Wednesday, February 28, 2007
MORNING!!! i made preparation yest. then today set correct mood. wake early wash fast eat breakfast. in d end successfully went out hse at 7am. yet i still almost late for the shuttle bus. cos i
took 98 blur blur to JE..then hav to take mrt again.
yet in process i learnt thing.
see tis BUSdirt(x3) he juz F*CK damn shit. juz feel like hacking his bird. damn crowded bus he still sat like tis like nobody business. so i forcefully sat beside him, purposely exert pressure to his "car". few mins like he sensed ppl sat beside him so he adjuz his leg. sumo i saw a granny coming so i let her sit my seat. a while later i turned back n still saw ah ma standing. y? cos he put back his legs. F*CKER . luckily he slp over stops, me purposely blocked him while he wanna come out.
(REALISE: me still damn weak, y cant i shout at him to let d ah ma sit? such a weaklin.) CPTC, bus driver chatted with me alot. they all commenting me like uncle carry plastic bag oni. but today rain me bag no wet!!! durin lect today i slp then the trainer was givin us crappy pri sch type mcq qns...then he wake me up to ans with me immediate ans "C". every1 shocked. lunch had my nong shim claypot flavor! rainy so no Bball. didnt play game too. juz had a cmi BLUEBERRY ice-cream. if nt for blueberry i ain't buy'n. to0 cold, should hav brought jacket. after break got a trainer "jessie" start early lo...then she v pretty i saw none ppl slpin at first. but they were LOLing abt her "slang broken eng"...after her is another Mr K. cos he kept say'n "k"...after him so Mr Diao. damn like to show. he even shout n diao ppl slpin. i mean wad wrong, every1 slp at other trainer how come his turn cannot? then he 0so tried to teach wad other his portion, causes us to almost overtime...last lect was ok, rushing his part to make us on time for bus.
after CPTC ate KFC with my
legs pain cos the stupid
BATA slipper realli is
Buy
And
Throw
Away. got abrasion. damn bad tat i wanna buy new ones. yet dun hav my size...in d end went swim in rain with alot of
dead bees floating. waves was fun yet cold. n i finally play the
tubes...n we took a pics in toilet b4 it closes!!
fun day with great frenz. long time nv swim with any frenz. like the
green toilet!!! not expecting anymo tmr. i shou enjoy everyday as in wad day i am. even if bitterness lingering, it shall make me great
DARK CHOCO! fearless, actually i fears myself at times. sometimes,
findin myself like a piece of puzzle try'n to rotate along to fit the jigsaw. my mindset, my courtesy r whirl'n. juz like ppl throw waste juz at the roadside while i placed my beer can into bin which oni a stair up. like ppl juz leave spilled shampoo on the floor dun wanna wipe...steppin on seat with shoes...etc..
Kk, i know ppl wanna beat me for writing this "shit". but kaizi is still not yet mature.
reflected at 10:39:00 PM
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
morning is so wtf. mom praying, so got alot of smoke. my eyes n nose damn watery. even towel got the smell. so temper ganna tiggered.
in d end got quarrel with mom. think again, my fault.
so in d mrt, in bus. so silent.
silently spent my morning, the lecture damn sian. choing whole lots of ppt. like got more than 10...lol. we sat at front low, me still slp. so gangster.
lunch. instant noodle bought frm cheer. cmi again to my apppetite. then play d reversi i brought today with cka. so0n went back continue lect slping.
best part is the safety test. cow easy. (eg. when do u cannot operate electrical appliances? a) when u in bad mood) LOL.
went swimming alone. damn HAPPY!!! imagine u facing the rocks wall, water splashing down. right is sunset. left is translucent mo0n. centre is RAINBOW. got long time nv see rainbow, sumo with sun n moon together. ivan said if one manage to see tis, it is lucky. mayb behind me is ???. perhaps. hope to swim tmr, mayb can bump into again. i mean the person.
went back home shag. bought instant noodle plus nong SHIM. spell wrongly last time...
