯文=no strength and "do thing from his heart"=Free Of Charge. i do hope my perseverance is not being seen as stubborness by u guys. 我的执着在你眼里却是固执。。。n i do get pretty ann0yed by constant irritation tat my m0od get over me, so much so tat if i said some nasty words, i dun really mean it. juz dun ka jiao me.
reflected at 2:13:00 AM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
already reach the highest difficulty lvl of waking up... tat's y spent quite amt of time "steaming", end up gotta skip breakfast n rush!
how rush am i? there's oni 4 storey buttons in my lift...me at the highest, then going down...once the do0r opened, i chiong out...oni to found a funny granny trying to ask me go back lift...cos it oni the 2nd bottom storey...she kept saying paiseh to me, cos when she took 0so will g0t alot of ppl rushing out...(since ppl living below mostly walk down instead of take lift)
but this granny quite hip lo. wore big big cute sunglass. then went got sort of block announcement. but den in eng, 0so quite du lan with our stupid gahment servants since they g0t no brain for the elderly. so i helped her translate~
see, nt actually rush. but her laughter sure brighten up my whole day! last statement she said was "你要去做工啊?", was damn happy..seem like i finally g0t rid of my boyboy lo0k!
if i run along the way to work...sometime had to stop...cos got factory dogs!!! u run they chase...should have recruit them into police dogs...then some days ago, saw this "young" dog (nt puppy) v cute. it followed me along, as i walk on pavement it walk on the grass. it will be infront of me abit, then wait for me..then go ahead again...as if showing his way of becoming buddies. how i wish i got a pet like him!
was juz abit earlier than father. then we to0k lift tgt. he suddenly so emo...asked me "我们的samples很多hor.." then worked halfway, suddenly they need to take pics for every dept. so our we took tgt as 5ppl. our 全家福~ he 0so v cute...cos always v serious, then when we raised up our V fingers, he suddenly shot up his both V hands O.o"
今年的中秋节,我们不能在一起。。。 一起赏月 一起玩火 一起聊天
P.S: one of the happiest things is to receive "thank you" after helping others. mother kept telling me to "ka ka lai", "no need scare de, u wait wait long long later u r the one "lugi".
reflected at 12:23:00 AM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
力不从心。 woke up at 7.55am. kinda siao liao. skip breakfast...dizzy walk out of hse.
blurry jaywalk n almost g0t knocked by cars. sumo, my buttock g0t banged by bicycle...
suay sia, even the crows on the trees used their chirping to greet me...
today came suddenly a BIG CRISIS sample. the exact details i cant say. cos 1st sis kept on warning me it's company secret. mother was saying how lucky i'm. since this kind of things seldom happen, i came work oni 3wks then bump onto liao.
afternoon break. all females chit-chating. me being the odd one out. then suddenly 1 malaysia gal asked my mother whether i was like another male colleague vegetarian...kao, quite scary when thinking i was being spied on even during lunch...
btw, today something really max funny lol stuff happened between me n 2nd sis. she kept nagging at me, cos i being blur, duno when to weigh o.1 or 0.3. "u understand mah? u have to understand! y blah blah blah....u know y we do blah blah blah" i was 0.o
"u know y we need to spike? y need to digest? y cant we put the sample directly into the machine to analyse. like tat no need so troublesome to weigh or add acid. cos the samples some are not soluble, very complex with their chem bonds. so we need to digest so to give us clear solution, break up their bonds for us to test for..."
ok. i understand. soluble = not complex = weigh 0.3....simple.
later i received a sample of 味精。(monosodium glutamate) i tot is like sugar those finished pdt, so weigh 0.3.
then 2nd sis shouted for me...y weigh 0.3...this is complex compounds...esp glutamate got this duno duno wad bond...i tot u understand? u have to understand y we wan u to weigh 0.1...cos v hurtful to the machine...blah
then nagging continues...(wth, next time i muz find a quiet wife...HATED BEING NAGGED @)
me "or0?"...rebuke back "i tot is not complex compound...味精 not always put in soup dissolve de meh? u 0so say solube then can ok can weigh 0.3 mah..." she stumbled awhile...den every1 including mother who was weighing, LOL till stomachpain...
