Saturday, October 28, 2006
DREAM r over.
Back to reality.
wad's my future i duno.
recently win nyp, lose to sp. 2nd i think. very dui bu qi to huiyan. the whole team r simply great. the oni thing to blame is my Wildfuliness. y did i go n "qi zi"...
first match with nyp. the one who i played last yr. same person. both of us very defensive. so end up we both draw last yr. but in d end we lose to nyp. juz cos my childish "tian zhen" thinking that draw is a gd ending. so tis yr, after he made his first move, i spent mins even b4 i made my first move. cos i was stoning down there recalling sad memories. wad more i saw huiyan so tired... so decided not to play "wen wen". wanting to gain point for the team, lost my patience ends up horse kept followed by ghost. worst me who lost...
2nd day vs sp. decide to "shu zhui" atone for my team. but amazingly, my sp opponent who i last time 0so wanting to fight with, played opening with me...up to 10+ moves... in d end he one change i haywired liao...in d end "qi zi"... tat situation...got three tables finished liao. 1 win, 1 draw n 1 lose. neutral. left me n jingsheng. jingsheng opponent very disturbing...smashed our clock sia... in d end jingsheng lose liao. mine 0so cmi. if oni i winthen it will be a overall draw. my fault sia...
3rd day vs ite. didnt played due to my off form. Ben win, very happy for him. jetson draw but i 0so quite contended. chin kiong n huiyan win very early followed by jingsheng. tis yr ite got some strong players.
think mon is rp. last match. wad can i do?
my life seems like ending. miserable.
reflected at 4:08:00 PM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Moody all over me.
Got alot things occurred ard me.
I realized tat i am the strange type of ppl who will say sry when it is not even my fault.
I realized tat i am the weird type of person who will become angry with things tat doesnt concern me.
Things can change my appearance, my feeling n my chess os0. cant let it happen again. muz control myself. Anger management is poor for me, my senior said. he asked "y r u getting angry? for wad?" but i juz felt helpless. if u had a fren who had been hospitalized, tat oni one blow. but wad if during tis period like A-lvl? i blaming myself, with alot of Ys... y am i not a doctor? N when the photocopy machine juz cant work by giving u paper jam or wrong paper dimension? or when ur fren forgot some things that u had been hoping for? Even when ur fren's fren doing foolish thing by not treasuring the most precious thing? Things juz got me frustrated.
stop wondering liao...slping mode thruout my day. few days left for my major stuff. i wun give up till the last moment. the final showdown...
trying to make myself happier, tat all.
reflected at 12:23:00 AM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
today is bad day...
overslp...woke at 6.05am. to me is late liao cos i suppose to wake like 4.30am.
then didnt eat much of my breakfast...supposing shld b my dinner.
went on bus n saw huiling. she said i change liao...hmm...did i?
reached there early n something funny occurred...i buy green tea bottle from E-mart (mama shop) but i cant open it. went back to find auntie help me open. she said i too weak liao. LOL. in d end she cant open too. POLKA green tea bottle
HARD TO OPEN. so she tell me to change another bottle see later who suay who chose it.
then 5 of the early bird enter the LT n i even smile at him n said "HI". wad he reply is "...how come so few ppl... where r the rest...y so late..."
when lec started...he is the oni one special who said ngee ann rules oni allow us to be late for 5min n it is oni for "
EMERGENCY Purpose." come on la, if tat serious u think still got ppl come meh. PLUS, he used
CARD SYSTEM TO MARK ATTENDENT n first person who told me COMP cannot be used to teach his module... come on lor, if u duno how to use comp then might as well go back home to continue ur retiring life... hao lian abt being director or manager selling metal one for 20yrs, 18 yrs in NP...
since he is an old man, i can forgive him by telling us there is oni 1hr lecture not much time yet still use his sweet time to storytelling. BUT! when he said he wan to postpone our tutorial to practical n that is one hr extend of my day, pls f*** off. i shooted at him "at least u should inform us earlier like putting announcement or email us"...he said wad dun mess with me, last time student giv me name "
no nonsense lecturer"??? i was like wtf!
so i didnt bother abt his lesson liao, plus when he got two points to explain, normal ppl after one point will close one finger. but he special! he chose to close another finger which ends up on mid finger standing...got abt half a min i think. first time i saw lecturer do this. if not for my lost phone,
I WOULD HAD CAPTURE TIS PRECIOUS MOMENT OF TIME.
then after his lect is another environment lecturer. she quite gd except for her chim words. very kind for her surroundings. i oni saw two lecturers today. so
today i had met a devil n an angel.
his last practical we couldnt find his room. kept shooting him with lame qns. then the pract 0so nothing but his story again. N here comes the final showdown. infront of the TSO, he did his
ASTONISHING STUNT again. every1 keep giggling behind...me 0so couldnt stop....i saw the TSO walked away...
then went hospital visit my fren who is sicked n cant take his A-lvl due to his unstable state...felt very helpless.
pls, i dun wan ppl ard me to get sick. PLS...
reflected at 9:05:00 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
NEW SEM.