glad tmr i will hav my choco. hav my swim. mayb hav a 美丽的邂逅...
btw, pic is taken with courtesy of 20pens from joyce. done it during the boring lect. heard sp ppl behind kept call'n "engineer sia"...
reflected at 10:41:00 PM
Monday, February 26, 2007
yeah! finally can post previous entry photo!
the three darks pics with candles n green beer bottles r taken frm d pub. they sold heineken!
the bright outdoor pics is taken frm today basketball court. (mia siao siao, private Bball court which need special pass to go in one hor...)
then one pic is taken with ivan on the EARLY bird bus...
another pic is taken frm aunt' hse yesterday with my YOUNGEST cousin!!!. d one on d floor with blur look.
two more pics r my baby gal at my hse. dun messy with her. i juz knew frm mum today tat she punched her brother's head.
let's tok abt today. more of disappointment. ~early in d morning i make breakfast at ur table~ Kk, i stop singing... nanah, woke at 5.45. tsunami till 6.15am then change+dry+staring in dark till 6.40++. open dvd watch NANA again. mum scoldin me getti'n to0 loud. then ate NONG XIN instant pao cai..till abt 7.50. then wo0t is holy shit for haven prepare bag...n stuffs. plus shoelaces haven tie... then took bus + mrt. manage reach on time at chinese gdn. then release shuttle bus pass by my hse again. damn diao.
then curious lookin n bus. till reach d place with oil smell. then found out trainers there got some damn proud ass.
d worst thing is the caferia there is max strong. BUSINESS DAMN BIG. LONG QUEUE sumo. y? cos oni 1 stall, plus they dun allow us go outside building eat nor call mac delivery... the food juz SUX. got two yr nv had bad canteen food already. looks like my fate of havin SLIM BODY is sealed...cow, my ppl there r deciding on picnic...sandwich for 6wks? hell. not as if being in luv, bread+mineral water still can live...i juz wanna nong xin!!!
another torturing part is they kept givin ten mins breaks...nothing to do for 10min. short games? can oni think of poker cards. best thing is they dun allow cards. then last part of lect is asking us to copy till hand shiver...sianZzz.
GOD pls save me. plus sp ppl. didnt saw nyp? kinda disappointed.
reflected at 10:41:00 PM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
long day. quite emo.
should consider as a single day bah.
morning collect clocks. int. things happens like weisong cross the road, me cross the bridge. damn diao. then ben n i took cab down to serangoon. auntie driver took us to the road. then ben said mrt can stop le. then she said mrt juz pass. so we alight n walk. saw it's farrer mrt...when we reach nyjc, they hav their own clocks. walau.
then started friendly match. 2 oni, 45mins. me draw both, real friendly.
then went bishan with them. quite abit of emo when i was stuck at some undealed stuffs.
Vvv sianZzz
then finally decided go pub.
new stuff learnt. ~every petrol stn got toilet~
but we went into the male toilet, inside got a malay using the tap, some sort of changing clothes. toilet quite small. got tap, got stand one plus one cubicle. then inside the cubicle came out a malay gal. natively, i oni tot she 0so changing clothes inside. when we came out they asked me "u still dare to use the toilet inside? got see any "spider web"?" took me long time to realZe wad they actually meant.
then took a can of cold tiger beer b4 gettin into a cab. the taxi uncle had alot of tattoos. then he told us abt road blocks due to chingay. then halfway journey saw fireworks. i was in d taxi "WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" then they all LOL me. told me if i wan can go there now. then i replied "can ar?" suddenly d uncle freaked out "haha, u so funny boy. when we reach there it would hav ended..."
after alight me was so high. they were all still "WA"ing me...took a long walk duno where go. chosing pubs...then me saw a eski pub. it said is subzero degree. quite co0l. inside got techno sounds. abit ex they said when compared to others pub. i tot in v cold no1 would smoke. but me was wrong. quite dark insider. we were playing card games when a birthday boy who was drunk n mad came n irritate us...then when they went off, he HUGGed the waitress...damn diao, wanna punch him n kick his ass.