P.S: gd to see ppl back on track. i do fall. n is feeling harder everytime i try to stand on my feets again. however, dragging is even more suffering. btw, so lo0king forward to cKa's BBQ next fri!!!
i tot i sing already v 厉害。。。she win me...
reflected at 11:45:00 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
max tired. kept on staring at the qns...think i spent the whole nite trying to solve 5qns oni. damn weak sia...不甘咽 till forgot time had reached 2am...eyes hurt!
but come to think of it, it was the almost-dozeoff part tat suddenly switch my thinking. den POPS! ans out...laugh at my previous stupidity.
today my weighing speed is faster liao. but certain stuffs still nt confident. done 2 sets yet again...cos HPA machine abit weird...cant digest properly so 3rd set cant start...
realised eldest sis got sharp sense of smell. few day ago, morning v gd mo0d so wore perfume to work. first thing when we greet in d morning, she suddenly "hey, 你喷香水是吗?好香喔" haha. then today i release the pressure of HPA t0o fast...she suddenly turned from her desk n told me to shut the fumehood. "有acid的味道" omg, i'm the person nearest yet i cant smell it...she so far can detect liao...seems like i v not alert abt my safety...
yet, i'm alert abt others safety...cos while at HPA, i saw a cleaning auntie entered an enclosed lab with door sign "DO NOT ENTER. UV DECONTAMINATION IN PROGRESS". i was like wtf then panickly informed mother, cos i duno if i can enter to pull her out while she's happily cleaning. then mother t0o focused on her work...i felt like i'm a mute trying to shout for fire...
morning breaktime, mother shared with me abt how she raise her sons n how her mother raise her when she's young. learnt abt one hokkien saying which is abt one person cut hair, another person press the ear. ya true, sometimes 分工合作 is rubbish.
anyway, father today 心情不好。every1 siam him whenever he comes. mother is always his 诉苦 audience. then she will entertain him while she's working by "ya....ya....." saw his v 无奈 side. cos the customer boss dun trust our sampling result...wan us to redo..max sian. he called one by one...all like being kena scolded...b4 hung up still needa say "thk you" ...ya, again. LIFE'S LIKE TAT~
lesson learnt: 树欲静 而风不息,子欲养 而亲不在。 be filial. tmr is 奶奶 death aniver...a boy who nv rmb his granny's face. seeing other kids who always had granny 疼. hide had a great granny. without her, he can nv be a legendary guitarist...i wonder wad kind of person my granny was. i didnt asked much abt her when young. i oni know she left becos she dun wan to be a burden.
reflected at 11:07:00 PM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
0vertrained...
morning was bad. dun even had mo0d to eat. red bean, if ice-cream nt bad. but the combination with bread juz...wth
halfway work, mother asked me to print our sample reports out then go the another side to collect frm printer. then there was tis obasan (supervisor frm another dept) came n ordered me to go back tell my dept ppl "cannot use this printer" reason? cos she in midst of printing her own report.
come on la, same lab one need so selfish mah. u think big ar. felt pity for ur husband (if applicable..i doubt so) u think i newcomer nv saw ur face izzit. muz bow infront of u tat kind ar. u blackface me n ur employees(they dun talk to each other while oni bother abt their own stuffs), while at another moment when some bigshots angmohs came then u smile+laugh as if they know u. u think u funny izzit? 2-faced.
actually i already know abt how our dept were being treat when 2nd sis always complaint. we do all the hard labour works...other dept's result ok, we always got daichi...redo n redo, while new samples are on their invasion trip everyday. how stressful, then other's dept put their own stuffs in our area..as if our place is their storerm.
mother warned me "u're newcomer. ppl say things u dun talk back can liao. the rest leave to me" anyway, mother today said 3 powerful words which kept recurring on my mind. "life's like tat"...all the flashbacks reappear
ya, i skipped my teabreak juz to grind finish 15 packs of green coffee bean. 2nd sis lol when i asked for earplugs...the damn grinder is S0o noisey. i think next time i invent a noise-proof griner confirm + chop sell out. btw, she took a tissue split half. then tear her part into two n squeeze into her ears. "see lidat can liao" funny...green coffee bean dun have the aroma!
all for the work. btw, i sicked of being cried wolf again. shake it off me. didnt know my training today became so crowded. ah lians so many.
come to think of it. i know i'm being weird(unique) tat y often attracted certain ppl to copy me. actually, most of my styles i 0so pick up from others. but thks anyway to these ppl. thks for letting me discover tat i actually had much more rms for improvement.
ever since i read frm a book tat "a learner is a humble listener", i talk less n listen more. tat's y often ppl r willing to teach me.
perhaps i'm t0o optimistic to think tat for every problem has its own solution. if it dun have, then it is not considered as a problem liao. thus, i always spend alot of time to resolve when i'm stuck at sumtin. mother saw my bad habit...then say "手脚要快,不然(吃不到饭)in hokkien" asked me to turn, dun let the thing get over me. think so much in d end 0so did nothing.
slowly realise...juz like when a singer lost her high-pitch vocal. she changed her singing style. salute.
