Saturday, December 26, 2009
coming close to a brand new yr. need to look back and do some reflections. ------------------------------------------
anw, these are wad happened lately. there was a vip visit so out of 'passion' i cancel my 2days lves help my friend
1day b4 the visit need to prep the stn, ensure cleanliness, kiwi tyres etc as much as i predicted, they planned me FLY as well. (tat's y b4hand i planned my lve so swee swee liao) damn shit, they dun wan me to bust my 'flying expiry'
luckily, God was so touched. tat'y 15th whole sg seemed to be flooded by his tears. well, give me more time to focus my job.
next day, the 3stars frm US came. woah, first time gave speech.. (my damn friend tried to siam so gave me the honor.)
"tat's is all i have. any qns, sir?" "oh..so what is ur plans after when u left the service?" "(diao...) study." "oh yes, that will always be a correct ans!" a close slave.
sigh... seems like all the foreigners would like me to further my studies.
been clearing my lves all these while managed to read finish 1st set of wind cloud series. decided not to continue on as it went endless... btw, this mth was birthday for both hide and ritsuko okazaki
P.S: my Xmas gift was a h1n1 jab plus doing DO in camp during eve..
reflected at 11:58:00 PM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
haven been feeling happy recently.
a tiring wk.
-grandpa 49th i've lost somewho in this world who always give his support to me
-big boss-changing parade 'who would have thought that the no4 man, will 1day be holding onto the color?'
-people whom we used to call 'friend' well, whn half of the manpower had been at US for exercise, higher up told us to 'suck-thumb' overwk for the country but i dun understand y whn they r back, we are still kept planned for this and that. even when i alrdy going to be on leave the next day, ppl planned me...
wad more frustrating is, the friend whom i knew came back from the 'xiong' US ex, complaint abt a substandard work i put onto the display board. yea, the idea is mine. but i instructed my man to come up with it.
if so, he say, i am an officer. hence, if i think my man din carry out the job properly, it's my responsibility to F them.
too bad, i'm quite F-up myself to bring myself to really F my man. well, seem like he enjoy irritate me, even though knowing i'm busy for the parade... or izzit he had been been...rather free?
my man came to ask me this funny qn 'sir, i thought you and KXXXXX they all together a gang one. how come this morning he came to scold u as if he's higher rank then u?'
lolz, silence is golden yeah...
then again, another of my coursemate SXXXX came back from his sweet oversea holiday the period he took, was actually the most xiong period now though he's back and we should be happy abt it.. but apparently, my buddy niam to us abt his slack work-attitude
haiz, a sense of the course bonding is going to break sooner or later.
-self-confession btw, i'm aint saint too. i dun complete my work well enough at least the standard and quality ppl wana my encik was praising to the rest while i was on the parade marching 'tat young fellow gt drive.' thou i did screw up at most of the times tat make the rest of the enciks worry... hence, kena embarrassing replacement.
change of topic and come to my leadership it's poor, i admit. my buddy told me, 'i've the heart for them but i din make an effort explain my rationale behind my instructions. thus, it didnt turn out nice for those at the end receiving the instructions. bottomline was, there is a need to change my tone.
maybe there is a desire that leads to anticipation but this may lead to disappointment during the course of participation.
the world is full of addictions and temptations. i hold on to my heart and remind myself to stay content at all times. but and however, to the worldly ppl, it seems like i have no ambition or even been accused for using it as an excuse to stay among with the so-called losers
a simple encounter with those annoying insurance agents esp as u walk by the mrt or bus interchange, they will INTERCEPT u despite ur hand signal of rejection... in addition, they will often send an opposite sex to target u hence poor thing u will have to sympathize them by helping them with their so-called survey and then proceed to their table and chairs where their PREMIUM plan will be intro to u all u need (or have) to do is to sign up for them
well, it did happened to me AGAIN. nah, i wun sign up so stupidly this MY not-so-young lady approached me. so i reply her qns in a not-so-gentlemanly manner causing her to change her mask by saying very mean stuffs like 'u wana be some uncles pushing the cart in those kopitiam?' a matter fact; i dislike those who aint tat rich yet trying to act weathly by looking down on the poor!
P.S: only wanna lay down and forget everything, yet ppl kept disturbing my short-lived dream.
reflected at 9:27:00 PM
From a Boy to Man
Once a Marist, always an Officer