Saturday, February 04, 2006
Bad news...a frenz told me sumtin...i felt sad cos tat defeat one of my purpose in blogging...cant bear to...不忍心...yesterday nothing to tok abt...oni cross alot of bridges...ya...did sumtin wrong when doing project...i admit didnt put my heart into it when i watch utube...
today..woke up early...utube again until forget to eat breakfast...rush down there...hehe wear my new short...so happy...0so didnt wear bag...muhahahahaha
on bus, saw an indian beauty...got look got figure...i know u all r laughing rite...i know i no taste...but hehe, at least i not racist...muahahhahaha
at the open hse lab...saw brendon's son together with mr n mrs ong's sons s00oo..
CUTE...kawaii neh...eat breakfast cum lunch at sim...a bowl of chicken noodles...she asked d guy b4 me abt release of o-level results...then me abt the school fees in np...honestly...i forget abt it...but one thing 4 sure..she is worried...then plucked leaves n return back to stall...
happy is all i can describe...
some ppl hammered tat pipette loud until everyone stop n look at me...and...
i accidentally split over d bowl of liq N2..damn scare sia cos the ppl infront some didnt wear covered shoes...etc...overall felt like
an auntie giving sample biscuits...muahahahahahaha
tried alot of things...like frozen sotong ball...i like it man...played with d ping-pong balls...ivan made his flower frozen..but it wilt later...poor things...the oni thing i dun like is when ganna scold by a biotech TSO for using too much N2...sianZzz...luckily then i saw m**n...my frenz lor...so late then come...edmund didnt come...whole day nv eat liao nor gone to toilet...everyone fly me pigeon...all didnt want to watch movies with me...i meet my frenz at bustop..went clementi eat mac...then go jp...saw a
green shop...guess wat...it sell glasses...duno got my specs anot...next time will go inside with money...muhahahah
back home...suddenly got
stomachache...duno if it is N2 fault...but got a cut on my middle finger...should b when i hold the bowl of N2 with bare hand...
tis time the open hse remind me of last years...0so recall back my sec sch...
i miss my morning darknessi miss my 93 girli miss my classmatesi miss my teachers esp aidai miss my gay frenz...now starting to gay liaoi miss the smell of burning corpsesi miss the long bus journey esp its breezeback in sec sch day...not much distraction...cos oni got boys n all white...though there is a pretty teacher...now entered into colorful world...strangely more stress...at least i found my favorite color,
green!!!
i s0o timid...should i confess then receive a rejection n go to slp?another thing to note...i dun like to fight with ppl nor be a third party...so i dun even like to c ppl snatching ppl (b/g)F...dun do tat infront of me...i may feel like slaping u...New year Wishes...
Materials:
1) Green Specs
2) Shoes i promised
3) Maybe green attach style earpiece
4) Maybe new wallet
Soul, Body, Mind:
1) Be focus
2) Regain my memory
3) Regain my sleep
4) Regain my speed
5) Regain my eyesight
6) Regain my face n skin
7) Kick off my bad habits
8) Improvement in chess skill
9) Learn guitar n drawing
10) Spiritual Growth...no religious purpose...
I wanna talk more abt 10...i think i chose back to become a free thinker...a free think i dunno its meaning...my teacher last time defines as sumone who dun believe any god...but i think it is sumone who is free in believing...i believe in Buddhism...abit of Tao...then secondary believe in god Mary abit...until start of poly i enter in Christianity...a whole journey blessed me, a blur silly kid......but i dun wan to lose my freedom...in believing oni one god...i dun oppose other gods, i juz wan to be a better man...a person who dun do bad things...juz like sumone said, "i dun care wat u believe, but if ur idea will cause harm to others, i will stop u..." another things is i need to pay respect to my ancestors...i cannot dun hold joss sticks...pls forgive me...i juz want to grow up into a sensible n correct thinking boy pursuing my dreams...thk 4 all d teachings, i will remember them...i hope our frenzships will not destroy due to my decision...in any way tat i had done wrongly...i am deeply sorry...
reflected at 9:16:00 PM