Monday, May 08, 2006
today-normal weather but the world is GREY to me.
yest...till now still feelin down...
yest went to bishan happily...but i went there...played with an uncle for several rounds...
draw at first...then lose, lose lose lose lose lose lose lose lose...and lose...
duno how many rounds over the uncle seemed to be disappointed with me n call it a day with me. WAD HAPPEN TO ME!!! i made alot of noobs mistakes...thousand n thousands of blind moves...izzit that much i had been "improving" abt...i am so useless!
chess club- feeling kinda giving up...things r not the same anymore...no newcomer...limited manpower...n all of my seniors r disappearing...workload seem to be endless...
i am tired...really tired. i wanna runaway...hide myself...i dun wan to smile again...let me cry quietly. I dun know wad to do...i duno wad can i do...
everyone now r studying...everyone r aiming for good results...all the As n etc...
wad abt me? chess? with this kind of standard n still hoping for june to come? SHAME.
No one had spolit my june. But i did.
reflected at 12:48:00 AM