then we 0so plan to leave since beer almost finish n i cant tolerate d smokes...went to cathay. on d journey we madly went WRONG WAYS...like crossing taffic light we actually crossed 3 when 1 is enough. it was really funny. then went supper at kopitiam. suddenly got the hunger for pig liver...but in d end juz settle for honeydew sago. n let me tell u. it's was d worst i ever hv in lifetime. sucks...didnt eat much, like whole soup still remains..
reach cathay upon knowing no more showing for the movie we want. then decided to leave home le when they said having spent too much muz save taxi fee. so in d end ben n i went back coach hse till morning. as we walk, they was looking for ahgua...then coach was like introducing to us where to eat where not to eat.
learnt someting call "ice kosong"
reached his hse, we was watching SCV show in his TV. he strongly recommend tis show "happy sunday" i 0so luv d show. the 3 host really make d show amusing, the way they talk was funny n simply luv their "DESCIPTIVE" talking n how they stabbed one another. ben was doing other stuffs at coach com thou...then after show ended coach went slp, ben continued his stuffs...while me readin magazine. until abt 6+ then we left.
then after some fews hr of slp went to auntie hse. they were gambling, me was stuck down there basically rotting. didnt gamble. v sian. v emo. v bored. then send smsing until ppl's bf angry with her so v paiseh. next time muz b more awake. if not do wrong thing.
btw tmr mon le. dun my feelin now. 0so wondering how to post pics in tis entry when i couldnt see the "add pic" icon...hope it recovers so0n.
feeling so lost. wonder where i actually belongs. is there somewhere i actually belongs? is there anything interesting to move my numb body now? some bad habits r still left havoc. chaos in my mind r whirling my heart tempo. my eyes hav lose the shine it used to have.
3 facts abt kaizi.
1)when travelling in vehicles like mrt, bus. kaizi normally kept quiet n emoing.
2)few wine can make kaizi high. yet the more kaizi drank, the more he awake n clear.
3)kaizi finally stepped into his first pub at 24/2/07. he had yet clubbed b4.
reflected at 10:13:00 PM
Friday, February 23, 2007
dun waste time.
describe today first.
fresh, co0l. liv'n in 0wn world. relax. slack. lazy.
watching NANA. finali, cant beat d temptation.
learning to dream. dream makes 1 complete.
hav'n a dream. dream of a BAND. juz like BEY0ND.
imag'n playing guitar. electr'c.
if every day today. no more sat. wonderful.
not to 4get ment'on, MONDAY COMING! 3 more days.
yest. long day. sunny sweaty.
met them at JE businterchange.
saw yk's BLACKNAILS. wanna taste one t0o. then eye black black 0so.
realZe bus nt coming, went eat. JE entertain ctr always is RAMEN. LOL.
went took cabs. eight ppl exactly. cos +marie. then me took 2nd cab. ask uncle follow.
glad uncle didnt follow. "stan+ivan+yk+joy" 's uncle turned wrong side. in d end we landed first!every1 complain pass old old. me oni unhappy with those counter aunties...
cant take pics there. cannot consider as really first time STEPPED on it. cos is still outside boundary. any1 can walk in 0so...
then cka finally hunted his red shirt. LOL. i juz saw a boy wearing past by b4 cka entered topman. then 0so realZe my pant i bought had post sale...it was cheap by 30. nvm. happy jiu hao. they diao lor, kept saying bugis everywhere got... bought a pouch. (cos dad said got ppl put hp in his pocket then it explode n there goes his b'rd) LOL.
me then hav'n stomachache...bad one. hav to endure till reach hse in mrt. some ppl released "methane gas" almost luring me to do same lor...oh pls.
home sweet home.
GLAMOROUS SKY (NANA OST.)
Lyrics: AI YAZAWA Music: Hyde
Akehanashita mado ni mawaru ranbu no DEEP SKY
AH aoide...
I throw open the window and turn to the stormy DEEP SKY
AH and I look up...