P.S: a change is for the better.
reflected at 11:13:00 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
Secretive dAy
morning v gd mo0d, timing 0so rite. all thks to the tasty bread i bought. hmm, audit day. sort of spotcheck...then supervisor ansed ppl's doubt v lol. "这个问题你问地很好!" mother was saying, see how proud he can get. then i saw the way one side ask, another side ans. v like acting/chit-chat...
me alone 静静地 finished my 1st set ard 3pm. this time faster(compared to 5pm). washing test-tubes halfway, mother suddenly asked me.."u free now?...can do 2nd set mah?" then i saw her kinda regretful face so i smiled "can~" then she shocked..."if we do together la!" i continued. she sianZzz cos she still g0t piles of paper mountains behind...
random stuff: mother had to clear the fidge to put our new cold samples. then she told me, next time if i happened to get expired yoghurt, wash it with my one hand while i pour away. guaranttee after tat hand is smoother than the other.
since renovation gonna complete, 1st oct is considered their opening...think no need work. sumo mother emphasize to me abt the end of the programme list- "cocktail party" song bo...
anyway, finally got my punchcard. which 0so means i gotta eat faster..
gradually, i'm seeing my fruit of labour~ able to do it more 轻松 instead of very 勉强。physical + mentally = healthy body.
let me unwind once a while. let me be one siao ta bo. this is my queen of siao char bo. her dressing quite getai...(all thks to mom's poison!) and the drummer lo0ked like juz rushed back to concert after finished work~
P.S: Gemini has high adaptability. yet i think i'm like a lazy chameleon. the habit of stoning down there for a moment b4 willing to camouflage. However, this is diff from wasting time. i'm ok to put in every little effort. BUT YOU BETTER DUN WASTE MY PRECIOUS TIME BY CRYING WOLF AGAIN N AGAIN.
reflected at 11:21:00 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
aNother painful dAy~ LRT nt quite familiar...to0k the wr0ng side, went MERRY~GO~ROUND n back to starting pt...saw 178 below...the speed r d same. auntie said got improvement...after next wk, then can skip another wk..dun need freq pain...
thou tired, nonetheless went to bishan to train with a junior. nt bad, nice game. me mild to him making him kept on blooding abt how to attack me...
haha, the more i dun wan to chat with ppl. the more ppl come n chat with me... even when i ate pig's liver mee sua dry (lunch). i sat at their "resting" table eating alone.
then the lady sat down n asked me: "小弟,够吃吗?" i nodded. "不够以后可以加面, 免费的。" walau, u should have say earlier...
after tat dinner. ate 炸酱ramen. the china lady duno y started to complain to me how hard day she had cos customers alot... i stood now there nodding again. since i was her last customer.
let me b evil once awhile. see my 战利品~
btw, papa's prune juices is really effective...KNS alot
to all 0-lvl takers. best wish~ anyway, this was my 0-lvl song i always been listening to when i studied. whole day listen 0so buay sian~ now came back listen again n realise the lyrics behind can actually be so em0...
mayb next time i earned alot liao, then i will have my own cafe. with some pool and mahjong tables. then certain day of the mth can cosplay t0o.
P.S: this may or may not be the last exam paper i had taken. since in life, there's always plenty of other exams occurring daily~
reflected at 11:56:00 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
haha, back again to BLOG MORE. yup, tat's my habit. juz now kinda in rush to post the excitful entry.
gettin' to feel the stress of work. when they r still doing paperwork mainly while i'm doing sampling. been mindful of the clock (imagine u cant use the com to check ur exam results. who g0t mo0d to work!!! i was FRIGHTENed whole day), 12pm lunch had came, yet bo bian, work cant left unfinished halfway to leave...made them waited for me again, esp is FRI's MEIJI day...gotta b early if not l0ng queue.
haha, damn crowded when we went in. i tell u, really g0t ppl special drive in n buy their choco in BIG RED PLASTIC BAG...wonder how they could finish...
