the time when Miss A had a bf Miss B had a gf and i had 2yrs in NS with in addition of many yrs of working hence, it's not strange tat i'm staying single.
P.S: 人生最难做到的就是 难得糊涂。
reflected at 12:37:00 AM
Thursday, June 26, 2008
haha, turned out to be bad news [wearing ring dun = got bf] yet [wearing ring may = got gf]
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anw. today colleague was saying tat korean gals praising my hairdo nice sia. wahaha. i was so "X Japan" liao!
P.S: i haben really distinguish the diff bet optimism and cheerfulness. now i realised me being only the latter. no wonder i felt i gonna die soon one day. no wonder i will anyhow cut some wires and tot i can get things done properly with the connection. fat hope
reflected at 11:46:00 PM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
today every1 was occupied by the BLACK CAT AT LORY??? over the walkie tat they heard, sounds exactly like me.
yet i was being stationed at waterfall... i didnt even reply whn boss kept calling me abt the DAMN BLACK CAT!
they were LOLing~aLL~dAY.
of cos, along with the sudden qn of me over walkie "boss, do u know where is the humming birds?" (a couple flew all the way frm England to see them) well, "under renovation" (i supposed they r dead..)
btw, i made a simple promise to a pal yet i forgotten it. heart filled with grief.
anw found out tat i got this old-fashioned thinking of [wearing ring = attached/married] well, izzit a gd news or sumtin?
P.S: i'm a asshole who always make ppl wait for me...
reflected at 11:43:00 PM
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Misunderstanding.
it often occurs cos we always miss out the minor details
as they accumulate, juz like growing interest in bank they forms snowball or even a vicious cycle
i found myself too, helpless in it
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anw. seems like i livin' in sweet surrender as i received fewer or none hardship
last sat thks God for the thunderful 2hrs-long rain plus i was TEKKENing with my malay colleague
imagine a queue of visitors, watching 2 staffs doing some unknown stuffs behind the booth den suddenly jerk out jumping stepping and slamming as if a ball misses the goalpost.
cos we got a double KO. lol
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mon offday. overslpt initial plan was gg zoo then nite watch zohan
who know the 927 was damn slow... change to 190 and board it, still 927 haven come.
nvm, this sat another off. hope to combine nite safa too
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today during work, i realise my colleague's bf already dead. i found myself stunned in the same manner when i asked a tourist abt her old partner
life's short. hence we shouldnt waste it.
then she even showed me her tattoo the symbol of undying love of her for him
overwhelmed.
previously another malay guy showed me his gangfight scar across his stomach.
usually frm ppl i know, after their dark adolescent, once they change over a new leaf, they r really the Better Man.
remind me The Outsiders
these few morning always bump onto this indian security guard. astonished by him speaking hokkien to me...
P.S: to whom God places me to meet all kinds of ppl. i know He wanna me to know how to see ppl.
reflected at 11:43:00 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
wad a surprise day. well, SHOCKING is a more appropriate.
cos He and i were the earliest. so as he ate his breakfast, he asked "i heard u're quitting. (i agree) how come?" so i replyed "cos i find it boring." (i cant possibly str in his face say i hate u)
so later on he talked alot. giving alot of his advice. first time seemed like we had such a long conversation.
"it's like u're in classrm. if u think it's boring, u will always be finding urself bored. y dun u ask urself how come the rest wun?"
"give it a try today. communicate with the tourist more. i can see tat u've been picking things up, tat u can do puzzle secretly already. u know the prob with u was, u aint confident. tat's y i always tell u, BE A MAN.(smile smile)
my mind was still abit haven wake up, thinking which fellow backstabbed me. but muz thks the person.
yet immediately later, the big boss came, infront of the whole colleagues who had juz reported, ask me out to have a talk.
"i heard from kee ann u're quitting. izzit true? if u're havin prob here, i can transfer u to info or lory."
well, my mind had been set. so thankfully reject, explaining tat i wanna go back to my old field.
for the rest of the day, He nv gave me any daji. juz randomly came and repetitively asked me "so how? still boring?" lol i do admit my mistake whn i nv make the float money into smaller notes.
the lunch, was edible. (definitely not eat-able)
in order to simmer my stomach's anger, went lau pa sat dine.