First Day late liao lo. for 18mins. NOT ME. haha, is tat funny damn cold lecturer.
NEW CLASS. complete new? nope, got two IS frenz, dun hav same course one. haha.
think i got tat 书呆子 look... but class inside got serious ppl n not so serious ppl. Me? happy-GO-luckly lor. haha. enjoy very much n MOST IMPTly, next wk become
9am liao. yeah!
but class still not much bonding... didnt hav lunch with them...
met tahirah they all at lib, they queuing for notes. i was rushing to return key... haha, ask them to chop for me first. i tot tat module slack one, nv tot is $9.60.
THICK THICK one... sianZZ half.
then meet up with ivan n stan. got to dl some program i think... still need to buy one more note.. sianzz, think i going to run dry liao...hungry...
stan pei me go bukit timah plaza eat. duck rice. nothing to say except for a
SOUR SMELL ARD TAT PLACE. (((remind me of a uncle not long ago who i took bus with. cos he sitting behind me. i bo bian cannot siam...later ppl think i no respect. but i sensed tat ppl nearby suddenly all very clever n shifted far far... so i
ENDURED for the whole trip. Luckily i haven ate yet.)))
BUT THIS TIME I AM EATING...went back home, slp during journey. then went back home liao bathe n slp. at ard 4. woke at 10 plus can watch liao chai. haha. now not going to slp liao.
10 more DAYS>>>
TRAINING IN PROGRESS.
reflected at 11:37:00 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
today finally got my
fish n co liao! muahaha!
waited for duno 2mth liao...
edmund n ivan cant make it today...
n i waited at mrt for half n hr with a bk of sudoku n finally desperate to find phone booths.
it's wonderful to see abt 10 tele there. but oni got two can use coin 1... got two ppl using them ( foreign worker n china lady) a auntie is queuing behind the lady...so me behind the man. yet suddenly i heard ringing call...
FROM THE CHINA LADY...walao got hp still use public phone...
had a pleasant meal except for "y r u looking at me like tat" stuff. a gd service.
next time hope for changi.
then rushed back to np. saw a cute caucasian baby boy on bus 171.
training: haha, today was hoping for 3 vs 3...but my wish didnt come thru... got play speed chess sumo...sianzZz i cant think properly when in rush... then went mkt eat...went ard ard looks like nothing to eat...back to noodles stall again...n i
DIDN'T HAV SUGARCANE DRINK for god sake... think i got sick of it.
but at home i finally face out my bag problem directly which i had avoided it for mths while carrying it...sianZzz
my shoes 0so going to cannot make it liao... duno i need haircut now anot... duno when will i be able to gain back my freedom cos now i living in life without phone for two mths...
tmr sch liao i still dun feel like slp... ...
think i starting to like my life now. For now oni.
Learning to appreciate things b4 it gone.
reflected at 11:18:00 PM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
普提本无树,明镜亦非台,本来无一物,何处惹尘埃。
i dun hav tree.
i dun hav mirror.
i dun hav ANYTIN.
gd thing is, i dun hav DUST.
btw...tat is not the real meaning.
wad i wan to say is...i hav nothing now. so nothing to worry now. juz oni NOW.
my big day is 25 oct!
today very short. i had a
BIG LAUGH during training. so fun when Huiyan makes sound when Derek going to move. cos we playing pair vs pair. me with Chin Kiong vs Huiyan n Derek. so funny! then dine at clementi, quite nice except for the sweet talk AUNTIE... damn interesting lor. cos she making drink quite infront, got two working behind. so i made my order from her. her reply? "好, 等一下." (ok, wait awhile) so i waited n other auntie free liao n my frenz behind finally thought of wad to buy n made orders with her. soon their drinks came n i saw my dear auntie making a green drink.
TO MY DELIGHT, she stared at me sawing tat i was looking very adorably at her. N she said "didn't u made ur order with them? aiyo...." n she explained nicely to her colleagues wad happen juz now.
SO NICE OF HER.
reflected at 10:18:00 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
recently, i found out myself seldom watched TV.
in return, i earn myself more time with my frenZ!
play chess sometime makes me feel moody, can be happy can be sad.
so unpredictable! so exciting! but now i sad leh. haiz
long time nv touch alcohol liao...
sun got my fish liao!
next wk sch start liao n lecturers still so slack, nv up anytin on mel...
last wk of training liao...
k, cya!
reflected at 10:22:00 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
I am happy. I am sad.
