Monday, February 13, 2006
woke up at 2am study math...getting abit used to integration...but still haven fully master yet...haiz...i think i should next time slp early for math test...cos i fell aslp at 7.30 for abt 15min...couldnt finish last few chps...rushed to sch...thk god tat i managed to catch d bus juz on time...i was like running all d way to bustop...then d bus crowded...reached np abit late...when i saw d high slope from cant1 i was like collasping...but i still carry on running...reach there juz b4 paper start...sat there with d paper n my mind was blank...i realise i seriously duno how to use calculator...last qn 0so duno how to do...buang...
thermo..nothing much...i doesnt seem to like thermo alot...
break..i tot i no need to do those pouring stuffs...in d end i had to stand under d sun wear gloves...my long green shirt summo, haiz...wheels problems haven solved yet...den was thinking of d problem again n again...duno where it lies...went for bio...
his last lecture in np...he was a nice guy...i tot i practical failed...in d end 57...frightening...
he was abit tired with us when explaining corrections with those BASTARDs n IDIOTs behind making noises...he was abt to walk out of d lec..even ppl who made noise infront r very automatic...they even tot off going away...how i wish those behind who think tat they r smart ass wiil juz get lost...he shared with us his personal working experience...i will nv go exonmoblie...i will support shell n beat them....he is definitely a gd lecturer..though his chp r diff to understand...he would give tips n set d paper tat very easy to score...some may disagree with me...but compared to sec bio which is whole lot of notes...we oni had ppt slides....summarised n those qn tested r mainly key words types...last time in sec days i always pray tat my teacher will giv ppt instead of asking us to copy notes...now i get wat i wan...yet i still nv even treasured it...
he released us early...went to solve out d problem of chem e car...finally know d reason...abit excited...but we r late for ipc...so rushed to d LT...
today my main reason of blogging... I MET HER...quite a long time...mayb 3 years ago orso...
she is still d same...nothing changed in her...her voice is still sweet...her smile is still sweet...her face 0so...i didnt expect to meet her in tat time n situation...nor did i ever wondered to meet her in poly...esp np...i was shocked...i didnt went up to ask her name...she was selling some tickets for charity...i juz hated her to c me in tat yucky condition...as she appoaches...as she leaves...i try to be as nature as possible...i think she couldnt had recognised me...cos i changed so much...uglier i think...think of d past again...hope she living well...but how come i didnt c her bf? she so pretty...even stan n cka agree...esp cka..u wanna him to say a girl is pretty is almost impossible...stan worst still..ask me to use her as an average to judge others...u know i wun do tat...if i ever do tat...i duno how much ugly girls i would hav met in a day...cos she is too beautiful...felt like singing "U're Beautiful"...i was damn contented to c her again...happy for d rest of d days...i felt my whole body turning jelly...or izzit d soury acidic effect...
ipc..revision...she was teaching...again disrespectful ppl out there...i will show them how smart ass they r with my tis sem result...i will prove it in d name of silent
during lec played chess with ivan...den msn with my Christian friend...think i will let him down...i losing my faith...day n day passes...i had forgoten abt d morning prayer tat i had for 4 years...even chess...it has been quite some time since i touched them...wat is happening to me...
wat had i been living for d past few weeks...i will search for d ans myself during holiday...
on bus...saw a Buddhist old man...he is an damn actor...tat type of siao actor i hated...after stan n cka left at clementi...i sat at d last row...infront of me is two lady...then the stupid actor...he chanting loudly in d crowded bus like nobody business...den he ask the ladies behind him for tissues...later he ask them for handphone...he claimed tat he wanted to call back home to ask his wife for dinner...they r smart enough to lie tat their handphones no battery...he pestered again...one of d girls told him to borrow from d guy beside him...the guy 0so pro...able to slp with a lunatic making funny noises beside him..although i know one of d verse he was chanting...everyone was looking at him...knowing his obivous motive...later he got off...everyone sighed a relieved...
for those ppl who had helped me b4...i won't forget ur help...if i cant return u these favors...i will in return give my help to other...i wan tis world to be filled with warmth...
for those ppl who hate me...i oni can let u all hate me...wat can i do? i oni yearn for peace...
reflected at 10:18:00 PM