P.S: as more pictures of reality r revealed. the weather changed so fast. but after watching news, the bizzard was being understood. juz like a very complicated knot, it's actually can be untie by simply pulling open.
reflected at 12:47:00 AM
Friday, June 20, 2008
a rare happy day woke up happily by the thunderous roars ended seriously disappointed with immediate rainstop..
but still very happy. cos i saw the duty roaster dun hav the "devil" name!!! which means peaceful working day for me!
funny stuff was whn a visitor asked me if the panorail got go bl.. FAINT* i 0so wish it could. i can go home faster.
other happy stuffs was like visitor wanna take pic with me.
anw. here's the main, the core and the essences of this entry.
got this old indian man juz sat down at the platform waiting for his family to hav walk in the lory. so we started conversation.
such an impact of his qn tat awaken me. "y did u work here? this was not even related to ur course of study. U will soon forgot ur stuffs in chem eng field and next time, who will wanna hire u?"
true. i've been wasting my time. since 3yrs ago the same old kairong, who made his decision on this path, the 3yrs later same now kairong, should continue to finish that path.
found out he studied MBA, mainly HR related. so he asked me again, "do u have gf?" i shaked. "ah? how come? i saw alot of youngsters like u, r holding hands outside." "dun worry, i see tat u're a gd boy. juz quit this job now, find a related job, finish ur degree and find a gd wife marry off."
everything sounds so easy. but the fog infront of me is really fading off. if not for the lost vga phone, i would have taken pic with him.
P.S: i nv tot "the devil wears prada" will happen on me. i nv imagine being the boy in the story of "the old man and the sea. the oni thing i can explain was, the devil wears "feathers" and the old man and the "park".
reflected at 11:37:00 PM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
yest was a totally gave up day. i always tot no1 can put me down. yet i muz admit he succeeded.
for he purposely siasuay me infront of ppl. for he made me to apologise for thing i nv done. for he juz dun like me. trying his best to chase me away.
even today, he already gave me such a "pleasant" morning greeting. when 1 colleague took away the key of the station i in-charge of. the walkie still locked inside. he laughed at me and ask "so HOW?" wtf how. wtf he showed me a smile as lovely as a rose. so THORNY.
since yest. i made up my mind. QUIT.
for today, luckily he half-day. left the gd supervisor. smooth work. he came down and help me settle the ticketing sales and closing.
then he ask me how, is the job ok? assure me tat once another new colleague pass his driving, with big boss's approval, i can learn driving too. (i was actually wanna tell him not to bother, cos i dun wanna waste his effort) i smiled back and juz shake my head. den he said "u ok wad, can communicate with walkie. wad problem u have?" so i reply, "he always say i do stuffs wrongly." "ya i understand. sometimes i 0so dun like the way he did... like during open area(refering me being scolded in the walkie)"
btw. should u know from my current temper-ous mood pls dun overly "excite" me i may not turn into hulk but it's not gonna be nice too.
cos juz thr will always be 1 or 2 idiots still dun wanna let me go by saying "wind-cool" words. even whn i wanna long 4 a moment of peace.
P.S: the weird-mixed feeling of being angry and touched at the same time.
reflected at 9:41:00 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
sry my readers for not being "pro-active" in blogging.
due to this new work, too tired to type entry esp require all the negative flashbacks in recap-of-the-day.
one of the most reminiscing thing ever happen, was when i had to control a queue of 60pax in addition of a Pressure-giving KRN guide beside me nagging.
so i walkie back to my another supervisor (gd one) "can u send 2 empty trains over?"
think he was damn PISSed liao too by replying "I ONLY GOT 4 TRAINS, WAD MORE U WAN!!!"
then others who heard over the walkie all bursted into laughters.