well, i went in n juz see wad i like i take. as if "free", cos too cheap le...thou there r certain "more eX" ones like FRAN. but since they said it tastes nice, i bought all the FLAVORS~ queuing halfway, mother 0so came n recommended us some hotties. btw, after we bought n halfway eating lunch, mother suddenly came with 4 packets of choco cookies she bought for us. how sweet~
anyway, went back home, mom was certainly shocked to see wad i bought. "你忍很久了啊?"
rush back sch once after seeing results, juz to meet jingsheng. ya, both of us 3rd yr were definitely angry, when we came back frm tiring attachment oni to find tat none turn up. luckily my mo0d is t0o go0d.
had a "research" game b4 we went chatting+eating.
recently dun really like to chit-chat with others. cos always will reach a pt when i suddenly goes wordless. BLANK BLANK. e.g today got a gal from another lab dept came to fill her bottle with "ultra-pure" water. i was still using to wash my acidic test-tubes (gonna raise 8 times, with the SLOW flowrate, v sianZzz). last time when i stoned down there, mother will come chat with me. then halfway, she will said "hey young man, u really wan me to wait for u till finish ar? (showing me her dirty spatules) hello, next time muz be more alert ok? have to train up ur sensitivity. if not later ur gf wait for u until she goes away how?" speechless.
then the gal asked if i can excuse to let her use for a while. mother immediately say "ya, muz let the beautiful lady first" omg, got owned by all females... then the gal filled halfway then suddenly asked wad my name...after ans i str.away went do my stuffs. mother gave me the lo0k thru her eyes of me being a 木头人。
not tat i dun wan to talk to others. it's hard for me now to even rmb other ppl names, esp when other ppl already rmb my name...slap me, i dun wanna 老人痴呆。。。
one of mother's Golden statement: "Do wad i say. But dun do wad i do"
1 qn today. i received an ice-cream today. ???duno wad to do abt sampling.
so i asked mother: "can i juz leave it there to melt then i pipette into test-tube?" mother: "aiyo, our nestle ice-cream 好吃的!" me: ".?.?.?." mother: " the ice-cream inside got jelly. so not homogenous n u have to grind it" LOL!
when the sample need to be heated first, after tat we have to wait till rm temp to measure the weight. so mother asked me how to cut down the cooling time.
me: "run it in tapwater?" mother: "no, very wasteful of water. use the water dispenser 的 cold water la" max power~
P.S: 终于可以放心下棋了
reflected at 3:28:00 AM
Friday, September 14, 2007
PASSed!
God, thks~
Reward? whole bag of meiji choco
byebye!!
reflected at 6:27:00 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
wad a stressful day 4 d first time. last nite too playful, didnt slp early. so today do work, brain is "gong gong" when doing weighing, i felt my body shaking... i tot is becos of the renovation..or perhaps i going to faint~
God knows, earthQuake! anyway, mayb due to tis, today every1 mo0d nt so gd. mother was "saliva-fighting" with 2nd sis...even father 0so, mad liao, asked them to bring out the whole data sample reports of this yr to do duno wad...
it's like everyday there's a report. Gosh...we need to use a trolley to bring the stacks of mountains up. even the angmoh director saw us transporting 0so kinda shock...
in d end, every1 seemed to be at their desk doing paper work. me? alone doing set weighing...whole lot of procedures. then considered 1 set. actually if doing with mother, normally can do 3 sets/day. (1 set= 21 test tubes) see? i so slow...worked till 5.47pm. abit paiseh when i said i needa leave, cos every1 is still buzy OTing..
wondering if it is still "Beautiful W0rld" after today. VERY WORRIED abt tmr...
P.S: thks aHmad for recommendin this song. didnt know tat even after 12yrs, the anime still gonna comes back as movie! "Rebuild of Evangelion". utada hikaru, as usual, ROCKS~
reflected at 10:58:00 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
in case my dear diary miss me, yest modem damaged, plus max tired. in term of heart. 心
tis work seem to pass time v fast. doing stuffs then halfway mother will say "hey, finished le mah? quick quick, we go break (abt 10am & 3pm)" "work but no play makes u a dull person. play but no work makes u er...IRRITATING person." lol, one of her classic sentence. if nt frequently is when she had to remind me "young man, 5.45pm! leave them here. u faster go!" lol~ today she had to go off early then was kinda worried abt leaving me behind...
