Awakened & Unspoken.
chu1, had a really inspiring chat with the 前辈s.
ya, if i cant stand strong here, how can i even stand stronger on the outside world.
mayb i have high IQ. thou i feel sometimes i'm a fool.
mayb i have high EQ too. tat's y seldom ppl dislike me.
luck. think God bless me well. i have all the luck to live this smooth life. but ya, nv give me those gambling luck nor lucky draw tat type.
the sentence was "do wad u best at" really enlighten me.
for all the foolish regretful feeling i been having past few wks.
the formula of "study>paper>career" dun apply to me.
unable to enter Uni wun stop me. since it was nv of my goal, tat i didnt study well, putting all my interests on chess. thou didnt made any achievement. but it's been all i want. y should i regret then. how stupid i've been! cant play the easy mode of the game dun mean tat i cant play the game. the most i will try the medium, or even the hard mode, as long as i can experience the game.
since young, ppl ard me always say i'm special/unique/strange etc. shouldnt i take the EXTRAORDINARY way, well nv try nv know. worth gambling, full bet on my future.
picture me inside a cinema. if ever fire breaks out. i will run in the opp. dir. of the crowd. i know it's risky. but with the fire extinguisher, i know it's safe. all i wanna do, is simply put off the fire. running away, to me, aint solving the problem.
key word is none another than TALENT. since yest, have been thinking wad talent i had. i dun consider chess, since i'm still a poor player. i know God has planted alot of seeds in me, juz waiting for the flavorable conditions, tat the buds will bloom one day.
now i have a watch to keep watch on my punctuality，the another fatal problem of me was not doing my homework.
as for how to make myself focus. i think first i will be a gd actor. to put up a show tat i dun love anyone. beside the 2yrs chalet is approaching, how can i bear to waste ppl golden youth.
needless to say, Goal has been set. the idea behind the method has came out. juz wait for the 2yrs to slowly shape out the method.
i got my confidence now. wad i need to collect back, was my image. saw alot of fat ppl whom after became thinner, looks better. no wonder every time secretary saw me, she would "reinforce" me to eat more, to grow fatter.
so ppl, smile for me. may 1 day we nv meet/cant even recognise me. departure in life, is unavoidable.
reflected at 11:14:00 PM