Yest, i was training alone...then got a very strong player invite me for a game at clubxinagqi. due to our huge diff in score...the web dun allow us to play...so he said played on msn. first time like tat. he is very helpful, let me learn alot of stuffs n the mentor game last from 2+ to 5+...so tiring...but god know...next day i woke up in morning very happy, got lively spirit. even all buses i travelled to tuition 0so dun need to wait...like i am so luckily...very very happy. nv been like tat b4...plus the day b4 spent with my old frenz. thinking of it again, my life is so wonderful.
tuition, got confessed with her mom tat i quitting next yr. then settled her stuffs with half an hr more...then set off to np.
then duno done wad... my luck suddenly drastically change...bus waited like nobody business. dun like the weather...haze...thou not my eyes but lungs felt kinda strange like something inside. went dapao at mkt n went to np. immediately i played with the catholic junior. lose one piece initially liao...followed by left one car vs one car one cannon n three pawns... managed to eat back cannon but still hav to surrender. everything lies on one opening move...stupid me. dun deserved myself the 最佳后手... huiyan had been shaking head. then very moody me went toilet...went go out walk walk liao... went back find jetson... played with him as promised. opening still ok, but moody me went into rush...then lose one piece again...later lose till death. felt like crying over wad i hav done. foolish mistakes here n there. wad am i thinking?
went harbor meet frenz for dine. then nv tot 61 still damn long...made them waited cos i no phone...in d end i walked in the new shopping ctr looking for toilets or lobby. SURPRISINGLY, there is NO PHONE BOOTH...in d end gave up n went back mrt for phone call... then took us a long time to sit down n eat cos there overcrowding no places to eat... there got nice scenery but juz the air not fresh... went back hav supper n hav a long chat with my fren abt time management, piority...plus tuition work...
now i hav change my msn nick. it will stay there till i improve...
reflected at 2:04:00 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
BLOW WIND BLOW...
Lets blow HAZE... ...
so wad to eat to stay healthy during tis period?
ANS: HAZEL NUT!!!
BLOW WIND BLOW
Lets blow ME AWAY...
0k, lets tok recent stuff...
got go qian xi lou eat dine...then make new frenz!!!
but i really hate their singing... songs tat i nv heard b4...
got weiqi ivp... make alot of new frenz!!! again... then met some old ppl...
we got third... will work hard next time to join them!
then weiqi lesson, after tat ivan, weisong n i go mac play weiqi...ivan teached me alot. thkthk!
today is M00nCake DaY
hav met up with primary fren, played alot. really enjoyed myself with their company. got candles to lit up my boring life, then we played midnite Bball with no light...full court sumo...
then now eating dine...
resolution is needed for tis moment of silent, muz train chess hard liao. left one more wk.
reflected at 2:11:00 AM
Monday, October 02, 2006
Kk, i quickly ends this.
today woke early, but yest gana biten by mozzie...ruin my m00d. cant slp well.
so ard 10am went take bus...7mins walk to bustop liao suddenly realised 4get keys...in d end 10.35 reach sch...settle stuff liao 11.05...scared i late so i rush rush to take 74...to outram to dohby...met edmund...in d end really late 5mins... went buy ticket liao then eat, chat...then went back GV...bloody cinema...duno how long the ad was...waste my time...sumo repeat sia...nvm the moive worth it. BABY DAMN CUTE sia...like d way it say "PAPA" "MAMA"...laugh thruout till stomach pain...
over 100 auditions they finally found baby Matthew Medvedev. (the $30,000,000 baby!!!)
then after the show parted with edmund n went tuition...tragedy happens...she told me two more days she PSLE liao...n i still believe she haven start revise...today then she pops so many papers for me to mark sia...n math qns hard hard one leave behind half an hr left for me to see...i need to rush off... in d end i soft-hearted stay behind for one hr crack my brain...then emotionally crashed...rushed to sp...wait bus to jp long...wait mrt long...then go clementi wait 196...in d end i
LOST MY WAY...no food n water...found myself trapped in
JUNGLE OF HDB FLAT... i tell u, u cant walk out by d side...got wall one sia...in d end i saw a brigde...then saw nice lighted building...tot is sp...in d end i ask a kind passer-by...he told me is NUS...i almost fainted...not yet till the exciting part...i ask him whether infront 196 can take anot...he say can go to backgate...juz wad i wan...but he dun advise me...i thked him n walk...in d end i scared of previous nitemare so i walk again...this time go roadsign...but when i reached gate 2, i saw ppl still playing tennis...but the
GATE IS LOCKED...8.30 oni...n is MON...wad d FUCK...me being so desperate...
CLIMBED OVER IT...i know ppl there saw me 0so stunned...i hackcare them...then i saw a counter got lady there so can find help...in d end is i already reached d correct building...but...they
ENDED liao...WALAO...come here for NOTHING...6pm they started...i expected them to wait till 6.30 start...each one 45 min plus post game review...but they didnt...they quickly ends liao n gone... suddenly...i feel like going back to climb the gate n go to the expressway:
END MY LIFE.
reflected at 10:29:00 PM