i'm born slow in nature. do things unlike them, all chop chop finish. mother today ask me to weigh samples. then she came back see i oni done few,"bo kang hu!" so i told her every time i weigh once i need to wash the spatulas(spoon), since i was given 3 oni. then she went to order 40 for me (i got 6mths ahead) sumo she said all diff designs. let me use until "song"~
lunch is always FULL. thou i'm the slowest eater. cos i think the veggie aunties 0so recognise me liao(since i had been "lunch-vegetarian frm the first day of work), gave me 1 n half bowl of rice...
this fri is so 又爱又恨 day. cos it's our meiji day(can buy choco at cheapest rate, but wonder if i can eat anot) yet the final result showdown 0so fall on same day.
btw. yest is a sad day for most ppl in NY. is 0so the day when the gate finally closed. 初一,no wonder i g0t such a l0ng queue during lunch.
P.S: it's my habit to add sugar in coffee without stirring. bitterness awaiting for the sweetest moment to come.
reflected at 7:27:00 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
some interesting work stuffs: i left an opened yet seal can of condensed milk in the sample rm... mother was screamed: "aiyo! how can u leave it here. put in the fidge!!! later who opened confirm CHAO SHENG de. luckily no1 saw it..."
LOL. oPps, the dumbass did it again~
was doing the "sewing machine" with mother. then "mother-son" chat started. discuss abt my breakfast n her sons one. mentioned tat all attachment student confirm get fat after 6mths...how i wish~
today rushed for 154 twice. heng heng 1. was totally mad n disappointed. wondering if i'm wasting my time, my effort, my life. when ended up in sch to train with oni 2 (later became 1) junior. max sian.
mom was asking where i was going after i came back frm work for dinner. "I tot it's ended already?" she said. i 0so duno wad to reply..
mayb i'm juz foolish to believe in miracle. or izzit i'm silly to make miracle believe in me.
i'm oni human. perhaps an optimistic one.
P.S: a book i like. 老人与海。 it taught me tat no1 can b defeated. unless he surrenders himself.
chalet pics melting mallow, at the cost of burnt fingers. me n benjamin, tangled~ shragged slp!
reflected at 11:48:00 PM
Sunday, September 09, 2007
another painful day~ juz like 表姐 said, 付钱受罪... well well, the supposedly improvement......
sometimes ppl wonder n ponder (is there really a diff?) wad is their purpose of living? y izzit tat they landed on this earth? recalled of an old anime, evangelion, 0so asked this qn b4.
i think i know y God send me down. send me to be taken care of by a happy family. to be embraced by bunch of loving frenz.
Now, i need to live. my Purpose is to bring joy, smile n laughter to every1. perhaps i may become a famous comedian in future, who know? let me safeguard every1's burdens while distributing happiness to everybody~
hence, i muz be happy first too, if not how i make others happy? gradually understand tat time chen ann said abt 小丑的痛苦。。。
btw, luck is considered bad. today i think i met gd brothers twice...cos duno y i will trip yet didnt really fall...(sumo i was holding hp...human body is amazing, subconsciously i let go of it n end up right palm touch the ground. hp was being threw to the road...luckily no car...but heartbroken when my wife got scars) plus always wait for bus long long...in d end both came tat kind...
parent was blaming me for wearing my lucky charm recently tat y granny cant be with my side to protect me...haiz, i DIDNT wore lor. can granny recognise me?
P.S: tmr will be my resting day. "No Disturb" sign is being hung~ meanwhile, let me be romantic once a blue m0on.
The shadow of your smile when you are gone Will color all my dreams and light the dawn Look into my eyes, my love, and see All the lovely things you are to me
Our wistful little star was far too high A teardrop kissed your lips and so did I Now when I remember spring All the joy that love can bring I will be remembering The Shadow of your smile
reflected at 12:16:00 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007
didnt know i will hesitate... God u certainly like to play trick with me cause me leave hse s0 early... with all the 假象。。。
tot the highest lvl of telling lies is to mix with some true stuffs yet the ultimate lvl is to tell lies with only the truth (yet no1 believe)
not tat telling lies is bad. sometimes, the purpose of telling lies hid the kind intention behind.
i dun like honest ppl. i oni like ppl who is honest to themselves. as long as they 行的正, others is fine with me.
thus, the worst liar is those who not only lie to ppl but 0so themselves. how pitiful.
occasionally, i asked myself if i got cheat to myself. if i didnt, then how come i wun realize tat i'm actually dreaming in my slp?