Reflection: God give me a Gift. a person who always make mistakes. and these mistakes are often very laughable.
yest the big boss wanna us to stay back for "meeting" or "discussion" wadsoever nice names la. actual fact was juz a reprimanding session. wanna us give suggestion. so i mention abt complaint from tourguide+tourist abt mozzie.
u guess wad he ans? "when u getting enlisted? how can u survive there?"
actually i wanna shot back, "ya, i admit i'm sissy boi. but i will be damn happy one day to see the headline of newspaper - tourist died of dengue aft visiting bpk."
the meeting ended late 1 hr!!! wad for asking us for suggestion when he dun even wanna solved them. wad for inviting the GROs along, juz wanna praise them infront of us, saying our service attitude is poor?
piece of shit. sudden urge to quit.
Forgiving...is giving ur hate juz a little room in ur heart. still, i dun wanna a eraser in my head
P.S: the worst death i fear of, is to die of Alzheimer's disease. anw, "A moment to remember" is such a nice show worth re-watching again n again.
reflected at 11:05:00 PM
Thursday, June 12, 2008
l.l.l.l.l.l. l=alone .=bore
yawn* whole day. been a blood donor is really tiring, at least i managed to slam a mozzie to death.
when a tour guide complaint this issue to me, he told me to inform management for fogging.
i was like...wad if the birdy die along?
anw. today morning went abit off expectedly with boss he was asking me, "do u wan me to chaup siao u, or to push u harder to learn more?"
meaning i'm not "positive" enough to digest his 用心良苦。 perhaps true, i've turn quite negatively liao
anw. got quite alot of contacts with korean ppl.
well. now crazy whole wk for tat song le.
surprised to hear frm big big boss, actually there's mystery shoppers. disappointingly, there's no complain on me.. sack me or not?
realised suddenly is fri tmr. the feeling was like... u finally got out of desert after 3days.
P.S: maybe only a negative mind circuit board can turn positive after alot of negative charge attacks. meanwhile, more rains in june pls.
reflected at 8:23:00 PM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
rmb the barging tourguide i mentioned in previous post? during our 3rd encounter, he acually address me "afternoon, sir." wow.
so as he was waiting for his tourgrp to finish their birdshow, me standing down thr 0so nothing to do, so chat with him.
"how many language can u speak?" "offically 3. unoffical, 7."
we continue to listen to his problem. he explained abt him under time pressure cos those tourists, esp KLK everytime delay time here and there. so i explain some of my probs, e.g since z** and bpk having the hopper admission, yet the tram tix they bought in z** dun include the same for the panorail ride.
so coincidentally, came a beautiful mother with 3 kids. guess wad, they wana take the ride, showing me the zoo tix. bo bian, explain again to her, then her one pretty little gal complaint "mommy, so ex..." "ya sweetheart, y not we take a walk ard?" "but i want mommy."
faint* so young already exhibit the deadly feminie characteristic. 口是心非。
this cute gal caught the tourguide's attention. so he gave them 3 free tix, where his previous grp didnt took the ride due to time constraint.
so everyday i stand alone, staring at the lotus pond, listening to bird chirpings.
天天对望莲花塘, 何时我心生莲花?
P.S: if some1 i dislike can turn out likeable, how abt vice versa?
reflected at 7:06:00 AM
Sunday, June 08, 2008
morning cab down to bedok reservior for SPCA fun run.
cab uncle is so chattable. weather is so runable with shady-wind.
finish the 4km, thinking money may not necessarily bring joy, but it's effective in removing displeasure.
felt recent de me easily lose control of temper. pls bear with me, esp the unstable me. perhaps i may turn into the hulk one day.
P.S: it is not tat will not happen. juz so tat the time haven comes. true, for it, i'm willing to wait, like others who spend their lifetime for the moment to appear.
reflected at 9:42:00 PM
Saturday, June 07, 2008
finally tried billybomber thks a great pal for tahan~ing all my complaints. so watched kungfu panda and lost my phone happily.
thks for it's companion of almost 2yrs.