“Kurikaesu hibi ni nan no imi ga aru no?”
AH sakende...
Tobidasu GO
Hakitsubushite ROCKING SHOES
Hane ageru PUDDLE
FURASSHUBAKKU
Kimi wa CLEVER
AH, REMEMBER
“Is there any meaning to this repetative life?”
AH I shout...
JUMP OUT and GO
Wear & tear these ROCKING SHOES
A splashing PUDDLE
Flash Back!
You are CLEVER
AH, REMEMBER
Ano niji wo watatte ano asa ni kaeri tai
Ano yume wo narabete futari aruita GLAMOROUS DAYS
I want to go back to that morning, so I cross the rainbow
In order to be in line for our dreams, we walk in these GLAMOROUS DAYS
“Akewatashita ai ni nan no kachi mo nai no?”
AH nageite...
Hakidasu GO
Nomihoshite ROCK’N’ROLL
Iki agaru BATTLE
FURASSHUBAKKU
Kimi no FLAVOR
AH REMEMBER
“Is there no value in surrendering to love?”
AH I sigh...
SPIT OUT and GO
Booze & ROCK’N’ROLL
Breathing harder for the BATTLE
Flash Back!
Your FLAVOR
AH REMEMBER
Ano hoshi wo atsumete kono mune ni kazaritai Ano yume wo tsunaide futari odotta GLAMOROUS DAYS
I want to decorate my heart, with these stars I gatheredIn order to tie our dreams together, we dance in these GLAMOROUS DAYS
Nemure nai yo!
I can’t sleep!
SUNDAY MONDAY
Inazuma TUESDAY
WEDNESDAY THURSDAY
yukibana...
FRIDAY SATURDAY
Nanairo EVERYDAY
Yamikumo kieru FULL MOON
Kotaete boku no koe ni
SUNDAY, MONDAY
FLAHS OF THUNDER, TUESDAY
WEDNESDAY THURSDAY
Snowcrystals...
FRIDAY SATURDAY
Rainbow-colors EVERYDAY
the FULL MOON disappears at random
They answer me, in my own voice
Ano kumo wo haratte kimi no mirai terashitai Ano yume wo kakaete hitori aruku yo GLORIOUS DAYS
I want to illuminate your future, so I whipe away the clouds for you As we embrace our dream, we keep walking in these GLORIOUS DAYS
Ano niji wo watatte ano asa ni kaeri tai
Ano yume wo narabete futari aruita GLAMOROUS DAYS
I want to go back to that morning, so I cross the rainbow
In order to be in line for our dreams, we walk in these GLAMOROUS DAYS
GLAMOROUS SKY...
reflected at 10:34:00 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
yest uncle lee n coach was training me at cxq for blitz.
me do things too slow...think 0so slow. cant help...really tired out. cant focus.
today woke up by fren to go bishan.
acc him thru cos sum relationship prob.
haiz. frenz ard me really all suffering frm luv.
me? got hair prob, skin prob, dumb blur head prob, money prob blah blah etc...
juz dun hv luv prob? fortunate? till ppl ard me kept saying i got a "already gt gf" face...
hmm...today oni thing i happy is my dressout. nearly green.alot of ppl dun like green. esp for fashion. cos most commented it was d hardest color to match.yet for a boy. i think tat roses are beautiful. can be red, white or pink. cos they have a stalk of green leaves. in fact, all flowers, no matter wad colors, juz comes along with green partner.so who says green dun match?today bought a
sunblock at watson. didnt dare to buy their own brand... hope next time no more sunburn. no more "
red sexy legs". no more "
peeling" no more pains and
ITCHY!!!
went bishan lib too. rmb once i blogged abt bishan havin nerd sch thus no need lib? LOL. went borrow xiangqi bk to train back...
then went watched EPIC. was funny. they so crappy. i saw got families watching with kids. yet in d show got alot of "
MUZ-COVER-EYES" scenes...
of cos, nt to forget abt mentioning some stupid bf.
me n my fren was queuing for entry with tickets. then he BLOODLY holding hands with her gf n say "EXCUSE ME" n escorted her by CUTTING OUR QUEUE. come on, we r in line, u got gf so wad. not as if ur gf is some superstar...