Kk, tat's all of my weird thinking...
anyway, today is not a gd day. i dun like to wait for others.
P.S: human r weird creatures. thou some food is not those resturants' delicacies, but u really will have the warm feeling after been a long time nv tasted them.
reflected at 11:53:00 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
tmr is FAMILY DAY! haha, already had been lo0king forward. rush morning again...明明 reached at 8.28am the stewpid security guard already say late. come on la, u think u're sec sch guard? u might as well tell me to stand at the gate as punishment...
enjoy my life now~ esp with a bunch of luving ppl. kinda paiseh to make kaichuan n xinyi to wait for me lunch or after work...
since tmr is holiday, juz now pia finished "1 litre of tears"...hold back my tears, yet even my nose started to...
she's really a strong n great person.
imagine day by day god takes away ur abilities bit by bit... when u can no longer walk when u can no longer write properly when u can no longer speak
or when the person u love left u or when ur family member felt ashamed of u or when u became a burden to ppl ard u or when u are being backstabbed by whole class including ur best frenz or when u have to be forced to leave the school or when u have to endure all the glances tat ppl shower on u
i muz say, this is one of the very few shows tat can really make me cry... she taught me to cherish my life for every secs
P.S: perhaps we met each other on the passageway when she left the world weeks while i entered this world.
"People shouldn't dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now" - Kitou Aya
reflected at 8:36:00 PM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
easily tired, paiseh for falling aslp b4 9pm yest. slp till 7.30am. almost late. but according to coach's working exp, even if u arrived late, as l0ng as u earlier than boss, then u safe. i reached at 8.28am. heng, he was 2 min behind me.
caffeine hook~ (sorethroat liao lor...)
think i g0t a NEW family liao~
father (supervisor): today he actually guide me do experient when all the others had left..also talk wth assurance type...ask me to chill chill kind. haha, warm rite?
mother (sub-supervisor i learn under): perhaps she's the most zai one, tat y oni she can afford to 分心 teaching me while doing her lab work. she 0so can communicated with alot of ppl in the companies cos she can speak alot of languages. the way she speak english to electrical uncle v lol
eldest sis: she's d most 温柔 n sweet~ yet she always call me JIArong..tat y they always kept asking how come i dun have any english name...then mother will call me "handsome" or "年轻人" nvm. she's v helpful.
2nd sis: the most easily stress up. luckily she not like my previous boss, wun vent her anger on other ppl. she's cute when angry, esp when father wanna ask her if she can finish her job within certain period. she always said "i cant PROMISE u, i dun wanna stress myself" haha, father need to coax her down. btw, she's quite true. sometimes, when after u made certain promises, u will feel heavy as u carry ur words. tat's y after i finished this last promise of mine i made to ppl by this mth+, i will oni make promise to myself.
3rd sis: she's d kindest. cos today mother need to leave early at 4.30pm. so she need someone to find some1 "babysit" me...first she told eldest she going to leave soon. guess wad...eldest excitedly jumped n said she 0so need to leave early...like 好姐妹 grab hands going shopping...mother's face was like "..." so she find 3rd sis (see, she scared 2nd sis complaint again)...then 3rd sis smile smile...then say things sweet sweet...mother went "okok, u still buzy with ur stuffs. (pulled me away) see she always like tat, so kind, nv say no one...
anyway, u guys wana know wad i doing rite? i collect samples liao then see if need to grind anot. yest got one packet of those instant noodle flavoring. u guys muz be happy for me rite, no need grind? wr0NG...mother said got pieces of 菜 so muz grind. today got a condensed milk tin. duno how open..mother shocked "你妈妈没给你开过罐头?" haha, i'm a lucky b0y. sometimes u get hungry...then got those coco crunch infront of u...torture. later on the day receive a yoghurt...i was telling mother v sour i dun eat...then she kept.."yoghurt v gd...u see how come indian ate alot of curry yet dun have pimples? cos they put yoghurt inside!" see, learnt new thing.
today learnt weighing...didnt know so troublesome plus careful de. i see how they took pride of their work, every steps got a reason behind. mother always tell me to have an analytical mind. yet today got some results wrong on 3rd sep, then 3rd sis teased her..got new guy came tat day then distracted...