P.S: the secret lies in no secret.
reflected at 3:19:00 AM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
vacation over.
there's alot of stuffs filled up in my mind now. becos of this, i really duno how to start with and how to convert my feelings 100% into words.
last wkends most prob is happy mood. been to places like seoul gdn & han's to eat
topics ppl discussed with me were abt stuffs like finding influential backup money management
but i know to me, if i can have full control of my time i will be everything i can be.
mon went for induction quite unhappy abt the boss's earlier on de arrangements i should admit partially my fault for not receiving phonecalls
yet i DO get seriously angry if ppl anyhow accuse ppl based on his/her assumptions w/o evidence
我喜欢一种白色。 它的名字叫 清白。
so the boss actually give another 3 new ppl induction on fri le. (supposedly tgt, plus i did told her to give me asap so i can work asap too)
nvm, mon. timing change here n there. even if i reach on time, wait here n there, walk here n there. her time is impt. mine juz seems insignificant arh?
so after her "detailed" explaination (by kept repeating "do u understand?" and "ok?", making me feel i'm retarded thou i 0so kept returning her nods and "um"s)
since she had told me start work can oni be after induction, i really dun have the damn clue it will be tmr. sure, i can make it, but being considerate and cooperative worker i have to tell her tat in the mth of june, i hav 2 days tat muz be off. 8th for i have a run, 14th in case of some treats dines.
guess wad. she asked me for reason in a strict manner tat in the 1st place, i shouldnt have the rights.
"if u wan ur offdays to be in wkends, it's unfair to the rest" i understand. then off she blah blah came this sentence:
"since u're a newcomer, it's most advisable not to be so calculative."
how will u feel if u're me? i was thinking, hmm my math aint tat super. izzit really too much to ask for 2days out of 30days to be special for me?
another punching statement was added on:
"smiling is part of ur uniform. this is the expectation of us on u"
certainly i know tat. i wish to do tat and be proud of it. yet, how could i force out a smile tat aint genuine if the working env dun permit. it sounds like i shouldnt be asking for credits if i make the visitors happy.
overall, i felt tat words she used dun sounds "harmonical" and "comfortable". personal comment, perhaps others who read this beg to diff.
later on the induction, watch the birdshow alone, walk ard ard then see ppl frowning bored. kinda imagine tat they aint wearing their "uniforms"
thou this was wad happen. it didnt hinder me to generate a hyperactive drive in the morning of 1st day work. woke up early, even have time to eat mac hotcakes. found out colleagues mostly not chinese. abit of diffculty handling walkie-talkie. handling crowd was still ok, (they always say those indias r most problematic)
then try on to checking for tickets. here comes the SICKENing part. a TourGuide (speaks fluent Arabic-Angmoh) BARGE in with a big grp of indias i tried slow him down n stop him by asking him "How many ppl do u have?" (wanna proceed on by asking him to show out their tix)
KNN him, by replying "Do u have the correct attitude? U cannot ask me "how many ppl do u have?" without using the word "PLS", while he continue entering and further on KPKB to my supervisor upstairs.
then supervisor send a colleague down telling me "Mr XXX wan me to tell u tat u cant ask the tour guide how many ppl they have. juz let them in."
still i dun find any faults i made tat turn me into a poor-mannered guy. or rather, ppl who barged in w/o showing proper authorisation is a polite guy.
if oni i can be "calculative" enough to be able to count the visitors juz by my eyes within secs. how irony.
anyway, things do cork up. esp like the black sportshoes i bought were being rejected to work. so i put on the not-so comfortable leather shoes whole day (standing+walking) ended up with feet abrasion tat the pain can be describe as being bitten by thousands ants. plus i even bought a black jeans (partially due to the excellence service received) for the unsatisfatory job...
furthermore, the bicycle was strongly BANNED by parents..
since the boss she wan me to come early in the morning of 0815, which i couldnt enjoy the privilege of taking the first 0800 air-con bus. Instead, a non air-con bus with a big crowd of passengers at 0745... tat lame thing was, i reached liao oni a few ppl came...
i dun wanna call it a quit.
P.S: it's romantic to see two slping heads in MRT swinging here and there, waiting for the right moment to knock tgt. luckily he woke up and gave up his seat to others somehow or rather. Guess he wun see her again. For he finally understands wad is being called "Service Line" tat is, accept wadever Blames ppl Donated to u and claim Good Ownership of them.
reflected at 11:56:00 PM
From a Boy to Man
Once a Marist, always an Officer