海阔天空
【演唱】:Beyond
今天我寒夜里看雪飘过
怀著冷却了的心窝飘远方
风雨里追赶 雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我 可会变(谁没在变)
多少次迎著冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想一刹那恍惚 若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡 心里爱(谁明白我)
原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒 被弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我
仍然自由自我 永远高唱我歌 走遍千里
reflected at 11:14:00 PM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
CNY.
first part usually sux.
same boring pattern. then the families 0so doesnt seem close.
this time one family absent. cos of church?
then went "yi po" 's hse. she still funny as usual. "those food r not for decoration"
then as usual, every1 was watching TV.
me yest was really freak out tired tat i slp oni at 3+am. so today when i "watching TV", my uncle called me n i didnt respond. kinda rude? dun i care none. cos same qn again "where r u now?" replying in same ans "2nd yr poly" then followed by "oh so not yet army?" "1 more yr..." diao. i really scared is two more yrs...
O0oo...finally went to mother side. fun. saw a BEYOND VCD then tried to open it. is KTV version sumo. shiok. but granny wanna watch movie then sobs sobs sobs...
then play black jack today. damn lucky. got alot of "man nut"...earned some small amt of money then proceed to mahjong...4 ppl, me was playing with 3 ppl whose status r give hongbao. me small boy is d one taking hongbao. firstly all my earnings lose away...nv won at all for 10 rounds...nv give up until starting to win. so me getting more tired then more blurred...my aunt was looking behind me n shouted "HU LIAO". me still thinking of needing wad tiles to win...LOL.
uncle beside me was saying me blur blur..eg. cat n mouse i got money. they gave me then i accept n continue playing. then he say "dun pretend leh, haven return change leh" LOL.
my eyes r tearing...
then going to slp so0n.
reflected at 9:28:00 PM
Friday, February 16, 2007
haha, today(x2) was a Mcflurry day.
co0l at first. tasteless as melt.
was happening studying OHS (cant believe) with 2 siao ppl at mac overnite.
really too siao to describe more.
was down there happily planning wad to do after exam yet all come down as like repeated water cycle juz like pass few times...tis1 dun tis tat one dun tat. in d end? separated.
i sry for being kinda determine to swim. cos not becos i like swim or wadever. i juz kinda wanna destress. down at the lazy pool with float and not other pool. stubborn kid.
then after swim realised a
bird shit behind my shirt. wad gd luck. then plus some misunderstanding i ended at vivo. so large so fun. immediately bought a shirt n changed it. wo0t. then bought a short pants. dead broke.
yest had a great day at the bustop. was waiting for 154. last bus at boon lay is 2330. me reached my bustop 2345. should be in time. but waited till 2355...diao, an auntie was asking me stuffs like wad d time, u taking 154 0so or MRT no more liao plus WILL 154 COME??? i really freaking panic duno how to ans. but when bus came we were like
"GOAL!!!" LOL.
then in d bus at clementi after auntie alight, a stupid smoked man came sat behind me ask me whether bus got go geylang? i was like shocked then nono. oni paya n adjun...then ask for coins. i immediately took out $1. but he still hungry and ask for $2. so i gave. then at sim shop, he asked me stuffs again. then the bus passed np le so i told him "sry i alighting". how bad i am.
tis is for chess club:1) 23/02/06 (fri) - Exco Meeting tentatively @ Orchard Mrt 12pm.2) Confirmation of Chess Club Orientation Camp Commitee(2D2N)tis is for weiqi (msg by mervyn)1) some special days in March - Weiqi Competition (juz born not yet name?)p.s. mervyn wana u guys to keep urself fit n prepare well. (sounds like NAFA)2) complusory meetup session for CYGC. more details will be available so0n.3) Most imptLY. ur voting which will decide the fate of ur WEIQI CAPTAIN/vice!p.s. mervyn instructed u guys to email him abt "ur IDOL names + reasons for SEleCtIOn"late reply after 17 feb 2007 12.00pm will not be entertained.tis is for kaizi frenz.
ask me out if u wan. chose ur date, activity n venue URSELF and inform me at least 1day beforehand.
morale of the story: i wun ask ppl out myself anymo. i wan i juz go myself simply.P.S. i think today my blurred eyelooks hav shocked alot of gals. cos today my eyes were oni on shirts.
joke:
a boy was crying so i went console him.