sometime, need to do washing. then i washed w/o gloves, suddenly 2nd sis saw me then said Y U DIDNT WEAR GLOVE? i was like...need meh? "aiyah, cannot like tat la.. ur hand become rough later ur gf dun wan hold ur hand how?" dots... no matter how ugly i seem, ppl always think i still will have gf...perhaps i always make ppl feel i'm fortunate... test-tube 0so need to wash. easy rite? but UNfortunately, mother gave me 48+ test-tubes, n every1 need to be wash using Ultraclean water to rinse EIGHT tims...imagine how much water wasted.
breaktime with mother, we quite late so oni got some techni n electri uncles. then talking with ppl all older then u...they shared abt their childhood last time, abt how to make wooden guns, catch spiders to fight, how to feed them with housefly...then to golden cockroaches tat is gd for our health. when taking drinks, a young technician asked for my name. i told him kairong. then was shocked when he said "凯旋的凯,光荣的荣?" not becos he got my chinese character correct(strictly speaking, last name still got more) but this was often my reply to others if they wanna know wad my chinese character...so 准! previously when my dept office in charged asked for my surname...juz like others, they will oni recognise 邓小平。
for my name, i luv my surname cos it's quite special. my middle name is fixed as laid down for my this male generation. last time got something extra given by a fortunate teller...if wrote in traditional way, i felt like climbling mountainS. think gotta thks the person, since till now my life, i got alot of frenz. whenever i feel low or in trouble, there's will always be ppl ard me supporting n helping me.
anyway, he was chatting with me abt my future...wad i wanna do. then he said our dream we make sometime when grew up may not happened. dun be disappointed or wad. my path is gd cos dun restrict myself in a rigid one, if possible divert. u dun look down of these electrician or technician. was shocked to see him again when he said hi after i bought my food during lunchtime. then i saw him eating with two angmohs bosses..
rmb since young, whenever teacher asked wad our dream occupation. alot will say stuffs like docter or lawyer. i nv wanna be one. i dun think i got the ability to save a life. neither do i wish to make some1 guilty n take away the life. i oni wanna be a painter or a dancer. painting my colorful dreams, or dancing in my 人生舞台。
ok, too much to say. i better slp.
reflected at 6:22:00 PM
Monday, September 03, 2007
uber content n happy. reached v ON TIME. HR brought us company tour. then she kena scared by my qns... left us at 10+ in a rm nothing to do till supposedly 4pm for safety briefing. half-way was SHOCKED TO FULL-SIZE EYES when she mentioned abt lunchtime being 1/2hr!
ganina...walk out need time. peak hr queuing need time. eat need time. digest need time. come back need time. cool down need time. so do i need juz the extra time? nvm, at least tat d most sad thing for d day.
when there's sad thing, of cos got happy thing. PH we dun need work, but salary nv rest! sumo, she said this fri is FAMILY DAY. ??? "mdm, so i need to bring my family here to nestle?" nono, oni for permanent staff...
anyway, there's a vending machine. got 8 buttons which 6 diff drink available like nescafe, mocha, cappuccino, japanese green tea, teh tarik and of cos, main character MILO! u may not believe it. but i already tasted all on the very first day. yes, u better believe it. guess the no. of times i pee
lunchtime, found a veggie stall. not bad, may consider for 6mth vegeterian.
later went see supervisor. saw another side of him, actually he not tat 没人情味。 he saw me n was quite concern abt my erm..kept it at secret. juz tat he notice previously he interviewed me still not bad. now abit...muz take care lor. anyway, the whole lab except him n another male guy, the rest r LADIES. luckily i learning now under a motherly lady...she saw me work so serious, always make fun of me, joke with me...working environment is NICE! i can talk chinese n english mix mix. supervisor n the ladies all sometimes talk in dialect. luckily i can understand.
taking the sample stocks is like a librarian. doing stuffs like logistic. even use grinder...felt like fruit juicer. talking abt fruit, they got PLUM for us to eat...i duno wad izzit..abit suaku
lesson learnt: nv judge ppl juz of the first meeting. he may look gd, but deep down he's a baddie. he may look abit cold, but he may be a caring person. depends
~ imagine u r in a tunnel with a big rockball chasing u behind. u come to a point where the path separate into two smaller holes. on the right u can see light. on the left u can listen to wind blowing. which side will u take? ~
ans: there's not wrong ans. both routes u know will lead to exit. juz perhaps one of the route may take a longer time. moral of the story is, once u chose ur path, u cant turn back so NV REGRET. dun be dishearted if u took a long time, as long as u believe u can walk out of it. who know, sometimes it's gd to take a longer route, u will gain something extra!
