Saturday, April 22, 2006

M i tat kinda ppl who BELIEVE any1 easily?
M i tat kinda ppl who TRUST any1 easily?
M i tat kinda ppl who GET CHEATED by any1 easily?

yesterday...rainy abit...
saw a midnite show...actually wanna write in chinese...
but duno y my blog started havin problem...
a korean ghost show...toking abt mirror...
after watching...i was thinking to myself...is there anytin
FAKE ard me...izzit juz a visual image...

back to my own qn...i was wondering...had i fallen in love?
0r fallen out of love? I dun had the ans...
back to another qn...what is my personal faith, believe?
Do i had any god in my heart? Who do i believe in?

Tear...maybe be crocodile's one
Smile...maybe has a dagger behind

Is my world white or black? 0r iZzit GREY?

Is my world balanced or slanted? 0r iZzit BROKEN?

My ANS:
Ppl had been asking for peace, fairness, equality...or justice...
I dun wan them! Cos they r all fake.
If u wan peace, go to sit in jail. No one will bother u.
If u wan fairness, dun count 123, cos odd no. cant divide into two.
If u wan equality, donate away all ur money. U will be the same as the poors.
If u wan justice, throw ur filthy money to lawyer n he will get for u in court.

I need to be happy. I had no choice...cos that is my last stand.
I will hold my faith firmly from now on...
No one can spolit my JUNE.

Today...Cool day but abit wet.
Went bishan at 3pm meet my senior.
Went played with a person.
Not the proud aSs...he didnt come today..
The person i played with is chen yi long.
the champ of tis yr char yang bei.
asia cup rep of sg i heard.
not first met, but is first match in lifetime.
i won...
second match...first turn is me.
i lose...
then some polite words ended our first crossfire.
the uncle said some sarcastic words that is way too humble.
i hate it...
then my senior n i went eat kfc.
he very happy abt today...played 6matches n tested his opening.
while i oni 2 matches..but quite significant cos now i know how far am i from them.

then on bus journey home...became sad...done something tat made her angry.
Izzit becos i chose 88? i dun know wat it means. Nvm, my fault.

tMr a sIan daY...nvm cos it can cheer me up.

i tot to myself b4. IF i had nothing but a chess board n pieces, i will still be happy n contented.
but then i realise i am wrong. Chess need to be play by two ppl. Tat day in clubhse alone...
flip thru those old dusty stuff n saw 97 club photo...then i realise this truth.

today learnt suntin from those Ah peh. a chinese saying: Invincible is lonely. I am not invincible,
so i wun be lonely.

reflected at 10:39:00 PM