Me: "y r u crying"
Boy: "wad would happen if u put an egg in an microven?"
Me, thinking hard abt whether it will turn hard-boiled or burst, so dun wanna siasuay myself i divert away: "so ur mom scolded u when u put it in oven? who taught u to put it inside?"
Boy: "tat day i was watching TV with my mom abt chicks hatching from eggs."
Me, LOL away: "no wonder ur mom scolded u when u put it in..."
Boy exclaimed loudly: "NO0...it was when i took it out then she scolded me. she said muz wait for
21days"
during new yr,
blackjack is the hottest stuff. but i still prefer
mahjong. do call me when u lack players. happy piggy eve!
reflected at 9:53:00 PM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
today is sure failure for me.
cos morning woke up by my INconsiderate sis..then tot of swimming upon sunray shinE!
but head was somehow sticked to my
WET pillow tat i actually woke at 5+pm.
then during the operation i was tioed phone spamed by stan n yee kwong...
there goes my sun...sadly. but happily i got to appreciate the 5mins of
RED BLOODY "sundrop".
like a just born child. damn GONG.
yest was abit hell. plus tphm was frightening. think the devil will be coming after me for results... then went for FIRST TIME VALENTINE DAY with frenz. (normally will be normal day for me)
but was abit sad when they assured me of nice shirts for cny at the shopping ctr...top man ...nv really catches my eyes. except the price tag thou -_-" fareast 0so 地毯式 searched liao...none. wad attracted me was those gals tending shop... they were like standing at the door...blankly staring at couples passing them...how sad. me tat time 0so sad. two shopping ctr n yet still no sign of targets..
but another fren was more depressing.
wad is luv to me?
two-ways connection. cant be a phone talking to a pagar...
give n take. if not will end up one being fatty another skinny.
nvm, but at least found a nice shirt at heeren. cos they dun wan me everytime green so buy white. their service 0so v satifying. so ends up 150 fly happily. no more worry for cny 1st day le!
tmr going swimming after exam! woot. then watch show. then shopping bit bit for rest of clothes.
wad a wonderful tmr!
reflected at 7:46:00 PM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
my memory frailing.
took me some time to rmb ppl face n names.
really scared me if i do forget any1.
taty dun wanna know anymo new faces.
locking myself.
put ur palm horizontally infront of ur chest.
tat's ur line of confidence.
above it, u will be over-confident, in other word, proud. then soon it will travel up n become bossy.
but below it, u r losing faith u wadever u doing. u wun even force urself to face d mirror. u shut urself up. numb urself with anything to do. worst ended up Autism.
if u find urself getting too high, try searching for ur weakness. if u feel u r sinking below the line, reach ur hands out for a float which wrote all of ur strengths.
diff ppl hav diff strength n weakness. it is how u see it. a boy used to hate his single eyelids which made his eyes so small yet he had now been a great dancer. a gal with wavy hair used to comb her hair whole nite wishing tat by tmr she will hav str hair. but now she is luv by thousands of men for her sexy hair.
back to previous post qn. i will still be happy. at least happier than the one who lose the money.
recent stuff. i PASSed my anchem. hope to pass it overall.
CNY got alot of shows i really wanna watch. dun really feel like go out pai nian.
n for 2yrs waiting, i finally will be setting my foot so0n on jurong island!
how long does it takes for a boy livin' in jurong to reach his island? 2yrs.
reflected at 10:34:00 PM