P.S: hmm, my curfew still lack of discipline but got coconut drink since ages so nvm... btw, paiseh to the little snail i kicked today on the dark street. my fault for not paying attention while i walk..luckily i didnt crush ur delicate shell...
reflected at 11:23:00 PM
Sunday, September 02, 2007
gd news, the koreans r back safety ---------------------------------- 痛
mom brought me to treatment. was really a torture... duno how much bl0od i l0st! d auntie said my bl0od is way t0o thick... seem like i gonna say gdbye to my choco milk n prawns cos she said i like eat too much meat... wait a sec, i dun eat beef cos i prefer cow for their milk. plus my religion 0so dun all0w me eat mutton, cos later i will 失眠 counting meh meh anyway, be a monk eat veggie lor...
perhaps becos i shared the same Bday with 文天祥, didnt shout at all even in pain... juz tat some tiny teardrops managed to squeeze outta the eyelid
think recently my tear glands quite active. watched "1 litre of tears" ep6 n found out i was weeping in d middle of nite. luckily no1 saw~ during the speech by US president b4 they set off the rocket in "armageddon" happened again.
hmm, found out my dad used to go dating with mom in 海王。 but anyway, they can quarrel over a 70cents newspaper. kao, of cos i know the real reason behind it...
tmr first day work. felt like reborn after the treatment. hope the wound will heal. plus any other things. gotta control my diet(no more fast f0od or oily stuff), keep a look of how much time i wasted daily(do hope i can get a watch), change my bathing style(dun imagine pls, i juz wanna stop my daydreaming), curfew my slp(8hrs min, b4 10pm)!
P.S: i luv mama more.
reflected at 11:09:00 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
I'M BACK! any1 miSs me? max shragged. will update more tmr abt past few days.
simple yet warm chalet. BBQ with chilli STINGRAY tat no1 tahan... best m0n0p0ly, with me bankrupt$$$ 10hrs+ mahjong~ 好过瘾! of cos, ALOT OF LAMEings!!!
way home, 顺路 went back maris stella. 熟悉的路 依旧的街 feeling is great. but nv smell of the "flour"
anyway, was kinda sh0cked.. esp when the v 0ld ice-cream uncle is still selling with his motorbike outside gate.
esp when the chi0est teacher had her surname address changed.
esp when sec2 english teacher, after trying hard recalling me, noticed i dun hav my specs
was really sad... esp when one of my fav teacher, ms fong had transfered to another sch. luv her alot, since she nv gave up on a F9 student, who always try to make our bio more lively. if nt for her, i wun be a A1 student.
esp when most of my math teachers had been gone. sec4, ms grace chan retired rite tgt when we left the sch. then when yr1 went back still got see sec1 teacher mrs wee, after tat heard she retiring when we yr2. she left chess club in care of another teacher. i went back to where we used to play chess. the study area, whole tables had been changed with chessboard printed on it!!! sec2 teacher is still there, she still rmb me after we bumped previously in nyp. today, juz know sec 3 v young MALE teacher, mr tan, had QUIT...as teacher. think he should 0so find other jobs~
esp when aida DIDNT come...heard from physics teacher ms goh tat she already had been sicked few days ago. but she TAHAN till today no lesson then took mc, so tat no need trouble the students back for make-up. so 伟大。。。cant chat with her regarding my future.
so oni chat with ms goh. she was helpful, she 0so rmb me...after saying i had CHANGED alot...she gave me options of taking part-time in local foreign U. hmm, i think i let my health pick the choice first, now i got 2 paths set.
guess wad? sometimes, even when u hate some1. the hatred can be buried in the sands of time. out of curiosity, went to drama rm to see if thodey is there...yup, he's as usual ANTI-SOCIAL...other teachers r at staff lounge happily eating, he made ppl stay over after celebration doing his ORAL test...quietly sneaked to the door, peek at his 身影。 last time used to hate his scolding, yet duno y now kinda sort of enjoying it...aint i'm silly?
went back np 4 training. then used up all brain batt i think. later dine out with coach, jetson n chin kiong. thk for the delicious meal! happy until didnt know the time passed secretly till over 12am!
tmr go out chess again. cya~
P.S: special thks to these handsomes: aHmad, who put in so much effort for the chalet. really appreciate it! cka, who lended me Armageddon. muack~ jetson, who cabbed me home sweet home^^
母校の眷恋日
reflected at 12:25:00 AM
From a Boy to Man
Once a Marist, always an Officer