Saturday, June 30, 2007
mixed feeling day.
happy2sad2happy2sad again.
was deliberately "late" today. cos i predicted mdm wun start lecture early.
as expected, ppl came out to buy notes when i entered. then she started lecture.
she was gd to us tat she cancel her project to lighten our burdens!
then during pcon i was doing wisp presentation, until Dr Hu suddenly entered!
TODAY was his LAST day in NP. he had been helpful for our ped project...
he always had a sticker on his shirt to hide the "ngee ann" logo! haha
he told us "pcon mayb a difficult subject, but u know, dun give up.....in ur other aspects of life" v encouraging.
LOL when ppl wanna take pic with him, he heroic commented: "No Photo."
haha, luckily i took a pic of him b4!
lunch time, had crispy chicken again. thai sauce was too chilly today, but thks to extra rice from stan~ then the other break time i was replenishing my slp...
ped pract. harry juz dun wan to talk to us in chinese, even though the whole class today is chinese...he afraid got camera or something..then he was quite satisfy with our progress, thks to hard work of ivan n help from Dr Hu. obc came to our class to "montior" our progress and shun bian hao lian abt how fast was his students...
after sch took 61 to bugis. it's was a bad decision! thou i had a quick nap again, my butt HURT due to 1hr+ journey.
at national lib, went to search for anne frank's diary n was SHOCKed by the thickness...2days, i think i can finish it...since her diary is quite pleasant, felt similar to reading blog. then with a labtop n chess bk, i was hiding in a corner with power point...learn quite abit today.
rainy journey back to clementi. it was my 4TH TIME to try DESPERATELY in BUYING HONEYDEW MILKSHAKE. really got no fate!
gotta maintain a meet wkly. so was accompanying her home. already told her not to take the 184...plus tonite didnt have big traffic jam...how sad.
the most STUNNING thing happened when chess club ppl boarded the bus in np! didnt expect for the worst...
dinner with them..when they started playing pool, i was chatting with jingsheng. somehow, suddenly talk abt me no mood to train the juniors. end up he said,"so u mean last time hui yan waste his time in training u?" i got alot of stuffs in my mind, didnt quarrelled with him. so kept my mouth shut.
hui yan was the one who train me when i entered np chess club. he was the one who change my passive defending mindset. he was the one who always slash me until i know how to see the killing moves. he was the one who train me till i can replay the whole game after finished playing. he was the one whom i promised to for np to get champ, thou we had been 2nd for the past two yrs. this is the last yr for me to fulfill my promise. this oct mayb the last team match i will be playing. but somehow, i juz find us lacking the team spirit, how come i seldom see the main players during training? looking back at my 3rd yr tight schedule esp projects, i finally understood y last time hui yan left me to train myself when he was in 3rd yr. i do admit tat i got other commitments now, esp recently, academically and financially. it was not tat i had no patience in training the juniors. i only wanna train up 1 or 2 specifically into defensive players. but is it really worth when they might disappeared suddenly for working, studying or other commitment after putting so much efforts? Should i spent my limited time to improve myself or on the juniors while they r not serious enough esp they have not been studying for chess material or recording down their game in paper for replay. left oni 2wks, even if i dun get to vs the SP ah pei during SP Open, i think i will still ask him for a match to see how far is the gap between us which hui yan had been telling me. i juz wanna let him know, pls dun get cocky after winning the two top players in NP. the reason is, i haven fight with u.
working morning tmr 9.30am at kopi. while nite have to rush finish complain letter, ped and hitler. then sun will be working full day, with morning tutoring n nite kopi.
P.S: i do admit my selfishless. i'm not as selfless as Gavroche.
reflected at 4:18:00 AM
